I stare at the ceiling, watching the early morning light filter in through my curtains. The space beside me feels too empty, too coldâa reminder that Jaxon is gone.
Three days.
Three days of Pro Day preparations, of NFL scouts and drills, of the future heâs worked his entire life for.
I should be happy for him. I am happy for him. But that doesnât stop the gnawing worry in my chest, doesnât quiet the fear that everything is about to change. That just when Iâve finally figured out how to stay, Jaxon will be drafted to some team across the countryâleaving me behind.
My phone buzzes with an email, breaking the spiral of my thoughts. I roll over with a sigh, pushing myself out of bed, already counting the hours until Jaxon calls tonight.
The smell of fresh coffee tells me Lyla is up. I find her at the dining table, surrounded by textbooks and papers, red curls piled on top of her head, oversized glasses perched on her nose.
âMorning,â I mumble, heading straight for the coffee pot.
âFresh pot,â she says without looking up. âMade it twenty minutes ago.â
I pour myself a cup, eyeing the mess of stuff in front of her. âWhen did you go to bed last night?â
She shrugs. âBold of you to assume I did.â
I step closer, scanning the documents spread across the table. Sports management? Graduate program applications?
âSince when are you applying to grad school?â
Lyla finally pushes her glasses into her hair, rubbing her temples. âSince always?â Her voice is sharp, guarded. âYouâve missed a lot the last few months, Madison.â
It stings, but she isnât wrong. Iâve been so caught up in my own life, in Jaxon, in my own damn fears, I havenât stopped to see whatâs going on with my best friend.
âIâm sorry,â I say quietly, sinking into the chair across from her. âIâve been a shit friend.â
Lyla softens. âNot a shit friend, justâ¦preoccupied.â She smirks. âWhich, considering how long it took you to get your head out of your ass about Jaxon, is semi forgivable.â
I snort, relieved by her teasing. âTell me about the school.â
âThey have one of the top sports management programs, plus partnerships with three pro teams for internships.â She hesitates. âAnd itâs close enough that I could live at home if I needed to save money but far enough that I donât have to.â
Her voice dips on the last part, and I know exactly what she means.
âDoes your dad know?â
Lylaâs jaw tightens. âHe knows. Heâsâ¦having feelings about it.â
âGood feelings or bad feelings?â
She lets out a dry laugh. âControlling feelings. He wants me at his alma mater or taking the cushy internship he set up with his old teammate.â
I frown. âAnd thatâs not what you want.â
âNo.â Lylaâs voice is firm. âI want to do this on my own. No favors, no special treatment, just me proving Iâm good enough.â
A knock at the door cuts off my response. When I pull it open, my stomach drops.
Coach Harding, Lylaâs dad. Heâs just as intimidating in jeans and a polo as he is on the sidelines.
âMadison.â He nods my way.
âUhâCoach,â I manage, suddenly hyper aware Iâm still in my pajamasâspecifically, one of Jaxonâs old PCU shirts that barely hits mid-thigh.
I step aside, letting him in, and he hands Lyla a folder and a paper bag. âLetter of recommendation. And breakfast. Maple donuts.â
Lyla straightens, stiff but polite. âDad, I told you Iâd pick it up later.â
âI was in the area.â He nods toward the folder. âRead your personal statement. Itâs good.â
âBut?â Lyla challenges.
Coach sighs. âBut I still think you should consider UTA. Their alumni networkâ ââ
âI donât want an alumni network,â Lyla snaps. âI want to do this my way.â
Coachâs voice softens, a rare thing for him. âLyla, this industry is about who you know.â
âMaybe for some people, but Iâve been busting my ass in the athletic department for three years, maintaining a 3.9 GPA. I deserve this.â
A flicker of pride crosses his face before he schools his expression. âJust keep your options open.â Lyla huffs but doesnât argue, so Coach turns to me, his expression shifting. âMontgomeryâs doing well at Pro Day. Scouts are impressed.â
My heart stumbles. âThatâsâ¦good.â
Coach nods. âHeâs worked hard. He deserves it.â He turns back to Lyla. âDinner Sunday? We can make that pasta you like.â
Lyla exhales. âYeah. Iâll be there.â
After he leaves, she sinks into her chair with a groan.
I arch a brow. âYou okay?â
âYeah,â she sighs. âHe means well. He just doesnât get why I donât want to use his name to get ahead.â
âYour dad isâ¦intense.â
Lyla snorts. âUnderstatement of the century.â She hesitates. âDid you know I dated Beck Harrison for three months sophomore year? Dad had no clue.â
I nearly spit out my coffee. âBeck? Linebacker Beck?â
âThe very same.â She smirks. âWe kept it quiet because Dad wouldâve lost his mind. His daughter dating one of his players? Yeah, no.â
My head spins. âDoes Carter know?â
Something unreadable flickers across her face. âCarter knows everything.â Thereâs a weight behind her words, but before I can press, she changes the subject. âAnyway, Iâve got applications to finish. Maple donut?â
I accept the pastry, letting the conversation shift.
