# SOUNDTRACK: I swear this time I mean it-Mayday Parade
[SKY]
Kyle'daBae: morning babe
Kyle'daBae: wanna hangout today?
Me: Sure :)
Kyle'daBae: I was thinking if we could just watch a movie
Me: okay where?
Kyle'daBae: your place this evening at five
Me: okay but you can't stay till midnight
Kyle'daBae: no problem (;
I set my phone down and I realize that I haven't talked to the unknown texter since yesterday. He didn't respond to my countless text that I've sent to him.
Why is he mad anyway? I don't even know him and I can't just sit alone till 1st of April.
Besides, it's Kyle, I liked him since forever and I'm not gonna ignore him because of some stranger had a crush on me. Maybe if he reveals himself I could consider about it, only if he can beat Kyle's perfection, but I doubt he would.
Alright, I'm totally kidding it's not about the looks ladies.
Me: how long do you plan on ignoring me?
Me: this is stupid
Me: please, I'm sorry if you're mad
Nothing: I'm not mad
Me: You sure as hell not happy either
Nothing: You know what yes I'm not happy
Nothing: I am absolutely beyond upset, Sky I don't even have a suitable word to describe this pain in my chest
Nothing: Ever since I saw him kissing you... You don't even know how messed up this feeling inside me. It so fucking hurt and I can stop from letting it bother me.
Nothing: I am incredibly in love with you Sky Rose but you couldn't give a shit about me
Nothing: I know that you liked Kyle since forever but this isn't fair
Nothing: I understand I can't force you to feel the same way about me even if I've been sitting here for weeks racking my brains around on how I could ever get you to feel the same.
Nothing: I just want you to know that I mean it when every single time I say that I liked you and I'm not bragging about some lame-ass hoe who will dump you when someone better comes along.
Nothing: I want to say 'fuck you for breaking my heart' but I can't because I still love you even when I'm so pissed as hell
Nothing: just stop talking to me Sky
Nothing: you have Kyle and this isn't fair between me and him
Nothing: not until you decide who you really want
Nothing: I hope you're happy with him
**
[Alex]
Kyle: dude practice canceled I have something to do
Me: what? You can't just cancel it the event is just one more weeks to go
Kyle: I really can't, I have a date with Sky
Me: The date can wait you're the leader of the band and you can't just cancel practice whenever you fucking like
Kyle: Fine I'm bringing her to the studio
If I'm going to have a god damn emotional breakdown, I'm going full out bitch mode to everyone. I'm so upset right now. I love this girl and all she does is hurt me by telling she likes me and then be with someone else.
Why is this so complicated? I thought it'll only be me and her but it's not and I can't stop this lump in my throat. I didn't expect Kyle will appear in between us.
Now he's bringing her to studio and me being me just a boiling pot left on too long and I swear to god if I had to face their lovey-dovey shit I'm not going to leave.
As soon as I turned off my phone it buzzes again.
Taylor: Hey Alex
Me: What do you want?
Taylor: Hangout today?
Me: what about no?
Taylor: Why are you constantly rejecting me?
Me: Why are you constantly forcing yourself to believe that I want you?
Me: we aren't a thing since months ago, I've dumped you but you refuse to acknowledge that
Taylor: you didn't give me any reason Alex
Me: I don't like you with your bitchy attitude who constantly act like you're perfect and better than anyone else and you treat people like shit even when they didn't deserve that
Me: We're over Taylor and stop texting me or act like we're dating bc we're not
Suddenly I feel worse about my situation.
Me: look I'm sorry it's just
Me: I like someone else
Me: to make this clear I want this to be fair I can't be with you when I want her
Me: you deserve someone who truly loves you
I honestly don't know what to do now. I've lost Sky and I dumped Taylor. But still, it didn't change anything or making it better. Sky is still out there with Kyle.
Speaking of Kyle, Sky literally doesn't know shit about Kyle. He's the main asshole here in this school. He goes through girls faster than Taylor Swift goes through men. He's a jerk who's proud of his ass for being in a popular band and took the opportunity to flirt with whoever the hell we wanted. He told me about Sky last week when he saw Sky at the annual that she was hot and decided to take advantage on her since girl like her the innocent and nerdy would definitely fall head over heels over a guy like him.
Despite being pissed off as hell about the whole Kyle things, I'm still worried as hell he would break her heart and I won't be able to help her. I don't want to see her cry. I'd literally fall into pieces if she cries. She was a nice girl and Kyle don't deserve her tears.
I still remember when I had a terrible emotional break down two years ago when my dad died. I was so alone and I had no one to talk to even my friends because mostly they don't care and I don't want them to make fun of me for being weak so I had to leave school earlier and went to the park trying to let go of my frustration. After crying for like an hour she saw me and reached upon me to talk to me. I've never cried like that especially in front of people.
I honestly didn't expect her to be very nice to me since I accidentally dropped my milkshake on all over her on her first day of high school without even apologise.
I never really knew about her and don't really care that's why I'm being a jerk towards her all the time and never defends her when my friends make fun of her. But after she talks to me and comforts me on that day I think I've noticed her on a different level.
Since that I think I started to develop a feeling towards her but I keep denying it because I thought she was a nerdy freshman but that wasn't the main reason I'm avoiding her and being a jerk, I just don't want people to assume her a slutty girl who tries to get my attention or even judging her. Because people does that especially the ones that I associate with.
I decide about a month ago that I'd ask Dan for her phone number for a studying purpose, since
I have her in AP English and AP Psych class.
He agreed of course. After two weeks of typing then un-typing I finally sent that first text. I felt like a giant idiot for being so cliché and corny.
I wish I could turn back time and try to be nice to her. I should've just talked to her since then before I created this huge web of lies and destruction.
I really hate Kyle right now. He didn't love her like I do. He doesn't even know her like I do. I swore I could love Sky million times better than Kyle.
Sky was too silver spoon and too angel to be with a devil like Kyle.
**
We were waiting for Kyle at the studio for almost fifteen minutes. He's really playing games with me I see.
"Sorry guys, I've settled down a bit problem," I heard Kyle says as he reaches the studio.
"Where have you been?" Dave our drummer asked him.
"Hanging out a bit with that emo girl, Sky," I look at him with an annoyed expression but he didn't notice me.
"Guess what I've met this blonde." Lucky I was holding my phone and decide to record it.
"Who?" I purposely asked.
"After meeting this emo, I met this smoking hot blonde. I don't know I think she's a freshman and I ask her if she wants to hangout tonight and she says yes easier than I ever thought." He says proudly and I swear I'm going to punch his face right now.
I press the stop button and save it in a file. I can't wait to send this to Sky.
"So you met two girls in one time?" Michael ask.
"Yeah how cool is that?" he says.
He can't be fucking serious.
"I thought you're with Sky?" I ask.
"Nah, it's all on her if she actually catches feelings. I was just playing around. She's kinda fun though."
Literally, makes my blood boils after he said that.
"First, fuck yourself. Second, blow your fucking brain and jump off the cliff. She likes you and you're technically playing around?"
"Why are you defending that emo? A bit of a crush I see?" he is testing me right now.
"Mess with her and I won't hesitate to punch you on the throat. Keep my word Hogan." I said and walk out of the studio.
#I'm outdated overrated, Morning seems so far away