âAre you sure youâre good to give Everly a ride home?â I ask Ash.
âFor the third time,â he says, âItâs no problem.â
âThank you.â Iâm sweating bullets and it isnât from the hockey game I just played. Piper is here. She came. She stayed.
I head out of the locker room. Everly and Piper are waiting for me. My sister smiles and lifts her hand. âNice game, bro.â
âThank you.â My gaze slides to Piper. âHey.â
Her dark blue eyes look almost black when sheâs angryâ¦and sheâs angry.
I turn my attention back to Everly as Ash walks out to meet us. I jut my chin toward him. âAsh is going to give you a ride back to the house. I wonât be long.â
âOkay.â Everly covers a yawn and glances at Piper. âSee you tomorrow.â
âBye.â Piper waves.
When theyâre gone, I take a step closer. âI wasnât sure youâd come.â
âMe neither.â She gestures around the hallway where photos of the team line the walls. âThis was your small conflict?â
âMy job requires late hours some nights. Did you enjoy the game?â
Instead of answering, she asks, âWhat am I doing here?â
âI wanted to see you, talk about Everly.â
âYou played me, and you dragged your sister in the middle of it.â
âThatâs notâ¦â I trail off and my brows pull together in confusion. âIâm sorry. That wasnât my intention. I wanted to talk to you before the team heads out on our next road games and I thought you might like to sit next to someone you knew. Thatâs all.â
Some of the fight leaves her, but I can tell sheâs still mad.
âLet me take you to dinner. Anywhere you want. Itâs the least I can do. I donât want to think about you being pissed at me the entire time Iâm gone.â
She cocks a brow as if to say, what about the last four years?
âPlease? I really do want to chat about Ev.â
âJust drinks. I ate half of the concession stand.â
One side of my mouth pulls up in a grin. âDrinks are perfect.â
We walk a few blocks from the arena to a quieter bar. I order a beer and she gets wine. Itâs surreal being out with her like this, even if she is keeping a foot of distance between us at all times. We were only kids when we dated so we never went out to bars or restaurants and drank together. Hell, even if we had been old enough, I was stupid broke.
She turns the wineglass by the stem slowly, keeping her gaze forward. Angling my body in her direction, I study her. Her hair is longer, but the same shade of dark brown, and so thick I want to run my fingers through it. She still looks so much like the girl I fell in love with all those years ago, I have to remind myself that this one isnât mine even though my fingers burn to touch her.
She catches me staring at her. âStop looking at me like that.â
âLike what?â
âLike youâre cataloging all the ways Iâm different since the last time you saw me.â
âThe opposite actually. You look exactly the same. Itâs like no time has passed.â
âExcept it has. Iâm not the same girl I was then.â
âI get that. Iâm not the same guy either. Iâm really sorry about the way things ended, Piper. I only wanted the best for you. Even if it wasnât me.â
Her eyes fall closed and her body trembles. âWhy is your sister living with you, Tyler?â
Right to it, I guess. âShe showed up on my doorstep a month ago. She was having a hard time in Iowa, got suspended from school a couple of times until they told her not to bother coming back, and she came to me wanting a place to start over. She begged me not to send her back.â
Piperâs face softens. âSuspended for what?â
âThreatening another student.â I wince. âShe had an issue with a girl in her class. The girl was bullying Everly, and Ev told her she was going to cut off all her pretty hair with a knife.â
A laugh escapes Piperâs lips. It starts quiet and builds. She covers her mouth with a hand. âOh my gosh. Did she?â
âNo.â I crack a small smile. âAnd I know Everly, or Iâm starting to again. It had to have been bad for her to get to that point. Plus, the knife she had on her was like a million years old. Itâs this old pocket knife that belonged to our grandfather. I donât think she could have hurt the girl if sheâd tried. But the school had a zero-tolerance policy with weapons, and it wasnât like it was the first time sheâd gotten in trouble.â
âWow.â
I nod.
âWhat about your mom? What did she say about Everly moving here?â
âNot a lot. Sheâs fed up, basically washed her hands of it all. She thinks Everly needs time away to get a new perspective.â
âSo, you became her guardian.â
âMore or less. Sheâs eighteen now, but she still needs someone to look out for her. Iâm not much, but I can at least give her a safe place and make sure she graduates high school.â
Piper blows out a breath. âI want to hate you.â
The admission doesnât surprise me, but still knocks the air from my lungs. âI figured as much.â
âI want to hate you,â she says again. âBut I think what youâre doing for your sister is really great.â
A rough laugh slips from my lips. âI donât know if sheâs any better off with me. I have no idea what Iâm doing.â
âBut youâre trying. You havenât given up on her.â
The praise makes me uncomfortable because it took me too long to realize I was acting like her annoyed big brother instead of the parent-figure she needed. âNo. Everly is great. Sheâs smart and tough. She hasnât had the easiest life and I basically abandoned her when I left to play hockey. This is the least I can do.â
Piper falls quiet. The tension lingers between us, and I donât know how to dissolve it.
