Lou's POV:
I screamed and trashed around to escape from his grasp but it was to no avail. I can't believe what he just did!
He bit me!
'Just like the monster he is!'
I screamed of pain but then moaned unintentionally because of the wave of pleasure that struck me. What the hell was happening to me?
One minute I'm screaming of pain, the other second I'm moaning of pleasure.
The real question is, do I want more?
Nonsense! This is nonsense.
I moaned again but interrupted it by slamming my hand on my mouth. I can feel that Ryan was getting turned on...
He licked the blood that oozed from the bite and started trailing open mouthed kisses between my neck and shoulder. I had to stop this, I can't loose control, not again.
I pushed him away from me as hard as I can, to only figure out he was just inches away from my body.
'Damn, you're so strong Lou!' My conscience was making fun of me and my strength. 'Just doing my job kiddo.' Not the best moment let me tell you that.
"WHAT THE FUCK? YOU MOTHERFUCKING BIT ME!" I screamed at his face, his hands clenching into fists and his jaw tightening. Once I start cursing, I go big, not just those stupid little curses like shit or bitch, no I'd rather ruin that motherfucker's useless life than act like a lady!
"YOU'RE MINE! NOW EVERYONE WILL KNOW THAT!" He yelled back as he smirked and stared at my bruise.
"YEAH NO SHIT! EVERYONE WILL THINK I WAS ATTACKED BY THE MONSTER IN FRONT OF ME! IT FREAKING PAINED ME YOU IDIOT!" I yelled, lifting my hand to touch it but I immediately hissed at the contact and removed my hand from it.
"IT DEFINITELY DIDN'T HURT YOU! YOU ENJOYED IT, don't deny it." He whispered the last part and caressed my cheek with his hand.
"Don't shut your feelings Lorraine, I know you're resisting." He whispered again cradling my face between his big hands and leaning his face closer. I looked at his beautiful green eyes, imagining all the pleasures of the world, seeing the calm ocean being held in those beautiful green eyes.
'You're getting lost in them Lou...Wake up he wants to kiss you!' Oh not again! Not on my watch.
"Don't you touch me you son of a bitch." I hissed.
I freed my face from his hold and scolded him.
"Why did you bite me like the animal that you are?" I spat mercilessly. I want answers, no, I need answers. He growled at my choice of words and shut me a glare before making absolutely no sense.
"I marked you." He confessed as he crossed his arms over his chest, causing his muscles to flex.
It was very hard not to stare at them...
'More like drool on them...' Yeah right.
"What if I don't want to be yours? Oh my god! What if I don't want to be marked?"
"You have no choice." He said sternly furrowing his eyebrows together.
Could he be more stubborn? What is his problem? He infuriates me so much...
"Uhm no! I do have a choice! This is my life we're talking about." I said placing my hands on my hips in a very sassy way and swaying my hip to the side.
'The sass is back huh?' Well it never left!
He growled at my action and whispered in a very low and husky yet dangerous tone, his eyes darkening as he stared at my hips. Was he checking me out? Wow I never thought someone would check me out and find something interesting about me.
"You shouldn't have done that." He warned. I rolled my eyes about to answer but he lifted me up and placed me on the bed, hovering over me. He started nipping at my neck skin and kissing it. His fingers were rubbing very soothing circles on my waist and I almost lashed a moan, almost.
I pushed him away, again. God, this guy needs to be pushed away from me like a hundred and one times a day! He can't keep his hands to himself now can he?
He groaned and looked at me, but I looked away very ashamed of the position we were in. He was currently straddling me, his...thing rubbing on my core. I tried not to cringe or gag so I blushed instead.
'Oh come on, we all know that shit is irresistible. I'm kind of wandering how you're still a virgin when you're around a horny hot piece of meat.' THAT WAS JUST DISGUSTING! I CAN'T...I'M SHUTTING YOU DOWN FOR A MOMENT SO YOU COULD CALM YOURSELF DOWN LOU!
"You tried to rape me." I said in a very low voice, it merely was a whisper but he heard it and stared at me with sad eyes. My eyes on the other hand were beginning to water and I tried blinking the tears away but two of them escaped.
"I would never..." He said in a very sad tone and wiped my tears with his warm fingers.
'I wander what those fingers could do other than wipe your pathetic tears...' You dirty little...
'I'm not as dirty as you girl, you're virgin mind wasn't supposed to know what I meant. But I forgot you read fifty shades of grey and fifty shades darker on your own will so, you're not as innocent as you think you are!'
Oh my god! She's driving me crazy!
I started crying miserably while he lifted me up from under him and cradled my small figure into his huge one. He tightened his embrace and started whispering soft words into my ear.
Stupid period hormones! In my period I only cry and wallow or get angry and shout all the time. Speaking of angry, when is the next anger wave going to hit me?
As soon as I thought about it I remembered Rebecca and a thought of her and Ryan probably having the best time of their life passed through my mind. Oh hell no!
"LEAVE ME ALONE! WHY DON'T YOU GO SCREW REBECCA WHILE YOU'RE AT IT SINCE SHE CAME BACK FROM HER TRIP JUST TO SEE YOU!" I screamed in his face, seeing his soft handsome features turn into an expression of shock.
"What?" He whispered confused.
"You heard me, why don't you go to Rebecca, since she's the only one that can satisfy you!" I said in a more angry tone yet I was still mocking what she said earlier. I suddenly remembered her words, how I don't have boobs, how I'm never going to satisfy Ryan.
He's not happy with me, he will never be...
"What's wrong with you? I'll never go to that bitch! I told you we stopped like 7 months ago!" He replied furiously.
