Simon stood up and the nurses took him to one of the rooms to treat his injuries. I accompanied him and entered the room with him. He couldn't even speak! He sat on the bed while they did their job, and I sat on the chair next to him watching him slightly, tears stinging my eyes and making my vision blurry every now and then.
It's because of me he's in this situation. If I had just shut my mouth nothing would have happened to him. But it's as if he read my mind because he took my hands in his big ones and caressed them soothingly.
"It's not your fault Luna, don't blame yourself. It's natural for a mate to act this way, especially if he's the Alpha." He mumbled but I still managed to hear it. I don't care if he's Alpha! He didn't have the right to beat him up.
"What can I do so you could forgive me?" I whispered as I rubbed my eyes, wiping the unshed tears.
"Nothing! You absolutely did nothing wrong Lou. Look at me..." He said as I looked in his hazel eyes, "You tried your best and for that I am grateful. I am not upset with you Lou." He gave me a genuine smile before adjusting himself on the bed.
"You should rest." I said with a small smile before getting up and leaving him.
I decided to go back to my room, as I entered it slightly I saw that Ryan was sitting on the chair next to my bed. He had my pillow in his hands while he buried his face in it exhaling my smell left on the soft material. He was adorable, but that wasn't the point.
He looked up at me with worried and sad eyes. I stared at him in disbelief. How could he?
I was about to turn around and leave but he suddenly slammed the door shut and pressed his arm on it, making it impossible for me to escape from what was coming next.
"I'm sorry Lorraine, I just...You weren't supposed to know about it that way." He whispered in my ear as I flinched when his breath fanned over my skin. Was he talking about Rebecca? I don't give a crap about her anymore, I'm currently trying to forget her but he decided to remind me about this whole messed up situation.
"I'm not a man whore, well technically I was..." He said looking down at me but I was staring at the floor not able to look at him at the moment. "Please take a seat, I'm going to tell you the whole truth, since that's what you wanted in the first place." He mumbled the last part but he was literally so close to me that it was hard to not hear it.
I didn't move, I was fine standing up. But he seemed to notice my stubbornness and furrowed his eyebrows at me shaking his head from left to right.
"You're not gonna sit are you?" Silence. I wasn't going to talk to him.
"Alright as you wish..." He said before lifting me up bridal style which made me yelp at his action and instantly wrapped my arms around his neck that way I wasn't going to fall. I still didn't look at him but he just stared at me with his beautiful ocean green eyes.
He placed me on the bed gently and sat in front of me, not letting go of my hands.
"After I was chosen to be Alpha at eighteen years old, I gave up on the fact that I had a mate, that's why I started messing around. I couldn't believe the idea that I had a mate waiting for me in this cruel world, I didn't believe it because a monster like me didn't deserve someone like you." He said which made my heart skip a beat. He was right! He was a monster.
"I started messing around, all the girls I slept with were meaningless fucks. You have to believe me Lorraine, I never cared for anyone before, they meant nothing to me. I slept with them for distraction, to clear my mind from...things, to forget about everything. But it wasn't the right choice to do and for that I am truly sorry." He said looking at me with hope in his eyes, wishing for me to forgive him but I stayed quiet.
What did all of that have to do with Simon?
"FOR FUCK'S SAKE TALK TO ME LORRAINE." He screamed making me flinch back. What was wrong with him? Why was he screaming at me? I am the one who should be screaming at him! I stood up ready to leave after what he did but he caught my hands and pushed me towards his embrace. That's when I realized that my cheeks were wet and my vision was blurry, I was crying again...
"I'm so sorry baby, I didn't mean to scream at you. You were so quiet I thought you weren't going to forgive me. I understand if you don't though, let me just finish what I had to say..." He said quietly still holding me. I didn't even bother fighting to get out of his grasp because I knew I wasn't going to win. I just sat on his lap crying like a helpless child.
"R-Rebecca was the only girl I remembered and did it a couple of times with, while it was just a one night stand for all the other women. I was never in a relationship with her, I was never even in a relationship before you, before I found out I had a gorgeous mate just for me. Rebecca didn't mean fuck to me. I ended everything six months ago Lorraine, please believe me." He was never in a relationship before me? What the hell! I am not in a relationship with him.
I stayed silent like always but I stopped crying, getting actually mad now. What's with my mood swings today? All I did was cry and get angry, cry and get angry.
"I will never date a monster like you Ryan." I spat harshly at him as I stood up making my way to the door. I swung the door open and left the room, leaving a shocked Ryan behind.
'You go girl!' I said to myself as I patted my shoulder mentally. I didn't know where I was going, until I was standing in front of Simon's room. Why was I here?
I didn't think twice as I entered the room and found him sitting on the bed talking to doctor Alzick.
"I'm sorry, I-I didn't realize you're busy, I'll visit later..." I mumbled looking at the floor. I was about to turn around when doctor Alzick stopped me.
"It's alright Luna! I just finished here, you can stay." He said with a smile that, was very contagious might I add, and suddenly my face brightened up as doctor Alzick left the room leaving us alone.
"So..." I whispered looking at him with worry in my eyes.
