[SKY]
Dan: yo Sky Rose up high in the sky
Me: shut ya bitch ass up
Dan: Get yo emo ass up
Me: I'm gonna kill you for calling me emo
Dan: why are you such a moody bitch today
Me: ITS MONDAY, DAMMIT
Me: can we please REWIND, I'm not ready
Dan: too bad, get up
Me: only if you bring me food
Dan: you're expecting the unexpected
Dan: you should stop
Me: expect what?
Dan: Me bringing you food
Dan: I'm not a zookeeper why should I feed you?
Me: I thought you like me
Dan: I don't like you
Me: that's not what you were saying in first grade
Dan: STOP THAT
Dan: I DIDN'T HAVE VERY HIGH STANDARD THEN
Me: do you remember in third grade again?
Dan: you're very lucky there's a phone and five miles between us
Me: or what?
Me: you'd kiss me again?
Me: ew why did I said that. That's gross
Dan: Your life is gross
Me: your relationship is gross
Dan: your lack of relationship is gross
Me: I GET IT BYE ASSHOLE
Dan: Bye emo
******
On my way to the lunch table with Dan and Hayley, I accidentally bump into somebody then I stopped.
"Sorry," I look up and Taylor's face turned a bright red. Awkward much?
"I am so sick of your existence," she raises her voice suddenly which makes me raises an eyebrow.
"I said I was sorry,"
"God, you're such a stalker, why don't you kill yourself like what your brother did that could've been better."
She just said that? I can feel my chest pounding.
"Stop mentioning my brother," I warn her. Alex suddenly comes up and smiles briefly at me. Taylor grabs Alex's hand and pulls him towards the table.
"Bitch alert," Dan rolls his eyes. "Yeah," I mumble.
I set my food down on the table and sit across Dan and Hayley.
Why don't you kill yourself like what your brother did
No. Ashton didn't killed himself.
"Sky, are you alright?" Hayley asks in concerned.
"I guess," I can feel my eyes start to form tears.
Dan: Sky, are you alright?
Me: I'm good
Dan: you didn't spoke anything after lunch
Me: I'm just tired
Dan: bullshit
Dan: she's bothering you didn't she?
Me: It hurts when people think my brother killed himself
Dan: I know
Me: and why did she said I'm a stalker anyway?
Dan: probably some pathetic idea of an insult
Me: maybe
Dan: just ignore that stupid ass hoe
Me: I never thought you'd still care
Dan: I love you, okay? You're my best friend
Dan: even if I feed you with bunch of shits daily
Dan: but you've been my friend since forever
Dan: not to mention you're my first kiss BAE
Dan: and Ashton hated me for that
Me: he didn't hate you, he's just being a protective brother
Dan: I don't want to see you're sad, okay?
Dan: now cheer up, slut
Me: I love you too asshole.
[Alex]
I miss her, for real I miss Sky. It's been three days. It's ridiculous when I feel like I want to talk to her and back to our daily basis. With lots of stupid topics, make her laugh and tell her I love her or wish her a goodnight sleep.
It kills me. But not as bad as three days ago, but I have periods of ups and downs. I'll miss her more someday and the weekend was a lot harder than today. At least when it schools day I have the chance to see her. I wonder if she felt the same?
The entire lunchtime was spent hearing Taylor complaining about Sky. How Sky's a stalker, a weirdo, a freak and so on. I wanted to walk away so badly, but I couldn't since Taylor already went through my phone and saw Sky's contact. Well, thankfully not the text.
Then I made a stupid lie that Sky got my number and been texting me for some study purpose.
Now, Taylor thinks Sky's a stalker whose interested in me even though it's the exact opposite.
Sky looked so upset in sixth period after Taylor spoke to her at lunch. I wonder what did she told her. If she didn't push me away this shits wouldn't happened.
Moving on wasn't easier than I ever thought. It is much harder than I intended it to be. I thought I could just turn around and pretend like nothing ever happened. But I can't since it's driving me fully insane.
