I CONSIDER myself to be a levelheaded guy. Iâm a fair player, I work my heart out, Iâd do anything for my family ⦠but thereâs something about Ezra Palaszczuk that digs under my skin and sets all rational thought on fire.
That confrontation could have been so much worse than it was. If it had turned into a fight, you can bet it would have been hot news by morning. Like I told Ezra, my focus is hockey, and thatâs all I want to be known for.
But I stepped in to help him without a thought.
Ezra sways, looking from one side of the street to the other. Those piercing blue eyes are heavy-lidded and unfocused. âWhich way was I going?â
âWhy?â
âBecause I need to get my gay on.â He stumbles a few steps, changes his mind, and then swings in the other direction. Only he overshoots and somehow ends up walking into me.
How the hell is this guy one of the kings of hockey?
I help right him, but he presses harder against me.
âWe should fuck.â
âIâm going to remind you of those words every chance I get.â I pry him off me. âYouâre a mess. In what world would I be interested in someone who smells like a brewery and has the coordination of a two-year-old?â
âOf course. Youâre perfect Anton Hayes, you have , and playoffs, and a hockey stick rammed right up yourââ
âYou know, I have why those men wanted to hit you.â
âJus po direct da cay blub.â
âWas that English or Polish?â
âCay Glub. Club Gay. Gay. Which way?â He flexes his jaw. âWhy wonât my mouth work right?â
This is what I get for interfering. An Ezra so far past drunk that even conscience wonât let me leave him here.
Sighing, I grab his arm and yank him toward the road just in time to flag down a taxi.
âOhh, someone wants to bow chicka wow wow.â
âAlways, but not with you.â I shove him in the back of the cab as soon as the door is open. âAnd your beard looks ridiculous, by the way.â
He drops his head back and closes his eyes. âYouâre such a fuckface.â
âUh-huh.â
âAnd you have two left skates. Goddamn pigeon.â
âThe hat trick I got tonight says otherwise,â I say. âWhat score did Boston end up on again?â
âFuck off.â
âThatâs what I thought.â I give the driver my address, and he pulls into traffic. âYou play the role of a petulant child so well.â
âAnd you play the peten-pretentious asshole. Thatâs you.â He hiccups. âTake me to the hotel.â
âIâm not going anywhere near your team. I have a spare room. You can sleep off the alcohol and leave in the morning.â
On the way home, I ask the driver to take us through the drive-thru to get Ezra food and water to help soak up the alcohol. He swears at me some more before tearing into his burger like he hasnât eaten in weeks.
Iâd say itâs the alcohol making Ezra act this way, but Iâm pretty sure itâs just him. We donât see each other oftenâthank fuckâbut whenever we do, it reinforces why I choose to keep things private. Ezra makes it his mission to be as loud and obnoxious as possible, making sure everyone remembers he sleeps around with men, runs his mouth, and happens to have talent on the ice that is completely overshadowed by how annoying he is.
Every time he opens his mouth, I want to forcefully close it again. Zip his lips shut, or ⦠the image of Ezra gagged and on his knees flashes through my mind, and I hate how much I like it.
If I was into that kind of thing, Iâd almost consider taking Ezra up on his offer.
Almost.
Even gagged heâd still be â¦
. Entitled, eccentric, and egotistical. The three s that make Ezra who he is.
We pull up to my condo in Rittenhouse Square, and I help Ezra from the car. Itâs in an older building, right on the park, but the whole penthouse has been redesigned. I fell in love as soon as I saw the space.
Thankfully Ezraâs less sloppy, but I still try not to draw attention to us as we pass security. Chester, the concierge, congratulates me on a good game, and I thank him before stuffing Ezra into my private elevator.
âThis is fancy,â he taunts.
âYou can talk. Iâve seen photos of your place. Anyone would think youâre compensating for something.â
âScrew you. I have a massive dick.â
âFunny your thoughts went there when I was talking about your hockey skill.â The thing is, Ezra actually a great player. Heâs focused and talented, and whenever we go up against Boston, I know itâs going to be a good gameâwell, except for tonight. But Ezraâs behavior off the ice ruins every good thing he does on it.