For the next few hours, we work, and for the first time in way too long, I feel like Iâm finally showing up for my best friend.
By evening, finals have taken over, textbooks and notes scattered across the apartment. We finally cave and order pizza, but as we wait, Lyla casually drops the question Iâve been avoiding.
âSoâ¦have you talked to Jaxon today?â
âNot yet,â I admit. âHe said heâd call tonight, butâ¦â
Lyla leans back, arms crossed. âBut youâre spiraling about the draft.â
I sigh. âThat obvious?â
âOnly to someone who knows you.â Her voice is gentle. âLook, I get it. He could end up anywhere. But if thereâs one thing I know about Jaxon Montgomery, itâs that heâs all in on you, always has been.â
âI know that.â I pick at my sleeve. âBut what if itâs not enough? What ifâ ââ
âMadison.â Lyla levels me with a look. âThat boy transferred schools for you. He came back even when you pushed him away. You really think a few hundred miles is gonna change that?â
I chew on my lip.
âBesides,â she adds, tilting her head. âYouâre so worried about him leaving, but you havenât even considered the alternative.â
I frown. âWhich is?â
Lyla smirks. âMaybe you could go with him.â
The thought slams into me like a physical force. I havenât considered that. Iâve spent so much time assuming Iâd be left behind, it never occurred to me that maybeâ¦I donât have to be.
Before I can answer, my phone buzzes.
Jaxon. FaceTime.
I inhale sharply before accepting. His face fills the screen, and the second his warm brown eyes meet mine, I forget how to breathe.
âThereâs my girl.â His voice is rough from exhaustion, but his signature smirk tugs at his lips, making my stomach flip.
Lyla, still sprawled across the couch, peeks over my shoulder and waves. âHey, superstar! Howâs Pro Day treating you?â
Jaxon chuckles, rubbing a hand over his face. âGood. Long. Pretty sure I talked to every scout in the country today.â
âAnd impressed them all, Iâm sure,â Lyla says as she stands. âIâll leave you two to it. Donât do anything I wouldnât do.â
âThat really doesnât narrow it down,â Jaxon quips with a smirk.
Lyla just winks at him before disappearing into her room.
I roll my eyes and shift on the couch, bringing the phone closer. Jaxon watches me through the screen, his smirk growing as he settles back against a hotel pillow, his arms folded behind his head. His T-shirt rides up just enough to show a sliver of tanned skin, and damn him, he knows exactly what heâs doing.
âWell, well,â he drawls, voice dropping to that low, cocky tone that always gets me. âLook at you, all rumpled and cute. Did you even brush your hair today?â
I glare. âI hate you.â
âAw, you miss me,â he teases.
I scoff. âI miss peace and quiet, which is impossible when youâre around.â
âUh-huh.â He tilts his head. âFunny, because Coach Harding mentioned you were asking about me.â
Heat creeps up my neck. âHe mentioned you first!â
Jaxon grins, full of cocky satisfaction. âI told him to check on you, made him promise to make sure you werenât crying yourself to sleep without me.â
I groan. âYouâre insufferable.â
âAnd yet, you answered my call.â
âTemporary insanity.â
Jaxon leans in closer, his smirk softening slightly. âYou do miss me, though, donât you, Blake?â
I press my lips together, refusing to answer.
He grins wider. âBet I could get you to admit it.â
âI bet you couldnât.â
âIs that a challenge?â
I narrow my eyes. âNo. Thatâs me hanging up.â
âBut then you wouldnât get to hear about how I made three scouts drop their clipboards today.â He stretches lazily, his biceps flexing just enough to be obnoxious.
âWere they blinded by your modesty?â
He barks out a laugh. âNo, but one of them said, and I quote, âThat kidâs got star potential.ââ
I hum. âYeah, yeah. Some of us have known that for a while.â
His smirk falters slightly, just for a second, something soft flashing in his eyes before he recovers. âDamn right you have.â
I roll my eyes, but my stomach clenches. This man is going to ruin me. âOkay, hotshot,â I murmur. âYou should get some sleep before your ego gets any bigger.â
âNot possible,â he says easily. Then, softer, âMiss you, Mads.â
I hesitate for half a second before murmuring, âMiss you too.â
His smirk returns. âKnew it.â
âShut up.â
âSweet dreams, baby,â he murmurs, voice warm and teasing. âTry not to think about me too much.â
His laugh is the last thing I hear before the call ends, leaving me staring at my phone, wondering how I ever thought I could live without him.