[What are you?]
The moment the Hermit, the White Lotus Sword, and Namgung Bi-ah left the residence, Shin Noya spoke, his question directed at Thunder Fang.
Still half-dazed from hearing that Namgung Bi-ah was heading to the North Sea, I had asked Namgung Myung about it, but he gave no response.
As silence stretched, anger began to bubble within me. By then, I was already half out of my mind.
The boiling heat and fury surged to the very top of my head. It was an uncontrollable rage.
Looking back now, it seems strange. Even though the situation was unexpected, it wasnât something that should have made me this angry.
My emotions, difficult to manage at the best of times, always seemed to get in the way.
The real problem, though, was that even knowing this, I still couldnât control them.
[What are you?]
Before I could shout in frustration, Shin Noyaâs interjection cooled me down a little.
"What are you?" His question echoed in my mind.
I recalled the words Shin Noya had directed at Namgung Myung a day or two ago.
[You are not Myung.]
Watching Namgung Myungâs agitated reaction, Shin Noya had eventually declared firmly:
[You are not Namgung Myung.]
If that wasnât Namgung Myung, then whoâor whatâwas it?
[â¦Tch tchâ¦]
After Shin Noya posed his question, a faint laugh emanated from Thunder Fang.
[â¦What do you mean, "What am I," Shin Cheol? Surely you jest.]
[Do I look like Iâm joking?]
Woom.
Heat surged in my chestâbut it wasnât mine. A faint scent of plum blossoms began to flow through my meridians.
Light yet profound, clear yet dense. It was unmistakably Shin Noyaâs aura.
[You are not Myung. Am I wrong?]
[â¦Hahâ¦]
Namgung Myung chuckled softly, seemingly amused by the firm accusation.
[Then who do you say I am? I am Namgung Myung.]
His voice was sharp, as if dismissing the absurdity of the claim. Shin Noya, however, remained resolute.
[You may have fooled your descendants, but do you think you can deceive us?]
[Shin Cheolâ¦!]
[You are not Namgung Myung.]
Woooooomâ
As Shin Noya spoke, Thunder Fang began to tremble violently in my hand.
[Donât spout nonsense. I am Namgung Myung. If I am not Namgung Myung, then who am I?]
The vibrations intensified, shaking my hand as faint sparks flickered in the air. Lightning qi was emanating from Thunder Fang.
[After all these long years, do you mean to mock me? You?]
[Yes, it must have been an incredibly long time.]
Shin Noyaâs memories were fractured, filled with gaps like broken shards. He had mentioned waking up one day to find himself sealed within the artifact, a story that diverged from the official history.
According to the records of the Mount Hua Sect, the Flame Sword of Mount Hua ended his life as the sect leader after fulfilling his role.
Yet in our conversations with his lingering will, it was clear that something in that history was amiss.
Somewhere along the line, things had been twisted.
Whether it was the actions of those connected to the Celestial Abyss or the Blood Demon, something had gone terribly wrong.
And it seemed like Shin Noya was the one most preoccupied with uncovering the truth.
[Yes, itâs been a long time. What could someone who hasnât experienced such a span possibly understand?]
Namgung Myungâs voice dripped with anger. It wasnât the first time.
Previously, he had reacted similarly, his fury directed at Shin Noya, who had not endured the same passage of time.
[You still know nothing.]
The anger was understandable. Anyone who had remained a lingering will for countless years, waiting for someone who might never come, would likely have gone mad.
Butâ
[Youâre right. I donât know.]
Shin Noyaâs response carried a different weight.
[However, I do know one thingâyou are not Myung.]
[You insolentâ¦!]
[It must have been a very long time, long enough for mountains to crumble and cities to rise upon their remains.]
Shin Noyaâs words cut through the air.
Even the Arhat of the Yellow Cliff, after centuries, had been left weary and clinging to his sanity, while others, like the leader of the Tang Sect, endured lifetimes of bitterness to preserve their legacy, only for it to rot in the end.
It had been an unfathomably long time, one that had eroded and corrupted much of what once was.
For those who once sought to save the world, had this world ever been worth saving? It was a miracle they hadnât all lost their minds.
And yetâ
[You should know this better than anyone.]
Why, then, did Shin Noya refuse to acknowledge that voice as Namgung Myungâs?
That was the question that lingered in my mind.
Shin Noyaâs voice deepened.
[Time erodes all things. If you have lost your true self, so be it.]
[And you use that knowledge to insult me?]
