"Hey", I say softly
Xavier looks past his phone, "You alright"
I lie next to him on his bed, "No"
"I don't like how she spoke about you"
"I'm used to it"
I scrunch my nose, "Well it's not nice"
He turns his head so that we're facing each other, "I love you for what you did"
"I know, I'm awesome" I smile
"Meh, you're ight" Zay jokingly replies
I stroke his face, "Don't listen to your mom. She doesn't see what I'm seeing, you're tryna get your life together and even if you're not going to school all the time it doesn't mean you're useless"
He kisses my hand, "Thank you baby"
"No problem, you can thank me in other ways"
He keeps ahold of my hand, "Still high I see"
I make a small sign with my fingers, "Just a little bit"
Zay reaches for my hair but I block his hand, "You don't touch the goods"
He tucks a slither of it behind my ear anyway, "The goods are gonna have to go"
"Hell no, I'm loving this ginger lifestyle. Gives me pretty privilege, you know I got a free mcdonald's order the other day?"
"That's because I bought it"
I giggle as I remember, "Oh yeah"
"Well anyway it's either you take it off yourself or I fuck you until it comes off"
"I'll accept that challenge"
"Bet"
I hover my lips over his, "You know we definitely won't be sleeping in the same rooms now that the secrets out right"
"Who said there aren't days where my parents are out all night?"
"I like that idea", I kiss him softly but he doesn't let me take it too far because of my current state, I ended up just laying on him instead... actually that was before I realised I was still hungry. There was a bag of unopened chips on Xavier's nightstand which I ended up taking, "Did you want these?"
"Nah you're good", He replies as he watches me with amusement
"Something funny?"
"Yeah your eyes"
"Oh shush"
"You think if I ate less I'd get smaller boobs?", I look down at them as I chew on a few chips
"I don't know, but don't go eating less. Especially if someone's got shit to say, and your boobs are fine how they are"
"Well of course you'd say that"
He leans against the headboard "No but I mean it Ree, you got nice E cups, perfect hip dips and an ass that doesn't need changing. Even if you gained, still wouldn't need changing"
Well luckily I don't gain, fast metabolisms my favourite amongst the super powers that I have
I pause, "How do you know my bra size?"
"Estimation", He shrugs
I side eye him, "Is that what you've been doing with girls before me"
"No. I didn't love those girls, and they weren't as attractive as you"
"Nice save"
We hear a knock on the door
"Yeah", He answers
"Just me", My mom assured us before coming in
"Hi"
She sits on the bed, smiling at the two of us. "Can I finally say aw now?"
I roll my eyes, "Mama-
"I've been holding it in"
"Yeah I know"
She looks at Xavier, "First of all boy you better treat this girl right cause she ain't one of those little hoes you used to be messing with"
"Of course. I will", He promises
"Mhm, and I can see that you two like to get handsy. No sex, I don't want no grand babies cause I'm too fly to be a grandmother right now"
"Don't worry, we'll raise the new babies like our own". He assures her jokingly
"Pfft, no we will not" I disoblige
"Could you tell her to sort herself out because she be wearing the wildest outfits and sometimes the skirts don't ever need to be that short-
"Goodbye mom"
"I ain't done, and tell her to stop drinking too because she's not grown and you seem to be the only one she listens to-
"Bye"
He laughs as she gets up
"Don't worry Zay we'll have our own talk"
"Can't wait"
"Is dad mad?", I suddenly ask
Mom doesn't reply for a moment, "Not mad.... but not ecstatic"
"That does not help in anyway at all"
"Well you know when he's silent he's thinking so let's just let him have his thinking moment"
"Ok aunt Kota Imma need clarity, does he wanna kill me or not?" Xavier asks as he sits up
My mom starts laughing, "Don't worry you know he loves you. But at this current moment in time, I'd steer clear"
"What about my parents?"
"Hard to tell, mostly surprised. But I'll go talk to them" She says before leaving us be
Once she's gone I lie back down with a sudden feeling of tiredness, "Talk to me so I can stay awake. I'm not making any promises though, you're beds comfy as fuck" I say whilst lifting the comforter over my shoulder
Xavier plays with my hair, "You can sleep mama. I'll still be here"
"I know but I wanna hear your voice. Treyvon call you by any chance?"
"Yeah, a pick-up tonight", He leans up to open his window and his shirt rises a little. Besides his six pack are his stitches from the stab wound, which he only has to keep on for a couple more days.
