Chapter 99 Avoiding Valenâs watchful eyes in the past 24 hours has been near impossible . It didnât help that morning sickness decided to rear its ugly head . I believe that now I knew I was pregnant . Every pregnancy symptom suddenly sprang forward with an ugly vengeance , trying to screw me out of hiding it . He knows something is up because I had no doubt he could feel it .
Zoe and Macey had been at me all day about it , and just when I thought , I finally escaped them by hiding in my makeshift office in the events hall .
Thanks to Alpha Nixon , it used to be a storage room for tables and chairs , but is now my new office . It was nearly time to clock out and head home . Valen said he would pick me up tonight , worried I would run myself off the road , confusing my fear of him finding out with nervousness about the upcoming challenge But Macey and Zoe werenât giving up so easily as they burst into my office , blocking the door as I switched my desk lamp off that was running off an extension cord from the main room .
I roll my eyes as they stop my exit . Looking at the clock above the door , I pin them both with my glare , they know Valen will be here any minute , or maybe that was their plan so they could out me . â Everly , you arenât leaving us much choice , â Macey says , folding her arms across her chest . â Thatâs because it isnât your choice , I have to challenge my father . The entire city knows about the challenge . I back down now the rogues will think I am running . I need to do this , â I tell them .
â But the risks , you canât shift ! â Zoe says , her hands reaching toward my non existent bump like she pictured it round and full of limbs . â Iâm durable . I know what I am doing , I wonât let him harm me . Besides , he knows , â I tell them , chewing my lip nervously . â Your father knows , yet you havenât told your mate ! â Macey growls at me . â I didnât tell him , he found out for one , and secondly , if I do this , we hold reign over a third of the city ; Valen held half .
We only need to tip the scales a little more . Valen holds control , but not enough without my fatherâs pack to change the laws himself . Slasher , Shadow , and Nixon hold the other half , therefore equal votes within the council . This throws that out , â 11 S â Yes , but not at risk to your ... child . Think Everly ! If you do this , you are putting yourself at risk . â Macey argues . â Iâm already at risk . This is bigger than me . For all those in the city , my life seems a no â brainer . But donât worry , I am not planning on losing , so it will mean something . Valen canât challenge for the title , only an heir can . My father holds the land titles .
I need these land titles before Nixon gets his hands on them . This needs to be done . It is the only way to set everything right , back to the way Valarie intended , â I retort . â The City can wait ! â Macey says , and I shake my head and push past them . â I wonât blow my chance . Every fucking step we take , we get knocked back four . I am sick of playing this Yoyo game of cat and mouse . I am done being the mouse ! The laws pass when I beat him .
For thefirst time , I hold power . The fucking rogues hold power for once ! â I yell at them . A couple of the workers in the event hall rush out , thinking we are about to come to blows . We never have and never will . But this shit was getting to me . â Everly , please , â Zoe murmurs . â Iâm tired . Iâm so fucking tired of battling , donât you get it ? How many girls have come through our damn doors looking for a place to stay and work ? How many ? â I ask them .
â How many times have we had to scrape them up off the floor when their families abandoned them , their packs shunned them ?
How many hungry mouths do we have to feed before we suddenly canât anymore ? â â Itâs not your battle Everly , â Macey says .
â It is ! â I screamed . Everything became too much and erupted in anger , everything crashing and smashing relentlessly .
Somethingâs gotta give ! I am drowning here , and everything is just adding weight . Drowning in grief responsibility , obligation , and the restraints are so heavy , so , so heavy . I canât keep fighting . I am done fighting . I just want to rest , and if this is what I have got to do to get it , then so be it , Tears burn my eyes and Zoeâs . Macey purses her lips , looks at the ceiling , and clicks her tongue . I suck in a breath before turning on my heel , walking out toward the doors . â Valarie wouldnât want you to risk yourself like this . Risk her grandchild , â Macey says , and I stop . â Thatâs unfair , Macey , â I tell her , spinning around , and she shrugs . â Itâs true , â she says . â Who do you think I am doing this for ? â I tell her as tears slip down my cheeks . â
She gave me everything when I had nothing . She fought for me and all of us when no one else did . This , everything we have done and all those we helped , was for her . She had the vision to make this city free . It was supposed to be free , and they took it from her . I tell them . â I am just getting it back and doing what she wanted . Nobody knew sacrifice more than that woman did . So yes , she wouldnât want me to do it , but she would understand why Lhave to . So no , you donât get to use her against me ! â
1 tell them before turning on my heel and walking out before one of us says something we canât take back .
