Hayden's POV
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The days went by quick, sometimes I didn't even know what day it was. It was all just becoming a routine to me, Wake up, Clean the toilets, Eat the distgusting porridge and then back to the room. I was getting accustomed to the feeling of being in there. Feeling forgotten, unwanted and used.
I wonder what my mom was doing right now, back at home safe and sound in her little house with her TV, free porn on the internet and freedom which I can't seem to relate to.
I don't know if she knows how they treat us to the extreme but I'm sure she would approve of this, she'd love the thought of seeing my right to an opinion being taken away and me being ordered around. I bet she was sitting with her high and mighty friends discussing that no daughter of hers is going to be gay, I knew this because she had done it before in front of my literal face, didn't even spare me a glance when the words left her mouth. I felt like a charity case in my own house, I felt like a charity case in my own family, awaiting the countdown of a mental clock in which they'd just throw me out on the streets.
Some people don't have a heart, I know that now. Some people don't have a brain, that was pretty obvious when they elected trump as president but at the end of the day, if you could sleep soundly knowing you had shipped your daughter off to a conversion camp with strangers, surrounded by men day and night and young teenagers locked away from the government to find, then something was literally wrong with you
The thing I didn't understand about this whole therapy shit was the fact that they would rather break laws just to 'save' us when the truth was they are the one's who need saving themselves.
When are they going to realize that they can't change us, we might act how they want us to act in front of their faces but behind their backs its a whole different story.
Then they want to call us liars and say that we are the sneaky ones when its them who made us act this way. How can we be ourselves around you with out you flipping out, without us becoming homeless or being disowned. How ca-
"Hey, dude Ruby is coming" Alexis nudged me.
"I didn't realize I was zoned out" I shook it off continuing to scrub the toilet.
Utterly. Fucking disgusting. Especially since they feed eveyone here shit, their shit didn't even look like shit anymore. For fuck sakes man.
I rolled my eyes and pressed to scrub harder against the rim of the bowl, I'm pretty sure I saw a whole bunch of shit on the ceiling but I'll just leave that there for the next person who sits on here and let that shit fall in their goddamned heads.
Maybe then is when I'll finally get a little entertainment out here
"Well you guys are getting comfortable aren't yah" She smirked
"We do this everyday so" Abeke shrugged
"Well today is your lucky day" She smiled.
"Wait what do you mean?" I asked.
"Well you guys haven't been acting up much and you've been adhering to her rules so..." She said.
"So, what?" Alexis asked.
"So, You've been upgraded, you can attend class" She said.
Now I know what you're thinking, ew classes that's boring. But when you've been scrubbing all the different rainbow colours of people's shit for a week, then the idea of going to classes would excite you more than someone licking your over stem clit.
Our faces fell, not in the sad way but with the disbelief washing over us. The scrub dropped from my hand and landed somewhere in that bowl of human dissapointment.
My eyes sparkled with joy as a smile slowly found its way onto my lips, never would I ever expect to be this happy over going to goddamned classes.
"I've never been so happy to attend class in my life until now" Alexis squealed.
I chuckled when she ran towards me, wrapped her hands around my shoulder and pulling me into her embrace, her joy causing us to jump up and down but I really couldn't celebrate right now, not only was I still in disbelief that camren hadn't gotten marry yet.
And the fact that Alexis was hugging me with them shit fingers.
"EWWWWW GET OFFF GET OFF GET OOFFF" I screamed
"Bitch shut up and hug me" She glared
"EWWWWW" I squealed and tried to remove myself from her tight embrace but unfortunately she was far stronger in this moment
"Keep squirming and I'll shove my hand down your throat"
"I-" Y'all, I didn't even hesitate. The blood in my body all turned to ice as I stood there paralyzed
I heard Abeke chuckle while Ruby just shook her head, opening the bathroom door for us all to pile out and leave
We made our way out of the disgusting place, letting out a sigh of relief as we walked down the dim and cobwebbed filled place of the academy, candles flickered as some went out. We felt eyes on our bodies as we walked, of course it was the 'students' scrunching up their faces in disgust, perhaps it was the students who assumed they were 'saved' by God's will and they were taking pity on seeing a bunch of sinners walk away after shrugging their feaces away.
But don't let that fool you, I've seen secrets on the wall. I'm not sure how they found a brown marker to write on the wall of the toilet. Nor am I sure it was a marker but there's all kinds of secrets floating around on those walls.
There was even a glory hole but we're not going to talk about that one.
We went to our room with a smile on our faces, immediately dashing to the one place we desperately needed to be, a hot shower to cleanse our skins from the sin of wanting to touch boobs instead of hair chests and pubic looking chin hair of men.
We all took a shower one by one to get ready for dinner. I wonder what they're serving tonight, I hope it's spaghetti but knowing this place so well, it was probably water with food colouring and raw carrots from the ground. Prison could never.
Ruby came to our doors once again leading us to the cafeteria. In all honesty, I couldn't wait to see the better side of this place. This side was broken down and waiting to fall into the pits of hell so hopefully the other side was far better, Ruby always had a smile on her face so that must be a good sign. Right?