I start to feel a little sad at the sudden reminder of them. "Please be careful", I say with worry
Now that we know what Treyvon's fail safe is, Xavier has to play it safe and is gonna have to keep doing what he says until further notice. As much as I don't like it there's nothing I can do..... well technically there's the obvious option of telling our parents but I can't break Xavier's trust.
"Of course", He assures me
I watch him roll a blunt, no joke he literally doesn't let anybody roll it for him but himself. I for one hate doing it and usually never do unless I lose a round of rock paper scissors with Indiah. But anyway Zay's exact words were 'you don't know the kind of crazy shit that people like to lace it with'. Aka, spice.
On another note, I do find it very attractive when he does roll, or maybe that's just because I'm high.
"And call me right after"
"Ight"
"Can I have a pull", I then ask him
"You're crazy"
"Oh come on. Just one"
"We'll see about that"
The first one I took from his mouth, and then there were a couple more. I did end up falling asleep for about an hour, then when I woke up Indiah told me I was leaving. On the bright side Xavier gave me his hoodie to wear after I sprayed myself down to get rid of the strong smell. I still felt incredibly tired and could not be bothered to join in the conversation in the car.
Although I felt kind of awkward, mom told me to sit at the front with dad. And I really thought that he was mad at me because when we arrived home he told everyone to go inside except for me.
"Trey", Mama says through the window
"Kota, it's fine"
She looks between us
"Mommy!", Aidan calls out from the front door
"Trinity take him inside-.... ok wait-
"Babe", He gives her a look and she eventually rolls her eyes
"Ok fine, just don't shout at her" She replies before going inside the house
I chew the inside of my cheek as I sit there, eventually dad hands me a bottle of one of his perfumes and I frown.
"If I can smell it, your mom will"
I take it before spraying all over myself
"This really gonna be an everyday thing?", He questions
"No..."
Between them both, he's more chill
"Are you at least getting the weed from a trusted person?"
"Yeah....sometimes uncle J" I admit
Dad frowns whilst tilting his head, "Justus?"
I pause, "Ok don't tell him I told you. It was only twice"
He rolls his eyes, "I'm not surprised"
It's silent for a second
"So. You and Xavier?"
Finally
I turn in my seat, "Are you mad?"
"I wish you'd told me, but no I'm not mad"
"Really? Cause it didn't seem that way at the table...."
"I was mostly surprised. Well to be fair I kind of always had a feeling-
"You did?", I say surprised
"Keilyn he looks at you the way I look at your mom, I ignored it most times but I knew he loved you. And you don't have a sibling dynamic like you do with Malik and Zion"
"So you knew that he loved me the whole time and didn't think to tell me when I needed that confirmation?" I scoff
He chuckles, "Wasn't my place to tell you"
I'm so baffled, "Ok wait so why didn't you ask me if I was dating him when I told you I had a boyfriend"
"You were good at hiding your feelings for him, wasn't sure"
"Right"
"I will be talking to him though, he's not off the hook-
I roll my eyes, "Daddy you were doing so well"
"Well who else is gonna make sure Xavier's aware of what he's getting into? You're not cheap"
that's true actually
"Don't threaten him, just be normal"
"I'll be the decider thank you very much"
We eventually get out of the car and dad puts his arm around me as we walk towards the house, I'm just happy that he knows now. It wasn't as bad as I thought it'd be.....I just won't be telling him about the night of my sixteenth.
"So like, does this mean I can smoke with uncle Miles and uncle J now?-
"Absolutely not"
"Worth a shot"
Mom looks back from sorting through groceries, "Ya'll friends again?"
"Yup", I reply
"Good"
~*~
â¢WESTONâ¢
I fucking hate Mondays
I don't even wanna be in this shit hole but my attendance has dropped quite a bit, my mom practically forced me to come in. Usually if I really don't wanna go I can lie to her about my whereabouts and get away with it but she's going to email my teachers today.
I feel two hands pat my shoulders, causing me to turn back with irritation. "Four o'clock, basketball practise" CJ tells me
"We'll see", I mutter
He puts a hand behind his ear unimpressed, "What was that?"
"You heard me"
"I don't appreciate the attitude Westy"
"Let's just skip"
"You crazy? The games tomorrow"
"And we'll beat them anyway, we've done it before" I point out
"True, but still. Coach'll kill you"
"Yeah yeah"
"Hi", An unexpected voice says
I close my locker door, kind of surprised by who's standing there. I didn't show it though, I remained neutral.
"Hi", I reply
CJ looks between us amused, "Well this is interesting"
"Shut up", We both reply
"Rude"
Amariah turns back to me, "Can I talk to you?"