Her words stung because I knew she was right , but Valarie too , risked her life fighting for the rogues . She could have walked away , hung up the banners and stopped fighting , given in , and reformed , but she didnât . She lost her son and her familyâs reputation , her home , and the city , and I will be damned if I let that keep repeating . It takes me a few seconds to regain myself and I groan when I feel Valen getting closer at an alarming speed . I wipe my face just as Macey and Zoe come out behind me , and Valen runs around the corner of the main building , looking panic -stricken . Trapped was how I suddenly felt , caught between my mate and best friends , the girls I trusted more than anyone , and I was a deer in headlights as Valen grabbed my arms .
â What happened ? Whatâs wrong ? â he asks , his clothes in disarray from running . He looks around frantically for any danger before looking at Macey and Zoe behind me . I wait for it , wait for everything to unravel and fall apart again . We were so close , so close . â Iâm fine . Where is Valarian ? â I ask him . â In the car with Marcus . Whatâs going on ?
â â Nothing . We disagreed . Iâm fine , everything is fine , â â You donât feel fine , â Valen growls , cupping my face in his hands and looking at the girls . I swallow , waiting for them to say something . â Why is everyone crying ? Answer me , someone ! â he snaps , looking at us all , and I look at them . Zoe opens her mouth , and I beg her with my eyes not to , and she closes it . â
Nothing . We had a dispute over rosters . We wanted her to take some time off , â Macey lies , looking at me . Relief floods me , and I hang my head .
â Well , thatâs a good thing . I agree with them , â Valen says , rubbing my arms . â I thought someone died or hurt you . Geez , you nearly gave me a heart attack , â he says , hugging me . I keep my mouth shut , unable to speak , but I am grateful they didnât say anything . Macey walks over to me , chucks her arm over my shoulder , and Zoe follows . We walk out to the car , and Marcus is leaning against the hood . He moves to the back door and opens it , and Casey climbs out .. â Everything alright ? â he asks Zoe , who nods to him . He doesnât look like he believes her either , but we all say our goodbyes when Macey grabs me as Valen climbs in the car . â Thank you , â I whisper to her . â Please donât ever ask me to lie like this . again . But , I get it . Kick his fucking ass ! I will be cheering from the sidelines and ready to hammer him if he hurts you , â she whispers , kissing my cheek and I chuckle .
The drive home was silent , but Valen kept glancing at me . I could even feel his eyes on mé as I stared out the window . He clutches my hand , and I look at him before his voice flits through my head . His eyes go to Valarian in the mirror . â If itâs about tomorrow , you can back out . I know it must be hard to challenge your father , â Valen says . I shake my head , and he squeezes my hand . â Itâs not that . Just donât be mad afterward , â I tell him , suddenly feeling guilty . We had come so far , and now I was not only risking myself , but us , but I had a reason . And he looked at me , turning his head to the side to look at me . â
Why would I be mad ? I could never be mad at you , â Valen says . â Whatâs going on ? â he asks when I donât answer . â Nothing , I think dad just got in my head , â I lie . It was becoming a thing . Lying shouldnât be a thing , yet I knew the rogues needed this .
I needed this . This would set us free . Yet why did it have to risk so much ? â If youâre scared Everly , you can back out . Itâs ok to be scared , â Valen says .
â Iâm not scared , â I tell him . â Good . Because the moment I think youâre in trouble , I will be pulling you out . I wonât let him hurt you . â â Valen , itâs a challenge , that is the whole point , and you canât make him submit for me , â â No , but I will . I donât care how many laws it breaks . I know only an heir can challenge , but I will not let your father kill you either , Everly . And before you ask , donât ask me not to step in if it comes to that . That is something I wonât promise you , so either win or back out now because if you are on the losing end , I am getting in that arena , â he says , and I sigh . â Ok , I wonât ask that , but .. â
â No. There are no buts . That is how it is . Sorry , but if I have to pull rank , I donât want to have to , but I will if it means keeping you alive , Everly . Donât expect me to watch you get hurt or killed and stand there . I wouldnât ask that of you if our roles were reversed , so donât ask something of me . I know you wouldnât live up to yourself , â I swallow out guilt . His words hit home a little too closely . He knows me too well , which only makes me lying to him tear me apart more .
All night I was restless and sleep didnât come easily . Valén luckily didnât ask me to train , insisting I needed a good nightâs rest , yet when I woke up the following day . I felt anything but rested . I was anxious , and my eyes felt like sandpaper . My stomach twisted violently and had me running for the bathroom as I retched and gagged Once I emptied my stomach , I rinsed my mouth and wet down my face just as Valen walked in and leaned on the doorframe .
â Nerves ? â he asks and I nod , trying to catch my breath . â You alright ? â he asks . â Yep , never better , â I lie . He nods , walking out , and I stare at my reflection , trying to get myself together . A few more hours and this city was about to have another power player , and for once the ball was in my court , I just had to win the challenge first . â Everly , Breakfast ! â Valen calls out to me and I sigh . As long as I could make him submit before we came to the second round , which requires us to shift , I could win this . If not , it may all be for nothing . So that was not an option .