Tessa stands in front of me, arms crossed and determination written all over her face. For the third time this week, sheâs cornered me about taking Zeus for a walk, and for the third time, Iâm regretting ever hiring such a stubborn woman.
âIâm serious, Grayson,â Tessa says, her arms crossed and her expression resolute. She stands just inside the doorway, blocking my retreat. âZeus needs this. You need this.â
I glance down at the leash in my hand, the leather stiff and unfamiliar. The damn thing feels heavier than it should, like it carries the weight of something Iâve been avoiding for far too long.
âI donât see why this is necessary,â I say, my voice clipped. âZeus is perfectly fine in the yard.â
Tessa shakes her head, exasperation flashing in her eyes. âA fenced yard isnât the same, and you know it. Youâve been making excuses for days, but itâs time. He trusts you now. Give him a chance.â
I open my mouth to argue, but the look she gives me shuts me down. Itâs not the first time Iâve faced her resolve, and Iâve learned by now that once Tessa sets her mind to something, thereâs no talking her out of it.
âFine,â I grumble, gripping the leash tighter. Zeus sits by my side, his ears perked and tail thumping against the floor as if he knows heâs won. âBut if he so much as looks at me wrong, this is on you.â
Tessa smirks, unbothered by my reluctance. âNoted. Now go.â
I let out a heavy sigh, pulling open the door. Zeus bounds out ahead of me, his energy a sharp contrast to the dread settling in my gut.
âI hate this,â I mutter under my breath.
âSure you do,â Tessa calls after me, her voice laced with amusement.
The leash feels heavy in my hand as I step out into the crisp evening air, Zeus padding beside me. His nails click-clack on the sidewalk, a rhythm I once found comforting now feels like a metronome counting down time I canât get back.
âCome on, boy,â I murmur, giving the leash a gentle tug. Zeus looks up at me, his brown eyes reflecting the streetlights. For a moment, I see a flicker of the old ZeusâSarahâs Zeusâbefore his gaze turns wary again.
We walk in silence, the light breeze ruffling my hair. The scent of blooming jasmine from a neighborâs garden wafts by, and suddenly Iâm transported back to our first spring in this house. Sarahâs laughter echoes in my memory as she planted those very same flowers in our backyard.
âSheâd love how they turned out,â I say softly to Zeus. He cocks his head, ears perked. âThe jasmine. Remember how Sarah used to say theyâd make the whole yard smell like heaven?â
Zeus whines softly, and I feel a lump form in my throat. I swallow hard, trying to push back the tide of grief threatening to overwhelm me. But as quickly as Sarahâs memory surfaces, another image takes its place: Tessa, her eyes sparkling as she coaxed Zeus out of his funk this morning.
âYou like her, donât you?â I ask Zeus, surprising myself with the question. âTessa, I mean. Sheâsâ¦different.â
Zeusâs tail wags slightly at the mention of Tessaâs name, and I canât help but chuckle. âYeah, I thought so. Sheâs got a way about her, doesnât she?â
As we round the corner back toward home, I find myself smiling. The weight in my chest feels a little lighter, the evening a little warmer. And for the first time in a long while, Iâm looking forward to walking through my front door.
I push open the front door, Zeus trotting in ahead of me. The house feels different now, warmer somehow. Tessaâs presence has brought life back into these rooms, filling the empty spaces with her vibrant energy.
âWeâre back,â I call out, unclipping Zeusâs leash.
Thereâs no response, but I hear the faint clacking of laptop keys coming from the kitchen. As I round the corner, I see her there, hunched over her computer at the kitchen counter. My heart skips a beat, but then I notice whatâs on her screen.
Apartment listings. The sight hits me like a punch to the gut.
âFind anything good?â I ask, trying to keep my voice casual even as my insides churn.
Tessa looks up, her eyes meeting mine. âOh, hey. Just browsing, you know. Figured I should start looking. Honestly, I should have started looking two weeks ago.â
I nod, not trusting myself to speak. Iâve been trying so hard to keep my distance, to maintain that professional boundary between us. But seeing her potentially planning her exitâ¦itâs harder than I expected.
âHow was the walk?â she asks, closing her laptop.
âGood,â I manage. âZeus enjoyed it.â
As if on cue, Zeus pads over to Tessa, resting his head on her lap. She scratches behind his ears, a small smile playing on her lips.
âYou two are getting along well,â I observe, leaning against the counter.
Tessa shrugs. âHeâs a good boy. Arenât you, Zeus?â
I watch them together, and the realization hits me: I donât want her to go. The thought of this kitchen empty again, of Zeus looking for her and not finding herâ¦of me coming home to silenceâ¦
âGrayson?â Tessaâs voice snaps me out of my thoughts. âYou okay? You looked like you were a million miles away.â
I force a smile. âJust thinking about some work stuff. Nothing important.â
But as I say it, I know itâs a lie. Thisâher being here, being part of our livesâitâs become more important than I ever expected.