[SKY]
Six nights and seven days. Seven long and depressing days. I never realized how much I relied on this person to entertain me until now. I always thought of him as some kind of distraction. Maybe I was being stupid when I said I needed space. Dan was right, how many space do I need?
But you just said it. I know and now I miss him so much. With his stupid pick up lines and all those random shit. It really entertains me to change his name without him knowing and it was even funnier when he knew.
Sky stop.
Me: Dannnyyyy I'm bored, entertain me please
Dan: I'm not your private entertainer
Dan: for fuck's sake just TALK TO HIM
Me: don't be rude to your mother, son
Dan: you're an idiot
Me: so are you
Dan: I think I might have a crush on Alex
Me: no you're not
Dan: why? you're jealous?
Dan: wait I remember something in freshmen year
Dan: you wrote it in your stupid pink diary that you liked him, in Math class and you didn't realize I was peeking
Me: WHAT THE FUCK?!!
Dan: I should be telling you a long time ago, but I always forgot
Dan: Dear Diary, Alex was so hot
Me: fuck stop I didn't wrote that
Dan: Dear Diary, I wish he could notice me once
Me: OMFG shut up!
Dan: I'm pretty sure you were imagining him when I kissed you
Me: SHUT THE FUCK UP DANIEL!
Dan: so I'll take it as an approval
Dan: ACCEPT IT BITCH THAT IT'S NOT HIS LIPS HAAA :)))))))))))
Me: you're weird pls staph
Me: If you tell anyone about that diary thing, I SWEAR TO GOD I'LL MURDER YOU
Dan: NEVER
Me: Dan I'm lonely
Me: do you think I should talk to him?
Dan: Well
Me: you're too bad at this friend thing
Dan: I just like giving you a ration of shit
[ALEX]
I am giving her space and it's been seven days. Seven fucking days since Sky told me she needed space.
So far this moving on thing is going well, I guess.
In fact, I'm trying to ask Taylor out on a date. I think this is the first time we've been on an actual date since Homecoming of last year. Usually we're just hanging out with some friends throwing a party. Maybe it should be nice to hang out with her alone for a bit like the old times back like in the freshmen year.
Me: hey babe
Me: can I take you on a date? (:
Taylor turns around and smiles before looking back down at her phone.
Taylor <3: Okay (: where?
Me: movies?
Taylor <3: That'll be great
Me: pick you up at six?
Taylor: okay. I love you
Me: love you too
For a split of a second I thought I was talking to Sky. Maybe I should be talking to her? It seems as every hour creeps past I think of her less. I think that first and sixth period are the hardest since she's always the first person there. I just sit in the class room watching people coming in and she's never fazed by her surroundings. She's just texting. Who is she texting anyway?
Why would you care, Alex? You're going out with Taylor
I'm not going out with her, it's just some friends hanging out thing, nothing serious. Maybe a movie night with Taylor will be a distraction to get over her. I can spend some time with someone who truly likes me than wasting my time chasing someone who never wants me. Pathetic I know.
Deep down, I have this desire that I should talk to her, because I really hate seeing cliché romance movie.
***********
Me: you looked nice tonight
Tay: thank you babe
Tay: that movie was cute and sad tho
Haa. No it wasn't and I'm glad you didn't realize I've fallen asleep. That was god awful movie. Two hours of chasing and back-and-forth till the girl finally belongs to someone else. So ironic.
Me: yeah
Me: maybe we can go for a dinner tomorrow?
Tay: please not sonic
Me: I promise, I'll be better
Tay: okay
Me: night love
Tay: night Alex
God, I wish this was Sky. Sky wouldn't like boring romance movie and she'd always stayed up all night watching Netflix. She likes horror and comedy. I'm sure we'd spend good time in cinema watching comedy where she would laugh until she's out of breathe.
I remember that one time in sixth period when I send her jokes and she laughed so hard. It was the cutest thing ever because it was only her and I in the room and her face turned bright red when she realize I was there.
I miss you Sky Rose.
#Don't let me go cause' I'm tired of feeling alone