Carlos
I wake in my bedroom. The scent of Sedona is still in my nostrils and I reach for her, but my arms come up empty. The memory of seeing her last returns and I bolt upright with a gasp.
Sedona. Where is my female? The urgency to find her, protect her, nearly makes me shift. If those motherfuckers laid one finger on my female, I will rip them to shreds. I donât care if Iâm banished forever from this pack. Even if it means leaving my poor mother. I will not stand by and let my female be mistreated.
I surge from the bed and throw on a pair of pajama pants before pounding toward the door. A light but rapid tap sounds on it. The door pushes open before I can say pásale.
Juanito bursts in. âDon Carlos, Itâs your mother. Sheâs having a fit. Come quickly.â
Screams reach my ears.
âDéjame!â my motherâs raw voice echoes in the center courtyard. Leave me. Sedonaâs fading scent clings to me as I run out and look down into my motherâs garden, the center courtyard the hacienda is built around. Mamá paces alone, her skirts aflutter. The servants huddle at the edges of the garden. She turns in a circle, long grey hair flying. Sweat drips down her face, her eyes are wild.
âMamá!â I run for the marble stairs and take them two at a time.
My mother doesnât seem to even hear me. Sheâs babbling something, as if arguing with demons or ghosts. She tears at her nightdress. âDéjame sola!â
âMamá!â I reach her and grip her arms, trying to get her wild focus to settle on my face. I donât succeed. She pulls to get away from me. Tears streak her face, once lovely, now sallow with dark circles under her eyes.
I could overpower her, of course, but I canât bring myself to manhandle my mother. âMamá, itâs all a dream. None of it is real. Look at me. Your son. Look at Carlos.â
âCarlos?â Her voice rings with panic. âWhereâs Carlitos? What have they done with my little boy? They want to kill him, too.â
âNo, Mamá, Iâm right hereâCarlosâCarlitosâall grown up. Look at me.â
Her unsteady gaze wavers around the courtyard and skips around my face. She reaches out to touch it, her brow wrinkling. âCarlos?â
âSi, Mamá, Iâm right here.â
She grabs my hand and tries to pull me further into the center of the garden. âHurry, Carlos. We have to run. Before they get you, too. Every alpha is in danger.â
I donât move, forcing her to shift her grip to two hands and tug with all her might. âNo, Iâm not in danger. I can defend myself. And you. Weâre safe, I promise. Comeâthis way.â I wrap my palm around hers. âLetâs go to your room.â
Her eyes widen. âMy prison, you mean?â She shakes her head wildly. âThatâs where they want to keep me quiet. I donât want to go there. I want to leave, Carlos. Take me away from this place.â
Pain rips through my chest. Should I find a way to send her back to her own pack? She still hates it here after all these years. But would they even take her? A crazy woman who requires full-time care? Would they provide the level of treatment she requires? Iâve never met anyone from Mamáâs old pack, or any pack other than my own. I feel the wrongness of that deep into my bones. I shouldâve done it when my father died. Not ten years later. My head aches with the weight of my guilt, my responsibility.
âOkay, Iâll take you away from here,â I promise, praying I can keep my word. âBut I need time to figure out where and how. So letâs get you back to your bedroomââ
âNot my bedroom!â she shrieks. âNot there! Donât take me there, Carlos.â Sheâs suddenly weeping, like sheâs the child and Iâm the parent.
I pull her against my chest and stroke her tangled hair. âOkay, not your bedroom,â I agree. I look around desperately, trying to figure out what else to do with her. âHow about a walk in the outer garden with Maria Jose?â I make eye contact with Juanitoâs mother, Mamáâs servant, and nod.
Maria Jose approaches slowly.
My mother sniffs and pulls away, nodding. âSÃ.â
My shoulders sag. I tug her hand in Maria Joseâs direction. âMaria will keep you safe, Mamá. Iâll see you after your walk, all right? Iâll see you for breakfast.â
After I find Sedona.
My mother toddles away on Maria Joseâs arm, but Juanito scuttles over to me. âDon Carlos,â he says in a low, urgent tone. He looks around like heâs afraid of being seen, and I have no doubt someone is watching, somewhere.
