âCome on,â I say, my voice low but firm.
She frowns, still not turning. âCome on where?â
âDance with me.â
She tenses, her fingers digging into her own arms. âJaxâ¦â
âDonât think.â My fingers brush against hersâlight, teasing, a promise of what could be. âJust dance with me.â
She hesitates for just a second too long, and I can almost see the war happening inside her headâthe part that wants to give in battling with the part thatâs scared to death.
So, I take my shot.
I donât give her the chance to make up an excuse. I slide my fingers around hers, pulling her toward the crowd. She resists slightlyâlike she wants to fight this, fight meâbut she follows. Her hand is warm in mine, fingers curling almost instinctively around my own.
Because she wants this, just like I do. She just needs permission to admit it.
We push into the mass of people, deep bass vibrating through my chest as I pull her against me. My hands settle at her waist, fingers brushing the warm, bare skin just above the waistband of her jeans. She stiffens for half a second before exhaling, her hands pressing lightly against my chest. I can feel her heartbeat, quick and steady, through the thin material of her tank top.
The tension between us is thickâso thick, I can feel it in every breath, every shift of her body against mine. Itâs always been there, this pull between us, but tonight, it feels like a living thing, crackling in the small space weâve left between our bodies.
She tilts her chin, her gaze flicking up to meet mine, and fuck, the uncertainty in her eyes is enough to knock the air straight from my lungs. Itâs not that she doesnât want thisâitâs that sheâs terrified of wanting it too much.
She wants to run, but sheâs fighting herself. She knows she wants me too. I tighten my grip on her waist, guiding her into the rhythm, keeping her closeâcloser than I probably should, but I canât help myself. The feel of her against me, finally in my arms, is intoxicating.
She sways with me, her fingers curling into my shirt, her breath coming just a little bit faster, her body giving in, melting into mine. The stubborn resistance from moments ago begins to fade, replaced by something softer, something that feels a lot like surrender.
And damn, if it doesnât wreck me.
I dip my head slightly, my lips brushing just below her ear as I murmur, âStill thinking, Mads?â
She shivers. I feel it everywhereâthe slight tremor that runs through her, the way her fingers tighten reflexively in my shirt, the almost imperceptible tilt of her head, giving me better access to the curve of her neck.
Then, before I can stop her, she turns in my arms.
Slow. Deliberate.
Suddenly, sheâs right there.
Her chest brushes mine, her hands slipping up my sides before looping around my neck, her fingers threading into my hair. The gesture is bold, intimate in a way weâve never allowed ourselves to be.
I groan at the contact, my grip on her hips flexing, pulling her impossibly closer.
She looks up at me, eyes dark, lips parted slightlyâlike sheâs warring with herself, like sheâs fighting the exact same battle Iâve been losing for years. The string lights overhead reflect in her eyes, turning them to liquid gold.
And then, she whispers, voice barely audible over the music, âWhat do you want from me, Jaxon?â
I exhale, fingers tightening on her waist, my forehead dipping to rest against hers. Everything narrows to this moment, to the feel of her in my arms, to the words Iâve held back for too long.
âEverything.â
She stills. I watch her throat work, her breath coming uneven, her fingers trembling slightly in my hair. She looks almost afraid of the answer, like she knew what I would say but wasnât prepared for the weight of it.
I smirk, just barely, trying to ease the tension. âBut a date would be a good start.â
Madisonâs breath stutters, her fingers tightening in my hair, her chest rising and falling against mine as the music pulses around us. The space between us is nothing nowâjust heat, just tension, just the electricity thatâs been crackling under my skin for weeks. For years, if Iâm being honest.
She swallows hard. âA date?â
I nod, my forehead still pressed against hers. âYeah, Mads. A date.â
Her lips part like sheâs about to say something, but then she hesitates, tilting her head slightly, searching my face. âWhy doesnât this count?â
I huff out a low laugh, my hands flexing on her waist, fingers brushing against the bare skin beneath her tank top. The question is so typically Madisonâpractical, direct, cutting straight to the heart of things.
âBecause Iâm not interested in being just another guy you get drunk with at a party.â
She blinks, lips pressing together. Thereâs a flash of something in her eyesâunderstanding, maybe, or recognition of what Iâm really saying.
I dip my head, voice low, just for her. âI want more than just one night, Mads. I want you.â
Her eyes flicker with something I canât quite nameâsomething hesitant, something like she wants to believe me but doesnât trust herself to. It breaks my heart a little, seeing her doubt whatâs so clear to everyone else.
I exhale, my grip gentle but firm as I pull her even closer, eliminating any space that might have been left between us.
âCome on, let me take you out. A real date. No running, no excuses.â
She exhales sharply, looking everywhere but at me, her fingers still tangled in my hair like sheâs forgotten she put them there. I can almost see the walls sheâs trying to build crumbling before theyâre even up.
Then, she swallows and murmurs, âI donât know how.â
I frown. âWhat?â
Her voice is softer now, more vulnerable than I think Iâve ever heard it. âI donât know how to do this with you, how toâ¦cross that line and not ruin everything.â
Something in my chest tightens, understanding washing over me. Sheâs not afraid of me, or even of us. Sheâs afraid of losing what we already have, afraid that if we take this step and it doesnât work, sheâll lose the one person whoâs always been there.
But I donât let her pull away. I keep her there, pulling her even closer, because I know she feels it too. I know this is worth the risk.
