Chapter 620



Judy's POV

I wasn't really prepared for us to leave the pack. But as soon as we crossed the borders, I started to feel even more uneasy. Most of the drive was quiet; I kept stealing glances at Spencer, but his expression was unreadable. It was unlike him.

"Spencer, is everything okay?" I asked him when I couldn't take the silence anymore.

He blinked and then glanced at me.

"Yeah, why do you ask?"

"You just seem off," I tell him. "Unlike yourself."

"I'm fine," he replied. he gave me a smile, though it didn't reach his eyes. He seemed almost nervous about something, or maybe it was my own nerves attacking the pit of my belly.

I decided not to worry too much about Spencer; he was Spencer. He was my first friend after Luna Lucy. He made me feel welcomed to not only the team but to the pack as well. I might have only known him for a short time, but he became my best friend.

I relaxed in my seat a little as I was reminded of that fact. Spencer wouldn't do anything to hurt me.

My mind drifted back to Gavin. I was still so pissed off and hurt that he would barge in here and order me back to his pack. We still had so much to talk about; it's not like I was going to jump on the opportunity to take in this pack. I wanted to return with him; yes, I'll miss the friends I've made in this pack, but I miss my other friends even more. I would kill for a girl's night with Nan and Irene. They were my best friends, and I wanted to tell them everything that was going on in my life. I miss my family too; I realized how rash I was in leaving when I spoke to my mom on the phone the other night. I missed her so much, and I know leaving as quickly as I did hurt both her and my father.

I was so quick to leave my life behind to escape something that hurt me that I didn't stop to think about those I was hurting in return. I was being just as selfish, and I realized that this past week.

I was also aware of the fact that I'm carrying Gavin's baby.

Instinctively, I put my hands on my belly; it was still flat, a couple of months away from possibly popping. I still couldn't believe a baby was growing inside of me. My baby. Gavin's baby. My heart squeezed.

I was scared that Gavin didn't want me, and in turn, he wouldn't want our baby. I was scared that I was going to end up having to do this alone. didn't know anything about being a parent; yeah, I had amazing parents growing up who treated me like their own, even if I was adopted. I had great role models... but could I really be that for another living being?

What Gavin said earlier was cruel. I

wanted us to have a real

conversation, but instead he jumped down my throat and ordered me

"Spencer..." I said, a nervous twinge in my voice.

"Hmm?"

"I know we are Gammas and are

trained to deal with any situation

is it a good idea to drive through thut

rogue district?" I asked him, glancing in his direction just in time to see him lifting one shoulder. Visit

"I barely ever see rogues in this area," he told me. "So, I don't really think about

it."