Listen to stone walls- We the kings
There are times when all you want to do is inflict pain on the person that inflicted the pain on you. But because it's taken so long to do so, feelings and connections grow. I've thought about killing Val in many ways, but I've never thought about killing my self in this way.
It shakes in my hand as I turn it around to face me, "Willow what are you doing?!" Valentino roars, I can practically hear his heart racing. "Don't do this, I need you," the tears fall one by one, this isn't a dream. I'm living in literal hell. His pained expression makes me reconsider what I'm about to do, but not for long.
"There's so much..... Pain. I want it all to stop, Val; I want it to stop," I cry. It would be wrong killing him. But it wouldn't be wrong killing myself, would it? He stands and slowly makes his way towards me, step by step. I move away from him, "it gets too much."
"Willow, I can help you," he rushes out, Nova and Mike walk into the room. When they see me, both of them gasp and look between the gun and me.
"Will, what are you doing?" Nova steadily says, staring at the gun that is held in my hands. I look at her, tears are now forming in her eyes. My lips wobble and I sniffle, I look to Mike who is biting his lip and moving towards me.
"You see.... when there is so much pain that a person feels..... it doesn't stop. And it constantly hurts over and over again, why can't it stop? The worst part of it all Val, is that I don't hate you even though you murdered my brother. Do you have a reason?" I look at the direction where Val is, only to see him standing right in front of me. I gasp and he snatches the gun out of my hand, unloading the bullets then throwing it on the floor and grabbing me. His arms tightly wrap around me, comforting me in a way that only he could do.
"Don't ever do that again, you hear me?" He pulls me tighter to his body, his cologne surrounds me and I breathe it in deeply. "I couldn't live if you weren't alive," he lets out a shaky breath.
My head is pressed against his chest, I slowly look up ignoring the fact that I soaked his shirt with my tears. He curses and lifts me bridal style, whisking me away to his room. He lays me down on the bed then lays next to me, his hands run through my brown hair and we don't talk.
"Val-" he cuts me off.
"Can I just hold you? For a moment," I stare at him and nod slowly. He sighs in content, "I want to help you Will." I stay silent, waiting for his next words; "and I will help you."
My heart beat accelerates, how can he help me? Can he help me? At the moment I'd do anything to make the pain go away. I stare at him in confusion. "You'd do that.... for me?" He smiles and nods.
"Would you like to come with me and the guys to a friends? The girls will come too," I nod slowly. "You've heard of Isaac Miller right?"
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"His home is so big!" I exclaim using my hands to size it up, Val chuckles and nods. He grabs my hand and leads me inside without knocking, I look around at the house in awe. "Wow," I whisper, Isaac Miller the famous billionaire. I'm honestly not surprised that Val is friends with a super famous rich guy.
"Val, my man!" A deep voice exclaims, I look up at the stairs to see a guy with black hair, fair skin, muscles, ice blue eyes and a smirk on his face. He's just in casual clothes not his normal suit. Isaac Miller. He looks and raises an eyebrow, "who's this?"
"I'm Willow Davids, you must be Isaac Miller," I wave, he grins and nods. The door opens and everyone but Amalia and Jarrad walk through door, they fist bump or high five or give Isaac a man hug.
How am I so good at pretending you ask? Well years of feeling like this and having to act like you don't care is the secret. It still hurts but that doesn't mean I want the world to know.
"I'm excited for today," Isaac grins, all of us stare at him in awe. He's quite beautifully rich, I think the guys picked up our staring cause their jaw's clench. But the guy we are staring at just smirks and chuckles, "okay let's go."
We follow him out to a massive shed, he opens the door and I stare in surprise. Cars. Expensive cars. They're everywhere, mostly sports cars made for racing, Val grabs out keys from his pocket and grins. Seeing our awestruck faces, he chuckles and leans close to me, "we keep some of our cars here. People get suspicious when they see us driving out with all of these sports cars."
He presses a button and a black sports car flashes, I grin and run up to it. I open the door straight away and gasp, everything is red inside. The leather seats are red, the roof, the sides, the steering wheel is black though. I sit down properly and close the door looking at the interior, the drivers door opens and Val sits inside. Everyone else is in a car, all of us girls look at the cars with awe. Only one car isn't occupied, a navy blue one that must belong to Jarrad. "This is amazing," he chuckles and switches on the ignition, the car roars to life. "But where are we going with these?" He grins and leans over the console to the back, he comes back with two helmets. A black one and a purple one, "how'd you know purple is my favourite colour?"
Val shrugs innocently with a small smile and instructs me to put it on, I do and secure the clip. He chuckles when he sees me and leans over to tighten the strap, "we are going street racing." My eyes widen and he smirks, the door opens automatically probably used with a button that Isaac has. I didn't know this was a garage... I should've expected it though. Two cars drive out before Valentino drives out, he stops behind them on the driveway: we are facing a steel gate. I take off the helmet and look at Val, I don't even think he wears a helmet when he races.
"Is everyone ready?" I hear through the speakers, my eyes rounded as I hear it. They are so rich. "Yes," Valentino speaks through a walkie talkie thing. Then I hear a chorus of 'yes' so the gate opens and the guys drive out one by one. I wind down the window and stick my head out, letting the wind brush through my hair. I grin and shout a 'whoop' I hear Val chuckle so I stick my head back inside the car. He presses a button and light peeps through the roof, a roof window! "You're so beautiful," he whispers, I look at him.