I take a deep breath, steeling myself for the conversation I know I need to have. âTessa, can we talk for a minute?â
She looks up, her greenish-blue eyes meeting mine with a mix of curiosity and wariness. âSure, whatâs up?â
I pull out a stool and sit across from her at the kitchen counter. Zeus shifts, now resting his head on my knee, as if heâs mediating our conversation.
âIâve been thinking,â I start, my fingers absently stroking Zeusâs fur. âHow are you feeling about your time here so far?â
Tessa tilts her head, her black cherry hair catching the light. âItâs beenâ¦good. Zeus is making great progress, and Iâve enjoyed working with him.â
I nod, trying to read between the lines of her professional response. âAndâ¦beyond that? I mean, how do you feel about staying here, in general?â
Her eyebrows furrow slightly. âGrayson, is everything okay? Did I do something wrong?â
âNo, no,â I quickly reassure her. âJust wondering how itâs all been for you.â I want to tell her that Iâd like her to stay but the words wonât come out of my mouth. Iâm afraid sheâll read something else into it, that sheâll realize how Iâm dreading her last day with us.
She bites her lower lip, a habit Iâve noticed she does when sheâs thinking deeply.
âAs I said, I love working with Zeusâ¦â
I lean forward, feeling a surge of hope. âGreatâ¦great. I just wanted to let you know that youâre doing great work.â
Tessa nods slowly, her expression thoughtful. âThanks, Grayson,â she says softly.
As she turns back to her laptop, I stand up, my mind already racing. I need to make a call.
I head to my office, shutting the door behind me. The familiar scent of leather and paper greets me, grounding me for the conversation Iâm about to have. Pulling my phone from my pocket, I scroll through my contacts until I find Juniperâs name. She picks up on the second ring.
âMr. Harrington,â Juniperâs voice comes through, smooth and efficient as always. âIs everything all right?â
âOf course,â I reply without hesitation.
Thereâs a pause before she asks, âIs this about work orâ¦something else?â
âItâs about Tessa,â I say, getting straight to the point. âIâm considering offering her a more permanent contract.â
The silence on the other end stretches a beat too long. âA permanent contract?â Juniper repeats, her tone carefully neutral.
âYes.â
Juniper is quiet for a beat too long, then she responds with an edge in her voice. âAs in, sheâll be staying in your home? GrayâMr. Harrington, are you sure thatâs a good idea?â
âNot necessarily as a live-in position,â I add quickly. âBut I think keeping her involved with Zeus would be good. Sheâs made progress with him that I didnât think was possible.â
âGrayson, she showed up here out of nowhere. Youâve barely scratched the surface with her background, and now youâre ready to hand her a permanent role in your life? Itâs risky.â
I let her words hang in the air for a moment before responding. âI know itâs fast. But sheâs been good for Zeus. And I think sheâs been good for me, too. Iâm trying to do the right thing here.â
Juniper sighs, a sound thatâs almost sympathetic. âI get that, but Iâm still not sold. Youâre trusting someone you barely know with something so important. If she leaves, how does that affect you? How does that affect Zeus?â
I shift uncomfortably in my chair. âI donât recall asking for your opinion. I pay you to assist me. So, assist. Please draw up a contract.â
Sheâs silent for a few moments, and when she speaks again, thereâs a reluctant resignation in her voice. âIâll look into it. But Iâm warning youâbe careful with this one.â
âI will,â I say, though her warning doesnât sit well with me. I trust my instincts, even if I donât always listen to them.
I know Tessa might be temporary. But I donât want her to be.
I sit at my desk, absently rolling my wedding band around my finger. The cool metal feels both familiar and strange against my skin. Iâm lost in thought, weighing the implications of offering Tessa a more permanent position, when a soft knock on the door startles me.
âCome in,â I call out, quickly composing myself.
Tessa pokes her head in, her greenish-blue eyes meeting mine. âHey, Grayson. Got a minute?â
I glance at the clockâalmost dinner timeâand nod. âOf course. Whatâs up?â
She steps inside, her posture casual, but thereâs a quiet tension in her voice. âJust wanted to askâ¦do you have any plans for the weekend? I was thinking it might be nice for us to take Zeus to the park, get him out with other dogs for a bit.â
Her question is so simple, so mundane, but it cuts through the fog of my thoughts like a hot knife through butter. Something about it snaps in me, like a wire pulled too tight. Itâs the kind of question Sarah wouldâve askedâsmall, thoughtful, wanting to do something normal, to build a life here, in this house. A life thatâs still slipping through my fingers.
For a long moment, I donât answer. My eyes linger on her, trying to piece together the real reason behind this question. Is she just trying to be nice to Zeus? Or is Juniper right? Is this her way of embedding herself further into my life, making herself more essential to my world?
I look down at the wedding band again, the weight of it on my finger heavier than ever. For a brief moment, I think of Sarahâof how much I loved her, how much I wanted to do these kinds of things with her. And nowâ¦now Iâm standing at the edge of something I didnât expect. Something new.
My pulse picks up, but I hold it together. I canât let Tessa in like that. Not yet. Not when Iâm still caught between the past and the present.