Chapter 4969: Itâs A Miserable Life
He only smiled and didnât respond. The two of them fixed gazes and time seemed to be coming to a halt. This communication didnât require speaking, only a harmonization of the souls.
âYou have grown old.â She stroked his hair and said. The word âbeautifulâ when used to describe her smile was an insult.
âYes, just turned eighteen.â He smiled.
âIs that so?â She chuckled: âYouâre not standing that straight anymore. Itâs different.â
âWhat are you saying?â He said.
âBecause your responsibilities are getting heavier, an entire epoch is pushing down on you.â She responded: âSince it is your epoch, no one will share the burden with you.â
âRight.â He said sentimentally: âThe path is long and my burden is heavy.â
âItâs precisely why you aged so much. You alone must shoulder this world.â She said, becoming a bit emotional.
âDid your personality change too? This isnât like you.â He smiled.
The woman glared at him, looking a bit amused. Her mood continued to affect the dao around her.
âJust a bit sentimental, Iâve been thinking about my father in recent years and you remind me of him.â She said.
âDonât, I am not your father or your senior. If anything, you are older and I should be calling you grand aunt or ancestor.â He shook his head and stopped her.
âDonât you dare!â She glared at him again. Even though her fierce eyes were still as attractive as ever.
Li Qiye shrugged and lay down, enjoying himself.
She lay down next to him on the divine mountain and stared at the flashing stars.
âI do miss him sometimes.â She said.
âItâs good that you still care enough about someone to miss them.â He said: âThough he is no longer around, the feelings alone attach you to this world.â
âWhat about you?â She asked.
He took his time thinking before responding: âI donât know. Maybe Iâve forgotten or I just donât have the capability to care, or perhaps I purposely avoid it. Everything, hmm, is simultaneously gone with the wind while still being carved in my heart.â
âPoor old man.â She gently patted his cheek.
âDonât view me as a substitute for your father. Iâm not old enough to have a daughter like you.â He gave her the side eye.
âYou wish you have a daughter like me.â Her happy laughter warmed his heart.
âYou have really changed. The previous you were always on guard and fierce.â He stroked her hair back.
âThis is how I really am, I merely changed back to my original self.â She leaned closer to rest her face on his shoulder.
âI see, your childhood must have been good.â He said.
âIt was great.â She nodded: âI grew up with my father and always held his arm. He stood at the apex and did everything so I did whatever I wanted.â
âHow enviable.â He smiled.
âItâs jealousy for you, jealous that I had such a good life while you spent your time toiling in agony.â She laughed.
âNo one wants to suffer. Itâs just that Iâm on the path and I refuse to turn back, thatâs the only thing that is keeping me as myself.â He said.
âYou even sound old.â She rubbed his temples and said: âMy father said familiar stuff but I didnât really understand back then. Now, although Iâm not on the same level yet, I can sympathize.â
She let out a sigh of sadness and disappointment - something that has been accumulating over the years.
âItâs a shame that heâs no longer around.â She grabbed his arm and said.
He patted her shoulder and let her have a moment of silence.
âYouâre still around, Iâm sure heâs happy that you still remember him.â He eventually spoke.
She enjoyed being in someone elseâs presence after a long time. After a while, she asked: âIs this world that precious to you?â
âNot quite.â He smiled.
âIf thatâs the case, why are you still protecting it?â She lifted her head and stared straight at him.
âBecause this is a path of no return. I have chosen to walk forward so why would I falter? The moment I do, thatâs the end of me and my dao heart. I cannot forget my original pursuit.â
âTrying your best to be untethered, I see. How lonely.â She said.
âI chose loneliness, not the other way around. Plus, there is no point in regretting my choice.â He smiled.
âSo pitiful.â She felt sorry for him.
âOthers call me the dark hand or a butcher, they rarely pitied me. I like where youâre going with this.â He laughed.
âMy fatherâs path is similar to yours, but he wasnât as pitiful. The things that drove him were emotions and love.â She said.
âI can only say that he was lucky, although this might not be the case if more time had passed. After all, many have taken this path, they were also motivated by emotions.â He paused for a moment and stared at her perfect features: âBut Iâm sure you know of their final choice.â
She shuddered for a split second but due to her cultivation, she calmed down right away.
âWould be nice if we could go back in time.â He said.
âI agree.â She said.
âWhy must people search for immortality? This is the source of it all.â He sighed.
She didnât answer and stared at the stars.
âThank you.â She broke the silence a long while later.
âFor what?â He smiled.
âI wouldnât have been able to see the sun again if it wasnât for you. Even if I could somehow come out, I would not be me anymore. I am only myself because of your kindness.â She said.
He smiled and accepted her words of gratitude.
The two of them lay there together for who knows how long? Time continued to pass in this special dimension.
âI can keep laying here, can you?â She eventually asked.
âI canât.â He smiled wryly.
âWhat a tough life.â She concluded.
âIs this my unlucky day or something? Donât pity me so much.â He said.
âBecause itâs the truth.â She chuckled.