Zhuzhi-Lang did not see with his own eyes what the first encounter between Tianlang-Jun and Su Xiyan was like, as he was queuing for a newly released book by a well-known author during that time, at Tianlang-Junâs request.
Originally he was not really that curious. But after that, Tianlang-Jun was in this kind of state for a long time:
While transporting him in his snake form, Tianlang-Jun would say from the top of his head,
âIn all the drama scripts Iâve seen, the maidens of the human world were all gentle and thoughtful. I thought all the maidens were like this too. But it turned out that Iâve been deceived. Oh Zhuzhi-Lang, one canât see plays like this too much.â
The next time, Junshang would have forgotten his own words that âone canât see plays like this too muchâ, and he would say while watching with gusto.
âDo I look like I canât lift my own hands? Like, Iâm so poor that I donât even have the traveling expenses to return home?â
When Zhuzhi-Lang was washing his clothes, Tianlang-Jun would squat beside him gracefully and say,
âZhuzhi-Lang, howâs my face? Am I not handsome? Generally speaking, when young maidens see a face like mine, wouldnât it stir up their hearts at once?â
Zhuzhi-Lang shook and wrung the clothes dry before he hung them up on a bamboo pole. As he respectfully played along with Tianlang-Jun, he silently thought about all those messed-up drama scripts he had seen together with Junshang. He could not speak for anyone else, but the way Junshang behaved now was more like those maidens whose hearts had been stirred up.
Thus, he could not help but feel curious.
In Zhuzhi-Langâs imagination, a maiden who frequented a deserted city alone where demons abound, who told Tianlang-Jun to take his bantering elsewhere and not to be a hindrance while she was getting rid of evil, and who even threw Tianlang-Jun three pieces of silver for his travel expenses back home after she was done killing demons...... even if she was not big and burly with broad shoulders and a round waist, she would still at least have a good physique and a murderous gleam in her eyes.
Until he met that culprit who had caused Tianlang-Jun to reflect on himself and had tormented him for days, Zhuzhi-Lang discovered that she was not like what he had imagined at all.
Tianlang-Jun liked to wander around the human world. Wandering around the human world costed money, but he never remembered to bring money along. Thus, Zhuzhi-Lang remembered for him. However, he had no concept of money and never knew how to restrain himself when it came to spending money. He would stake a thousand pieces of gold on one throw whenever he felt like it and Zhuzhi-Lang could not stop him. Spending money like water in such a way made it difficult to cope with even if he carried around a mountain of gold and silver every day, and eventually, there would be times their funds ran embarrassingly low.
Just as these two foreign visitors were standing all red-faced on the street, a tall maiden in black with a sword on her back walked by.
Tianlang-Jun said, âHalt.â
âAs she passed by, that maiden slightly raised her eyebrows. A wisp of teasing smile appeared on the corners of her mouth, and she stood still.
Tianlang-Jun said, âWhen you encounter someone who has suffered an injustice, shouldnât you ought to draw your sword and render a helping hand?â â
ââThe other party said, âI could consider drawing my sword, but I will have to reject loosening the strings of my money pouch1. You still have not returned me that three taels of silver I lent you the other time for your travel expenses.ââ
Tianlang-Jun said, âDid you? Itâs only three taels of silver. All right, if you lend me another three, you can buy me for three days.â â
âShe flatly refusedâ, âYou seem âlike you canât âlift or carry anythingâ, nor do âany âphysical work âor distinguish rice from wheat2. Whatâs the use of buying you?ââ â
After watching for so long, Zhuzhi-Lang frankly said, âZhushang, this lady...... probably finds you too expensive.ââ
Tianlang-Jun was disdained by someone. This was nothing; sometimes, the maids and guards who served him would also âsecretly avoid him, especially when he was reading aloud with âgreat emotion. But, never to the extent that he was shunned even with the price reduced to three taels.
Tianlang-Jun said, âLetâs not talk about anything else. But isnât my face worth three taels of silver?â â
The other party choked, âscrutinized his face for a while, âthen laughed, âMhm, it sure is.â
âA swing of her hand revealed âa heavy ingot of gold.
ââSince then, Tianlang-Junâs âexpenditure in the human world âwas like a flood breaking through a dam, âbecoming more and more uncontrolled âuntil one could not bear the sight of it. He had found a golden backer. As long as âZhuzhi-Lang âdug out âan empty embroidered pouchâ ââwith an embarrassed lookâ on his faceââ, heâ would knock on the door of that golden backer âhappilyâ âwithout hesitationââ.
âZhuzhi-Lang âalways felt something was wrong, as if somethingâ had been reversed. â
Why âdid Su Xiâyanâ seem like the son of a wealthy and prestigious family âin all those drama âliterature?