âThank you for telling me. I like Everly. She reminds me a little of myself at that age after everything happened with you and then my dad.â
My jaw tightens. It was shitty timing that Piperâs dad had a stroke a few months after we broke up. It gutted me to know she was hurting, and I couldnât be there for her. It was the one time I reached out in all these years.
âI was sorry to hear about your dad.â
âThank you. I got the flowers you sent. It was kind of you.â She takes a sip of wine before continuing. âI will look out for her the best I can. I only have her in one class, though. Has she been in any other trouble aside from the backdrop debacle?â
âIsnât that enough?â I shake my head. âNo, sheâs mostly been staying out of trouble, but sheâs constantly pushing boundaries, and I hate her boyfriend.â
âSheâs been here a month and already has a boyfriend? I havenât seen her with anyone at school.â
âHeâs olderâtwenty, has no idea what he wants out of life, but he and his buddies are moving to New York soon because âthatâs where things are really happening.ââ I say the words with all the disdain I feel. âHeâs an absolute punk. I canât wait until heâs gone.â
Piperâs mouth curves into a smile. âYou sound like a worried father.â
âI am worried. Iâm gone a lot and I have no idea what Iâm doing. This is her last chance, I know that. Itâs a lot of pressure.â
âSheâs lucky to have you.â
âThank you for saying that.â I let my knee brush against her thigh. âI didnât ask you to dinner only to talk about Everly or bitch about her boyfriend.â
âNo?â she asks, sarcasm dripping from the word. She finishes her wine and pushes the glass away from her. âWhy did you ask me?â
âBecause Iâve missed you every day for four years and because now that Iâve seen you again, I canât imagine another day going by where I canât.â
Her eyes widen in surprise, but she shields her expression almost as quickly. I donât know when she did it, but I notice the cash on the bar as she moves to stand. âI should go. Itâs getting late.â
With every inch she puts between us, I can feel her slipping away from me forever.
âPiper, wait.â I run after her, catching her as she pushes out the front door of the bar.
I wrap my fingers around her upper arm, and she stops suddenly, jerking her arm away.
Tears swirl in her dark eyes. âNo. You donât get to say things like that to me. You and I have been over for a very long time. I moved on. I have a boyfriend. Iâm happy.â
I shove my hands in my pockets and swallow the lump in my throat. âI figured youâd want nothing to do with me, but I still had to tell you. I messed up, Pipes.â
âItâs a little late to be figuring that out.â
âIâve known it for years, but I still wasnât in a position to be the guy you deserve. Iâm still not.â
âThen why tell me now?â
âBecause youâre here.â I stop myself from reaching out and touching her again, but God, I want to feel her. âI didnât think I believed in fate, but then you walked into that principalâs office and my heart stopped.â
She pulls her keys from her purse and a steely determination settles over her. âI will keep an eye on your sister because I like her and I want her to succeed, but you and I will never be more than acquaintances.â
âGot it.â My throat burns on the words.
She hesitates, maybe waiting for me to object but she already stomped on my heart enough for one night, so I keep my mouth shut.
And then she leaves me standing on the sidewalk.
I go back inside to pay for my drink and then head home. Everly is already in bed, but I find Ash in the living room playing video games.
He takes one look at me and hands me the second controller. âWanna talk about it?â
âNot a lot to say. She still hates me.â
âYou got some set of balls on you. I told you she was going to be pissed that you tricked her into watching you play.â
âI didnât want to trick her,â I say, but Iâm not sure thatâs one hundred percent true. In my defense, I knew if I told her I had a game and couldnât meet until late, she would have blown me off. And as brutal as it was, I needed to talk to her, to tell her I miss her, and yeah, fill her in on things with Everly. It gives me a little peace to know that Piper is there at school with her.
âDid you say what you needed to say?â Ash asks.
âI guess.â I sit back and sink into the couch cushion. âI thought Iâd feel better.â
âAnd you donât?â
âNot even a little bit. She told me we will never be more than acquaintances. Sheâs seeing someone. All but told me to fuck right the hell off.â
âSorry, man.â
I close my eyes and picture her face. âThat canât be it for us. I refuse to accept it.â
âThen donât. The idiot sheâs dating wonât last.â
My eyes fly open. âYou know him?â
He gives me a sheepish smile. âI, uh, might have scoped her out online.â
I shake my head. âStop creeping on my girl.â
âIâm not creeping. I just had to see for myself.â
âAnd?â
âYouâre right. Sheâs hot. Like way too hot for you.â
Laughter builds in my chest and a little of the tension from the night fades.
âYou never looked her up in all these years?â
âNo, never.â I deleted my account years ago after the first time she posted a smiling picture on her page with another guy. I knew Iâd never survive following her and watching her move on. And for the most part it worked, I survived. I just havenât exactly moved on. Now, I donât have any accounts that arenât managed by someone else.
I let out a breath that puffs out my cheeks. âWhat do I do now?â
âI donât know,â Ash says. âI guess the same thing youâve been doingâ¦wait for your moment.â