Because she had loved him since she was young, even though Shangguan Yuâs personality was a little introverted, she was never stingy. She would not be so shy that she could not express her love for him. Everyone knew that she loved him.
Fu Siye did not speak and only reached out to pull her into his embrace. She loved him so much. He could be afraid of anything except that she wouldnât love him. Even if the world would be destroyed, she wouldnât not love him.
Such love.
However, he had forcefully erased it. He had forced her, who loved him so much, to give up and let go of that love. No matter what, she could not live with him.
Heâ¦
Fu Siye couldnât think about it. The moment he thought about it, he wanted to return to the past. He wanted to stab that damn self of his to death and take his past selfâs place. He wanted to start loving her well from the start so that she wouldnât have to experience such pain and only have happiness in her life.
It would make it impossible for them to separate forever. They wouldnât have such despair and fearâ¦
âSiye, whatâs wrong with you?â The current him was very different from the past him. She had always felt so uneasy. Apart from losing her memory, her life felt incomplete, and this was also because he suddenly loved her so much, cared about her so much, andâ¦
He was like how she was in the past. He was worried about gains and losses, afraid of losing her, and he especially cherished her.
What exactly happened to make him like this?
He made her feel surreal because he used to hate her so much.
But he suddenly loved her so much and doted on her. He was afraid of losing her.
This made her feel like she was dreaming even though she had been awake for so long. She felt uneasy as she walked.
She was always afraid that one day, sheâd wake up and realize that this was only a dreamâ¦
Because of this uneasiness, she really wanted a child.
She felt that only with a child would everything become realâ¦
âI had a very, very real dream. That dream was as real as reality. In the dream, you didnât love me anymore. You wanted to divorce me. No matter what I did, you wouldnât forgive me. You insisted on divorcing me.
âThat dream was really too real, too real⦠It was so real that I couldnât tell if it was a dream or if the happiness we are living in now is a dream. Hence, I am afraid, afraid that I would lose you, afraid that I would one day wake up from this beautiful dream. When I wake up, you would still be the you who didnât love me and wanted to divorce meâ¦
âYouâll never love me again. No matter what I do, you wonât forgive me. Youâd have to give up on me⦠If that happens, I donât know how I can continue livingâ¦â
Fu Siye hugged her tightly, as if he had suddenly fallen into the despair he had felt in the past three years. He had really done everything he could, but he still couldnât get her heart back. That despair made him want to walk toward destruction a few times. He couldnât lose her, couldnâtâ¦
âI know I was wrong. I really know I was wrong. I was too much of a bastard in the past. I couldnât see my heart clearly.â He really knew that he was wrong. He really knew⦠Donât just abandon him like this and give up on him. In this relationship, it wasnât her who had the deeper feelings. It was him⦠It was just that he was too stupid in the pastâ¦
âXiao Yu, I didnât fall in love with you so suddenly. Iâve fallen in love with you since a long time ago. Think about it carefully and youâll realize that every time youâre tired and wanted to give up on me, Iâd hold on to you tightly.â