Chapter 43: chapter 43

Isabelle's POVI was in my bed, reading a book. Eva was sleeping with her head on my lap and Chase was sleeping beside her, holding her hand in his.Chase is very young himself but whenever with Eva, he behaves like a mature adult. A responsible man. It seems funny and cute. He actually makes me feel safe for Eva. His possessiveness and protectiveness for Eva remind me of Xavier. Just then I heard a knock on my door. I told them to come in. I looked up to see Xavier was standing at the door. It's been almost a week since I last saw him. The last time was when he gave me the news about Richard. After that, there was so much going on in the house but no one told me anything. Xavier stayed in his office all this time. He stood there, leaning on the door frame and looking at Eva and Chase longingly. His eyes looked sad but his face was still emotionless.I put Eva's head on the bed and tuck them both in very carefully. I get off the bed and went to stand in front of Xavier. His eyes were saying a lot of things but his lips stayed quiet."What is wrong?" I asked."I missed you, I missed you so damn much that it made my chest ache, literally." He said with so much density that made it clear, what he said was true. I smiled and replied, "Me too."He sighed and closed the distance between us. He took me in his arms and hugged me tightly. We didn't say a word, just stood in each other's arms. Then he parted with me and told me to come outside. While exiting the room I took a blanket with me. It was chilling outside.We went to the balcony at the end of the corridor, where we last spend some time together. We stood by the railing and looked out in the open. I offered him the blanket to share but he took all of it and wrapped it around himself. I looked at him dumbfoundedly.Then he looked at me and chuckled. Then he came behind and hugged me. We both were sharing the same blanket but it was not what I imagined it would be like. "What is wrong, Xavier?" I asked quietly."Nothing." He replied. We again stayed quiet for some time.I tried to move in his arms so that I could face him but he didn't let me."No, please stay like this for a few more moments." He requested. I didn't complain and stood still in his arms. The chilled night breeze was calming. The moon was shining at its peak as it was that night. I leaned on his shoulder and he put his face on my head. He took a deep breath, like taking in my fragrance. Then he hugged me tighter."You know I am not going anywhere, right? You can try loosing up your arms and I'll still be here." I said.But he didn't listen to me and nuzzled his face in my neck, it was like he wanted to engulf me in his body. Like I will actually disappear if he let go of me even for a second."Xavier, you have to tell me what is wrong. It's worrying me." I said. "There is nothing for you to worry about, love. I will keep you safe, always." He replied."Just tell me what's the matter?" I insisted."So much has changed, I am changed. I never thought of a moment like would ever come into my life. A woman as pure as you, as innocent as you, could be in my arms. I am too horrible to be called a person. This sounds wrong even in my head." He said. He sighed again.He has so much going on in his mind. I want to comfort him. Tell him that he is wrong. That he has a beautiful and caring heart that no other man, I ever met, had. That he is worthy of someone way better than me. I am the one who doesn't deserve him. He is the one with a pure heart and soul and I am the one who is ruined to be kept in a house. I want to say so much but at the moment I want to just devour this feeling of him being close to me. "Isabelle." "Hmmm""You have changed me. From the first day, I saw you, you light up a light in me, which made me see hope for myself. I never thought that I could be this happy nor that I deserve it. You made me yearn to cross that line. Having you in my arms makes me content." He said with so many emotions going through his mind. His words and the way his voice sounded made me go weak in the knees. It was a relief that he was holding me tightly in his arms. "Xavier, I know this will sound bizarre but you are the most right thing that happened in my life." I squeezed his arm, telling him to loosen his grip on me. I turned around facing him. I looked deep into his eyes."You, Xavier, also changed my life. I was living in misery before Richard left me five years ago. And after him, I was living like a robot. I was living just for Eva, a hopeless and emotionless life. Being with a man has always been a very painful experience for me but you made me see how good it could be felt to be with the right man. You made me feel safe. I never thought that I would have a chance at love. But then you came in my life...or I came to your house...or I was made to come here..." I chuckled remembering that day. He looked too shocked by what I was saying. Like he never expected that I could say something like that. I put my hands on both sides of his face and pulled him closer to me. I gave him a heartfelt smile to convey the truthfulness of my words. "Xavier, you reminded me that I have a heart too. That it can feel, care and love... again. That