[Even the steadfast Iron Shadow lost his hope. What choice did you have?]
[Then whyâ]
[But even so.]
There it was.
Something in the air shifted. A cold sweat ran down my back.
The atmosphere was heavy, suffocating. This wasnât just about Namgung Myung.
âShin Noyaâs presence.â
It was his emotions influencing the environment.
âDamn.â
Realizing this, I was once again struck by how extraordinary this old man was.
A mere fragment of his will could exert such an overwhelming presence.
In this moment, his usual gruffness gave way to something else entirely.
In the stifling silence, Shin Noya spoke again.
[At the very least, he never lost his convictions.]
[â¦!]
[And I feel no such conviction in you. So I ask again: Are you truly Namgung Myung?]
His voice carried an unshakable certainty, the kind born of experiences and bonds that I could hardly comprehend.
Namgung Myung fell silent.
Was it because he couldnât answer? Or because he wouldnât?
[...Do you even know how many years have passed? And you still say such things?]
Namgung Myungâs voice was dry, tinged with bitterness.
Even if he once had conviction, time had long since eroded it.
[Whatâs so strange about that?]
[How dare youâhow dare someone who hasnât endured this time speak of such things?]
Namgung Myungâs frustration was palpable, and I understood his anger.
To endure such hardship, only to be confronted by someone who had awakened after centuries, questioning your transformationâit was infuriating.
Butâ
âThereâs something off about this.â
Even as Namgung Myung spoke, a peculiar unease clung to his voice.
Shin Noya must have sensed it, too.
[Conviction can be lost. I wonât deny that.]
[â¦]
[But if you had lost it, that should have been the end of it.]
[What are you saying?]
Shin Noyaâs voice seemed to lower.
[If you were to abandon your conviction, that should have been all you did. But instead, desire has taken its place.]
[â¦!]
[Will you deny that as well?]
The air grew heavier once more.
Desire replacing convictionâwhat did that mean?
I couldnât understand, but Namgung Myung seemed to.
[All I feel from you is desireâa lust to restore the Namgung family, a desperation to fix your broken swordsmanship. Nothing more.]
[And whatâs wrong with that? In a world this broken, was I supposed to simply stand back and wait, clinging to peace? Where is the justice in that?]
Namgung Myungâs argument was logical. It wasnât unreasonable.
But Shin Noyaâs response was unwavering.
[Thatâs true. Anyone else would have done the same.]
[Then whyâ]
[But not Namgung Myung.]
His words were firm, resolute.
[Thereâs something Myung always said. If youâre truly Namgung Myung, youâd know it.]
[â¦]
[Do you remember it? He said it even as his body was soaked in blood.]
Namgung Myung remained silent.
Was it because he didnât know? Or because he couldnât bring himself to say it?
[âA Namgung sword must stand as a kingâs blade, protecting the people. A sword that protects no one has no purpose.â Thatâs what he always said.]
A ruler without subjects is meaningless.
Shin Noyaâs words were sharp, carrying an undeniable truth.
[If Myung had lost his convictions, he would have ended his own life then and there. Replacing them with desire? What a laughable idea.]
I finally understood.
Shin Noyaâs cold and quiet demeanor wasnât because his emotions had withered away.
It was because he was so furious that he had grown calm.
[So, stop mocking my friend.]
The weight of his words pressed down on me, leaving me breathless.
I wanted to say something, to interject, but Shin Noyaâs overwhelming presence silenced me.
I couldnât help but marvel at his unwavering belief.
âHow can he be so certain?â
Even if his friend had fallen, he believed so transparently, so absolutely, that this wasnât him.
What kind of life had he lived, to form a bond so profound?
[Once more, I ask: Who are you?]
[Shin Cheolâ¦]
Namgung Myungâs voice trembled. Was it from fear? Or resignation?
After a long pause, he finally spoke.
[I⦠I am Namgung Myung.]
It was the same as before.
[That truth will not change, no matter what.]
[This insolentâ]
[Butâ¦]
[â¦]
[I am not the original.]
Shin Noya froze, his anger cut short.
[What did you just say?]
âOriginal?â What did he mean?
Eyes wide, I waited as Namgung Myung continued.
[I am the lingering regret left behind by the original Namgung Myung, created for the sake of the Namgung family.]
[â¦]
[Then where is the real Myung?]
Shin Noyaâs voice, for the first time, faltered.
And Namgung Myung answered.
[The North Sea. Heâs in the North Sea.]
Of course, it had to be that accursed land again.
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I opened my eyes.
