Aidenâs POV
Nothing is worse than having to watch the one you would die for struggle and not be able to help. Watching Ayla fight her internal battle alone has been one of the hardest things I have ever had to do. Surely there must be something I could do to help? But whenever I asked, she would smile and say she was okay. She hasnât learnt yet that we are mates, and I can feel when she is fine and when she is not.
For once, it seems like Axel has a better grasp on the situation than I do. He seems to know exactly what she needs and when she needs it. At the same time, I feel like Iâm just annoying her!
âWhat is the point in being this big strong protector if I canât even protect her from tormenting herself over this?â
Archer had been out cold since he took the hit for Michael two weeks ago. Never will I forget the pain we all felt when Archer went down. I swear we all felt it with him; Ayla took it badly but channelled the pain into rage. That girl has some serious power behind her when she wants to.
âSheâs pushing me awayâ, I send to Axel, feeling lost and hurt but trying my best not to show it. Guys like me donât show that kind of emotion. Iâm the protector. I shouldnât need protecting myself.
âSheâs hurting; sheâs not pushing you awayâ, came his reply, I know he was trying to make me feel better, but frankly, it felt like she no longer wanted me around, not like she wanted him.
âLook, we are all finding it hard right now; never have we been without one another; my head feels emptier with only us inside it. Not having Archerâs cocky remarks and silly jokes popping up out of nowhere is hard.â
âI guess I just canât explain how much I feel for her, and when you feel like youâre losing the very air you breathe, itâs suffocatingâ I was trying my best to hold my emotions in check, so she didnât feel them. I donât want to hurt or upset her more than she already was.
Trailing behind, I watch Ayla walk up front. Sheâs unbelievably beautiful; everything about her made my heart slam into my chest like it was trying to escape. If I watched her for too long, it became obvious how badly I wanted her. The tell-tell ache that begins to throb between my legs makes me avert my eyes and try to think of anything other than her. Clearly, I have failed. Reaching up to the neck of my hoody, I yank it up and over my head, and I hold it over my arm to hide the bulge that has appeared out of nowhereâleaving me standing in a tight black sleeveless top. Good job, werewolves run hot, or I would be bloody cold right now.
The weather had taken a strange turn for this time of year; it usually was warming up nicely for summer, but this morning there was frost on the ground, and it was chilly; you could see your breath as you walked.
Ayla hated it inside the pack house at the moment; everyone would stop and stare at her, watching her, waiting to see if she did something otherworldly. I couldnât blame her. It was annoying me too. Thatâs why we decided to take an early morning walk. Most days were going like this lately. Michael would want a mini meeting with us most days, Aylaâs biological parents wanted to see her and get to know her, and then there was Archer, the only place she wanted to be beside him.
âDo you think Michael will have anything to tell us today, or do you think his insistence on seeing us is to just keep an eye on me?â Ayla called over her shoulder, I think it was aimed at me, but I guess it could have been to either of us.
âI donât know; I wouldnât like to say. I think heâs a bit confused with everything and is still doing his best to seem in full control,â I call back.
âDid you just stand up for him, Aiden?â a slight glimmer of laughter could be heard, underlying her question.
âNo, as if I would!
It was nice to hear a note of life back in her voice; we needed to get Archer back with us before we lose her to this depression. I wouldnât put it past her to learn very quickly how to push us out of her mind and hold her feelings at bay, so we are in the dark; I will be damned if I allow that to happen!
âDo you think you could go and let my parents know I will be late visiting todayâ¦that still sounds weird to meâ¦parents! Who thought I would ever be saying that,â she mused?
âOh, sure, okayâ, I mumble back to her; it felt like she was trying to get rid of me again.
âAxel, how about you go with him? I wonât be long. Iâm just going to talk to Michael quickly, and Iâll meet you both in Archerâs room in a few minutesâ she shot us a smile that didnât reach her eyes.
Reaching the door, Ayla headed towards Michaelsâs office. At the last moment, she turned and waved. She wasnât herself lately, and it was becoming worse.
Quickly we take the turning on the left toward her biological parentâs room. They had been put up in the guest wing indefinitely, but they were still guarded and watched.
âWhat do we do? Ayla canât carry on like thisâ Axel spoke up
âI know, something will have to give soon. There has been no sign of Alune since the battle, and the light in her eyes is rapidly fadingâ
Axel released a long heavy breath,
âWe have to get Archer back, and soon before we lose her tooâ My brother sounded as lost as I felt.
âHow about Aleena?â I couldnât believe the thought hadnât come to either of us already; we had been so caught up in everything going on we hadnât stopped to think.
âWhat about her?â
âBrother, come on! Sheâs magic! She might be able to help us pull Archer out of whatever coma heâs in,â I explain.
âSometimes your brilliantâ Axel bounced on the balls of his feet, grabbed my head with both hands and forcefully kissed my forehead.
