Chapter 34: Chapter 34

Who am I texting?Words: 13799

SOUNDTRACK: It's you - ZAYN

(Idk if this song related to this chapter but I'm currently listening to this song while writing this and damn I love this song)#ZERRIE4LIFE

Me: I'm sorry Dan

Me: the camping thing

Me: Idek why I did that

Me: I thought it'll be fine

Me: actually I knew it'd blow up in my face

Me: maybe I am psychotic

Me: OMFG

Dan: yeah you are

Me: rlly?

Me: that's all you can say?

Dan: you fucked up when you insulted his girlfriend

Dan: it doesn't surprise me he went after you

Dan: I rlly wanted you to punch him

Dan: and her too

Me: I was just surprised

Me: I wasn't going to punch her

Me: we're in the middle of the forest

Me: like they could chop me up and nobody would know

Dan: tbh I hope you learned your lesson

Dan: don't mess with a church girl

Me: that makes no sense

Dan: you should moved on for real Sky

Dan: you're mad because you're alone

Dan: even Sam and Nate are together

Me: I choose to be single

Me: I turned down so many guise

Me: bc I like being alone obvi

Dan: Yeah

Dan: you keep "choosing" the single life

Me: I will

Me: I'M WAITING FOR PRINCE CHARMING

Dan: Charming isn't Alex last name

Dan: you're waiting for Prince Follese

Me: no shut up

Me: I'm not

Dan: you are though

Me: are not

Dan: are too

Me: YOU'RE WAITING TO BECOME MR. AND MRS FOLLESE

Dan: nah not really

Dan: I'm waiting for the moment I call Hayley my wife

Dan: Mr. and Mrs. Miller

Me: that was disgustingly sweet

Dan: here's an idea Sky

Dan: why don't you just try and be his friend?

Dan: do you like, Alex?

Me: yeah

Dan: do you care about Alex?

Me: yeah

Dan: Do you want him to be happy?

Me: yeah

Dan: do you mind if it's with someone else?

Me: kinda

Dan: 2 fucking bad

Dan: if you love him, care about him, want him to be happy but don't want to lose him

Dan: just be his friend

Dan: that way he's still in your life

Me: but...

Me: what if I want to kiss him?

Dan: kiss your pillow

Me: but my pillow doesn't have soft pink lips

Dan: Too bad

"Sky, there's someone here for you!" My mom yells

"Who is it?" I yell back.

"I don't know, come see."

"Really mom? Really? " I mumble

Me: someone's here for me

Dan: OMFG MAYBE IT'S KYLE

Dan: SURPRISE MOTHAFAKA

Dan: all decomposed and stuff

Dan: gross

Me: shut up

Me: it's not Kyle

I huff and head downstairs. When I saw my mom she slightly smile at me which make me even more curious.

"He's outside."

"He?"

I open the front door and Alex smiles briefly. "Hi Sky."

"What the hell are you doing here?" I step outside and close the door behind me.

"I came to see you," he frowns, handing me a Taco Bell bag.

"You're bribing me with Taco Bell?"

I raise my eyebrow, grabbing it. "Okay."

"It worked, though." I take a seat on the porch and Alex sits beside me.

"Why are you here, Alex?" I sigh.

"I thought you were mad at me. I mean I was a bitch, after all."

"That's what I wanted to talk about"

"Oh.."

"Yeah," he shrugs. "I'm sorry, Sky. I was just mad and I was defending Scarlett. I didn't think before I spoke and I didn't mean it."

"But you did mean."

"No, not really."

"I saw it in your eyes. You were being totally honest and I get it," I move my feet back and forth.

"I love you so much, Sky. And you drive me up the wall with one moment you're nice and one moment you're mean thing. Like you rather love me or you don't."

I nod my head. "I do love you."

"Really?"

"Really."

In an instant, Alex's lips met mine. I felt him move his hands towards my face before he moved his head away. He immediately looks down at his feet.

"What just happened?" I take a deep breath.

Alex's finger tips brush his lips before he shakes his head. "No, no. I have to go," he continues to shake his head.

"What? Why?" I ask frantically.

"What just happened?"

"I can't, Sky. I have to go," he stands up and starts jogging towards his car.

"Alex!" I yell. I'm so confused. Why did he kiss me? Is he still dating Scarlett? But why did he kiss me?

***

[ALEX]

I put the key in the ignition and put the car in drive. I need to go. I don't know what to do. Do I tell Scarlett what happened? I'm so confused. I don't know what came over me. We were sitting there and everything felt right. She was so beautiful and for a minute, I really believe she loved me. I feel like shit. I told Scarlett I would apologize and make things right with Sky and I do that.

I mean, I definitely made things right, but I think I went too far. I knew I shouldn't of gone. I should of just apologize over the phone or something. Not go to her house and kiss her! God, I'm such an idiot.

I come to a red light and grab my phone out of my jacket pocket. One missed text.

Girlfriend: hey Alex, how did everything go?

Me: good

Girlfriend: did you guys work everything out?