I grip his arm and tug him into the shadows. âQué cosa?â
âThe Americans are here to rescue your female. El consejoââ
The bell in the bell tower starts to toll, signaling the pack of danger. Don Santiago enters. Something about the timing of his appearance seems deliberate. âThere you are.â His voice is smooth as caramel. âWe have a problem. Three large vans breached the outer gate. Prepare to fight for your female.â
Ice flushes through my veins as I see their plan. Theyâre banking on my strength to fend off these enemies they brought onto our pack. My mind races. I donât even know where my female is, and Iâm sure as hell not going to fight her family for her. That will not inure the beautiful American to me. With a calmness I donât feel, I squeeze Juanitoâs shoulder. âRun and grab me a shirt, Juanito. Iâll be right behind you.â I turn to Jose. âGather the males of the pack and tell them to meet on the terrace.â I infuse alpha authority into my voice, even though I know full well my orders mean nothing to this man. The council has been running me now for years. I run up the stairs and meet Juanito at the top, carrying my shirt. I grab it from him and pull it on as I murmur in a low voice. âWhere is my female, Juanito?â
âLocked in a guest room in the east wing, Don Carlos.â
âCan you find a way to set her free?â
âI-I donât know, sir.â Juanito is a smart kid, I know heâll figure it out.
âI need you to try. Let her out and take her out to her people through the lower gate. Donât let anyone see you. The future of this pack depends on you, my friend.â
Juanitoâs lowered eyes jerk up to mine and I watch honor fill his being. âYes, sir.â He slips away, quiet and invisible as a ghost.
I head out to the terrace, where the men of our pack are gathering, in from the mines and the fields, watching the white vans wind up the mountain toward the citadel. âWe will defend our pack, if necessary, but there will be no violence without a cue from me, understood?â I use every bit of alpha power in my voice, making it boom and project confidence, leadership. The trouble is, these males have never fought with me before, never taken my orders.
Most of them are old. The only younger male shifter in the pack besides myself was Juanitoâs brother, Mauca, but he disappeared last year. Ran away, is what they said, but I know Juanito and Maria Jose donât believe that. There arenât many other male shifters under the age of fifty, except the defectuosos. They are here, though, armed with machetes, ready to fight as men.
Guillermo, the big wolf who runs the mines is here, along with his men. I can count on them to defend the pack, if it comes to that.
Don Santiago and the rest of the council are here, but they are not preparing to fight. No, they are setting up as if to watch a football match. Granted, they are all over seventy, but shifters live long lives and heal quickly. I think they play the privilege card and the elderly card far too often. As I look at their self-satisfied faces, I want to beat the righteousness out of every one of them.
And what better diversion? Especially with an audience. Itâs time to establish exactly who is alpha in this pack. A growl rips from my throat as I stalk over. I grab the first one I get toâDon Mateoâand grasp him by the throat. My fingers wrap right around his chicken neck and I lift him from the ground. âYou brought this attack on our pack,â I roar. âYou and the rest of the council.â
âPut him down,â Don Jose snarls. He uses his usual superior command, but it falls flat in the face of alpha rage. He turns to the pack. âThe boy has inherited some of his motherâs lunacy.â
Oh, fuck no. Of course theyâd try that tactic. Make me look insane.
I look around at the council. They might treat me like a treasured pup, but these arenât the grandfatherly men who raised me. These are powerful wolves. âYou purchased a femaleâan Americanâstolen from her pack by traffickers. What did you think would happen?â
Don Santiago goes for a smug, unruffled tone. âWe thought you would claim her, and we were correct.â
Don Mateoâs face turns red as he struggles to drag in gurgling breaths. His feet kick out uselessly. The men of the pack move in close, crowding around us, but no oneâincluding the other eldersâphysically challenges me. Together, they could take me down, but not without a lot of bloodshed.
âYou locked me in my own dungeon. Disrespected your alpha. Do you think that deed will go unpunished?â
Mateoâs eyes bulge. If I donât release him soon, heâll die.
