I continued to struggle, praying that Rachel wouldnât leave, that she wouldnât give Michael the chance to take me away.
I was terrifiedâ¦.
I was terrified that he would actually take me to see Peter.
I was terrified of forgetting Steven.
âThe patient is very weak. The child has been temporarily saved, but we need to observe her for a while. Meanwhile, she cannot endure any more stress,â the doctor explained to Michael before leaving.
âThank you⦠Thank you, doctor.â
âIâm only doing my job.â
âHowâs Stephie doing?â
Just when I thought I might wake up soon, I suddenly heard the voice of a middleâaged man.
It was Peter.
My nerves immediately tightened.
âStephie hasnât woken up yet, but the child has been saved.â Michael let out a sigh of relief.
âYou need to get those two women arguing over there to leave and then take Stephie away.â Peter sounded somewhat displeased.
I panicked and wanted to open my eyes. I didnât want him to take me away!
I didnât know if my memory loss was related to Peter, but since he was a psychiatrist, I couldnât trust him.
I even found him frightening.
âMr. Peter, will it work?â Michael whispered.
âDonât worry. It will work.â Peter sounded confidently.
The more confident he sounded, the more frightened I became.
Memories began to slowly resurface.
I remembered my parents sending me to the mental hospital, where I met Peter.
My first impression of him was that he was terrifying.
His smile was too gentle. He called my name and said, âStephie, come with me.â
He took my hand and led me down a long corridor. The wards were filled with patients wearing hospital gowns. I looked at them and then turned to see my crying parents standing at the end of the hallway.
They were desperate for me to become a normal, likable child.
âStephie, here are two oranges. If I want one will you give it to me?â He took me to the therapy room to begin my assessment tests.
I looked at him indifferently, as if he were asking a foolish question I didnât want to answer.
âStephie, if you made a friend and she envied your two oranges and tried to steal them when you werenât looking, how would you handle the situation?â
âCut off her hands.â
I sounded cold in my memory, unlike that of a child my age.
My answer stunned the nurse standing nearby. She couldnât believe it and asked Peter, âIs she really just five years old?â
They observed me for a while and even let me interact with other children. They allowed older, stronger children to bully me and watched me like I was an experiment.
In the end, without determining the cause of my condition, Peter diagnosed me with severe emotional and cognitive disorders.
I watched him through the glass window. Like an executioner, his voice chilling as he said, âApply for transcranial magnetic stimulation combined with hypnotherapy for her. If the effect is not significant, then apply for electroconvulsive therapy.â
âDr. Jones, sheâs just a child.â
Peter took a sharp breath. âHave you ever seen teenage boys intimidated by a fiveâyearâold girl?â
As my memories slowly cleared, I became even more frightened.
Peterâs soâcalled treatment for me involved hypnosis and physical stimulation.
No wonder I suffered memory loss.
If Michael handed me over to Peter, there was a high probability that I would forget everything again and everything related to Steven.
*Stephie did forget a lot of things after her car accident. I was the one who didnât cherish her.â
Michael pretended to act guilty.
The truth was he wanted me to lose my memory to keep me trapped.
I struggled in fear. I didnât want to forget again, to repeat the cycle, to be trapped by Michaelâs emotions, without being able to fight back!
âStevenâ¦â
âSteve, save meâ¦â I struggled desperately and cried out.
Steven, you had to come and save me!