Shes had a hair change since the last time I saw her, it's back to natural now and instead of slicking it back she let her curls out today..... shes got a lot of hair, she should leave it out more often.
"Uhh sure", I reply
I'm not sure what she'd even want to speak about since I assumed she wouldn't wanna mention our last encounter ever again.
"Privately", Amariah adds whilst looking at CJ
"Aw man, West tell her to let me stay"
"I'll catch you later"
He rolls his eyes
Once CJ's gone she leans against the lockers, I notice that her skirts quite short today, her legs are bare and shes got on nike socks which are paired with a pair of black crocs. They've got lilo and stich jibbets on them. I've never been one to find thighs sexy but I might start doing so..... Jeez this girl has been driving me insane and I'm only now realising it.
"Crocs?"
Number one violation of the dress code, the principles got some sort of hatred towards them.
"I chose comfort today"
"Fair enough. What'd you wanna talk about"
"I wanted to say thank you for the other day-
"Don't mention it"
Amariah nods slowly
"Is that all?", I say expectantly
I can see in her face that she wants to say something else, if I didn't know any better I'd say she wants a favour.
"You hack right", She asks suddenly
"Who wants to know"
"Me, well I mean I already know"
I don't announce that shit, it's just something I do on the side. And I've had years of practise, hence why I was able to get rid of that footage of her.
"Right. And how'd you figure that"
"Come on, I know you hacked the cameras to delete the footage of me-.....you know what never mind. I wanted to ask a favour"
I frown, "Did you seriously get yourself into more trouble since the last time I saw you?"
What does this girl do with her spare time....
"No", Amariah replies defensively
"Ok so what's the favour"
She rubs her thumb across her forehead awkwardly, "I sort of need you to ha-...."
The rest was pure mumbling
"You what?"
She sighs, "I need you to hack into the police files and delete two of them for me"
I scoff with shock, "Are you insane"
"Slightly"
"I wasn't kidding when I asked if you got yourself into more trouble-
"Well it's not exactly for me"
"Do you know what you're asking me to do? That's tampering with evidence-
"Well not exactly, I want you to obliterate it" Amariah replies simply
I wish I could say she was joking, but she's being completely serious....
"Amariah I don't think you understand, because if you did then you'd know that you're risking jail time. Who on earth are you going to such extreme lengths for?" I scoff
She doesn't reply and I sigh as I realise, there could only be one answer. "Your boyfriend"
"Yes"
"Why are you doing all of this for a criminal?-
"He's not a criminal", She says annoyed
"If hes got a file and has done what he's under suspicion for then I hate to break it to you but he is. And I don't know what kind of relationship dynamic you've got going on but if he really liked you then he wouldn't be asking you to do this for him-
"Don't start getting all cocky with me when you don't have context, and you know what for someone who's a hacker you don't get to judge other people and call them criminals. If you're not gonna help then just say that" Amariah snaps before starting to walk away
I realise that maybe I do tend to judge a lot
I sigh before grabbing her arm, "Alright wait"
"What"
"I didn't exactly say no"
"I haven't got time to-
"Has your boyfriend been accused of rape"
She scoffs, "What? No"
"Then I'll help"
She doesn't say anything for a moment
"Thank you"
"But you have to tell me everything"
"I can't do that"
"I'm gonna see the files either way"
"Fine"
**
â¢AMARIAHâ¢
So getting West to agree wasn't easy but I got there, we just couldn't do it today because he doesn't have his laptop. I'm meeting him tomorrow at lunch in the library, where I will have to tell him everything.
Since I've gotten home I've felt nothing but stressed.
I groan with frustration as I sort through the clothes on my bed, nothing fits the vibe I'm going for. I pick up my phone before going on the FaceTime app and scrolling through my recents, once I find Xavier's name I press call.
It connects within a couple seconds, only it was Kaian who answered and he was chewing on a couple chips. "Damnn long time no see, what's up bestie"
"Kai go away"
He moves closer to the camera, "Are you about to have a tantrum"
"Yes"
"This defo gon be a good one", He says amused
"Man give me my phone", I hear Xavier in the background
"I'll give it to you but only because I want to. See you later Ree"
Xavier screws him before turning his attention to me, "Hey"
"Zay", I complain
"What's up", He says amused
"I have nothing to wear. Help me"
"Let me see"
I show him all my options laid out on the bed, it was between a skirt outfit, jumpsuit, cargos, leather pants or possibly shorts.