Heâs wasting time drawing attention to his personal life, and seeing him splashed all over trashy sites online always grates on my nerves.
A therapist would say that Iâm projecting all my internalized homophobia at the out and proud poster boy for gay pride, but itâs not that.
Itâs that he makes it a point to be so ⦠out. I might be gay, but thatâs not my whole identity. I donât want to let it overshadow the other things that make me Iâm a hockey player, son ⦠I give back to the community. I use my privilege to help others.
I donât want to come out to the world and be reduced to Anton Hayes, gay hockey player. And when I look at Ezra, thatâs all I see. Heâs perpetuating the image I want to avoid.
Itâs infuriating. And a little intimidating.
The elevator opens into my foyer, which leads to the vast living area. The skyline is brightly lit through the wall of glass overlooking the park, and I direct Ezra to the couch while I go in hunt of more water and some painkillers. When I return, heâs slumped down in an armchair, jacket off, tie loose, and staring at the wood-paneled ceiling. He clearly hasnât touched his light brown hair since his shower tonight because itâs all fluffy on top of his head.
âHere.â I hand over the glass and pills.
âWhy are you being nice to me?â he asks as he reluctantly swallows the drugs.
âThis isnât nice. Itâs responsible.â
His laugh is hollow. âResponsible. Right. Of course. What a fun quality to have.â
âBetter than being all fun and no substance.â I should have dumped him outside his hotel, but I had no guarantees heâd make his way inside, and the last thing I want is for someone to see me going into his hotel room. Wherever he goes, gossip follows, and itâd be my luck that someone would see us together and assume we were sleeping together.
I eye Ezra, from his unfortunately gorgeous face half hidden behind that messy beard to his long, muscled legs. Itâs easy to see why he gets so much dick. Iâm guessing thereâs not much conversation during his hookups because the moment he opens his mouth, itâs an instant boner killer.
Ezra glances around the room. âTell me again how you donât have a stick up your ass.â
Just like that.
âHow is it possible youâre even more annoying off the ice?â I ask.
âPure talent.â He stretches his arms high over his head, and my attention immediately goes to his biceps. âNow that youâre done playing savior, want to show me where Iâm sleeping?â
âIt kills you, doesnât it? That I was the one to step in.â
Ezra doesnât even try to deny it. âYou wouldnât have been my first choice, thatâs for sure.â
âMaybe if you had actual friends in the league, you would have had more choices.â
âFuck you.â Thereâs no venom behind his words. âI have plenty of friends.â
âTeammates donât count. And since West disappeared, youâre on your own a lot.â
I know Iâm poking at a sore spot. Ezra loves to give the illusion heâs a party animal, but since Westly Dalton retired, heâs lost his partner in crime.
âI donât need West.â
âNo, Ezra Palaszczuk doesnât need anyone.â
âWhatever youâre trying to say, just say it. Youâre a whole lot less amusing now that Iâm sobering up.â
âBelieve it or not, Iâm not here for your amusement.â
He pushes suddenly to his feet. âWhy are you here, then? I didnât ask for it.â
âWhat would have happened if I wasnât there tonight?â
âA punch to the face, then I would have ended up at the club I was headed to so I could get my dick wet.â
âIs that all you care about?â
âYes.â He pretends to look me over. âMaybe if you did it more often, you wouldnât be so uptight.â
A growl starts to build in my chest. âJust because I donât jump everything that moves, doesnât mean Iâm uptight.â
âYou need to get laid.â
âUnlike you, I can think with more than my dick.â
âSo can I, but my dick happens to be incredibly convincing.â He cups his groin. âWe havenât had a disagreement yet.â
âExcept for when you rubbed it up against me earlier.â
âAnd still not even then. Iâd totally sleep with a cocky asshole like you.â
That throws me. Iâd fully expected Ezra to deny it happened, not confirm that heâd go there. Given his track record, it shouldnât be a surprise considering he doesnât seem to care who heâs with as long as he makes some stupid sports tabloid. âLetâs be clear here. Youâre saying youâd let me fuck you.â
âWhy do you get to do the fucking?â
âBecause thereâs no way in hell Iâd bend over for you.â
Ezra shrugs like he doesnât have a single shit to give. âYouâre literally my only option here.â
âActually, your other option is to go to bed and not sleep with anyone.â
âSo youâre saying it an option? Bullshit. Thereâs no way you would.â He steps closer, eyes issuing a challenge. âIâm not up to your standards.â
âAt least we both know it.â I want to deny it. I want to tell Ezra to go to bed and be gone in the morning before I wake up. But it been a while since I hooked up. That has to be the only reason Iâm considering this. Sure, Ezra is hot, but Iâve turned down hotter guys who had terrible personalities.
