IÂ was fucked, both literally and figuratively.
If Isabella had dominated my thoughts before we had sex, sheâd utterly consumed them after. Itâd been a week since I took her to the Barber, and not a minute had passed without the memory of her taste haunting me.
I rubbed a hand over my mouth and tried to focus on my motherâs closing speech. It was the last day of the companyâs annual leadership retreat, which took place in our Manhattan office this year. High-level executives had flown in from all over the world for four days of seminars, workshops, and networking, all of which Iâd breezed through.
I may have been distracted, but I could still outsell, outsmart, and outperform every other member of the Young Corporation with my eyes closed.
My phone buzzed with a new text.
ââ¦lean into your individual strengths as leaders to build an even bigger, better company that reflects the direction of the marketâ¦â My motherâs voice faded in and out as I checked my messages.
A small smile curved my lips.
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I hadnât seen her since the retreat started, but we texted every day. Our conversations consisted mostly of memes and funny videos (sent by her), interesting articles and food recommendations (sent by me), and flirtatious subtext (sent by both of us). Normally, I wasnât a huge fan of long text conversations because they inevitably lost their point, if there was one in the first place, but I looked forward to her messages with embarrassing anticipation.
A photo popped up on-screen. I instinctively swiped my phone off the table, but to my relief and disappointment, it wasnât anything scandalous.
Isabella lounged on the couch in the libraryâs secret room, her cheeks dimpled with a mischievous grin and her hair fanning around her in a spray of amethyst-tinted silk. Her free hand clutched a bottle of Mexican Coke.
My smile ticked up another inch.
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Heat raced to my groin, but I marshaled my emotions into a neutral expression.
A laugh rustled my throat, the soft noise unnaturally loud in the silence.
. Fuck.
I looked up to find the rest of the room staring at me. My mother wore a disapproving frown, which meant I would get an earful later.
âIs there something youâd like to share?â Tobias drawled from his kiss-ass seat next to her. âAn exciting new deal, perhaps? Things finally work out with DigiStream?â
On his other side, Richard Chu smirked. Typically, board members didnât attend the leadership retreats, but the CEO voting committee had opted in this year so they could âbetter evaluate their options.â
Richardâs presence was the only reason Tobias was bold enough to call me out. The little sleaze hid behind his board benefactor like a child hiding behind his motherâs skirts. It was probably why Richard liked him so much; he knew he could control him.
âWeâre on track to close soon,â I said smoothly. âBig deals like DigiStream take time. I understand this is not an area youâre experienced in, but thatâs what these retreats are for. Learning.â
Tobiasâs smirk didnât budge. âItâs funny you should say that.â The glint in his eyes sent the first trickle of unease down my spine. His ego was so fragile he reacted to the slightest insult, but heâd absorbed my public barb without batting an eye. âYou may not have big news today, but I do.â He ran a hand over his tie, his tacky gold watch gleaming smugly beneath the lights. âIâm happy to announce that, after months of closed-door negotiations, weâve reached a deal with Black Bear Entertainment.â
The words swirled in the air for a stunned moment before the table erupted with noise. Only my mother, one other CEO candidate, and I remained silent.
Black Bear Entertainment was one of the most prolific entertainment companies in the world. Its acquisition would add a huge, diverse slate of much-needed content to our subscription video service, which was historically one of the companyâs weakest divisions. Weâd been trying to shore it up for years.
As the current CEO, my mother mustâve already known about the deal. I wasnât worried about it overshadowing DigiStream, which would be worth at least three times more once it closed, but Tobias beating me to a flashy announcement galled the hell out of me. Iâd heard inklings he was pursuing Black Bear; I hadnât expected him to succeed.
I slid a glance at the other silent candidate. Paxton James lounged next to Richard with an unreadable expression. Besides me, the executive vice president of business development was the youngest person in the room. He was sharp, witty, and innovative. Of all the candidates, I liked him the most, though I knew better than to underestimate him the way I had Tobias. He acted like he didnât want the CEO position half the time, but he hadnât climbed the ranks so quickly without a healthy dose of ambition.
He was likely lying low and evaluating what the Black Bear bombshell meant for his odds in the vote.
I studied the other candidates for their reaction to Tobiasâs news.
Laura Nguyen, our Chief Communications Officer, sat rigid-backed, her disdain barely concealed by a tight smile. Sheâd skyrocketed the Young Corporationâs public profile over the past five years, and she disliked Tobias even more than I did. Proof she had good judgment when it came to press people.
Next to her, Russell Burton slunk down in his seat. Heâd served as the companyâs Chief Operating Officer for over a decade. The quiet, unassuming father of two was the type of man who dealt better with systems than people. His candidacy was a formality after so many years of competent service, but judging by how green he turned every time someone brought up the vote, he would rather jab a steak knife in his eye than take on the burden of CEO.
âCongratulations.â My voice cut through the din. The room fell silent again, and I offered Tobias a courteous smile. âThe acquisition is a great boon for the company. Iâm excited to see where it goes.â
I didnât give him the satisfaction of a bigger reaction. There were no benefits to acting petty and jealous. I wasnât even jealous, merely annoyed.
The meeting officially adjourned. Low chatter and the scratch of metal against carpet filled the room as everyone rushed out for happy hour. The post-retreat gathering was optional, but no one ever missed the opportunity to hobnob.