"I'm good Lou. Actually I'm perfect, I'm leaving right now." He laughed while looking at me.
"Really? I'm also leaving! But it's for tonight..." I said excitedly as I clapped my hands slightly walking closer to where he was laying and sitting on the edge of the bed.
"Hey Simon, can I tell you something?" I said before looking at my hands sitting on my lap. Why did I feel so comfortable around him? Why did I feel like I can tell him anything and he would still be by my side?
"Sure Lou, if you want to..."
"I just had another argument with-" I didn't finish my sentence when suddenly the door swung open hitting the wall next to it with a loud 'SLAP'. A furious Ryan stood there, if he was in a cartoon, his face would be bloody red and steam would leave from his ears. That's how mad he is at the moment.
"You don't talk to me like that young lady. There should be mutual respect between us, and it seemed to be none existent when you first found out I was a werewolf!" He said to me while I was just sitting there looking at him in pure disgust. Who does he think he is? A king?
'He's the Alpha, so basically yeah a king of werewolves.' Well I am not a werewolf and he means nothing to me!
But this time I stayed quiet because I knew if I answered back, it would become a huge fight between us. That's how it always was after I found out he was a werewolf. Thinking of the memories of the peaceful week I spent at his house before the confession, I think it's because of me that all these arguments even exist.
'Well of course it's because of you Lou! All you ever did was escape while he tried his best to explain himself. Don't you remember how good he treated you before you had an attitude!' Oh will you shut up already? I still can't believe werewolves exist. It's hard for me to believe in these things when I'm realistic.
Suddenly an idea popped in my head. What if I make Ryan apologize to Simon?
"You've been a demon for too long Angel."
"Apologize to Simon." I said with a stern voice.
"What?" They both said at the same time.
"You heard me. Apologize to Simon or I won't talk to you again..."
"You can't not talk to me Lorraine!"
"Watch me." I said as I crossed my arms over my chest and turned my face towards Simon.
"I don't think it's a good idea Lou...He never apologized to anyone before, and besides he was right to hit me. It was none of my business to tell you..." He whispered softly, worried about what's going to happen next.
"Oh shut up Simon, I was the one who ordered you to tell me the truth. It wasn't your fault." I spoke loud enough so Ryan would hear me clearly and would know that Simon was innocent.
"Fuck! Fine, alright fine. If that's what you want Sunshine. I'm fucking sorry Simon. Happy now?" He sighed turning to face me, frustrated at how easy I manipulated him.
"Very!" I said with a grin on my face feeling satisfied that for the first time I won a fight with him.
"Oh Alpha! I forgive you!" Simon said happily with fake tears in his eyes while engulfing Ryan in a tight hug. I laughed at them, seeing how Simon was hugging Ryan and Ryan trying to escape from his grasp, which reminded me of the many times I tried escaping from Ryan's grasp. How ironic!
"Oh fuck off Simon! You look like a desperate guy!" Ryan said annoyed while rolling his eyes. I shipped them...
"Oh but you like hugs. Especially when Lou gives you one, oh wait! She doesn't." Simon said mockingly while pinching Ryan's cheek.
"Don't make me hit you again." Ryan threatened menacingly and pushed Simon back. He got up and adjusted his clothes, making the movement of cleaning the dust from his shirt.
"The doctor told me you can leave now since you haven't shown any signs of dizziness or fainting." Ryan spoke softly this time.
"Okay, see you tomorrow Simon." I waved at him as I stood up and we both made our way to the door.
The trip back home was silent, none of us spoke in the car while we exited the hospital, which was also situated in the pack village. It was indeed in the middle of the woods...Everyone seemed to know me though, wherever I went, I received smiles and 'hello' and waves. It was kind of nice to see some people finally enjoying my presence.
It was late when we finally arrived at Ryan's house. I got out of the car and decided to take a shower tomorrow since I was exhausted at the moment. Ryan soon entered the house with a bag in his hand.
Oh right the bag of clothes I got from the pack members. I remember how everybody was so kind. And I finally have women clothes to wear!
I approached him and made a gesture to take the bag from his hand when he shook his head left and right saying a very calm 'no'. I nodded and we made our way to his room, I still didn't have pajamas so he gave me one of his shirts and a pair of shorts to wear underneath it. I entered the bathroom and locked the door behind me, I finished with my business, brushed my teeth and wore the clothes he gave me.
As I stepped out of the bathroom Ryan was already laying in bed watching TV.
"Can't I sleep in the other room?" I asked quietly hoping he would accept, but I already knew the answer.
"No." He said simply before patting the empty sheets next to him which meant to come lay beside him. I made my way towards the bed and climbed on it leaving a good distance between us but it soon disappeared as he wrapped his arms around my waist and pulled us incredibly closer to each other.
The warm embrace made me doubt all my thoughts. Did I really want to escape and get back to my boring life when I have a chance to start a new one, with people who love me and a whole different reality?
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Hey my fabulous readers, sorry for the long post! Hope you're enjoying the story so far. It gets better later on and there is a lot of humor coming soon. xoxo
-Your fabulous author!