âBut Iâm already an adult. Iâll take care of myself. No matter what I do, Iâll be responsible for my own actions. You really donât have to care about me.â
Back then, when they got married, her grandfather had given the Shangguan family to the Fu family on one condition. It was that this marriage could only be divorced when she wanted to. If Fu Siye had an affair, he would leave the marriage with nothing. Although sheâd also have to leave the marriage with nothing, this condition was beneficial to him because they knew how much she loved him. If she was going to have an affair, that meant she definitely did not love him anymore. If she didnât love him, she could just propose a divorce. There was no need for her to have an affair.
Hence, this condition only affected Fu Siye. He could only wait for her to give up and for her to want a divorce. That was why he had been hurting her all these years and forcing her to let go.
As Shangguan Yu spoke, she kept her eyes closed. She did not dare to look at him, afraid that if she looked at his face, she would only want to be with him and not say such things.
Because her eyes were closed, she did not see the complicated struggle in Fu Siyeâs eyes.
In the past, when she said that she wanted to let go, she was always only playing hard to get. She was always testing him. Now, he could tell that she was really tired. She really could not hold on anymore.
In fact, she resolutely even wanted to do such a thing last night to completely break her heart.
He should have been happy because the freedom he had always wanted was about to arrive, but...
Why? Why was he so unable to accept it?
âIf you donât want me to defile myself, fine. I wonât defile myself. After we land, Iâll go back. Iâll try my best to find a man to like and have an affair with. From now on, you really donât have to care about me anymore.â The reason she wanted to cheat on him was that she wanted to give him everything.
She didnât need those assets. She only needed that coffee shop.
When Fu Siye heard her words, he couldnât tell what he was feeling. He didnât want to think too much about it either. He just followed his instincts and lowered his head to stop her red lips harshly. He didnât want to hear her say these things again.
Shangguan Yu opened her eyes and looked at him.
Look, itâs always like this.
Whenever she was exhausted and in despair, he would always do something like this, making her feel that he actually liked her. It was only because of the misunderstandings in the past and because he couldnât let go of such things that he treated her this way.
She just had to wait. One day, he would let go of those things and be happy with her.
But...
It had been six years. All she had been waiting for was despair and pain.
Her tears fell without warning.
After a long time...
âSiye, if you really donât like me at all, then donât treat me like this from now on, alright?â In the past, after this, she would always ask him with anticipation if he was like this because he liked her.
But every time, she would feel despair. This made her not want to ask that anymore.
âJust take it that Iâm begging you...â
She didnât want to be so petty, but her love was so petty.
If possible, she really didnât want to love him so much. She really didnât...
It would be great if the human brain could be like a computer. If the person didnât want something, they could just delete it forever and leave no trace.
Fu Siye really could not bear to hear her words and lowered his head again.n/o/vel/b//in dot c//om
Shangguan Yu wanted to push him away, but she also didnât want to.
Even though she knew that sinking into hell would only bring her endless pain, she still couldnât get out of it...