one of the best party locations in Spearcrest. Itâs split into eight quadrants, with pathways of broad flagstones dividing each quadrant. An enormous marble gazebo overlooks the garden, its wrought iron dome laced with ivy, and cedars and oaks shield it from all the main buildings, so we donât have to worry too much about getting caught.
Still, Iâm in a despondent mood when I arrive at the party.
The thought of hanging out with the other Young Kingsâlistening to Sev rail on about his fiancée when itâs clear he just needs to get over himself and fuck her, watching Luca make out with any girl he thinks we might want or helping Zach find reasons to start a fight with Theodoraâbrings me no joy. Thereâs no girl I want to dance with, nobody I want to talk to.
Iâd rather be at home, waiting for one text from Sophie than speak to pretty much anybody at the party.
I make a beeline straight for the gazebo, where the drinks are usually kept. I immediately spot Sev, who looks like some fairy tale prince in tight black pants and a loose white shirt thatâs unbuttoned halfway down his chest.
Heâs looking around distractedly and running his hand through his pitch-black hair, a sure sign that heâs stressed or nervous. I can only guess heâs looking for his fiancée. For somebody he claims to hate so much, he spends a lot of time thinking about her, talking about her or looking for herâbut who am I to judge?
âWhatâs up, Sev?â I ask, grabbing a bottle of beer from one of the ornate marble plant pots somebody has thoughtfully filled with ice.
âFuck, nothing,â he says.
His gaze sweeps the crowd anxiously; itâs obvious heâs lying. Instead of pressing him for information, I grab another beer and hand it to him.
âNothing is right,â I sigh, following his gaze to the crowd. The Sophie-less, pointless crowd. âLetâs just get fucked up tonight.â
Sev finally meets my gaze and gives me a grin: his signature Sev grin, full of French arrogance. He raises his beer bottle, tipping the neck towards me. â
â
I clink my bottle to his and we both drinkâand keep drinking.
Sev is a good person to get fucked with because he can hold his alcohol and at the same time alcohol brings out the more belligerent, ostentatious aspects of his personality. By the time I realise weâre drunk, weâre both holding bottles of red wine and lying half-slumped into lavender bushes. The music surrounds us, and the crowd moves to the beat like an ocean, rising and falling.
âWhat really pisses me offââ Sev is shouting over the music, his French accent ten times more pronounced now heâs drunk, âis sheâs acting as if sheâs, I donât know, so bored with the whole thing. I told her to do what sheâs toldâI told her how things work here. But she just acts like she doesnât give a shit about any of it! She acts like sheâs not even interested in me. Can you fucking believe that shit?â
âI thought you didnât want her to follow you around like a puppy?â I shout back, trying to keep his face in focus âIsnât that what you said at the beginning of the year? I donât want her to follow me around like a puppyâ
, a, aâ¦
?â
Iâm pretty sure that barely counts as French, and Sev shakes his head and waves a dismissive hand.
â
!â he shouts back, but I have no idea what that means, so I just stare blankly at him. Clearly my contribution to this conversation is unnecessary, because he continues anyway. âI donât want her to follow me around ! Itâs the modicum of respect to try and at least come to me, toâitâs not like marrying into family, for fuckâs sake.
marrying into . Itâs name sheâs after, so why the fuck does she think she doesnât have to listen to a thing I say, orâitâs the disrespect, you know?â
I nod vigorously.
Sev is a lot more worked up about this fiancée situation than I thought. After all his talk about not wanting this girl to follow him around and steal away all his freedom to do what he pleases and fuck aroundâSevâs favourite thing to doâI canât understand why he isnât happy sheâs left him alone.
Actually, Iâm pretty sure I know exactly why.
âMaybe you should just go ahead and fuck the shit out of her!â I shout in Sevâs face.
âFuck her? And let her think for one second that I want her?â Sevâs face goes red. â
!â
I have no idea what heâs sayingâsomething about death, which does not bode wellâbut since his fiancée is French, Iâm sure sheâll be able to handle his bilingual wrath better than me.
