World Eight. Her deskmate (18)
Su Xiangnan had cut his hair.
The haircut, which was originally long for men, was suddenly shortened, revealing his face completely, with a distinguish forehead, thick black eyebrows, and a pair of bright and deep eyes below.
Su Xiangnanâs appearance was handsome, and now he was even more handsome and full of youthfulness.
Xue Xue sized him up for a while, and finally knew where that strange feeling came from.
Su Xiangnanâs eyes had changed.
The gloomy air that was always between his eyebrows and eyes made him always look a bit brooding and unpleasant, but now Su Xiangnanâs eyes shone and his gaze was piercing and even the aura of the whole person was bright, making Xue Xue thought of the boy in Xue Yuâs memory.
Just standing there and he was glowing.
Su Xiangnan was a little shy being stared at by Xue Xue.
There were too many complicated emotions swirling in the girlâs eyes, which made him inexplicably feel sour in addition to being shy.
He couldnât explain the origin of this feeling, but subconsciously wanted to escape.
âWhat?â Su Xiangnan pretended to be relaxed and lowered his eyelids. âSuddenly you donât recognize me?â
Xue Xue didnât speak, but still looked at him quietly.
Like a rare bright sunshine in autumn, his face glowed, and his long eyelashes cast a shadow on his lower eyelid, giving him a melancholy and artistic temperament.
Just when Su Xiangnan was getting annoyed by Xue Xueâs silence, she smiled.
Although the girlâs face was against the light, which made her expression blurry, the smile on her face was like a light to Su Xiangnan, with the light that could easily penetrate into the heart and expel the darkness from the atrium.
âSu Xiangnan.â
Xue Xue said, in the chaotic classroom, her voice was not loud, but it was still heard clearly in Su Xiangnanâs ears, with a huge echo.
âYou look good like this.â
Whenãthe bell rang at the end of the second period in the afternoon, the chemistry teacher took the test papers back, and many people lay on their desks and howled.
After all, the difficulty of the test paper this time made many people feel that they must go home and copy the knowledge points of the whole chapter.
âI think youâre right.â
Just as Xue Xue was tidying up her desk in her spare time, Su Xiangnan suddenly said something without thinking.
Xue Xue looked up, puzzled.
âWhat?â
The boy leaned back on the chair, looking at the blackboard with a relaxed posture.
There was a countdown of the days until the college entrance examination.
âI said, I think youâre right.â
âHuh?â
âI shouldnât punish myself for other peopleâs mistakes.â Su Xiangnan said, he tilted his head slightly, turned his face halfway, showing good-looking eyebrows and eyes. âI was too stupid in the past, and I wonât do it in the future.â
Su Xiangnanâs words were mixing up a bit, but Xue Xue understood.
She was a little surprised.
Although it was expected that the other partyâs hair would be cut short suddenly and the teacher would bring him back to class, it seemed to symbolize some kind of determination, but Xue Xue did not expect that she could change Su Xiangnanâs mind with a few words, she just hoped that the boy could think more about himself, about his future.
Su Xiangnan was never stupid, it was just that he fell into a dead end because of the successive blows of his harsh reality, and he had many opportunities to break free from this state, provided he realized that he should not be in such a state.
As long as he figured it out, he would wake up and not give up.
There were so many sudden epiphanies in the world, most of them were awakened by a word or an incident.
Compressed to the extreme, whether it would collapse or rebound, people may not be able to choose who and what will happen to them in their life, but they can decide what kind of attitude they will use to face it.
In his previous life, Su Xiangnan made the worst choice. In this life, Xue Xue didnât expect him to figure it out right away, but only hoped to motivate him as much as possible while Su Lin was still there.
But she didnât expect it to work so well.
Xue Xue thought that Su Xiangnan would be able to react if she encouraged more.
âItâs best for you to think like this.â Thinking of the ending of Su Xiangnanâs previous life, Xue Xue dared not take it lightly. âIf Auntie knows⦠she will definitely be very happy.â
When Su Lin was mentioned, Su Xiangnanâs expression froze for a moment.
âMy motherâ¦â The boy looked forward, but his eyes were not focused, and he looked dazed. âShe made a mistake when she was young.â
âAnd Iâ¦â Su Xiangnanâs voice was soft, as if it would be blown away by the wind. âI am the result of this mistake.â
Xue Xue was startled.
âMy mother gave up her whole life for this result.â
âWithout meâ¦â
What would happen without him? Su Xiangnan didnât finish speaking, but the pain in his eyes made it easy for people to guess the answer.
Perhaps it was because of this that Su Xiangnan went further and further down the wrong path in his previous life, because he felt that he should not exist. If he did not exist, Su Linâs life might have been completely different.
Without Su Xiangnanâ¦