ââWhy âdid Tianlang-Jun look like a pamperedââ and naïveâ young âmistress whoâ hadâ run away from home?
Andâ,â why âwas he so much like âa âsmall, prudentâ ââmaid âsent as part of her young mistressâs dowry to attend and run errands for her?
âZhuzhi-Lang tried to remind âJunshang to face up to this ââaberrationâ âand regain âhis dignity as âthe âdemonâsâ sovereign, but Tianlang-Jun enjoyed the relationshipâ of keeping someone and âbeing kept. He poured all his entire passion for humanity, however blind it was, into this one person. â
ââSu Xiyan âwas really a ruthlessâ person, and yet she was also intriguing.â
ââWhen they met, âshe would bring them to find all kinds of rare things and go to all kinds of interesting placesâ: the banned âbooks that Zhuzhi-Lang could not find, the strange âLingzhi growing in a hidden cave, ââthe lake with waters like flowing crystal dews, âand the not-very-renowned âcourtesan who played the pipa skillfully and beautifully. And when âthey did not meet, sheâ wouldâ disappear for tenâ to fourteen daysâ without a trace. â
Without making a sound, without showing her infatuation, âwithout voicing her yearning. She had her own plans, and she did it all watching coldly from the sidelines.â
Because half of âhisâ lineageâ was that of a snakeâ, Zhuzhiâ-Lang had âthe natural instinctâ of an animalâ. He could vaguely feel that this personâ befriending them ââwas an extremely dangerousâ matterâ.
She was not cast in the same mold as that of the female demons who were all enchanting or bewitching; she was serious, focused, and even seemed to be gentle and refined. Yet, she really just âseemed to be âgentleââ;â âZhuzhi-Lang âdared not say whether he could get an advantage over her when the bloodshed really began.
Underneath the surface of âthat gentleness was arrogance and indifferenceâ, her wild ambitionsâ concealed her schemes. As the second person in power in the âHuan Hua Palace, âshe was in a high position and often commanded thousands of people. Since ancient times, the four major âsects including Huan Hua Palace âhad been the enemies of the âdemons. âTo them, Su Xiyan âwas a very dangerous person.
âZhuâzâhiâ-Lang âreported all the information he had gathered to Tianlangâ-âJun, but Tianlang-Jun âwas not concerned.
Once he became obsessed with something, he would forgetâ all aboutâ death and life and put all his eggs in one basket. It âwas not that âhe did not know about it, but that âhe ââhadâ never doubted her.
The price he paid for ânever doubtingââ was being pinned under Bailu Mountain for over ten years in total darkness, and with no chance for justice and redemption.
ââI want to kill humans.ââ
In these ten years, this was âthe sentence that Tianlang-Jun would repeat the most. Yet the thing Tianlang-Jun used to like the most was humankind; he had never killed a human being before.
Without âa strong source of demonic energy to maintain Zhuzhi-Langâs human form, he had reverted to his half-snake body. Every time Tianlang-Jun saw him crawling with difficulty on the ground, he would throw him a word, âScram.â
âYour crawling is too ugly,â he said.
â Zhuzhi-Langâ would thenâ silently âwiggle outside to find a place âwhich was not exposed to ââsunlight and moonlight,â andâ continue to practice âhis rusty crawling skill.
Junshangâs temper had worsened beyond imagination, but Zhuzhi-Lang had no strength to be angry or aggrieved. â
âWhat Tianlang-Junâs scram really meant, was for him to scram back to the demon realm, to scram back to Nan Jiang, to scram back to his old home, to scram off anywhere except beside Tianlang-Jun.
âââââTianâlangâ-âJun âcould not tolerate others seeing himâ in such a pathetic, miserable state, where he could neither ask for life nor seek death. He âhad been bornâ âthe most honorable prince inâ theâ demonâ realm. He had never suffered hardships âand had always been calm and elegantâ; he rejected any âboorish stuff that âmight âhurt his image, and âhe even had âa âslight âobsession with cleanliness. He âdid not like ugly things, but âin actuality, âthe way he was right now wasâ far uglier than anyone else.
âCovered in blood and âimprisoned under seventy-two iron chains and forty-nine âstrong spells, âhe could only watchâ his body âârot and stink âgradually day after dayâ. âYet âheâ âwas still extremely clear-headedâ âand âcould not even ââpass out even if he wanted to. The people in the âcultivation world couldâ not kill him, so they tried their best to torture him. âPerhaps theâ ugly half-snake form of the âZhuzhi-Langâ âlooked even better than that of Tianlangâ-Jun in this state.