Out of the corner of my eye, I see Guillermo step forward. The burly wolf isnât high in the pack, but with his miners behind him, they could overpower me. If the council gave the order, I could be dead, and my mother with me. Iâm surrounded by the pack Iâm supposed to lead, and I donât know who I can trust.
âTranquilo, Carlos. It was not out of disrespect, but out of love. We provided you with a prize worthy of an alpha like you,â Don Santiago placates.
I drop Mateo not because Iâm playing good little alpha for the council, but as much as Iâd like to kill him and all the dons, Iâm not a murderer. Whirling to face Don Santiago, I let out a ferocious growl. Every wolf around me drops his eyes and shows his throat in submission.
Better.
âNow you disrespect my female. She is not an object, but an alpha she-wolf, capable of tearing out any one of your throats. If any of you ever touch or confine her against her will again, youâre dead. Comprendes?â
âSÃ, Don Carlos.â The males of the pack mutter the answer automatically. Iâm not sure I hear it from the lips of the elders, but they nod their heads as if in agreement. Lying fuck-toads.
This isnât finished. Even though Iâve heard what I demanded to hear, Iâm not even close to satisfied. âI will consider your punishment,â I growl.
Yeah, I donât know how that will go down. Will I have the ability to enforce a punishment on council members? I donât have a fucking clue, but I sure as hell know Iâm not going to let them off easy in front of my pack.
Behind me, the pack members shift in discomfort. They are either more loyal to, or more afraid of the council. I get that. Iâve only been back a few weeks. They donât know me, and it will take time for me to prove myself as a leader. But I certainly intend to do that.
âLater.â Don Santiago points down at the road outside the walls surrounding our citadel. âThe Americans have arrived.â The three white vans pull up outside the front portcullis and stop. Their doors open and dozens of muscled wolves pour out, young males in their prime, arms covered in tattoos, weapons in their hands.
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Sedona
The boy who let me out of the bedroom where I was locked beckons me forward. Weâre outside the palace or castleâor whatever they call this building. Itâs certainly regal enough to be a castle. In fact, weâre heading along the same path the men carried my cage on when I arrived. Above us, looms the gleaming building, below us but still within the walls of the enclave are little huts with thatched roofs.
I woke up alone in a canopied bed dressed in a ridiculous flowing robe, like some medieval princess. Fitting as I was locked in a tower. This place is seriously stuck in the seventeenth century.
I tried the door, but it was locked. Pounding on it got me nowhere. Neither did calling for Carlos, but then the boy showed up, put his finger to his lips to silence me and rushed me out of the building.
Now that weâre outside, he speaks to me in Spanish, but I donât have a clue what heâs saying.
âJuanito?â I ask. âAre you Juanito?â
He stops and turns, and his serious face splits into a grin. âSÃ, soy Juanito.â He bobs his head, as if I just did him some great honor by knowing his name. He rattles off something else, but all I catch is âCarlos.â
âWhere is Carlos?â I ask. Iâm more than a little disappointed to be rescued by the boy instead of the male who marked me last night. Itâs stupid, but I feel abandoned. I need to see him. We need to talk about the fact that he marked me, and what it means.
But I guess escaping the crazy council should be the first order of business. Juanito pulls a keycard from a cord around his neck and flashes it against a surprisingly high-tech lock on a gate in the polished adobe wall.
Outside, I hear⦠English voices.
I surge forward, running toward the sound, and I recognize males from both my brother and fatherâs packs piling out of three white bus-sized super-vans parked outside a giant portcullis. I have no idea how they found me, but relief nearly drowns me.
My brother senses me coming and whirls. âSedona?â
Iâm sure I look ridiculous in the flowing robe. Tears sting my eyes. I fly at him, wrapping my arms and legs around him. The force of my hug drives my huge big brother to take a step back.
As soon as Garrettâs arms close around me, I know everythingâs going to be all right. Heâs bigger and stronger than any of the fuckers who took me captive. The only exception might be Carlos, but I canât think about him right now.
âItâs okay,â Garrett murmurs. I press my face into his shoulder, clutching him. His muscles flex around me, big, protective. âNo oneâs gonna hurt you. Never again.â
âSedona,â a deep voice makes me raise my head. My dad stands beside us, lips pressed tight togetherâa look Iâm all too familiar with. For once Iâm glad to see it.