âYouâd never slum it with someone like me,â he says.
âNever.â
âI bet youâre all missionary, arenât you?â He pitches his voice high. âOh, excuse me, sir, would you mind if I used your buttocks to put my penis insideââ
âIâve never said the word in my lifeââ
âUntil now. Iâm a great influence. A great lay too.â
âIâll have to take your word for it.â
âJust as well.â He turns and heads for the hall. Iâm assuming he thinks heâs headed toward the bedrooms. He isnât. âYou wouldnât be able to keep up with me.â
âLike I couldnât on the ice tonight?â My feet follow him. âOh, thatâs right, I kicked your ass.â
âThis ass?â He grabs it.
My gaze drops immediately, taking in the way the tight suit pants hug his perky cheeks. My cock twitches. Damn Ezra for having a sexy butt.
Still, Iâm not ready to admit it. âYou have more than one?â
âYouâre staring at it, arenât you?â
âGlaring. In the general vicinity of your back.â
âI bet itâs turning you on.â
My cock agrees with him. âImpossible. Youâre still talking.â
âI can stop if you like. Keep quiet and bend over â¦â He tilts his head like heâs thinking about it, which of course makes think about it. âIâve changed my mind. I can imagine you getting me into bed and emulating a dying fish. Flopping around all uncoordinated â¦â
Pounding into him â¦
âThatâs why you donât hook up, isnât it? Youâre embarrassed.â
My fingers twisting through his rumpled hair â¦
âI bet youâre a ten-second man.â
Making him groan â¦
âDonât worry, itâs normal. There are drugs forâ
!â
I shove him into the wall and crowd up behind him. âKeep talking. I dare you.â
He shivers at my voice in his ear but doesnât stay quiet. âThat sounds like a challenge.â
âNo challenge. Youâve been a challenge.â One of my hands twists through his hair to yank his head back, while the other reaches for his belt. âDo you really want me to fuck you?â
Ezra pushes back with his hips. âYes. Hell yes.â
âEven knowing that every time I see you, Iâll remind you of this? That it was me who tore you apart and made you come. I wonât say a word â¦â As soon as his belt is free, I yank down his zipper and push his pants to his thighs. Then I reach into his briefs and pull out his cock. âIâll at you and youâll know.â
âI donât care. Just do it already.â
I start to stroke him, and Ezra lets out a strangled gasp. His cock is one thick handful, and I almost regret not getting to suck him off, but I know what I want. Iâm going to fuck Ezra stupid and shut him up once and for all.
âHands on the wall.â
âMake me.â He grinds his ass back into my cock, making it throb.
With a grunt, I let him go and shove his chest flat into the wall. I press up against him as I reach for my wallet and retrieve the lube and condom I have stashed in there. I undo my pants, quickly tear the condom open and roll it down my aching shaft, and then open the lube and dribble it into his crack.
My fingers follow the lube until Iâm rubbing his hole. âBeg for my cock.â
âNever.â
I push the tip of my forefinger inside him. âBeg me.â
âFuck off.â He shudders as I work the rest of my finger inside him, and it doesnât take long until heâs grinding back to meet each stroke.
Iâm deliberately slow and shallow, even when I add another finger, and I can tell by the way Ezra pushes back that heâs getting frustrated.