âWe donât have to figure it all out tonight.â I run my thumb along the small strip of exposed skin at her waist, and she shivers. âJust say yes.â
She closes her eyes for a second, breathing me in, her body softening in my hold. Thenâslowly, hesitantlyâshe looks up, her eyes locking onto mine.
She exhales softly, and thenââOkay.â
Itâs quiet, barely a whisper, but fuck, if it isnât like someone just shocked me back to life. The single word courses through me, igniting something Iâve kept carefully banked for years.
Because this is it. Sheâs saying yes. To me. To us. To trying.
A slow smirk pulls at the corner of my mouth, my hands tightening on her waist. âYeah?â
She bites her lip like she already regrets giving in, but she nods. âYeah.â
âTomorrow night,â I say, my voice low, rough around the edges. âIâll pick you up at six.â
She hesitates. âWhere are we going?â
I grin. âNot telling.â
She narrows her eyes. âJaxon.â
âMadison,â I mock, smirking as I dip my head just enough that our noses brush, just enough to make her breath hitch. âYou trust me?â
She studies me, chewing on her bottom lip, but she doesnât pull away. If anything, she leans in the slightest bit, like gravityâs working against her, like she doesnât want to leave this space weâve created between us.
Then, finally, she exhales. âFine. You can pick me up at six.â
I grin, my fingers trailing just barely along her waist as I lean in, voice dropping to a murmur. âI knew you couldnât resist me, Mads.â
She huffs, rolling her eyes, but the pink in her cheeks betrays her. âYouâre so annoying.â
âAnd yet, you just agreed to go on a date with me.â
She groans, shoving my shoulder lightly, but sheâs smiling. The song ends, leading into another more up-tempo tune, but we just stand there, my arms still wrapped around her while I grin like a fool.
And I donât let her go, not when sheâs finally where she belongs.
I pull a plain hoodie over my head, adjusting the hem before grabbing my watch off my dresser. Just as Iâm slipping it on, Carter strolls into my room uninvited, flopping down on my bed like he owns the place.
He eyes me up and down before letting out an exaggerated sigh. âSeriously, man? Thatâs what youâre wearing on your first date with Madison?â
I shake my head, grabbing my keys off the nightstand. âWe donât need to be dressed up for where weâre going.â
He lifts a brow. âYouâre taking her bowling, arenât you?â
I throw a sock at his head. âShut up.â
He catches it mid-air, grinning. âI just figured if you were finally getting her on a date, youâd at least try to impress her.â
I roll my eyes. âFirst of all, I always impress her. Second, if I show up in a button-down and slacks, sheâll panic. She needs to feel comfortable, not like Iâm forcing her into something serious right off the bat.â
Carter snorts. âYeah, âcause nothing says romance like sweatpants and bumper lanes.â
I shake my head, not bothering to correct him as I grab my wallet and slip it into my pocket. âWe arenât going fucking bowling, dude. Sheâs wearing comfy clothes. I told her to dress casual, because thatâs when sheâs the most relaxed, and thatâs what I want tonight. For her to be herself, not overthinking every second.â
Carter smirks. âDamn. Youâre down bad, huh?â
I chuckle, rubbing the back of my neck. âYeah. Yeah, I am.â
Itâs the truth. Iâve been crazy about her since high school, watching her date other guys, waiting for her to see whatâs been right in front of her all along. And now that sheâs finally giving us a chance, Iâm not about to mess it up by coming on too strong.
Carter whistles low. âWell, if she dumps your ass, I tried to warn you.â
I chuck my sock right at his face.
I pull up in front of Madisonâs building, leaving my truck idling as I reach for my phone to text herâbut before I can, I see her slipping out the front door, hoodie sleeves pushed over her hands, her hair in one of those loose, messy styles that somehow makes her look even better.
Sheâs already walking toward me at a fast pace, and I smirk, knowing exactly why.
Lyla.
Right on cue, Madisonâs front door swings open again, and Lyla leans over the second-story balcony, grinning down at us. âHey, Montgomery!â
I glance up just as she cups her hands around her mouth and yells, âUSE PROTECTION!â
Madison gasps, whirling around. âLyla!â
Lyla cackles, practically doubling over before disappearing back inside.
I shake my head, laughing as I rub the back of my neck. âGotta admit, I respect her commitment to the bit.â
Madison groans, pressing her fingers to her temples. âI shouldâve gone down the fire escape.â
I grin, tilting my head slightly. âYou look great, Mads.â
She exhales, some of the tension slipping from her shoulders, and she offers me a small smile. âYou too.â
I nod towards my truck, opening the passenger door for her. She slides in, and I jog to my side to join her. Without pushing too far, I pat the bench seat right next to me, inviting her to slide closer.
Her brows lift slightly. âReally?â
I smirk. âHumor me.â
She sighs, shaking her headâbut she smiles as she slides across the bench seat until her thigh brushes mine.
I grin, letting the moment linger for half a second longer, her warmth against my side feeling so right, so natural. My fingers twitch with the urge to reach for her hand, to intertwine our fingers.
But instead, I just shift into drive, my smirk deepening as I glance over at her. âReady?â
âYeah. Iâm ready.â
The way she says itâthe weight behind the wordsâhas my grip tightening on the steering wheel.
Because I donât think sheâs just talking about the drive.
Sheâs ready to try, for whatever comes next, and so am I.