âGet off!â
âIf we leave Ayla with Archer in a bit, we can go and find her and see what she can do to help; itâs worth a shot.â
Ayla wouldnât mind if we were there or not when we visit Archer; she sometimes sits cuddled with one of us, but most of the time, she climbs up in bed with him, willing him to come round.
âRight, letâs give Aylaâs message and get goingâ I point to the door, knowing my brother knows precisely which room they are in. I was hoping he would be the delivery boy today, not me.
âMe again!â he groans; Ayla had us delivering her messages all the time to everyone lately. Itâs a good job. We are nuts about her. Otherwise, this would have gotten old very quickly.
âI will do the next one; I promise,â I lie.
âYouâre a dick, and you know it, Aidenâ, he huffed as he pushed onto the allotted door.
It wasnât a lot seeing as Iâm the one getting pushed out by our mate right now; at least he still gets all her attention, so him doing the message delivery isnât much to ask, not that I was going to argue the point or anything, it was just how I felt.
âHer motherâs face looked heartbroken like I had told her Ayla wanted nothing to do with her again,â Axel told me as he made his way back down the long corridor.
âShe will get over it, donât worry about it.â
âI guess, come on then, letâs go to Archerâs room and wait for Ayla; Iâm sure she wonât be too long.â
Aylaâs POV
Michael was getting on my nerves lately, insisting on seeing me every day in his office at least once or twice. I wanted to scream at the top of my lungs that I had nothing to report! And if he has no news on the whereabouts of the Sun Valley Pack, then he doesnât have to keep pulling me in here. I love him, I genuinely do, but right now, all I want to do is be with Archer! I need to find a way to pull him out of whatever dark place he is in. I know something is wrong. I can feel it; I just canât explain it yet.
âCome inâ, Michaelsâs voice sounded behind the closed door. I had knocked a little bit too hard on the old wooden door, leaving a slight but noticeable dent in the panelling; Iâll have to replace that for him.
âMichael, any news for me?â I jumped into business today; I didnât have time for idle chit-chat; I walked over to him and kissed his cheek like I do every day. The last thing I want is for him to feel Iâm pushing him away, especially not because my biological parents are here. Michael is not replaceable, and I have tried my best to tell him that.
âNothing substantial just rumours.â
I watched him as he spoke, moving from behind his desk to stare out the window. He looked tired and drained as if he had aged a few years in a couple of days; I couldnât help but feel guilty. I knew a lot of it was because of me, yet I still wanted nothing more than to leave this office as fast as possible, even though I should be spending more time with my adoptive father. He had been there for me my whole life, and I should be there for him, too. But my heart felt like it was physically torn in two; the fact Archer was right there in the other room didnât help. I felt like I had lost him completely.
If I allowed myself the luxury of truly thinking about it, I would crumble to a heap on the floor, nothing more than a mass of auburn red hair and heartbroken tears.
âAyla, I can feel how badly you are hurting, and we are not even linked to one anotherâ Michael had made his way over to me without me even realising it. âYour pain radiates off you in waves, and itâs killing me, child. I donât know what I can do to help you, and trust me; I so desperately want to! I owe the boy my life.â
âIâm sorry, I am trying my best to hold it all back so no one gets hurt by me, but I canât! Itâs crashing into me with such forceâ¦I canât live without himâ the words tumble from my trembling lips, words I hadnât been able to say to anyone yet; I needed people to believe I was okay and that everything would be alright.
âI know I have two other mates, but that doesnât matter. I canât lose either one of them; the pain will be too muchâ silent tears left burning trails down my ivory white cheeks.
âSweetheart, never hold your pain in like that; you could do so much more damage to yourself if you doâ Michael had wrapped his arms around my shoulders, pulling me in for a reluctant but needed bear hug.
âLook, you go and sit with him for a while; these rumours can wait for later, or better yet, Iâll send scouts out to investigate it; if anything comes up, then I will let you and the chase brothers know, right now you are needed elsewhere.â
I couldnât thank him enough. He knew exactly what I needed and where I needed to be right now. For him to grant me this even though the threat to our pack was great meant nothing short of the world to me, I felt a little guilty for feeling so irritated at him now. I know Iâm the packâs greatest defence since joining with Alune, even though Iâm not meant for that role alone. I just knew a broken Exalted is as useless as no Exalted at all.
âThank youâ, I mutter, wiping the stinging tears away as I crossed the room to leave.
I ran to Archerâs room; it felt like a lifetime to make it there. I needed to sit with him, to hold his hand and stroke his hair. I needed him to know I was there with him and loved him more than anything else. A secret part of me hoped he would wake up like magic when I kissed him, like in fairy tales. My little inner princess was screaming at me for this to be real, for this to happen just like it did in all my favourite childhood stories. But sadly, the real world wasnât a fairy tale, and magic didnât always work that way.
Rounding the corner to the corridor that held Archerâs room, I saw the backs of my other two mates, they still took my breath away, and I adored them endlessly, but I couldnât enjoy being with them when a part of me felt like it was missing.
We needed Archer back, and we needed him back now!