When I left the house before breakfast the next morning, Dante wasnât there. I hadnât expected him to, he hadnât lain beside me when Iâd woken either. Yesterday Iâd forced him to let me closer than he was comfortable with and now he would be pulling away until we were barely civil again. I waved Taft over and he approached me at once. âI need you to drive me to Bibiana,â I said as we walked into the garage. He grabbed the keys, slid into the car and then we were already off. Time was important. âHurry,â I added when we pulled away from the house. Taft didnât ask why.
The moment we parked in front of Bibianaâs house, I got out of the car and hurried toward the entrance door. I rang the bell. I knew Tommaso was still home because there wasnât a guard sitting in a car in the street. Iâd hoped for that.
I could hear Tommaso shouting angrily and then there were quick steps and Bibiana opened the door, still in her bathrobe. Her eyes widened with confusion when she saw me. âVal? Tommaso told me what happened yesterday. Are you okay?â There was a hand-shaped bruise on her cheek and it made my decision easier.
I pulled her against me in a hug and pushed the vial with poison into her palm. âNobody knows I have this. Itâs poison, Bibi. If you really want to be free, then slip it into his breakfast today. Tomorrow itâll be too late. Today we can still blame it on the traitors. Nobody will ask questions.â I straightened with a smile, my face the mask Iâd learned from Dante. Bibi smiled back but there was surprise and incredulity and gratefulness in her eyes.
âBibiana, whatâs taking you so long?â Tommaso bellowed as he trudged down the staircase. He paused when he spotted me. Bibiana quickly hid the poison vial in her bathrobe.
âIâm sorry for disturbing you,â I said. âI only wanted to make sure Bibiana knew Iâm alright. I donât have much time though. I need to get back home.â
âDante called for a meeting of the entire Outfit. Just got the email. I suppose you canât give me details about what went down?â
I shook my head. âI should really go.â I gave Bibiana a smile, then I turned on my heel and walked back to the car. The last thing I heard was Bibi telling Tommaso she would make him a quick breakfast before he left.
This was the second man Iâd condemned to death. This time, however, there was no guilt.
***
âValentina, Iâd like to talk to you,â Dante said before disappearing back in his office. I hesitated. This was the first time that Dante had actually asked me into his office for a conversation. All the times before, I had to seek him out.
Worry gnawed at my insides as I stepped into his office and closed the door behind me. Dante was facing the window but turned to me. For a long time his blue eyes searched my face. âTommaso didnât show up at the meeting Iâd called.â
I forced my face to stay expressionless. âSo?â
âThe men I sent over to get him found him dead in his living room. Poisoned.â
âWhat about Bibiana?â I asked, trying to sound worried and shocked. She hadnât sent me a text or tried to call me. It would have been too risky anyway.
âSheâs with her parents now, but Iâll have to drive over there now to question her.â
I froze. âWhy?â
âBecause as Capo I need to investigate when one of my men gets killed.â Dante slowly advanced on me. âOf course, Iâm fairly sure I know what happened.â
I raised my chin as he stopped in front of me. âYou do?â I held his gaze, anything else would have looked guilty, even if it was probably too late for that anyway.
âYou are best friends with Bibiana and you wanted to help her.â I didnât say anything but he didnât seem to expect me to. He continued in the same quiet, smooth voice. âAntonio gave you poison when he asked you to kill me, didnât he?â
I considered lying to him, but I needed him on my side and he wouldnât take being lied to kindly. âYes,â I said softly.
âYou didnât tell me about it because you knew it was your chance to help Bibiana, so you took it to her and told her to blame it on Raffaele.â
âDid she say that?â
âShe mentioned Raffaele visited them yesterday when my men took her to her parents, but she was too hysterical to say much.â
Was Bibi regretting what sheâd done? Or had her breakdown been for show? âSo why donât you believe it was Raffaele?â
Danteâs eyes narrowed. âBecause he would have mentioned it when I interrogated him.â
I nodded. âSo what now?â
Dante shook his head. âGoddamnit, Valentina. You should have come to me.â
âI came to you. I asked you if there was something you could do against Tommaso, but you said there wasnât.â
âYou asked me to kill him and I told you I couldnât because he wasnât a traitor.â
I scoffed. âAs if that matters. You are a killer, Dante. You can kill whoever you want. Donât tell me youâve never killed for other reasons than protecting the Outfit.â
Dante gripped my shoulders, bringing us even closer. âOf course, I have. But I told you ânoâ and you should have listened to me.â
âBecause your word is law,â I said mockingly.
