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I had discovered that the ability to dream and delve into my past life's memories could be shared with my Spirit, Eleanora. With that, she seemed to have seen what I sawâ¦
It made me feel rather happy to know there was someone that could relate to what I felt.
It honestly makes me feel embarrassed to think about it, especially because I had tried to suppress my feelings a lot in my previous life.
Especially⦠after Saphira's death. I ended up becoming someone even colder and expressionless than before. I ended up seeing emotions as a weakness I couldn't have.
I suppose I've gone back full circle⦠to think that I would once more treasure my emotions.
I had to die to finally do it once moreâ¦
But I wonder if what I am doing is okay.
What would my past self say about the me of now?
Would he laugh at how pathetic a man I have become?
Or would he smile back at me, and tell me that it was the right thing to do?
What⦠is the right thing to do at the end?
It's all always depends on our own perspectives, on our own moralsâ¦
But at the end of the day, what's right or wrong⦠it's what I decide.
I cannot say that I will change abruptly from one day to another.
It is actually impossible. My own mind is different, I cannot possibly be a completely different person.
But I can once more slowly open up the things I've caged my entire previous life.
Perhaps what I am feeling nowâ¦
This feeling of happiness of having saved my parents, and of⦠having stopped these people from dying is what it felt like to be human.
I was never a human after all⦠until now.
However, human-like emotions were always within my heart.
"Eleanoraâ¦" I said.
"Yes?" she asked.
"Do you think I've become weaker?" I asked.
"â¦No." she said.
"You don't?" I asked.
"No⦠You've become much, much stronger nowâ¦" she said.
"Why? Aren't⦠I softer?" I sighed.
"Softer? That's not right. You've become even stronger, because you're able to carry on even with these emotions on your shoulders⦠Maybe it is my own personal opinion but⦠I like the person you're slowly becomingâ¦" she said.
"You do?" I asked.
"It's not⦠like you're changing. It feels more like⦠I am finally getting to know the real you." She said.
"Ahâ¦"
The real me?
Was I all this time⦠wearing a mask?
â¦
"I see⦠Thank you for offering me your perspective, Eleanora⦠I always thought you disliked my familyâ¦" I sighed.
"Eh? W-Well, a bit before⦠But after some time⦠I realized they had helped you a lot! In fact⦠I've never seen you so happy before, in all our previous life⦠Seeing you so happy with these people⦠soothed my heart." Said Eleanora.
Happiness⦠Right, I had forgotten what it truly felt like to be happy in my previous life.
I had sometimes felt happy, but those moments were fleeting.
Not as many as these I've experienced in this second life.
"Eleanora⦠Our second life is just starting but⦠there will be many dangers ahead⦠I think I've found a new goal," I said.
"A new⦠goal?" she asked.
"Help me defeat these demons⦠I must seal these Demonic Towers, and stop these monsters from lurking around the world where my family belongsâ¦" I said.
"Of course! You shouldn't have even asked that question." Said Eleanora.
"Then, let's go back, enough of sleeping⦠I don't like to slack around." I said.
"Understood!" said Eleanora.
Within our dreams, she smiled radiantly.
Such a beautiful smileâ¦
"I've never seen you so happy before either." I said.
"Huh?" Eleanora asked, while she suddenly blushed.n/o/vel/b//in dot c//om
I smiled back at her.
"Nothing⦠Never mind." I said.
â¦
When I opened my eyes, I found myself inside of my own room, sleeping in my bed.
I sat up in bed and quickly found three people around me.
Erika, Chris, and Eric.
"Y-You're awake! Blake!"
Erika was the first to react, jumping onto the bed and hugging me tightly.
"Y-You worked so hard! Are you feeling okay now? Y-You had a very strong fever last night⦠We were worried⦠Did you have a headache?" asked Erika.
"I feel better now⦠Thank you for worrying about me, Erika⦠But I am fine now, you don't have to worry." I said.
"Really? You're sure?" she asked. Her bright eyes looked into my own.
I smiled and petted her head.
"Yeah, I am fine." I said.
Chris and Eric, who seemed to have been sleeping just a few minutes ago opened their eyes wide open.
"Blake!"
"Y-You're awake!"
The two kids also jumped onto the bed and⦠hugged me.
"I am so happy you're okay!" said Chris.
"S-Sorry for pushing you so much!" said Eric.
"You two⦠you're hugging me?" I asked in disbelief.
"Ahâ¦!"
"Sorry, we didn't mean to!"
The two boys quickly retreated.
They seemed to be relieved I had woken up.
"You two stayed in here as well? What about your father, Chris? And your uncle, Eric?" I asked.
"E-Everyone is okay! It's all⦠thanks to youâ¦" said Chris.
"Thank you so much, Blake⦠you literally saved everyone's life⦠I⦠I am so grateful!" said Eric.
The two kids began to cry.
I would have tried to reprimand them but⦠they were just kids⦠They were not even teenagers yet.
I would be too much of a tyrant if I were to tell them to stop crying out of happiness for their beloved ones to have remained alive.
"â¦I am glad." I said with a smile.
"You really saved them⦠You're an amazing person, Blakeâ¦" said Erika. Her admiration towards me seemed to have skyrocketed even more now.
She was hugging me very tightly and suddenly kissed my cheek.
"Mooch!"
"Hm?!"
I looked at Erika with a surprised look.
"Heheh⦠You deserved it⦠Papa said that what you did was amazing⦠and he said that the potions were on the house, you don't have to pay for themâ¦" said Erika.
"â¦I see. Don't kiss me like that again out of the blueâ¦" I sighed, as I petted her head again.
POOF!
Suddenly, Eleanora emerged at my side.
She was angry.
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