âYou wouldnât be doing it because you want her, though,â I explain slowly, working out what I mean as I speak. âYouâd be doing it to remind her of her place here. She wonât dare disobey or disrespect you if you fuck her into submission. Right?â
Sevâs cheeks are flushed, but heâs nodding now. I can tell he likes the idea. Grim determination draws his thick black eyebrows together. âYesâyes, youâre right, man!â
Before I can say anything to convince him, heâs struggled upright from our lavender bush and is standing in front of me, sweeping his hair back with one hand. âSheâs my fucking toyâwhy shouldnât I play with her?â
Looks like Sev doesnât need to be talked into this idea, because heâs clearly only too happy to talk himself into it. âRightâexactly.â
I extend my hand to him, hoping he can help me up, but heâs already striding away in a determined zigzag. He disappears into the darkness of the peace garden and I sigh and roll myself up.
Time to go latch on to another Young King and inspire him to action, since Iâm powerless to do anything about the things want.
Iâm walking slowly and carefully back to the gazebo when I spot a face in the corner of my vision. I stumble to an abrupt stop and turn my head so fast I almost pull a neck muscle.
The world crystallises. Have I blacked out and woken up into some sort of dream?
Because right there, standing amongst the trees a little away from the broad flagstone paths, is Sophie fucking Sutton.
She looks good, too. I donât even think Iâve ever seen her in a dress, but the look still screams rule-abiding prefect with the personality of an uptight librarian: black fabric, square neckline, long sleeves. Her hair is loose on her shoulders, the lustrous brown strands too thick and heavy to fly in the wind.
Sheâs standing with Araminta, the girl from my Science class. They are holding hands and dancing to the music, with Sophie twirling Araminta around then catching her by her waist.
I veer in their direction. My mind has gone blankâblank except for the single thought of Sophie, and Sophieâs long brown hair, and Sophieâs waist in my arms and her thighs around my hips. I walk with grim determination.
Tonight, Iâm going to put my hands on Sophie. I donât care what excuse I find, or how weird I might come across. But tonightâas soon as possible, in factâIâm going to touch Sophie.
A blur of pink and gold fills my vision, blocking Sophie from my sight and stopping me in my tracks. I look down and let out a sigh of barely repressed frustration.
âWhat do you want, Rosenthal?â
Seraphina Rosenthal, the Rose of Spearcrest, stands in front of me with wide doll eyes and an innocent smile on her face. Sheâs wearing a bright pink corset stitched with dozens of actual roses, a puff of tulle skirts, fishnet tights and combat boots.
Her colourful exuberance is a direct contrast to the austerity of Sophieâs plain black dress, and as a result it holds no power over me.
I gaze down at Rose, wondering whether I could fancy her if she wore her long gold hair in a severe centre parting, wore big boots and matronly outfits. Somehow, I doubt it.
If it was that easy, then I could get over Sophie and finally live a normal, happy life.
âWonât you dance with me, Evan?â Rose asks, drawing closer. âItâs my favourite song.â
âUh⦠Iâm busy right now.â I shrug. âMaybe later?â
âOh, youâre busy?â She flutters her eyelashes. Her make-up is a work of art, pink and gold glitter artfully decorating the bright blue of her eyes. âAnything I can help with?â
âUh, no.â
I side-step her and resume my lurching journey over to the trees, where Sophie is now leaning against the rough trunk of an oak, talking to Araminta and a boy with dark hair. I donât recognise the boy, so I can only assume heâs in Year 12, but he leaves almost as soon as I arrive anyway.
Araminta turns with a start when I appear at her side and her eyes immediately narrow. Sophieâs reaction is almost imperceptible: a slight raise of one eyebrow.
âCan we help you?â Araminta asks icily.
âI wannnaââ I look straight into Sophieâs eyes. She holds my gaze and says nothing. âI wanna see if Suttonâs having a good time.â
âSheâs having a grand time,â Araminta snaps.
