Translator: Lonelytree
I felt that I was a particularly pretentious person. I didnât know where those bad feelings came from.
Banxia wouldnât act like me. Banxia was very happy every day. Even when she was packing my things, she would skip around, humming a song.
âBanxia, why are you so happy?âI couldnât help but ask her.
I was reading a love novel. It was very good, but I couldnât ignore the happiness radiating off Banxia.
Banxia placed one of my aqua blue dresses into the luggage. She turned her head to look at me with a face full of joy. âNo reason. Miss, why are you so unhappy?â
I shook my head. âBecause I donât know whatâs there to be happy about.â
Banxia continued to fold my clothes and put them in the luggage. Her voice was filled with joy. âMy dear Miss, itâs not easy to survive. Why not live every day with happiness?â
I looked at her and realized that I had no way to refute her.
Banxia straightened her back and pressed her short hair behind her ears. Her expression turned serious, and she said carefully, âMiss, so what if you have no memories of the past? You canât be unhappy because of that. You donât have a memory of the past, but that doesnât mean you wonât make new memories in the future. If youâre always unhappy because of the past, how can you move on to the future?â
Seeing how serious and careful she was, I couldnât help but smile. I nodded. âYou do make sense.â
Banxiaâs eyes immediately lit up. âMiss, if you ask me, amnesia is not so bad. Look at me. I have to live with my past life. It is so difficult. I canât wait to forget all those hardships and live happily ever after. Thatâs why I envy you so much.â
I couldnât help but tease her. âIsnât it because you remember the hardships of the past that youâre so happy now?â
Banxia thought for a moment before her face fell. âYouâre right!â
She stomped her feet. âMiss, you know that Iâm not good with words. Iâm only trying my best to cheer you up. Canât you give me some face? Why must you expose me?â
I laughed out loud. âAlright, alright. Thank you, Banxia. You do make sense. Amnesia has its perks too. I should enjoy its perks and stop being so hung up about it.â
Banxia was happy. âThatâs right. My dear Miss, you are the most beautiful person I have ever seen. You are what I imagine an angel would look like. This is such a blessing. That is one thing to be happy about, right?â
I sighed. âYouâre right. Youâre always right.â
Banxia continued packing.
My gaze swept across the book in my hand. âOnce having seen the best, the rest is not worthwhile. Apart from you, I canât fall in love with anyone else in this life.â
These were the words that the male protagonist said to the female protagonist. They had gone through all kinds of hardships. After being separated for so many years, they finally met again.n/o/vel/b//in dot c//om
My heart was inexplicably sad.
I had a feeling that I owed someone that exact sentiment.
In my lost memory, there must be someone very, very important.
I lost him.
I often woke up in the middle of the night with heart palpitations and chills. I cried in my dreams. How sad must I be to cry in my sleep?
However, I still couldnât remember anything. I couldnât even remember my dream.. Sleep was like a submersion into a dark ocean for me.