âYes,â Dante said in a low voice. âEven for you.â
âI would do it again. I donât regret freeing Bibi of that cruel bastard. I only regret that I had to go behind your back but you left me no choice.â
Danteâs eyes flashed. âI left you no choice? You canât go around killing my men!â
âHe deserved it. You should have seen what he did to Bibi. You should have wanted to kill him for how he treated an innocent woman, wife or not.â
âIf I killed every man in the Outfit who treated women badly, Iâd be left with half of my soldiers. This is a life of brutality and cruelty, and many soldiers donât understand that as Made Men we should protect our family from it, and not unleash our anger on them. They know I donât approve of their actions. Thatâs all I can do.â
âBut I was handed the chance to do something and I did.â
âYou helped a wife murder her husband. Some men in my position would find it unsettling to be with a woman who doesnât hesitate to use poison.â
My eyes grew wide. âI gave Bibi a chance, a choice. That doesnât mean I would kill you. I would fight you if you ever treated me like Tommaso did with Bibi. Tommaso preyed on Bibiâs weakness. She was given to that old bastard when she was only eighteen and she never knew how to defend herself against him. Heâs had four years to be a better man, to treat her decently. He failed. Our marriage has nothing to do with theirs. You donât need to beat and rape me to feel like a man, and I wouldnât let you. And anyway, Iâm not vengeful, or I wouldnât have swallowed how you treated me in the last few months, how you accused me of cheating. And Bibi never loved Tommaso, soâ¦â I trailed off, clamping my lips shut. The last part wasnât supposed to slip out.
Danteâs fingers on my shoulders loosened. I looked away from his penetrating gaze, unable to stand it.
âIâm not worried that youâd poison me. As I said before, I trust you,â he said after a while, dropping his hands from my shoulders. âBut Iâll have to investigate Tommasoâs death.â
âYou wonât punish Bibi, will you?â I asked, terrified. âPlease, Dante, if you care about me at all, youâll rule that Tommasoâs murder was related to the traitors and that Bibi is innocent. Sheâs gone through too much already.â
âThere might be people out there who wonât believe Bibiana wasnât involved in Tommasoâs death exactly for the reasons you stated before. She had reason to hate him. She had reason to kill him.â
âThen blame it on me. I could have done it behind Bibiâs back to help her.â
âAnd then what?â Dante asked quietly.
âThen you punish me and not her.â
âAnd what if punishment for such a crime would be death in turn? Eye for an eye, Valentina.â
I stared, tears brimming in my eyes. âDonât hurt, Bibi. Just donât. Without me, she would have never found a way to kill him. It was as much my fault as it was hers. I will share whatever punishment you inflict on her.â
âI fear youâre saying that because you know I wonât punish you,â Dante said, a dark smile on his lips.
âYou wonât?â
Dante kissed me hard, then pulled back and lightly brushed my abdomen. Was it because of our baby? Or was I reading too much into the gesture? Or maybe heâd touched my stomach by accident. âAs long as I rule the Outfit, you wonât be harmed.â
He stepped back. âI need to go talk to Bibiana now.â
âLet me go with you,â I said hastily.
âYour father and my Consigliere will be there as well, so donât interrupt. I donât want them to suspect you. Your father would overlook it, but I would hate to have to force Rocco into silence over this.â
***
It had been a while since Iâd been at Bibianaâs childhood home. I never liked her parents much. That hadnât changed when theyâd forced Bibi into a marriage with an old man. My father and Rocco Scuderi were waiting in front of the door for us. When we walked up to them, Papà pulled me into a hug, kissed my temple and pressed his palm against my abdomen. âSo how are you?â
I could feel Danteâs eyes on us. Scuderi, too, was watching with hawk-eyes. I wasnât sure if he knew about my pregnancy. It wasnât public knowledge yet, but soon it would be hard to hide. A closer look was already enough to raise suspicions. âIâm good,â I said in a whisper. Papà nodded, then stepped back. âAre you here to support Bibiana?â
I gave him a nod, but was distracted when the door opened and Bibianaâs parents welcomed us into their house. Bibiana was in the living room, wrapped into a blanket. I rushed over to her and pulled her into a tight hug. âI did it. I really did it,â she whispered into my ear.
