Chapter 18: chapter 18

Xavier's POV- I was looking at the ceiling. I never noticed that the ceilings are not the same as walls. I always thought that the ceiling looks the same as walls well except for the castles or Palaces or churches. I have been to church, sometimes, when I was a kid. My mother used to take me there every once in a while.It's 3:00 in the morning. I can not sleep. Hence these stupid thoughts that I am having. Why can't I sleep? I know the answer. I don't have to ask. It's because of the woman sleeping in the room just across me. She will the reason for my early white hair. She is like a magnet for all the troubles and dangers. Why the hell did she go to that girl? If she would have done something?I remember how terrified she was when we reached home. It was hard for her to even walk straight. I had to take her in my arms to her room. Evangeline was with Sebastian in the garden. I already called him to inform him of the situation. I can't let that Angel see something like that.Anita was in there with her in her room. She was covered with Mark's bloodstains. She is not from this world. She is not used to seeing these things. She and Evangeline went to sleep early today. They must be tired. But I am still up. Should I go and check on her? This time, it will be the last, for sure. Not like the other four times. This time, I will go to sleep after seeing her. I went towards their room. As I was about to open the door when heard someone's sobbing. Who would be crying in there? Did something happen to them?I scurried inside. It was dark in the room. I saw that it was Isabelle. She was the one who is making the muffled groans and crying. It seemed like she was in deep pain. I hurried towards her. I called her name but she was not responding. I looked closer. She was still sleeping. That means she is having a nightmare. What is she dreaming about? It must be torturing.  What to do now? What can I do? I should wake her up.I called her name but she was not reacting to it. I sat on the bed and put my hand on her forehead. She instantly calms down. I sat there for some time. When I was confirmed that she was sleeping again, I stood up and went into the bathroom. I wet a face towel and bring it for her. I cleaned her face and neck. I know I should not touch a woman without her permission but she was very sweaty and tears were smeared on her face. I sat the towel on the bedside table. And keep on sitting there. I was looking at the mother and daughter. I feel something bright in my heart every time I see them happy.How can a stranger's happiness matter so much to me? Why I always want to see them smile? A child. I never have thought about having one. I myself never had a father. So I don't know what a father is? How he behaves? But after spending time with this little angel, I want to take care of her. I want her to depend on me. To look at me, every time she sees a problem. I looked towards Isabelle. I love her name. It's meaning is suitable for her. She is very beautiful. She is brave and innocent. I want to take care of her for the whole life. I didn't notice when I came close to Isabelle. Her face was right in front of me. I looked closely at her face. I can't do that with her awake. Her eyes, her nose, her lips everything is perfect. My eyes lingered to her lips a little longer than it should. I stayed like that for a few moments. What the hell are you thinking? Get your mind straight Xavier. She is off-limits. I stood up to go to my room. But as I reached the door my heart, my body, every fiber in me, was begging to be near her. I tried to walk away but my feet could not lift themselves. I looked behind me. It won't hurt if I stay here just for tonight. Right? I will be here just for tonight. This means nothing else. I just want to keep an eye on her if she gets a nightmare again. Yeah, that's what I am doing.I sat on the bed, beside her. My legs were hung down and my back was towards her. I put my elbows on my knees and put my head in my hand. I was thinking about something. I was debating with myself. What to do?After long thinking, I decided. I removed the blanket and lay behind her. I don't want to think about right or wrong right now. Maybe this will be my last chance to feel this warm, happy, and complete. So I embraced it. I embraced my only chance to feel this kind of satisfaction. She is sleeping in my arms. And I will savor this moment. I slept with her in my arms.****************Hello, lovelies.Hope you enjoy it.I am very sorry that I am updating very slow.