Itâs clear she doesnât like me. I can understand why. But she could be stabbing me straight in my chest right now and it still wouldnât be enough to draw my attention away from Sophieâs direct gaze.
âI thought you were scared of getting caught,â I say to her.
âI thought I deserved to have fun,â she answers drily.
Her voice is like a match set to my alcohol-fuelled veins. Heat rushes through me. âWhat kind of fun, Sutton?â I step a little closer. âYouâd have a lot more fun with me.â
âI doubt it,â Araminta snaps. âCome on, Sophie, letâs go get another drink.â
She takes Sophieâs hand and pulls her away. Sophie follows without protest, but she turns her head slightly as she goes, and pokes her tongue out at me.
Thatâs when I realise she might be a little tipsy.
The sight of her tongue peeking out between her pursed lips is like an electric shock right to my system. I am instantly and embarrassingly aroused, but I resist the urge to follow Sophie. Itâs clear Araminta doesnât want me around them, and if Iâm honest with myself I know exactly why.
I turn and jump when I find myself once more face to face with Rose. The doll-like expression of innocence and sweetness is gone, replaced by a disdainful sneer.
âReally, Evan? Her?â
I sigh. âI have no idea what youâre talking about.â
âSophie. Fucking. Sutton.â
This is dangerous ground. Rose is a powerful influence in Spearcrestânot enough to call my power into question, but enough to make Sophieâs life unpleasant in the way it used to be.
âIâm not even angry,â Rose says (a blatant lie, since her face is flushed with fury), âIâm just disappointed. Donât you know you could do much better?â
My jaw clenches. The mist of alcohol seems to evaporate in the sudden gale of annoyance blowing through me. âIf I wanted to hear your opinion on anything, Rose, Iâd ask for it. But since you have nothing intelligent or relevant to contribute to a conversation, you might as well keep your mouth closed.â
âDonât be so fucking defensive, Evan. Itâs a bad look.â She gives an airy laugh which doesnât quite manage to make her appear as careless as she wishes. âOver Sophie Sutton of all people? Just because she acts stuck up and dresses like she belongs doesnât mean sheâs one of us, or that dating her would be anything more than a fucking charitable act.â
I stare at her as she speaks, at her expensive clothing and empty blue eyes, and my fury goes out like a blown candle.
âYouâre really fucking pathetic, Rose.â Her eyes widen, but I donât stop. âYou might be wearing the prettiest dress and the most expensive makeup, but it doesnât hide what you really are: some vapid, brainless, jealous fucking . Grow the fuck up, yeah?â
Then I turn around and walk away from her. And it might just be the alcohol, but for the first time, I realise there isnât a single person at this party I actually want to spend time with.
Wellâone personâbut no matter how close I get to her, sheâs forever out of reach.
âFuck this,â I mutter to myself, and leave.
belt of trees on the way back to the dorms when I collide with a figure as it emerges from behind the enormous trunk of an oak. I throw my hands out to catch the figure as it stumbles back and look down into a pair of dark, hooded eyes.
âFuck.â Sophie gives a low, lazy laugh. âWhy is it always you?â
She lays a palm on my chest and pushes me away, but I keep a hold of her arms. Now my eyes have adjusted to the shadows, I can see a little more clearly. Her hair is still parted down the middle severely, but her cheeks are flushed and her lips are gleaming.
She smells of vanilla and coconut rum.
She smells fucking divine. I have to use all my willpower not to bury my face in her neck and breathe her in like some deranged sicko.
âWhere are you going, Sutton?â I ask, forcing my voice to remain light.
Her hand is still on my chest, but instead of pushing me away again, she curls her fingers into my T-shirt, digging into my chest. âIâm leaving before I get myself in trouble.â
Her rough voice claws across my skin. With the alcohol still in my system, my barriers have all crumbled down, and thereâs nothing to protect me from the effect of that unbearable fucking voice. Blood rushes straight to my cock, and I grow so hard so fast I have to clench my jaw to suppress a groan.