Then I realized we were at the same cafeteria where they serve porridge. What the fuck!
"I thought you said that we've been upgraded" I looked at Ruby.
"Oh you have, but that's until next week and you will still be eating at this cafeteria, Madame Theressa doesn't trust any of you. She believes you must still be punished somehow" She said as she left.
"What the fuck?" Cameron said sitting down.
"Wow, I guess its Porridge once again" Abeke looked down at the grey liquid in a bowl
"EW IT JUST TALKED" Alexis screamed, I glanced down at the bowl and saw that it was bubbling
Oh my fucking god, why, why does these things keep happening to us. We listen, we play by the rules.. Sometimes. We don't even talk to anyone other than each other and we still got stuck with porridge, well I assumed it was porridge.
I'm not even that surprised though, Immanuel did say she was worst than him. Heck even scarier, even Immanuel was afraid of her and that's his wife, I know that this might not be the right nor appropriate time to say but
Girl Powerr. Sisters before misters
We went back to our rooms after watching the porridge bubble down to a flat grey substance that looked like slime, I guess that's another night of going hungry. I swear, if the bordom, lack of entertainment or mold in the walls didn't kill us then it was probably going to be the poison they're feeding us.
Maybe, just maybe it was the food turning everyone straight. I mean, that would totally explain it. You eat crap then you become crap. Just perfect.
Yeah, I definitely needed to see a therapist right now.
Ruby came later that night giving us our uniforms and text books for the next week, it was the only thing that kept me going. They were the same as the one's we wore when we were with Immanuel but there was something just a tad bit different about it, I just couldn't pin point what it was.
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Well the day was here, where we can get to go to class instead of scrubbing toilets and chisle gum from under the sinks. No there wasn't any gum in this academy but let's just call it gum, because I have no idea what else sticky shit you'd find there.
I opened the door and Ruby was just right there waiting, I swear this girl gives me bad Maddison vibes, it was taking me to a trip down memory lane that I wasn't ready for. Either that or she's a robot, that would explain the brain washing.
When we got to class, we saw the other students and they didn't look too well either. I'm pretty sure that everyone probably went through the same shit we did when they first got here. The lack of will to live and the disowning by our parents. Just call us a sorority club and ship us off to a desk job.
The day couldn't finish any slower. It was exactly how I expected, slow and boring but hey, it was better than nothing. Wasting your time and life away every single day for hours was going to take a mental take on you, it starts off feeling like a vacation, soon step two kicks in and you're hush filled with rage, a burning anger in your veins. Then you feel like pressure was running through your chest until it became panic, the thoughts of running free fills your mind and clears everything else.
I know my dad was doing the best that he could right now but I hope something happens soon. I don't know how long we could deal with this.
The bell rung indicating that it was time for lunch, we made our way to the horrible cafeteria to have our daily dose of porridge aka straight poison by the fairy God mother, Fiona better run.
I didn't eat anything I wasn't hungry, most of the time I just eat to feel full but today wasn't one of those days. Lunch was over and we had to go back to class, in the corner of my eyes, I noticed Ruby
"Ruby where are our lockers?" I asked.
"What lockers?" She raised a brow
"The lockers where we're supposed to put our books?" Alexis said.
"I know what you meant, but I meant to say that you don't have lockers" She laughed.
"Why are you fucking laughing? This isn't fucking funny, you behave as if you're better than us but you're here so you're definitely not" Abeke said to her face, at this point I was surprised, Abeke merely talked to us much less confront someone, She was pissed.
Step two, anger.
"Oh honey if you only knew" She said as she started to walk away.
The tightness in my jaw and pulsing red veins in my eyes, twitching as that catfish version of Ariel the mermaid walked away, burned something within me.
I don't know what came over me at that point but I had flung my fist her way, smashing into the back of her skull. The feeling of pressure pierced through the bones in my knuckles as I punched her. It felt pretty great, not gonna lie. I hate when people act like they're entitled, we're all fucking human but we're treated like a disease in this place.
Actually, scratch that. Even diseases get treated better than this. They have kits and doctors flying all over the world just to come and treat them.
I felt arms wrap around me, hooking under my shoulder and tugging me backwards away from the rejected version of Garfield.
"Take her to Madame Theressa, I think she needs to learn a lesson" Ruby spat to the guards while licking the blood off of her busted lips.
All emotion felt flat in my body, the feeling of adrenaline passed out and the emptiness in my veins were now felt. Numb, I felt numb as my pale face stared at the girl in horror.
I know she's someone important in the school but I didn't think she had control over the guards. Oh Wow.
Maybe, just maybe I had just crossed a line.
This was the first time I've ever been scared to go to the office. My friend's shadows faded as I was dragged down the dusty hallway, Cameron's brows stitched together as she tried to run after me, only being held back by another guard.
It all happened in a flash, one second I was trying to bash someone's face open and the next, I was being tossed to a wooden door of an office which I assumed to her Theressa's.
"You may come in"
Oh Fuck.