âIsnât it?â he asked hoarsely.
âNo.â She bit her lips, and her thoughts suddenly became very clear. âI trust you, but... I canât not worry about anything. I grew up alone, and no one took care of me or protected me, so itâs an instinct. I canât control myself. Sometimes, I feel that you love and protect me too much, so much that I canât handle it. But every time I think about it, I feel guilty. I donât think I deserve your love. If you married someone else, like Ling Yutong, there wouldnât be such a problem between the two of you.â
The manâs eyes were bloodshot.
âYe Shengge.â His voice was hoarse. âAre you saying I suffocated you?â
She blinked and thought for a while. âNo, I donât deserve it.â
âItâs not that you donât deserve it. Itâs my fault.â The man kissed her eyes. âIâve been forcing you to fall in love with me, forcing you to be completely devoted to me, and even forcing you to give up yourself... No wonder you canât handle it.â
âNo, no.â She shook her head. âItâs not your fault.â
Ji Shiting swallowed hard and said, âItâs my fault. Iâm too conceited and selfish. Iâve been forcing you to tell me everything, but I refused to tell you anything.â
âNo, no.â She shook her head.
âYe Shengge, youâre being too harsh on yourself.â He pinched her face. âYou always push the blame to yourself. Do you think Iâve always been the one paying? No, Iâve always been asking for it. You dumb woman.â
She said, âIâm not dumb.â
âYes, you arenât.â The man hugged her tighter. âThatâs why you decided to leave me. Youâre right.â
Ye Shengge was confused as she didnât understand why he said that.
âYe Shengge.â The man called her name. âDo you still love me?â
âMm.â She nodded without hesitation and mumbled, âActually, I want you to wait for me until I cure my illness, but I donât know how long itâll take... I canât ask you to do that. Thatâs too selfish.â
âIâll wait for you even if you donât ask for anything,â Ji Shiting said. âWe still have a lot of time.â
âNo, donât wait.â She suddenly started to panic.
âDo you really think I want to wait for you?â He smiled. âBut Iâve given you all my feelings, and I canât take them back anymore.â
Ye Shengge finally dropped the glass on the bed. She looked up and said, âWhy? Am I really worth it?â
âI donât know.â Ji Shiting combed her hair. âBut thatâs not important.â
She moved her lips and buried her face in his chest.
âIâve been thinking about it these past three months. I have to try my best to cure myself as soon as possible, otherwise Shiting wonât wait for me,â she said. âIâm still thinking that if I get better and youâre not married, Iâll... Iâll seduce you and give birth to your baby secretly.â
She burped and giggled.
âSeduce me.â His voice became hoarse. âHow?â
She looked up and tried to kiss him, but her teeth knocked against the manâs chin.
âThis... This kind of seduction...â