âShhh,â I murmured, patting her back. When I pulled away, Dante, my father and Rocco Scuderi stood beside us. Bibi stiffened, eyes fearful as they darted between us. Her parents hovered in the doorway. If Bibi had been my child, I wouldnât have left her side in a moment like this.
âTheyâre here to question you because of Tommasoâs death. Itâs standard procedure. Everything will be fine,â I told her.
Dante approached us. âIt would be best if we could have a word alone with Bibiana,â he said to me. Bibianaâs parents left without a word of protest. I stood but didnât move. Danteâs imploring gaze made me back away a few steps. Bibiana rose, then looked at Dante fearfully as he stood before her. She was practically cowering and it brought out my protective side, but Dante shot me a warning glare. He wanted me to trust him, to let him handle this, and I knew I had no choice. After an encouraging smile at Bibi, I left the living room, but I didnât go far. I pressed my ear against the door, trying to listen in on their conversation. They spoke too quietly, which would have been a good sign under normal circumstances. No raised voices should be a positive thing but Dante was his most dangerous when he was quiet.
Fifteen minutes later, I heard steps approaching the door and quickly backed away. Papà opened the door and beckoned me in. âEverything okay,â he said when he saw my worried expression. I walked in. Bibi sat on the sofa, her cheeks wet with tears, while Dante and Scuderi stood near the window, talking in quiet voices. I hurried over to her and sat. She gripped my hand immediately and I squeezed. Her parents came in when Dante turned to us. âThe men most likely responsible for Tommasoâs death are dead. Thereâs no punishment to dole out, so I rule the case closed.â I almost sagged with relief.
âDoes that mean we are allowed to look for a new husband for our daughter? Recently the habit of waiting a year has been loosened,â Bibianaâs father said and was of course referring to me. That bastard. Bibiana had barely been freed from one husband they had chosen for her and they were already eager to find someone new.
Danteâs answering glower made the other man lower his head. âBibiana is pregnant with Tommasoâs child.â
My eyes flew to Bibi who gave me a small happy smile. âI suspected a while, but I got confirmation this morning,â she whispered.
Her parents looked like theyâd been punched. They could hardly marry off a pregnant widow. That would be in bad taste. Bibi met their disappointed glares head on. âIâm not going to move back in with you.â
âI give you my word that your daughter will be safe in the house she shared with Tommaso,â Dante said.
I had to hide a smile. Bibiâs parents couldnât argue with that. After that, Dante and I drove Bibi back to her house. Although we didnât talk about what had really happened, Bibiâs relieved expression left hardly any doubt. She tried to look solemn whenever she remembered herself, but most of the time her relief spoke too loud.
I was glad Dante knew the truth. He would have figured it out anyway. When Bibi had gotten out of the car and we were on our way home, I put my hand on his leg.
Danteâs eyes registered surprise. I usually honored his reluctance of public displays of affection. âThank you for helping Bibi.â
âI did it for you,â he said simply. That was probably as close to a declaration of what â love? Affection? Iâd ever get from him.
âThank you.â I pulled my hand away again and rested it in my lap but Dante took me by surprise when he reached for my hand, brought it up to his face and pressed a kiss against my knuckles. My breath caught in my throat and immediately tears gathered in my eyes. Such a small gesture shouldnât have meant so much but it did, and pregnancy hormones didnât help. Dante didnât let go of my hand and sent me a questioning look. âValentina? Are you alright?â
âItâs the hormones. Iâm sorry. Just ignore me.â
Dante rested our linked hands on his thigh and drove with one hand. He didnât comment as I wiped my eyes and pressed my free hand against the small bump of my stomach.