âZhuzhi-Lang could no longer speak after âhis âdegeneration, thus Tianlang-Jun began to talk to himself. Nearly half of the time every day, he âwould repeat the dialogueâsâ and aria of âthose drama literature. Sometimesâ, âwhile Tianlangâ-Jun was singing, â the words would be abruptlyâ âstuck in his throat. Zhuzhi-Lang knewâ thenâ âthat âthis must âhave âbeen one of the plays âthat Su Xiyan took them to see.
However, after âa period of âsilence, Tianlangâ-âJun âwould suddenly continue âon in an even higher voice. The lingering melody âwould be dragged out for a long time âin that hoarse voice of âhis as it reverberated âin the uninhabited valleyâ â âprolongedâ, and sorrowfulâ.
Zhuzhi-Lang could not speak, so he could not tell him to âstop singing.â He could not raise his hands, could not cover his ears, could not stop himself from listening to this voice. In this manner, he started to understand what being âpowerlessâ truly meant.
Since you are heartbroken, since you are suffering, then why force yourself? â
The only thing he could do was to persevere day after day. He used his mouth to hold on to the leaves that contained the water of Lake Lu, and little by little, clean those wounds on Tianlang-Junâs bodyâ âthat would never heal.
These ten years, they never knew the existence of Luo Binghe. âSu Xiâyan failed to rise to a position of power as âthey had âexpected and had instead âvanished without a single trace. âFor a long time after they were freed from this prison, they still never found out anything about her.
Thus, when Zhuzhi-Lang saw that face for the first time in Nan Jiang, âhe was so shocked that he forgot all about the task he was entrusted with. After a fight, he went straight back to report to Tianlangâ-Jâun.
âAnd so, there was the battle at the âHolyâ Mausoleumââ.â
After spitting out Shen Qingqiu from his mouth and settling him down, Tianlang-Jun looked at Zhuzhi-Lang who was focused on fanning the charcoal and asked, âDo you think he looks more like me or like her?â â
Zhuzhi-Lang understood what this âhimâ and âherâ meant. He said, âDidnât Junshang said it before? Like his mother.â
Tianlang-Jun shook his head and laughed, âThat was just me feigning to be cold-hearted......ââ
In fact, they all âknew that Luo Bingheâs attachment to and dependence on human beings, as well as âhis stubbornness and âsentimentality when it came to charging forward and never turning backâ, were more like Tianlangâ-Jun.
âResting his chin in one hand,â Tianlang-Junâ looked at ââShen âQingqiu who had his eyes closed and sighed, ââBut he is much âmore blessed than me.â
âIt was indeed fortunate that the man whom Luo Binghe would never let go off was a person such as Shen Qingqiu. At the very least, Shen Qingqiu would definitely not gather the entire cultivation world and trap Luo Binghe under Cang Qiong Mountain.
Furthermore, only two people in this world had never looked at that hideous appearance of Zhuzhi-Lang with abhorrence and loathing.â One was Tianlang-Jun, and the other was Shen Qingqiu. â
Tianlang-Jun asked, âHow about it? Do you want to âsnatch away this blessing?â
After staring for a while, he finally understood what Tianlang-Jun meant. His face turned beet red, âJunshang!â â
ââTianlangâ-Jun said: ââJust snatch him away. âWe are all demons, ââthereâs no need to be particular about this. Furthermore, you are cousins, what are you afraid of? The previous âgeneration âMobei âLord openly âsnatched away the legal wife of hisâ ownâ younger brother too.â
Zhuzhi-Lang replied, âI have never harbored this thought!ââ
Tianlang-Jun asked curiously, âThen why are you blushing?â â
âZhuzhi-Lang tolerantly said, âJunshang...... Perhaps if you didnât get me to hunt so many of those books, or ask me to look at them together with you, or force me to revise constantly by reading it out, then this subordinate will definitely not blush.â
âThat had always caused weird stuff to echo in his ears, so much that he could not look straight at Immortal Master3 Shen with a clear conscience.â
He understood why Tianlangâ-âJun always âloved to tease him like this. Behind the âteasing, âhe was also sounding him out and egging him on.ââ
Since the day they were freed from Bailu Mountain, Tianlangâ-Jun had no planâsâ to use this body for âthe ââlong term, nor had he any plans for the future.