âDad.â I turn to him and give him a heartfelt, if stiffer hug. Itâs only when I draw back and study the deep lines etched on my fatherâs brow that I realize his stern look isnât one of disapproval. Itâs worryâand now deep relief.
âIâm sorry,â my voice cracks.
âItâs all right,â Garrett soothes, at the same time my father says, âWeâll talk about it later.â
I lean into my big brotherâs side, unable to look my father in the eyes. Garrett gives me a squeezeâanother signal Iâm familiar with from the times Iâve gotten in trouble. You and me, sis. Dadâs gonna be a hardass, but weâll get through itâtogether. Even though heâs eight years older, and as alpha and protective as our dad, Garrett has always stuck by me.
I donât think my big brother can fix this. Weâre in some godforsaken mountain in Mexico, facing off with an unfamiliar pack, deep in hostile territory. My dad might be dealing with the political ramifications of this for the next thirty years.
Itâs my fault. Iâm the alphaâs daughter. Itâs my responsibility to follow the rulesâfor the good of the pack. Me and my stupid idea to live it up on spring break.
âHow do we get in? Iâm going to kill every last motherfuckingââ Garrettâs cracking his knuckles when I cut in.
âNo.â I still donât know what in the hell is going on here. Carlos must have sent Juanito to set me free. But where is Carlos? I look back where Juanito stands, looking uncertain. Is Carlos coming? He canât. My heart fills with lead. If he did, my father and Garrett would kill him. No, I need to get out of here before any wolvesâon either sideâget hurt. I couldnât stand having blood on my head. âTake me out of here. I donât want a fight. I just want to go home. Letâs go.â
My dad shakes his head. âNo one steals my daughter and lives.â
âThey didnât steal me, they bought me. Youâre welcome to kill the fuckers who stole me, but theyâre not here. I just want to leave. No bloodshed. Please.â I catch Garrettâs eye and hold his gaze, silently pleading.
He grabs my dadâs arm and they walk around the back of the van to confer in private.
Of course, because I have shifter hearing, I donât miss any of the conversation.
âDad, donât you think Sedonaâs been through enough? Sheâs been mated.â
My eyes fill with tears. Hunching, I cover the already healed wound on my shoulder. In a few days it would be nothing more than a slight scar, but I will carry Carlosâ scent, a trace of his essence, with me until I die.
Garrett continues in a low voice, âShe might have conflicted feelings toward the guy. The last thing she needs is more trauma. If she says no bloodshed here, I think we have to honor her wishes.â
âWe donât kill them and we send the message weâre weak.â
They argue some more, but when they come back around, my father clips, âEveryone back in the vehicles.â
Garrett shoos me into his van and climbs in the back seat beside me, throwing his strong arm around my shoulders.
As the van takes off down the mountain, I try to pull it together, but my emotions are all over the place. I hate being the victim, rescued by the males in her family. Itâs pathetic and I know if I dip into that, even for a second, I could tumble into a pool of self-pity so deep I could let this experience scar me for the rest of my life.
Poor Sedona, they would whisper about me. Sheâs never been the same since her abduction and rape.
Fuck that. I was a victim, yes. But it wasnât rape. I begged him for it. And Iâm not weak, Iâm an alpha female. I can turn this into a win, not a loss.
But what did I win?
I had my V-card punched, in the most incredible, satisfying way. Itâs hard to imagine it gets much better than what we shared. But I also walked away marked. Iâm not even sure of the ramifications of carrying a maleâs scent when I didnât choose him as a mate.
Carlos let me go.
Fates, thinking of him sends a searing pain right through the middle of my chest. Will I ever see him again? Do I want to? Itâs a fucked up kind of complicated, isnât it?
I still donât even know if he was as innocent in my imprisonment as he insisted. What if he orchestrated the whole damn thing?
But no, why let me go, then? And Iâm sure it was Carlos who sent Juanito to shuttle me out to my family. Whether it was to save his own pack or for my benefit, I canât be sure. Because I know one thingâmy familyâs packs would have brought it.
