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After speaking out about his mental state, Luo Lin Yuan also didnât dare to look at Yu Han due to embarrassment. He buried his head in eating noodles and drank the soup. From time to time, he would raise his eyes from the edge of the bowl to peek at Yu Hanâs face.
Yu Han directly got up, came over to hold his hand, and asked him to finish eating. Luo Lin Yuan hurriedly finished the last sip of soup and wiped his mouth twice with a tissue. They were all done single-handedly. He couldnât bear to let go of Yu Hanâs hand.
He was taken to a room. Although Yu Hanâs home was small, it was also a three-bedroom and one-living room. Before Luo Lin Yuan discovered that there was always a closed door, he didnât try to open it. This is the privacy of other peopleâs homes.
Only now did he find out that the door was locked. Yu Han took out a key, opened the door, and turned on the light. Itâs been a long time since someone came in. The dust swayed in the dim warm light and fell gently on every object in the room.
A bed, desk, closet, and piano were covered by a cloth. Yu Han looked at the piano, lost in thought for a while before smiling at Luo Lin Yuan, âYou know, I can play the piano.â
When Luo Lin Yuan went to the bar for the first time, he saw Yu Han come on stage to save the show. Looking back now, perhaps that was the first time his heart moved without realizing it. Yu Han on the stage was so good-looking, he could see how two-faced[1]Literal translation: Mouth says no, heart says yes. Which means to say one thing but mean another, in this context. he is and he stubbornly had to think he didnât like him. This person didnât like him well.
Yu Han carefully took off the dust cover, wiped the chair carefully with wet tissues, and said to Luo Lin Yuan, âXiao Yuan, come here.â
Luo Lin Yuan sat next to Yu Han and watched as the person opened the cover of the piano. He didnât dare to raise his hand and touch it, he sensed who owned the room.
With the light-colored bedcover, the photos on the wall, and the old books in the bookcase, this was Yu Hanâs motherâs room.
Yu Han stretched out his fingers and played a tune for Luo Lin Yuan. He heard it even if Luo Lin Yuan didnât know much about piano music. This piece is too famous called the Starry Sky.
Yu Han whispered amidst the sound of the piano, âThis is the first piece my mother taught me. Sheâs not considered to be a good mother. She misses that man all day long, misses him until she fell sick. Ten years agoâ¦â Yu Han seemed to be unable to speak and paused.
tw: suicide
Luo Lin Yuanâs heart was so flustered that he wanted to tell Yu Han to stop talking, but his throat was so tight that he couldnât make a sound at all. Yu Han said, âShe sneaked out of the country to meet that man, and killed herself when she came back.â
Yu Han stopped playing and Luo Lin Yuanâs tears fell simultaneously. He reached out and hugged Yu Han, âDonât say it.â
Yu Han pressed his hand on his neck, pressing Luo Lin Yuan into his arms. His fingers were cold as if asking for warmth. He seemed to feel Luo Lin Yuanâs pulse beating. Yu Hanâs body temperature gradually warmed up and was no longer stiff.
Soon, Luo Lin Yuan knew why Yu Han wanted to tell him this, and why it was so uncomfortable, so he chose to play the Starry Sky to him.[2]Anyone curious about it, here it is, I found the song. Link
Yu Han said, âShe once said that if I have someone I like in the future, I will know the mood of playing this piece. I actually donât like this piece. Iâve practiced it too many times. I donât like that every time she watched me play it, itâs like sheâs missing someone else through me.â
He felt Luo Lin Yuanâs hand around his waist tighten, and the tears in his arms seemed to be unstoppable, spilling big drops on his shoulders and neck.
He gently stroke Luo Lin Yuanâs back, âEven if I donât think what she said is correct, I canât deny that I do understand the meaning of this piece now. I like you. I want to play this piece for you to hear. It has nothing to do with the past, itâs just for you.â
Yu Han: âBaby, you make my past more worthwhile and no longer meaningless. Itâs like my name she used to remember that man, I belong to you, solely to your spring.â
Luo Lin Yuan was simply about to collapse from crying, he was so ashamed. He buried his face in Yu Hanâs arms, refusing to get up. He can only cry, âYou fouled⦠what can I do with this kind of confession later on. Can I also like you a little more? I also want to give you everything I have.â
In the end, Luo Lin Yuan cried till he went soft, and was hugged into the bathroom by Yu Han like a child. Sitting on the edge of the bathtub, Yu Han washed a warm towel and wiped it on Luo Lin Yuanâs face.
Luo Lin Yuanâs head was dizzy, but his rabbit-like eyes kept looking at Yu Han; cherishing it so much that he didnât even dare to blink as if Yu Han would disappear as soon as he closed and opened his eyes again.
Yu Han frowned at his swollen and red cheeks soaked in tears, and moved gently, âDoes it hurt?â
Luo Lin Yuan suddenly stretched out his hand and wrapped them around Yu Hanâs neck. He leaned into his ear, his voice was soft but his words were unyielding and straightforward, âLetâs do it, Yu Han.â
Yu Han almost pushed the person in his arms into the bathtub and panicked for a while before he said embarrassedly, âWhat nonsense!â
Luo Lin Yuan licked his reddened lips, used his eyelashes wet with tears, looked at Yu Han with puppy eyes, and said stubbornly, âIâm not talking nonsense, I want to give it to you. Donât you want me?â
Yu Hanâs hand grabbed his waist, and his strength gradually increased. Luo Lin Yuan felt a little pain but didnât retreat. âI want you, in every way.â
Yu Han breathed heavily, his eyes gradually deepened, and his voice was hoarse, âYou wonât regret it?â
Luo Lin Yuan hugged Yu Han, âWhy should I regret, but Iâm afraid of pain, please be gentle oh.â
Luo Lin Yuan ended up crying in pain. He lay in Yu Hanâs room, on his belovedâs bed. His sweaty hair pressed against the pillow full of his favorite smell.
It was over, it was quite late. Luo Lin Yuan fell asleep with marks all over his body and traces of tears on his cheeks. He missed the kiss Yu Han landed on his cheek and didnât hear the words, I love you, I love you so much.
Jie Jie: *screms* They did it. Also, sad because there was no detailed snu snu xd
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