For some reason, my heavy eyelids annoyed me.
"â¦Ughâ¦"
I staggered as I tried to sit up, moving my arm and feeling a peculiar soreness in my muscles.
âWhat the hell?â
As I straightened up, I clutched my head, trying to think.
When did I lose consciousness? Was everything up until now just a dream?
The conversation between Namgung Myung and Shin Noya... no, it didnât feel like a dream.
I vaguely remembered hearing about the North Sea, grabbing Thunder Fang, and storming off.
Then there was the sparring match with Namgung Bi-ah.
I used Thunder Fang, didnât I?
âYeah, thatâs right. I used it.â
I remembered trying out the weapon, pushing my qi into it, and somehow managing to wield it.
Then came the sparring match⦠and I lost.
Yes, I lost. I lost to Namgung Bi-ah.
Thinking I could outmatch her in swordsmanship with a weapon I didnât even understand, I fell for a feint and was defeated.
And thenâ
ââ¦â
Smack!
A vivid memory of something brushing against my lips surfaced, and I reflexively slapped my cheek.
My face burned with heat.
I remembered up to that pointâdamn clearly, too.
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Why had I passed out and woken up like this?
ââ¦No way.â
Had I fainted just because of that kiss?
That would be⦠problematic.
âThatâs way too embarrassingâ¦â
Fainting over something as trivial as a kiss? No, that couldnât be it.
If it turned out to be true, Iâd bite my tongue and die right now.
âShould I just do it? Maybe thatâs the best option.â
As I seriously contemplated this ridiculous thought, Shin Noyaâs voice chimed in with utter exasperation.
[Stop being an idiot. Thatâs not what happened.]
âItâs not? Then what? Why was I lying down like that?â
[The backlash from using Thunder Fang, you fool.]
âWhat?â
Backlash?
Shin Noyaâs words triggered a delayed memory.
Right after Namgung Bi-ahâs surprise kiss, I had stood frozen for a few seconds. Just as I moved to react, it struck.
-Urghâ¦!
I had clutched my chest, overwhelmed by an unbearable pain in my heart.
And shortly after, I blacked out.
ââ¦So that was backlash from using Thunder Fang?â
[Of course. Why would you try to wield something so incompatible with you?]
But there hadnât been any apparent issues while I was using it.
âAside from consuming a ton of qi, it didnât seem like it caused any harm⦠Was the backlash really that severe?â
[Do you think it makes sense for such a powerful artifact to have no repercussions?]
âBut⦠Gui Jeongââ
[Didnât you yourself say Gui Jeong is less efficient than Thunder Fang?]
ââ¦â
There was a sharp edge to his words. It seemed the old man was holding a grudge over my earlier comparison of the two artifacts.
ââ¦Fine, Iâm sorry about that.â
[Tch.]
Even after my apology, Shin Noya didnât seem inclined to let it go.
Setting that aside, his explanation wasnât entirely unreasonable.
The energy I felt when wielding Thunder Fang was immense. It would have been stranger if there were no backlash for such enhancements.
âSo it wasnât just about draining qi, then.â
The problem was that I had never seen the Demon Sword Queen suffer this kind of pain after using Thunder Fang.
âSure, Iâd seen her look exhausted from overexertion, but she never showed signs of this level of agony.â
That could only mean the problem was unique to me.
The reason?
âI was forcing myself to use something incompatibleâ¦.â
As Shin Noya had pointed out, this was likely a side effect of wielding an artifact not suited to me.
It made sense.
Using a weapon designed for lightning qi with my fiery energy was unnatural to begin with. The fact that I could even use it was remarkable.
âIf Iâd known this would happen, I wouldnât have used it.â
Regardless of the artifactâs capabilities, it wasnât efficient for me. Using it out of curiosity had nearly cost me dearly.
âStill⦠how did I even manage to use it?â
Setting the backlash aside, understanding how I could wield Thunder Fang was the real question.
As I pondered thisâ
[Kid, nowâs not the time for that.]
âWhat?â
[Look to your side, will you?]
What was he talking about?
Following his suggestion, I turned my head.
And thereâ
"â¦Huh?"
Seated and sipping tea was my father. Across from him sat Moyong Hee-ah, Wi Seol-ah, and Namgung Bi-ah, her head hanging low.
â...â
Taking in the scene, I nodded slightly and lay back down on the bed.
This had to still be a dream.
Closing my eyes, I decided to wait it out.
It took all of ten seconds to realize it wasnât a dream.