Chapter-7-"The Wild cat is back in the Beast's arms"
Pauline June's POV
"Nick, I am scared", I said while closing my eyes tightly and holding onto him on my bed. He held me back tightly. I put my head on his chest and wrapped my hands around his shoulders.
"You don't need to be scared Baby girl. I am here for you", he said soothingly and kissed my forehead. I still held him. Then the coulds again clashed causing a loud thunder with a bright lightening which fell into my room through the windows. I gripped his shirt tightly, scared of those loud thunders.
"Nick", I whimpered.
"Baby girl, don't worry. I am here. Look at me", he said while pushing me a little and holding my face in his hands. I looked up at him. He is looking into my eyes. I looked back into his.
I blinked a few times.
"There. Calm down. I am right here. Next to you. Holding you. I won't let any harm come to you", he said with a promise held in his eyes. I smiled at him though I am feared a little due to the non-stop thunders.
"Thank you", I said smiling and he kissed my forehead.
"When I am here with you, near you, I won't let those thunders scare you", he said while pulling me into his lap. I am straddling him. He pushed the hair of my face back and stared at me.
"What if you are not there, near me, when the thunders occur?". He smiled before answering me.
"Why will I ever leave you alone? Why would I not be near you? For that to happen, first I should be able to leave you. Which I can't. So don't worry. I will always hold you when there are thunders", he said while kissing my cheek and pulling me to his chest as he leaned back on my bed post. I smiled feeling happy.
"Always?", I asked into his neck. He kissed my shoulder.
"Always", he promised while tightening his hold and I smiled feeling happy. I held him tightly and fell asleep happily.
I woke up gasping as I heard a loud thunder. I looked beside me and found that Nick is not there. I looked around and found that I am alone. My mind went back to the memory that I juat dreamt about. He once promised me really, but it just stayed like that. I think it never meant anything to him. I think I never meant anything to him.
After leaving him, whenever there are thunders, I tremble, cause I am so scared of them and I always imagine him holding me tightly, soothing me and remember him placing feather kisses on my neck and face. I slowly tried to get out of the fear which I still have now, but not that much. The memory still pains me and yet it still makes me happy inside.
There was a sudden loud thunder again and I gasped. The bedroom door opened and Nick came inside with a tray full of food. He saw me and gave me a big smile. I just looked at him for a minute and turned my head away. He is looking handsome even just in his track pants. He must have changed from his boxers this morning. His chest in bare, giving me a full view of his abs.
"Good morning Baby girl", he said in a cheerful voice. I looked up at him as he came and sat in front of me, putting the tray on the night stand.
"Don't call me that", I said in a calm voice, not having the mood to fight with him in the early morning.
"You can't stop me. Also I brought you breakfast. Here-", he stopped saying when there was another thunder. I clenched my fists not wanting to show him that I am still scared of them. He however noticed it as he stared at me and found me breathing heavily.
"Oh my Baby girl", he said before pulling me to him. I pushed him away.
"Don't! I am not scared of them anymore", I said and looked away.
"Don't lie Baby girl", he said trying to reach me, but I shrugged my arm off his hand.
He stared me me intently before pulling me to him and making me settle in his lap. My back is touching his chest. I struggled in his arms. He held me tightly. He put his face in my neck and for some reason I instatnly calmed down.
"I promised you, I will hold you when there are thunders Baby girl. I am just keeping my word", he said into my neck. His warm breathe made my hair stand. Hsi words brought me back out of my haze and I tried to pull him off again.
"You also promised you will never hurt me. You also promised you will not leave me", I said calmly to him. He raised his head and looked at me. I turned my head back to see his face.
"I had never hurt you Baby girl. Also it's not me who left you. It's you who left me", he said looking at my face. I made my face stoic, not ahowing nay emotions and soon turned my face away,not wanting him to see the hurt in my face. Another loud thunder blarred and I turned abck and hugged his tightly, clutching to his shirt, putting my face in his neck from sideaways.