Me: yeah

Me: we apologize and worked it out

Girlfriend: great, I'm proud of you

Me: thanks babe

Me: sorry I'm driving

Me: I'll text you when I get home

Girlfriend: Okay babe

Girlfriend: I love you

Me: yeah

**

[SKY]

Dan: yo my bff my side hoe my lover my enemy

Dan: you never texted me after Kyle showed up last night

Me: huh?

Me: oh

Dan: was it really Kyle?

Me: It wasn't Kyle

Dan: who is it?

Me: Alex

Dan: Oh..

Dan: not the plot twist I wanted

Dan: what did he want?

Me: long story?

Me: okay actually not a long story

Me: but really fucked up

Me: well not really

Me: just kinda weird

Me: it's wrong

Me: but like

Dan: JUST FUCKING SAY IT

Dan: IDGAF

Dan: I JUST WANT TO KNOW

Me: sorry I'm vv confused rn

Me: he showed up

Me: and brings me taco bell

Me: and like I was vv confused

Me: I thought he poison it

Me: so I had my mom eat the first bite when I got inside

Me: and like we sit down on the porch

Me: and he apologize

Me: I apologize

Me: and he talks about how he loves me

Me: but in the kindest way possible says I'm a bipolar bitch

Me: and I apologize

Me: and he asked if I loved him

Me: and I said I did

Me: anD WE WENT TOTALLY THE FAULT IN OUR STARS

Me: WHERE HE WAS LIKE REALLY?

Me: AND I WAS LIKE REALLY?

Dan: yeah and..

Me: and then BAM HE KISSED ME

Me: AND MOVING ONNNNNNNNNN

Me: HOW WAS YOUR SUNDAY NIGHT?

Me: EAT ANY GOOD FOOD?

Me: WOW THIS IS A BEAUTIFUL MONDAY

Me: IT'S PERFECT OUTSIDE

Dan: wait a fucking second

Dan: wtf did you just say

Dan: HOLD UP I'M SCROLLING UP

Me: pls don't

Dan: too late

Dan: I'm going up

Dan: hold on

Five minutes go by and Dan still hasn't texted me back. Like, did he die? Maybe he's taking a test in first period. Ha! Right. He doesn't do anything in first period. Maybe he didn't see it. Maybe he got side-tracked talking to someone else. That's it! That makes perfect sense. Maybe he'll forget all about what I said.

Dan: you bitch

Dan: YOU TWO KISSED AND I DON'T FIND OUT UNTIL THE NEXT MORNING

Dan: OVER TEXT

Dan: I THOUGHT WHAT WE HAD WAS FOR REAL

Dan: IT IS JUST A LIE

Dan: JUST A DREAM

Dan: DREAAAAMMM

Me: ARE YOU QUOTING NELLY?

Dan: Don't ask

Dan: Idc about the potential song lyric

Dan: you two kissed

Dan: he has a girlfriend right?

Me: IDK

Me: they seem to be together

Me: they're sitting beside each other and whispering things

Me: yes?

Me: no?

Dan: that's cheating

Dan: UR A MISTRESS

Me: NO

Me: I WAS LIPS BOMBED AGAIN

Me: MY LIPS ARE INNOCENT

Me: THEY WERE BLIND SIDED BY HIS

Me: IT WAS A KISS AND RUN

Me: LITERALLY

Me: HE RAN FROM ME AFTERWARDS

Dan: so you didn't kiss him?

Me: NO

Me: I was just apologizing and BAM

Me: he kissed me

Me: and then ran away

Me: LIKE WTF?

Me: NOT VERY ROMANTIC AXEL

Me: I WAS SO CONFUSED

Me: I THOUGHT HE WAS AMERICAN

Me: BUT HE'S OBVIOUSLY A LIP TERRORIST

Me: I send him a text but he never response

Me: ALL I WAS THINKING ABOUT AFTERWARDS WAS

Me: OMFG SCARLETT GERMS ON MY LIPS EW

Dan: I'd be scared of Scarlett

Dan: I bet she's one of these

Dan: good girls who are secretly bad girls that haven't been caught

Me: are you seriously doing songs lyrics rn

Dan: Ok I'm done now

**

[ALEX]

"Hey, babe," I smile.

"Hi, Alex!" I take a seat beside Scarlett and push my food away.

"There's something I want to talk about later. Is it okay of I come over tonight?"

"Sure," she frowns. "What's wrong?"

"It's nothing important really," I shrug.

"Are you sure?"

"Yeah.."

"Okay," she smiles slightly.

"I just want you to know that I appreciate everything you've done for me, Scarlett. I know my life isn't drama-free, but I'm glad that you haven't given up on me."

"Everybody has drama in their life. I'm not here to judge you for what goes on in your life, Alex. I'm here to support you and love you unconditionally," she puts her arms around me and I sigh briefly.

"If only I was nice as you."

She lets go and put her hands in her lap. "If you only people were as nice to you as you are to everyone else."

"Did you just call me nice?"

"One hundred percent."

"Even when you're lying and saying I'm nice you're still nicer."

"It's a gift."

"So you admit you were lying?" I raise my eyebrow.

She rolls her eyes. "No.."