"Where you going?"
"A party"
This party ain't all that so I'm not really tryna wear a skirt. But I think I've figured it out, I may go with my crème cargos and white corset top.
"Go for the cargos", My boyfriend tells me
"And the corset top?"
He looks at all the options, "Mmm. Yeah it looks nice, and leave your hair out too. You look sexy"
I set my phone down, "Thank you. You know you should come with me"
Zay raises an eyebrow with confusion "Ehh, is it the white people ones? Not my field"
I roll my eyes, "No it's being thrown by my friend from cheer and she's black"
"Hmm"
"Literally everyone's bringing their boyfriends so you're coming"
He chuckles, "Yeah alright. What time"
"Six ish"
"I'll pick you up"
"Alright call me later"
"I love you"
"I love you too, bye"
So I settled on my outfit, deciding that I'd pair them with my sneakers. Mom came upstairs after awhile and leaned on the doorframe, "You know I still don't understand having parties on a monday"
Only reason she's letting me go is because I got a good report card, otherwise it'd be a no.
"It's fun", I say amused
"Is it really worth missing work?"
"Dad gave me a shift for Wednesday"
"I want you back by eleven thirty"
"Yeah that's fine"
I was in the middle of checking out my hair in the mirror when I felt something. My mom frowns as she lifts up my vest from the back "Excuse me young lady what is that?"
I freeze, "Ummm"
Dad pokes his head through the door, "Blair and Indi are here"
"Trey are you seeing this?"
"What?"
"Shes got back dermals", Mom scoffs
Dad looks with her, "Doesn't that hurt?" He asks me
"That's all you're gonna say to her, really?"
"What?"
"Ok I did them on my birthday, please don't be mad. I'll take them out" I say with a yikes face
Mom frowns as she tilts her head, "They actually look good"
I don't reply for a moment because I feel like this is a trap. "So can I keep them?"
"Lost your damn mind. No, go to the piercing shop tomorrow and get them taken out"
"But ma", I plead
"No, had you asked me then maybe I would reconsider"
I sigh, "Yeah yeah alright"
Daddy laughs at me and I side eye him, he's so childish sometimes.
I eventually follow my parents downstairs since my friends just got here, they're technically family at this rate. Blair was currently carrying Aidan and playing with him whilst Indiah was getting a snack from the pantry.
"Damn you guys are already ready?", I say surprised
"You're not?", They both reply
"I was looking for an outfit", I say innocently
They both looked so good, Indiah was wearing one of my skirts with a body suit whilst Blair had on shorts with a low neck shirt.
"Hurry up"
"Alright alright, let's go upstairs"
"Nah you're mom just cooked, sorry" Indi says amused
They actually leave me and head towards the dining room with my sisters, "Best get to changing then" My mother winks
Just wow.
I was ready by 6:15, dad said if we needed anything then I should call him. Thankfully none of us were driving, however I don't think I'm getting intoxicated tonight.
Xavier's window slowly comes down and I lean in to give him a kiss, "Hi"
"Damn", He says as he assesses me
I smile cheekily, "Cute?"
"More than cute. Give me some more"
I give him another kiss as he leans his arm on the window, "Ok you're actually gonna fuck up my lip gloss now"
"That was the aim"
"Awww"
I frown as I look passed him, "Kaian?"
He grins, "Nice to see you too"
"What are you doing here?"
"He practically begged me to come", Xavier tells me
"Shut up"
I raise my eyebrows before turning back to the girls
"What", They ask me
"Kaian's coming"
"Oh", Blair's lips form an O shape as we look at Indiah
"You're not serious", My best friend says
"No like literally, he's in the car"
"Right well.....ok"
"You sure?"
"Well we're here now. Nothing I can do"
I turn back to the car, "Not sure what you think this is Kai. I sit at the front"
"Nah it don't matter if he's your nigga now. I was here first-
"You're love for him is literally weird, get out of my seat-
"First of all this is my seat so don't start sassing me-
"No but for real though, she sits at the front" Xavier replies
I smile, "See? Known fact"
He rolls his eyes before getting out and going to the back, Indiah makes sure that Blair sat in the middle. I get into the passenger seat before sitting back and putting on my seatbelt.
Xavier turns to me once I'm sat, "If I hear Taylor Swift at this party then I'm gone"
"So dramatic"
B leans forward, "For the record you do have weed right"
"Not on me but I can get you some", He replies
"Great"
A/N
hey lovelies, gonna try give u another update tomorrow but if not then definitely Sunday. ð
Thoughts?