âBut when he saw Shen Qingqiu, Tianlang-Jun actually hadâ felt like he could breathe a sigh of relief. He thought, âThereâs finally someone to take over this silly nephew.â
âA blockhead like Zhuzhi-Lang would only revolve his life around others, âand not for âhimself. âIf there was someone else he could follow, then he would not be âso âlost âand alone âin the world after âTianlang-Jun had tormented himself to death. He felt that Shen Qingqiu was a decent person to follow, regardless of the kind of âfollowâ. â
âWith this mysterious peace of mind, Tianlangâ-Jun âbecame âmore and more âbrazen and squandered away huge amounts of his demonic energy. The degeneration and deterioration of his body grew faster day by day, âwith an arm or a finger or some other body parts frequently breaking off. âZhuzhi-Lang was hard-pressedâ to find a way to âpatch him up.
ââThis timeâ,â he tried âusing thread and needle to âsew up his limbs. Tianlangâ-Jun let him hold his armââ and ââsew him up. He said, ââYâour intuition has always been very accurateâ.ââ
âZhuzhi-Lang replied affirmatively. Tianlang-Jun said, âThen between me and Luo Binghe, who would win and who would lose?ââ
After a moment of silence, he said unhurriedly, âEven if you say nothing, I know it too. Iâm bound to lose.â
â
âZhuzhi-Lang bit off the thread and tied a knot. â
âTianlang-Jun said half in jest, âWhy donât you follow Peak Lord Shen from now on? If he can âtake care of Luo Binghe, it wouldnât matter to take care of you as well.â
Zhuzhi-Lang said, âLetâs just sleep, Junshang.ââ
ââTianâlang-Jun was still talking nonsenseâ,â ââArenât you going to âPeak Lord Shenâs tent tonight to remove the QingSi thread? âYou heard me asking him today if he and Luo Binghe had dual cultivated, and going by his expression, âthey definitely have not. He who strikes firstâ gains the upper handâ, you know what I mean?â
Zhuzhi-Lang pretended not to hear and bent his waist to remove his boots, but his hands turned up empty. Tianlang-Jun bent his legs up, then placed his boots on top of the hide of a wild beast. He asked him with a serious face, âWhat can I do to crush to your self-esteem and make you disheartened so you would walk away from me with a broken heart?â
Zhuzhi-Lang said, âAfter seeing so many plays and scripts, this scene is no longer novel. It is impossible for you to crush this subordinateâs self-esteem. So, letâs just sleep, Junshang.ââ
âTianlang-Jun said, âI donât feel like sleeping so early. Hurry and go to âPeak Lord Shenâs tent. Iâll come to see you both later.â
âZhuzhi-Lang helplessly said, âJunshang, youâre so willful.â âIn stirring up trouble, letting his imagination run wild, and giving bad advice.
âTianlang-Jun said, ââHave I not been so willful for so many years? So how about it? Do you want to consider leaving me?â
âIt was as if the Junshang today was drunkâ, his ability to ârender people speechless â to make them unable to cry or laugh â was âtenfold more intense. Zhuzhiâ-Lang shook his head, reached out âhis hand in about five or six attempts to grab his boots before he finally grabbed hold of them and took them off forcibly. He repeated, ââLâetâs sleep, Junshangâ.ââ
âTianlang-Jun was pushed down onto the âbed and covered with a blanket against his will. He commented, âYou are becoming more and more like a mum.â
âHe sighed, ââDid you think your uncle was just making fun of you? You wouldnât ask me to stop, and you wouldnât think of an escape route. Zhuzhi-Lang, if you keep on being this way, what will happen to you in the future?â
âââAs expected, I still canât hate humansâ.â This was what Tianlang-Jun said to Shen Qingqiu. â
When he heard it, Zhuzhi-Langâs heart was actually a little happy for him.
âJunshang had âfinally admitted âthose heartfeltâ, unwaveringâ thoughts âof his. âHe âno longer had to force himselfâ to pretend anymore. â
âIn the midst of the falling rocks, âTianlangâ-Jâun murmured, ââAâlas, âZhuzhi-Lang, you really donât look great like this.â
âThere was no need to grouse. It thought, it still âhad a little âbit of âstrengthâ left, enough to hold out for a whileâ. It would not let Junshang die together with it. There was no need to worry that dying with it would lose him any aesthetic points.
Aâs Maigu Ridge turned into dust and smoke with an earth-shattering bang, a large snake âplunged âinto the shimmering Luo River.
â
ââActually, Shen Qingqiu did not hear the rest of Tianlang-Junâs words. There was a softly spoken sentence at the end, and only Zhuzhi-Lang heard it.
He said, âBut, why is it so hard to like a person?ââ
At that time, Zhuzhiâ-Lang could not ââsqueeze out a smileâ,â ânor say a word. âIt could only look pensive and flick its tongue and hiss until Tianlang-Junâs face was full of snake saliva.
It thought, it was really hard. But ââno matter how hard it was, it was even harder for a heart âto stop âthis love.