âI can give you what you want,â I say into his ear. Iâm about a breath away from taking him anyway. âAll you have to do is either beg me or put your hands on the goddamn wall.â
Even on the ice, Iâve never seen him move so fast. His hands hit the wall above his head, curving his back and making his ass stick out deliciously. Once Iâm sure heâs stretched enough, I pull back to look at him.
He glances back over his shoulder, and his stare immediately drops to my covered dick. âIâm on PrEP. You donât need a condomââ
My chuckle is low and deep. âYeah, thatâs never going to happen. I donât go bare with hookups.â I step closer and grab my dick, running it down between his ass cheeks. âLast chance to chicken out.â
âYou wish.â
Heâs barely got the words out before Iâm pushing inside. God, heâs so tight and hot, and I watch every second it takes me to slide in and bottom out.
I take a moment to control myself, because Iâm going to follow through. Iâm going to make him come first.
âWhat was it you called me? A ten-second man?â I pull back and slam inside him.
Ezra groans. âStill havenât proved me wrong yet, have you?â
Thatâs what he wants? Then thatâs what heâll get.
I grab his hips and then pull back until Iâm almost the whole way out before pounding back into him. The first thrust almost sends him face-first into the wall, and he scrambles to adjust his hold before it happens again.
Iâm not careful. I donât give him time to catch his breath.
I start fucking him with purpose, using him, taking yearsâ worth of anger out on his ass. Ezra has always rubbed me the wrong way, and now, for the first time ever, heâs finally rubbing me exactly the way I need.
âListen to you,â I gasp as I pound into him. âYou love it, donât you?â
âBeing fucked? Who doesnât?â
I almost laugh. âWait until tomorrow. When your cock has settled down and you remember it was me. When the realization sets in that you were owned by Anton Hayes.â
. That makes me so hot, Iâm closer to the edge than I realized.
âWhat about you?â Heâs breathless, pushing back to meet me. âWhen you remember how easily you gave in. How easily I played you.â
His gravelly voice goes straight to my balls. I want him to both shut up and keep talking, but Iâm determined not to let him have the last word.
I bite his ear until he cries out. âI want this moment burned into your brain. And when I lift that Stanley Cup into the air this year, will be the moment it reminds you of.â
Then I straighten, press his face to the wall, grab his cock with the other hand, and let loose. Every thrust forces his cock to slide through my fist. Forces my balls to smack against his ass. Iâm grunting, sweaty. The sounds coming from him are filthy and sexy, and the raw smell of sex is turning me on, pushing me higher.
I watch as my dick slides in and out, disappearing and reappearing so quickly itâs almost a blur. Either that or my vision is already going wonky. My hand tightens in his hair. Holding him in place. Keeping him at my mercy.
Ezra.
Pinned.
Controlled.
By me.
Fuck, Iâm close.
So close.
I jerk him faster than Iâd be able to if I wasnât determined to send him over the edge first.
Just a bit more â¦
A bit more â¦
Ezra gasps, and his ass clenches tight. The second his cum hits my hand, I let go. My orgasm crashes over me, and I fuck him through it, unable to stop if I tried. By the time I finally slow, finally start to get blood pumping back to my brain, Iâm breathing hard and Ezra is slumped against the wall. I want to drop down against him and catch my breath, but instead, I force myself to pull out.
Weâre both gasping hard, and when he turns to lean back against the wall, I avoid his gaze.
I quickly tuck myself away, condom and all, as the awkwardness starts to kick in.
âThe spare rooms are over there.â I point. âClean up before bed. I donât want cum in my sheets.â
Then I stalk away to my bedroom. As soon as I have the door closed between me and Ezra, I turn and slump against it.
Reality kicks in way too soon.
I wait for the regret to follow, but oddly, it doesnât come.
All I can focus on is remembering the sound of Ezraâs deep moans, the muscles in his ass, the way the shadows played over the side of his face, parted lips visible behind that filthy beard.
A smile starts to build as I realize I beat his ass twice tonight.