âI CANâT BELIEVE YOUâRE MAKING me do this,â I moaned, knocking Baneâs shoulder with mine. Dark sunglasses covered the better part of my face, shielding my pumpkin-sized puffy eyes. I wore one of his surfing tank tops and short shorts, because I hadnât had time to grab anything from my parentsâ mansion before my father changed the locks and essentially kicked me out without giving me the chance to grab my stuff.
Bane and I stood on his motherâs wide porch. The rustic material and elaborate, colorful garden were oddly reassuring. Someone who lived in such a warm, inviting place couldnât be the type to hurt me, right?
âItâs been a long time coming. Especially now when Rexroth is busy playing house with his ex.â Bane pushed his blond hair up into a bun, rapping the door loudly. I thought it was weird that he didnât walk in, but Bane was a master when it came to strange relationships. Considering heâd moved out of the house at eighteen and not gone to college, I figured he liked his space, and maybe his mother did, too.
âSheâs not his ex, and I have no evidence theyâre playing house together.â I sniffed, rubbing my tired eyes beneath the shades. Seeing Val there had hurt like a thousand violent deaths, but I tried to tell myself that this was what was best for Luna. And Trentâ¦if he wanted to get back with her, I couldnât blame him. I knew nothing about relationships, nothing about being a parent, and next-to-zero about how to keep a family united.
The door swung open, and the person on the other end knocked my breath out of my lungs.
Bane stepped in, oblivious to the fact the rug, once again, had been pulled out from under my feet.
âGidget, this is my mom, Sonya. Sonya, this is Gidget, also known as Edie Van Der Zee.â
Sonya.
The redheaded woman Trent had been having sex with when Iâd walked into his office. To get back at me for allegedly having sex with Bane. Her son. I didnât know whether I should feel horrified or annoyed at this. Sonya obviously shared my feelings, because she took a step back from the door and clutched the fabric of her baby blue blouse, momentarily rendered speechless.
âOh,â she said, the word escaping from her mouth barely audible. I believed Trent when heâd said he was no longer seeing her, but it didnât make it any less awkward. I wondered if she knew about him and me. If she resented me for it. If sheâd even want to help me.
âWhat are you waiting for, Gidget? The fucking Pope? Come on in,â Bane grunted, making his way through the tiled hallway to the kitchen at the end of it and throwing the fridge open. He took out two cans of beer, like we werenât eighteen and underage, and sauntered over to the open-plan living room. I stayed on the threshold, unable to do so much as take my shades off.
âEdie,â Sonya whispered urgently, opening the door wider. âItâs okay. You can trust me. Iâve worked as a child psychologist for fifteen years now. Forget what you saw that day. This will not affect you or your brother.â
My brother. Thatâs right. She was the reason why Iâd seen him that Sunday.
Gingerly, I took a step in. Bane was already in the living room, cracking the beers open, The Black Keysâ âLonely Boyâ blasting from the speakers. Sonya and I walked like two stiff figures toward the couch, and I tried to cough away the ball of shame and jealousy building in my throat.
âWash it with a beer.â Bane flung his long legs over an ottoman, dropping to a shabby, something-from-Friends, purple couch. I glanced at Sonya, who gave me a polite smile.
âYouâve had a long week, I hear.â
I downed the can in a couple long gulps and threw my head onto one of the pillows, closing my eyes for a moment. Thank you.
Sonya laced her fingers in front of me, her legs crossed, giving me her undivided attention. She was dressed to kill, and my feelings toward her were at war. I wanted to dislike her, but how could I when she was hell-bent on helping me, and being so goddamn nice?
âEnjoyed that beer?â She grinned. I nodded, cradling the empty can instead of placing it on the coffee table. My father would kill me for less than staining his precious Italian oak.
âDid you know that in Europe it is legal to drink from the age of eighteen? I always preferred the Russian way better.â Her smile was so big it almost felt like a wink.
Roman âBaneâ Protsenko had an interesting mother. Sheâd run away from Russia with him, giving him freedom, and he, in exchange, lived his life the fullest.
And she was happy for him. Content.
How odd.
âNow, tell me all about your brother and your fatherâs threats regarding him. I want you to start from the beginning. From when your father placed him in the first group home.â Sonya grabbed a glass of what smelled like vodka from the coffee table and took a sip.
And I did.
I poured my heart out, telling her about how Theo was never loved, not really, by either of our parents. How Jordan had bribed his way out of being a parent, always taking the shortcut, always placing Theodore in institutions and hopping from city to city every holiday so we wouldnât have to visit Theo.
I didnât know what was more horrificâreciting the years in which Theo was neglected, saying it out loud and realizing how bad it sounded, or seeing their faces as I confided in them. Sonya looked like she was about to cry, and even Bane turned down the music at some point and stared at me like his world had turned a shade darker.
When I was done, Sonya cleared her throat, looking down at her thighs. âRoman, please step out of the room.â
If Bane was shocked, he didnât show it, taking his beer and sauntering over toward the door. âIâll be on the porch, smoking my ass off after that depressing story.â
When the door closed behind him, Sonya met my eyes. âTrent didnât offer to help you?â
âIâ¦â I tapped my lips, thinking about it for a moment. How much did she know? How much did I want her to know? Screw it. It wasnât about my summer affair with an older man. This was about Theo. âWe got involved for a while and he helped me with paying for Theoâs facility, but nothing more than that. And I doubt heâd wanna help me now. Weâreâ¦no longer in touch.â
Sonya uncrossed her legs, took another sip of her vodka, and pressed it to her cheek. Her eyes were glazed over, and for a moment, they held the same look as they had when Trent had entered her. Drunk. I shuddered into Baneâs shirt.
âWhy?â she asked softly.
I blinked. âWhy what?â
âWhy did you end it?â
âWhy do you assume Iâm the one who ended it?â I wanted to get up and do something, anything, but the need to find out if she knew something I didnât ignited and burst into flames in me.
Sonya put the glass on the table, looking up at me with a sad smile. âBecause he never would.â
âHow do you know?â I hated myself for asking. It shouldnât have mattered to me. He needed to focus on his family.
Sonya looked up at me. âBecause, Edie, he is in love with you.â