Weâd reserved the bar down the street, and for the next two hours, I circulated the room while trying not to think about Isabella. Iâd much rather spend the evening with her, but I had to put in my face time.
Paxton sidled up to me during a lull and cut straight to the chase. âYou think Black Bear will move the needle for Tobias?â
âYes, but not enough.â
âDonât write him off so easily. Heâs a tricky bastard.â
I slid a glance at my companion. Beneath that easygoing demeanor were the instincts of a shark. âReminds me of someone else I know.â
Paxton grinned, not bothering to deny it. âIâm here for the ride. EVP of a Fortune 500 company before the age of thirty-five? Not bad for a kid from Nebraska. CEO would be nice, but Iâm not banking on it. That being saidâ¦â He nodded at where Tobias was holding court with Richard and two other voting committee members. âI have a low tolerance for that particular brand of bullshit. If it canât be me, Iâd much rather it be you.â
I examined him over my glass. âYou want an alliance.â
âAn agreement,â he corrected. âAlliance sounds so formal. But Iâll be straight with you. Two electors are leaning my way right now. It might not sound like a lot, but in the event of a tie, every additional vote counts. I can convince them to swing their vote to you.â
âYouâll do this out of the goodness of your heart, I presume,â I said dryly.
âThat, and the promise of a promotion,â Paxton said without missing a beat. âPresident of Advertising Sales when Sullivan retires. He already has one foot out the door, and you know I have the chops for it.â
âGetting ahead of yourself, arenât you? Sullivan has a good five years left in the company.â
Paxton gave me a droll look.
. Sullivan was more checked out than a bag of groceries at Citarella. Our advertisers loved him, but I gave him two years tops before he left.
âWeâve talked enough shop this past week,â I said. âEnjoy the drinks and food tonight. Weâll discuss any business matters later.â
I left my response purposely vague. I liked Paxton as a person, but I trusted him as far as I could throw him.
âOf course.â He raised his glass, seemingly unfazed by my lukewarm reception to his proposal. âLooking forward to it.â
The festivities wound down around nine. The companyâs leadership trickled out one by one until only a handful were left.
. I could make my excuses and leave without seeming rude. Iâd had enough networking to last me for the next year.
âKai.â My mother stopped me on my way out. âA word.â
I suppressed a sigh.
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I followed her to a quiet corner of the bar, out of the direct eyesight of the remaining executives.
The professional smile sheâd worn all evening had melted away, leaving lines of tension in its wake.
âDonât worry,â I said. âThe Black Bear deal will be nothing compared to DigiStream when it goes through. The board knows that.â
She arched an elegant dark brow. With her smooth skin and rich black hair, courtesy of Londonâs top esthetician and colorist, she could pass for someone in her late thirties instead of late fifties. â
it go through?â
âOf course,â I said, insulted sheâd even ask. âWhen have I ever failed?â
âWord has it Mishra isnât budging and Whidby is at risk of being permanently removed as CEO. If I hear these things, so does the board. They arenât pleased.â
My shoulders tensed. âI know. I have contingencies for all of those scenarios.â
âIâm sure you do, but thatâs not enough.â My mother pursed her lips. âThis isnât just about deals, Kai. CEO elections arenât as clear-cut as profit and loss statements.â
âIâm aware.â
âI donât think you are.â Her voice lowered. âGetting voted in isnât about merit. Itâs about politics. Your last name is both an advantage and a detriment. Some board members favor you because youâre a Young and they value stability. But others resent you for that very reason. Theyâre using the DigiStream delay and yourâ¦modern views regarding the future of the company to advocate for fresh blood. That faction is growing louder by the day.â
A chill swept through the air and sank into my bones. âWhat are you trying to say?â
âIâm saying you need to stop coasting on your name and record and start placating some of your naysayers, or you could very well lose the vote.â
The word tore through me like a fanged beast.
History remembered the winners. The losers faded into obscurity, their names lost over time like statues rubbed smooth by too many hands. Dead in every way, as if theyâd never existed.
Pressure suffocated my chest.
âIâm not going to lose,â I said, my voice colder than intended. âI never do.â
âMake sure you donât.â My mother didnât look entirely convinced. âIâve already said more than I should. Iâm supposed to be neutral, but this is our family name on the line. Imagine what people will say if a Young loses the CEO position of Young Corporation. Weâll never recover from the shame.â
She fixed me with the same no-bullshit stare that had enemies and allies alike trembling before her. âCampaign for the job, Kai. Do what it takes to make them happy. I know you think itâs beneath you, but donât let your pride get in the way of winning. Not unless you want Tobias giving you orders from the corner office.â
My stomach revolted.
I hated the word almost as much as the word . It was soâ¦undignified. The fake smiles, the ass-kissing, the platitudes both parties knew but didnât acknowledge as lies.
But my mother knew exactly which buttons to push; I would rather swallow a vial of poison than take a single order from Tobias Foster.
The frigid night air cooled my anger when I stepped outside. Still, unease roiled beneath my skin, and returning home to my apartment didnât hold the same appeal it usually did.
I took out my phone and opened my latest message thread.
I shouldâve been tapped out on socializing, but talking to Isabella never drained me the way talking to other people did.
The implied invitation was clear.