âTrouble, Sutton?â I slide my hands slowly from her arms to her shoulders, gently cradling her neck and slowly drawing aside strands of her hair so my fingers can rest against her skin. She doesnât make an attempt to stop me. âWhat kind of trouble?â
I slide my thumb gently up and down her neck, my eyes on her lips. Theyâre wet and parted in a scornful half-smileâthey look good enough to fucking eat, and for a moment I have the wild urge to slide my thumb into her mouth, to part her lips just so I can press my finger against her tongue.
I want to taste the alcohol on her breath, I want to claim her mouth with mine, to kiss her so fucking good sheâll never be able to even dream of kissing anybody else.
But Sophie with some alcohol in her is bolder than I could ever have expected. She tilts her head back and arches her neck, watching me from under her heavy eyelids.
With her hand still fisted in my T-shirt, she lifts the fabric, exposing my stomach to the cold. Her eyes rake over my skin, my abs.
She smirks. âMore trouble than itâs worth, I reckon.â And then she drops my T-shirt and pats my chest with supreme condescension.
I tilt my head, keeping my voice low and calm. âLiar. Everybody knows you want me, Sutton.â
She must have either had too many drinks or sheâs got low tolerance, because instead of her usual glare, she laughs. âYouâre about as wanted as a brain tumor.â
âYouâre one vicious little fucker, arenât you?â I tighten my fingers around her throat ever so slightly, but she doesnât seem alarmed at all. Her cheeks are darkly flushed now, and her teeth tug slowly on her bottom lip.
âOh no,â she says, low and rough and mocking, âIâm not going to make you cry, am I?â
âIn your dreams.â
âYou donât belong in my dreams, Evan Knight,â she rasps. âYou belong in my fucking nightmares.â
And then, to my complete and utter surprise, she fists my collar and pulls me down, dragging my lips to hers. I open my mouth in a half-moan. Her lips part and I glide my tongue against hers, tasting rum and sugar.
Iâm so fucking hard Iâm certain I could come without being touched. My mind is a crimson blur of urgent lust. Lifting her up against me, I hurtle forward, slamming her back against a tree trunk. Her legs hug my hips the way they did in the pool. Her fingers dig into my neck, pulling me closer.
âFuck, Sutton,â I groan against her mouth. âYou taste so fucking good.â
Kissing Sophie Sutton feels exactly as dangerous and forbidden and exhilarating as I always imagined it would. But it also feels completely right, profoundly satisfying, like the final piece of a puzzle slotting into place.
And it feels good, so good I could fucking die.
Her open mouth and the squeeze of her thighs around my hips tells me sheâs enjoying this as much as I am. Who would have thought Sophie Sutton could be like this? Austere Sophie, tightly wound, so fucking controlledâwould would have thought she could kiss so good, arch her back with such abandon?
I want moreâso much more. Now I know how good it feels to kiss her mouth, I want to kiss the rest of herâevery part. I want to touch her, taste her. I wantâI âmore of this, more of .
My hand slips up her leg, gripping her thigh, dragging her skirt up. Her skin is hot through her tightsâthereâs too much fabric, all I can think of is tearing her tights off, pushing up her skirt, taking off her dress andâ
And then her hand clutches my throat and she shoves me away.
I freeze, staring at her in shock and confusion. Her lips are gleaming and dark. Her eyes are wide and panicked.
She pushes against my chest again. I immediately move away, setting her carefully down. She wipes the back of her hand across her mouth, tucks her hair back behind her ears and straightens her skirt.
âSuttonââ I can barely think, my mind foggy with lust, my entire body a flame. âWhatââ
She slaps her hand down on my chest and laughs up at me.
âFuck-ups like ,â she says, âare why I should never drink.â
And then she just turns and runs away with a mad giggle. I stand, frozen in shock and still hard, and watch as she disappears into the night like some sexy, despicable fucking Cinderella.