**

I sigh and knock the door twice. I'm not looking forward to this conversation. I don't want her to cry. I don't want to see anymore hurt, but I have to tell Scarlett the truth. I have to tell her that I kissed Sky. I really hope she doesn't get mad or anything.

"Alex, hi," her dad smiles.

"Hi, is Scarlett home?"

"Yeah, sure. Let me go get her." I nod and he closes the front door. I take a seat on their chair outside. What if she gets mad? I mean, I've never seen Scarlett mad before. She was annoyed at Sky that day, but she was far from mad. What if she cries? I won't have any idea of what to do if she cries. I'll just be standing, or sitting there patting her head. I won't even know what to say. I mean, I regret kissing Sky.

I'm lying actually. I don't regret kissing her one bit. I just wouldn't have the heart to tell Scarlett about it.

"Alex," Scarlett smiles, closing the front door. "Do you want to come in or sit out here?"

"Out here is fine."

"Okay," She takes a seat beside me.

"What did you want to talk about?" I fiddle with my finger a bit. "It's a beautiful night." I point at the moon.

"It is," she half-smiles. "What's wrong though?" After a minute, I sit up. "I kissed Sky," I bite my lip. She's going to slap me.

"Oh," she frowns. "Ale-"

"I'm so sorry," I shake my head.

"Alex calm down. It's okay," she laughs slightly.

"What?"

"I'm not mad or upset," she rubs my shoulder.

"You're not?" I try to hide my shock. No tears or anger at all. Nothing. She's just completely calm about everything.

"No, because I knew you still loved her, but.."

"But?"

"But you have to make a decision. It's not fair to Sky or me to play us both. And if you pick Sky, I'll be fine."

"I just need time to thing," I sigh.

"I understand," she nods. "I think I'm going to go home," I stand up. I adjust my shirt slightly. Scarlett nods and puts her hand in her pocket.

"Are you okay?" She laughs. "I should be asking you."

"I'm fine. Pfft, amazing," I lie.

"Liar," she coughs.

"Psh, not."

"Psh, are."

**

Me: hey

Me: I just want to say I am really, really, really sorry bro

Me: please forgive me

Me: those things I said

Me: I was just mad

Me: and most of anger was towards Sky and Kyle

Me: not you

Me: please bruh

Dan: you're only apologizing because you need my spectacular advice

Dan: am I right?

Me: Yes

Dan: wait before I forgive you

Dan: say "I love Dan so much. Dan is King of the Universe. Dan is bae. I love Dan. I have sexual thoughts about Dan I will replace Sky with Dan. Dan is love. Dan is life."

Me: ....

Me: I love dan, dan is king of the universe. Dan is bae. I love dan. You're nuts, we're both straight. Dan is love. Dan is life. bye

Dan: hmm.. I should say not

Dan: but whatever

Dan: shoot

Me: so don't tell Sky pls

Dan: I don't even told Sky my hi wtf

Dan: keep going

Me: I kissed Sky

Dan: old news keep going

Me: and I told Scarlett like two hours ago

Dan: pls don't tell me she went psycho satan on you

Me: no

Me: She was completely calm about it

Me: she told me to make a decision

Dan: her or Sky

Me: yes

Dan: and?

Me: what should I do?

Dan: WTF PICK SKYLAR YOU BASTARD

Dan: TEAM SKYLEX FOR LIFE

Dan: I MEAN YOU KISSED HER WHEN YOU WITH SCARLETT

Dan: WHY NOT?

Me: not the helpful advice I was looking for

Dan: how was that?

Dan: I mean I literally gave you your answer

Me: yeah but why should I choose Sky?

Me: I mean Scarlett is so nice and sweet

Me: she never gets mad and insults me

Me: she doesn't hate me one day and love me the next

Me: she doesn't piss me off, she's supportive and she's the perfect girl

Dan: yeah but she's not the perfect girl for you

Dan: Scarlett lacks the fire that Sky has. You remember that?

Dan: anytime you're with Sky you're having some piss ass argument over something ridiculous

Dan: but you can tell that ven though you're arguing you're in love with her

Dan: you could argue until hell freeze over but as long as you were with her you'd be fine

Dan: It's been Skylar this whole time

Dan: and what's wrong with a little back-and-forth?

Dan: Sky brings out this side of you that you're afraid to show and idk why

Dan: you buy her food. You take her on dates. You joke around. You seem so lively and you're being you. It doesn't bother you at all

Dan: god staring at you and Scarlett together is like watching a pot boil.

Dan: just pick Sky

Dan: not because I say so (even though I'm damn right)

Dan: it's your decision bruhh

Dan: and if you don't pick sky, you'll spend the rest of your life wondering if you made the right decision by not being with her

Dan: you went through all that effort of fucking anon texting her until the sky fell

Dan: believe me.. she was just insecure since you know you're popular and all but she likes you since forever

Dan: and she finally warmed up to you and admitted she loves you

Dan: AND NOW YOU QUESTION IT?

Me: I guess

Me: I'll think about it. I'm really confused right now

Me: thanks tho, it means a lot

Me: and I really am sorry

Dan: I gave you a huge speech about love and that's my response r u serious?

Dan: WHATAVA good luck