So logically, it seems like I should count Carlos releasing me as a win. Why, then, does it seem like my heart is beating outside my chest? Like it stayed back on that mountain and the further we drive away, the more anxious I become at leaving it behind?
But please. Did I want him to claim me? To keep me?
Fuck no.
I would never stay on that godforsaken mountain with that crazy pack. Theyâre the most backwards, insane bunch Iâve ever seen, and my father has hosted a lot of pack mingles over the years.
Even if they were the most charming wolves on Earth, I wouldnât want to stay. Iâm twenty-one years old. I havenât even finished college. I only just started having fun. Fates, my spring break vacation in San Carlos seems so long ago. So far away. What did my friends think when I disappeared from the beach?
âHow did you find me?â I ask Garrett, speaking for the first time in what must have been a couple hours. I applaud him for not grilling me the whole way, but Garrett is perceptive. Iâm glad I didnât ride in my fatherâs van.
âMy mate found you.â
Wait⦠what? Garrett doesnât have a mate. Heâs been playing Mr. Bachelor for years with his pack of young males. âYour mate?â
Garrett touches my fresh mark. âLooks like we both mated this moon.â
Garrett sounds so happy. Iâm going to go out on a limb and guess his mating was nothing like mine. He wasnât locked naked in a room with her and forced to mate. He chose a female. The way I always thought Iâd get to choose a mate.
And now Iâm wallowing in self-pityâthe swamp I didnât want to swim in. âTell me about her?â I need distraction.
âHer name is Amber. Sheâs a human psychic and an attorney. And my next door neighbor. When you went missing, I volun-told her we needed her help, and we brought her along to Mexico. She helped us follow your trail to Mexico City, where we found your original captors.â
I scowl, remembering the cage and the warehouse.
âTheyâre already dead,â Garrett assures me.
âA human?â Garrett mated a human? Itâs unheard of for an alpha wolf to take a human mate. I hope this doesnât mean heâll lose his position as alpha. His pack is as loyal as they come, but you never know. Some wolf may challenge him for it. The most likely contender would be Tank, his beta, except that Tank is from our fatherâs pack originally and his loyalty there would prevent it.
âMy wolf picked her.â Garrett shrugs but his goofy grin says heâs hopelessly in love.
Is that what happened with me and Carlos? Our wolves picked even though our human selves never would have?
What about all that stuff Carlos said just before we were drugged? About not being sorry heâd mated me? Was that the truth? Or just the effect of the full moon and a happy inner wolf?
âYou sure you donât want me to go back there and kill the entire Montelobo pack? Because I wonât hesitate if you give the word.â
âNo.â I twist and grab Garrettâs shoulders before I realize what Iâm doing. âYou canât do that.â
Garrett falls silent, searching my face. My grip tightens. âYou canât. Promise me.â What if Carlos were hurt? Or someone he cared about, like his mother or Juanito?
âYou sure, kiddo?â His voice is mild, but for a second I glimpse the cold-hearted predator lurking behind the human facade. The wolf would kill first and ask questions never, leaving a trail of bodies behind.
âIâm sure. Donât let dad go back, either. Promise me.â
âAll right, sis. Calm down. I promise.â I can tell he wants to ask me more, so I turn in his arms, tucking myself into his side. I hold him tight until my racing heart slows down.
Our van rolls through a sprawling city, which Garrett tells me is the countryâs capital, Mexico City. We stop at a skyrise hotel and Garrett shifts in his seat, his eyes fixed on a high story window. His mate must be inside.
Ugh. I rub my nose. What would it be like to be happily mated instead of leaving the most fucked up of matings possible? âSo whereâs Amber, now?â I try for enthusiasm. Iâm going to have a sister for the first time. With Garrett so much older, Iâm more like an only child. âWhen can I meet her?â
âSheâs in our suite. Come on. You can meet her now.â
Garrett leads me into the hotel and up an elevator, but when he enters his room, I know somethingâs wrong. Thereâs no scent of a female presentâhuman or otherwise.
Garrett picks up a note and reads it, then roars, smashing his fist into a wall.
Well, crap.
I guess Iâm not the only one whose mating is a mess.