"Admit it, she makes you happy Ryan, I can never make you happy! I'm not even happy!" I said feeling the tears back.
"WHAT THE FUCK LORRAINE? SHE IS NOTHING TO ME OKAY? I FUCKING LOATH HER, but I know one thing, It's that I fucking love you, you're the only one for me. I don't want anyone except you, my angel." He said the last part in a calmer tone, his eyes held sincerity and honesty. But if I asked him this question, will he answer it the way I want it?
"Why?" I asked simply as he looked in my now watery eyes. He opened his mouth but shut it then opened it again but nothing came out of it.
"That's what I thought." I whispered. Feeling his gaze on me I screamed and yelled.
"LEAVE ME ALONE, LEAVE ME! Please..." I said the last word while giving up and accepted all the tears that slide down my cheeks. I need to be alone for a minute.
He soon got up and headed for the door, but before he opened it, he made sure to let me know something.
"I'm not good with words, I never have been and probably never will be. But what I'm sure of, is that I love you for so many fucking reasons, Lorraine. I just need some time to learn how to express my feelings." He said before walking out of the door and shutting it behind him.
"That's not a reason, it's an excuse." I spat harshly but he was already out of the room, so he didn't hear me.
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Ryan's POV:
"That's not a reason, it's an excuse." She said after I shut the door behind me. I heard it, and it broke my heart. Her having to doubt me was the worst thing ever. I have to change this, even if I need to get help from others.
I never needed help, I always got everything my way. But Lorraine, she's something else...Her stubbornness attracts me even more, she turns me on without even doing anything. God I can't believe I confessed to her that way! Shouldn't it be in a more romantic way?
'Look at you, all fucked up because of her. I like our mate, very very much!' Oh believe me, I love her more than anything, but she's not making it easy for me.
'Well they say: If she's easy, she's not amazing. But if she's amazing, she's not easy.' You're right...She was a fucking hard challenge.
"Maya I need your help." I said as I came back downstairs and saw the three of them sitting in the living room. None of them dared to say a word after what happened today.
They heard me and Lou fighting, but I didn't care.
All I cared about is winning Lorraine's heart.
"Yes, Alpha?" Maya jumped from the couch and came towards me.
"I need...advice." I said embarrassed as she rubbed her hands together and a smile on her face appeared.
"Ooh okay, where do you want to start from?" She chanted in a very excited tone.
"The beginning." I said honestly as we headed out of the door to go sit somewhere else. Theo was, of course, with us because he can't leave his mate. It's not that he doesn't trust me, he does really, it's just they're addicted to each other and can't be away from each other that long.
I still wander how I can go to work without Lou being with me all the time. I miss her, a lot! But her being a human makes it easier for us since she can't feel the strength of the bond like I do. So we actually can be separated for like a day or two, but eventually I'll end up running back to her.
God what is she doing to me? I can't spend a minute without thinking about her!
Some people are addicted to alcohol, drugs, chocolate. Well I'm addicted to her. My sweet little Angel.
I guess that's what it means to have a mate, and be in love...
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Lou's POV:
I was currently on the bed, replaying everything that happened since this morning, again and again in my head.
When was I a bad girl dear God? Why did you give me this life?
Yes, I am this desperate to start questioning my life!
I was happily wallowing on my mess and misery until a soft knock came on the door followed by a sweet voice too. He never ceased to cheer me up.
"Can I come in Lou?" Simon asked softly.
"I don't have a reason to not allow you to, so yeah you can come in..." I answered. Forgetting about everything right now might be a good idea.
'Maybe a good cure for your insanity too Lou!' Oh that's just so sweet of you!
He opened the door and shut it behind him. Simon came closer and sat on the bed next to my legs and looked me straight in the eyes, waiting for me to start a conversation.
"Who do you think of when the word perfect is mentioned?" I blurted out without any hesitation. If I wanted to be perfect, I had to ask a male population about their thoughts on the perfect girl.
"Seriously how are you doing Lou?" He asked as he placed his thumb and index on each side of his nose between his eyes. A smile cracked up on his face when I chuckled.
"Answer my question please."
"You." He said and looked at me with a small smile on his lips.
"You have to be joking Simon. I'm nothing near perfect, in fact I'm quiet the opposite."
"Well you know, no one is perfect but you're the closest thing to it actually."
"Really? And how so? You heard Rebecca." He can't be serious can he?
"Fuck that bitch! You're the most sane person I've ever met. You understand everyone, you're selfless, helpful, full of kindness and you're polite! So what about you? Who in, your opinion, is perfect to you?"
"I would probably say Theo." I said calmly hiding my blush because of what he said a second ago about me.
"Theo? Why?"
"Because he's the sanest person I ever met, he's so calm and caring for his girl, he's really loyal too."
"You know being calm doesn't always mean that he's normal, or sane. He might be plotting a murder and no one will figure it out." He chuckled.
"Alright then, Maya."
"Oh for fuck's sake be serious Lou! Maya? Really?" He said as he started laughing and fell on his back shaking uncontrollably, still not stopping his laughter.
"What's so funny?" I asked kind of hurt that he's not accepting my taste.
"Oh it's nothing, just you thinking that Maya is perfect. Come on Lou! Are you sick or something? Maya is nothing close to perfect, she's the most insane girl I have ever met."
"Well I agree-"
"Then stop! Clear your mind from all things. Think of a person who doesn't seem to have flaws to you and just say the name." He interrupted.
I closed my eyes and did a mental sort. I sorted every person I know and then, the one person that didn't seem to have flaws to me, the person that was only stupid sometimes but in a positive way was the person I thought of as perfect.
"You..."