I can accept someone's love and return it." I stopped a few moments and then continued. "That I... That I can accept your love and... love you back." He froze after hearing those words from me. He stopped breathing, looking at me like I am some alien. I get on my toes' tip and peck on his nose to bring him back from his daze. It took me long enough to let this feeling sink in me, so now I will hold it with both of my hands. "You... You just said something about... about love. Is it...am I hearing it correctly?" He asked frantically.Is it too much for him? Should I have waited to tell him? Did I made the mistake to confess first?So much was going on in my head. "Sorry, if I made you uncomfortable. Just pretend that you didn't hear..." Before I could say any further he pulled me in and put his lips on mine. My whole body went cold... Or maybe hot. I could not understand what is going in my body. My heart is racing like hell. I hold onto his shoulders to support myself. He had me engulfed in his arms. I didn't felt that I was sinning. It felt right. His passion was clear with his action. That means I didn't make a mistake. I then loosen up and kissed him back. At that moment something changed in my heart. Because of the heated kiss, my head started to feel lighter. But I didn't want it to stop right now. I suddenly lose my balance but he held me closer. He parted our lips. I moaned in disappointment. He chuckled and pecked my forehead. "Be patient, mi amor." He said. I frowned at him and tried to move away. But he didn't let me. He lifted me and sat me on the railing. I latch onto him out of fear. He laughed at that. He was holding railing from both sides, caging me. I had my arms around his neck and legs around his waist. We were in a very intimidating position. "Xavier put me down." I demanded."No, I am loving this position." He replied. "But, I am hating it. What if I fall?" I asked."And you think I will let that happen?" He said."What if you missed me and I slip from your grip?" I asked."Never. I will never let you slip out of my hand." He said confidently."You promise?" I asked with so much hope. Hope that he will always care for me. He will always protect me and Eva. I was looking at him with a smile.I waited... and waited for his answer but he didn't give me any. Why isn't he saying anything? Did he not plan to keep us with him? Or was it just the heat of the moment? I didn't realize that I had tears running down my eyes until he wiped them away."No llores, amor. I am sorry. I was just... It is that... There is something I need to tell you." He said. I hold my breath, I was preparing for the worst. What could that be that he wants to tell me with such a serious face?"Due to some situations, I want you to leave Mexico. You will be going to New York." He told me."What do you mean by leave Mexico? Why? And what about you? Why did said I would be leaving not we?" I asked. I was so confused. Nothing was making sense to me."I will be staying here." Hearing that my heart stopped again but this time with panic. "You want me to leave...again!" I said. I felt my heart was breaking. I removed myself from him. Because of the lack of support, I was about to fall off the railing. His eyes went wide with fear. He quickly encircled his arms around me. He looked at me in horror."Are you out of your mind? You could have fallen. You gave me a heart attack." He said breathing heavily."And you gave me a heartbreak. What about that? You just said you will never let me slip away and in the second line, you told me to leave you. How does that make sense to you? What am I to you?" I said and again tried to get away from him but this time he holds my arms and pulled me down.I had tears continuously running down from my eyes. His face was blurry.He took my face in his hands and made me look at him. I closed my eyes. I didn't have the heart to look at him and not let my love be shown by my eyes. "Isabelle, mi amor. You are not listening to me. I never said that you should leave me. I am saying that you have to leave this country, it is just for your safety. Lucas will go with you." He said. I calmed a little."What do you mean? Not leaving you but the country?" I asked. I was still confused."I have some work here, and it can be dangerous for everyone. I have already arranged a job for you there. I looked for some schools for our princess. You will be fine there." He said."And you?" I asked."I... will be with you after finishing work here. I will be in contact with you all the time." He answered."What is so important?" I asked."I can't tell you, love. But I promise that this will my last work as a Mafia. I will leave it all here and will meet you there soon. Okay?" He said."Promise?" I asked again. He smiled and kissed my head."sí prometo." He said.Then he led me to the sleeping chair and like that night we sat on it again.Will everything be okay? Will he come to us? Can I survive without him?So many things were going on in my mind and suddenly something clicked in my head. "When I am leaving?" I asked."Tomorrow" "What?"**************Hello sweeties. Missed me?😎So how was the chapter? Must tell me in the comments.See you guys soon with another chapter.