I feel his hands tightening around me. His next words left me dumb.
"Why did you leave? Not even a word. No message. Nothing", he asked calmly, though I know he is anything but calm. I looked up at him. His face is showing so much pain, hurt.
I just turned my head away and looked down at my hands not wanting to say anything. A lump already formed in my throat.
"Tell me", he demanded as he raised my head to him. I pulled my face away from his hold.
"What do you want me to say?".
"The truth. Why you left me?".
"I think you know. Deep down you know why?!", I said getting off his lap and standing up while pointing my finger at him.
"I don't know it! I really don't!", he said sounding like he is in pain.
"Then I don't want to tell you! Just leave it! You have already hurt me so much!", I said with tears in my eyes. I wiped them away with my hands. He stood up furiously. His face is showing a little anger and more pain.
"I had hurt you?! I HAD HURT YOU?! NO PAULINE! It's you who had hurt me!", he spoke out with anger.
I just stood there looking at him. I folded my hands near my chest and huffed out angrily. He held me by my shoulders with his hands.
"Do you know how much pain I had gone through? Do you know how my emptiness I felt when you left me?! Do you know how much I panicked when I didn't find you anywhere, thinking something might have happened to you?! No! You don't know! I felt... I felt like you ripped my heart out when you left me without saying a word. You just... disappeared".
"Exactly! That is how I felt when I came to know the true side of you! I felt betrayed! I felt like... like I am fool who is played by you. Like a puppet you used and threw away! I felt hurt... So much! I gave you my heart and you put it under your leg stomping on it, like it meant nothing to you! Wait! It did mean nothing to you!-", before I can continue, he suddenly pulled me to him.
"Don't you ever, ever say that your heart meant nothing to me! You giving your heart meant to and still mean so much to me! You can't even imagine how much! So fucking much!", he said in a dangerously low voice while holding my face so close to his. Our noses are touching and our lips are inches apart.
I stood there in shock. I am breathing heavily.
"My true side?! What is my true side? I am who I am when I am with you. There is no other side. I am myself only when I am with you".
"Then what about playing with my heart?".
"Pauline. I gave my heart to you too. Which you took away the day you left me. I don't care what you do with it. My heart was, is and always will be yours. Only yours. Only you have the right on it. Either you take it or not", he said with so much emotion while looking into my eyes. He already said my name two times today. It feels so good to hear it from his mouth.
"Whatever it is Nick. Everything is over now. Nothing is left between us. I moved on. You moved on-", he cute me off.
"Don't you dare give me this moved on bull shit! We both know I haven't. You haven't. We haven't!".
"Nick!".
"Also everything is not over my Baby girl. Everything just started. There is so much... so much left between us", he explained and I pulled my hand out of his hold roughly.
"Nothing will happen between us. Nothing!".
"Well, so much can happen. Because the wild cat is back in the Beast arms", he said smiling like the beast he is.
I angrily clenched my jaw, but didn't say anything, knowing that he is right. He pulled me to him by my waist. He held me for a minute while staring at me. I stared abck at him while putting my hands on his chest.
"Now where is my morning kiss according to the clause 22 my VPA?", he asked smirking. I glared at him angrily.
He kissed me on my lips slowly and passionately. I tried to push him away, but soon I am lost in the kiss. Forgetting our fight. I let him slide his tongue in my mouth and he gave me a full satisfied kiss and pulled away while kissing me on my cheek. I blushed a little, but soon got my senses back and pushed his away. I glared at him and he smirked back evilly. Beast!
"You are always mine Baby girl. Only mine. I don't know why you left. I will sort everything out between us and make you completely mine again", he said like a promise and kissed my forehead and his lips lingered there for a minute. Tears blurred my vision, with happiness. I don't know why though. I so want to believe him. My heart wants to, but my brain doesn't.
I hope this is easy.
A/N:
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