"Am I?" I replied. His face is serious as he nods to my question, I look outside notice that we're driving on a track. There's stands, seats, food areas, people drinking or smoking or mingling, everywhere. I'm doing another illegal thing. He parks the car behind I'm assuming Isaac and Landon, since I saw them get into the cars in front of us. Everyone stares as we exit the car, I look at Landon and he grins.
"Ladies, come to me," he dramatically says, I roll my eyes and he obviously sees the movement. "Don't roll your eyes sweetheart, you want this," he points to himself, I shudder in disgust and he pouts. I look at Val, his face is now emotionless and he's holding a cigarette between his fingers. He looks at me and raises his brows, I glare at him and stomp away to Nova.
"You okay?" She asks, I shrug not replying.
Then I hear an o do familiar name being called, "Diana!" I groan and pull my hair back into a pony tail, at least my chin is better right? I see the familiar red head, green eyed woman walking through the crowd over to Cadence and Emberly. The guys talk in a group while unfortunately Cadence and Emberly are standing next to us, so Diana is walking over towards us.
When she looks at me she rolls her eyes, "you look as ugly as ever." I give her a tight smile, should I say it? Definitely.
"Good, I was trying to look like you today," I know; lame. She scoffs and shakes her head, a small smirk tugging at her lips.
"Haven't heard that one before, eh? Girls! How are you both?" She asks as soon as she notices Cadence and Emberly, she looks at Nova and smiles; Nova first smile back, she scowls. Diana raises her eyebrows and shrugs.
Cadence, Emberly and Diana have a little conversation before I cut in. "Diana I must say.... There's a fine line between wearing make-up and looking like you got gangbanged by crayola," she gasps and her face turns red.
"Did it hurt when you fell from hell?" That makes no sense.... I think that even she knows that one was lame, she just doesn't like admitting the truth.
"No actually, it was quite nice cause I didn't have to see you," I grin and walk away. Nova walks away with me, I don't know about her but I'm getting food. I order some popcorn, he gives it to me then I walk away after saying thank you. Nova and I walk to the stands where everyone we know is sitting, when I see another familiar friendly face- I grin. His blonde hair is brushed back and his grey eyes are staring into space. "Jackson!" I exclaim happily, his eyes snap to me and he grins.
"Willow!" He exclaims in a girly voice. Nova wanders off to sit on Mike, literally. Like, there's seats for a reason..... Mike isn't a seat, or is he? I sit next to Jackson, "how have you been?" He asks, I shrug.
"Alright. We have to make up a handshake!" I shout, nodding with wide eyes. He chuckles and nods frantically, obviously copying me and my movements.
"How about we just do this?" He clasps his hand with mine and shakes it as if he's greeting me. My mouth parts and I stare at him with a strange look, "no? Okay then..."
"You suck at handshakes," I shake my head, he laughs. I then notice Val walking over, his helmet is one hand and a beer in the other. "Have you raced already?" I frown, he shakes his head at me and sits next to Diana and Titus. I frown, is he mad at me? Why isn't he sitting next to me? Why do I care? Why am I jealous?
"You okay?" Jackson pokes my rib, I frown and whack his hand away from me. I hear Diana giggle, so I look; she is messing around with his helmet on his head. He holds his beer with one hand and moves his helmet with the other, I frown and stand up. I step down from seat to seat until I'm on the ground, I walk away feeling their eyes on me. I lean against a wall, no one is really around here so it's good to take a breather I guess.
"What are you doing here.... alone," I hear a mans voice, I look next to me quickly and sigh. It's that guy Reece.
"I hate Diana, my life hasn't been so good lately," I murmur, he chuckles and nods in agreement. "Do all the guys here find her pretty?" I ask with a frown.
"Not Val if that's what you mean. Most guys do, but he likes you- you know that, right?" I shrug. "He wouldn't just pick up a beer can that he littered for anyone, he wouldn't beat up a guy for anyone. Well.... except himself. He likes you, he's just afraid that he'll loose you. The men that go here are disgusting, they will do anything to know Val's weakness. So they can take his weakness and hurt him, make deals out of that weakness. You're Valentino's weakness, Willow. And what ever he is doing, it's to protect you. Why isn't your life good?," he firmly says, I look at him: his eye is swollen, it's purple.
I frown, "thank you. Well, just stuff that u can't escape so easily; But what happened to your eye?" He winces and shrugs.
"That's another story for another time." Then with those words, he disappears. I stare at the ground, until I see large shoes. I look up quickly and sigh in relief when I see Valentino, he raises his eyebrow and takes a swig of his beer. He looks at it and shakes it, then throws it in the bin when he realises it's empty.
"You okay?" I glare at him.
"Val, unfortunately you don't get asked that after ignoring me and staring at me emotionlessly. As well as flirting with Diana while you apparently like me," I cross my arms over my chest.
He cages me in with his arms, "fortunately, I do get to ask that question. I wasn't ignoring you, or staring emotionlessly at you, or flirting with her. I was protecting you. Are you jealous?" He smirks.
"No!" I snap all to quickly, he wiggles his eyebrows and presses his face into my neck. His arms wrap around me and his lips softly kiss my neck, I furrow my eyebrows.
"Really?" He sings.
"Yes, really," I firmly state. He pulls back with a smirk and chuckles, Val kisses my cheek and pulls away.
"Are you coming to watch my race?" I nod slowly, he grabs my hand and drags me away.
And for a little while, we pretended that everything's okay. We all pretended that I didn't try killing myself, but the fact will come back tomorrow; haunting us all with the fact that it's not okay yet.
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Well she didn't kill him! It wasn't a dream either! I made it in italics so you could think about things, if it was real or not. But it was.
I hope you loved this chapter though!
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