A set of keys to the estate gates had gone missing.
But after last nightâs incident, Tamlin didnât appear to care.
Breakfast was silent, the Hybern royals sullen at being kept waiting so long to see the second cleft in the wall, and Jurian, for once, too tired to do anything but shovel meat and eggs into his hateful mouth.
Tamlin and Lucien, it seemed, had spoken before the meal, but the latter made a point to keep a healthy distance from me. To not look at or speak to me, as if still needing to convince Tamlin of our innocence.
I debated asking Jurian outright if heâd stolen the keys from whatever guard had lost them, but the silence was a welcome reprieve.
Until Ianthe breezed in, carefully avoiding acknowledging me, as if I was indeed the blinding sun that had been stolen from her.
âI am sorry to interrupt your meal, but there is a matter to discuss, High Lord,â Ianthe said, pale robes swirling at her feet as she halted halfway to the table.
All of us perked up at that.
Tamlin, brooding and snarly, demanded, âWhat is it.â
She made a show of realizing the Hybern royals were present. Listening. I tried not to snort at the oh-so-nervous glance she threw their way, then to Tamlin. The next words were no surprise whatsoever. âPerhaps we should wait until after the meal. When you are alone.â
No doubt a power play, to remind them that she did, in fact, have sway hereâwith Tamlin. That Hybern, too, might want to remain on her good side, considering the information she bore. But I was cruel enough to say sweetly, âIf we can trust our allies in Hybern to go to war with us, then we can trust them to use discretion. Go ahead, Ianthe.â
She didnât so much as look in my direction. But now caught between outright insult and politeness ⦠Tamlin weighed our company against Iantheâs posture and said, âLetâs hear it.â
Her white throat bobbed. âThere is ⦠My acolytes discovered that the land around my temple is ⦠dying.â
Jurian rolled his eyes and went back to his bacon.
âThen tell the gardeners,â Brannagh said, returning to her own food. Dagdan snickered into his cup of tea.
âIt is not a matter of gardening.â Ianthe straightened. âIt is a blight upon the land. Grass, root, budâall of it, shriveled up and sickly. It reeks of the naga.â
It was an effort not to glance to Lucienâto see if he also noticed the too-eager gleam in her eye. Even Tamlin loosed a sigh, as if he saw it for what it was: an attempt to regain some ground, perhaps a scheme to poison the earth and then miraculously heal it.
âThere are other spots in the woods where things have died and are not coming back,â Ianthe went on, pressing a silver-adorned hand to her chest. âI fear itâs a warning that the naga are gatheringâand plan to attack.â
Oh, Iâd gotten under her skin. Iâd been wondering what sheâd do after yesterdayâs solstice, after Iâd robbed her of her moment and power. But this ⦠Clever.
I hid my smirk down deep and said gently, âIanthe, perhaps it is a case for the groundskeepers.â
She stiffened, at last facing me. You think youâre playing the game, I itched to tell her, but you have no idea that every choice you made last night and this morning were only steps I nudged you toward.
I jerked my chin toward the royals, then Lucien. âWeâre heading out this afternoon to survey the wall, but if the problem remains when we return in a few days, Iâll help you look into it.â
Those silver-ringed fingers curled into loose fists at her sides. But like the true viper she was, Ianthe said to Tamlin, âWill you be joining them, High Lord?â
She looked to me and Lucienâthe assessment too lingering to be casual.
A faint, low headache was already forming, made worse with every word out of her mouth. Iâd been up too late, and had gotten too little sleepâand I needed my strength for the days ahead. âHe will not,â I said, cutting off Tamlin before he could reply.
He set down his utensils. âI think I will.â
âI donât need an escort.â Let him unravel the layers of defensiveness in that statement.
Jurian snorted. âStarting to doubt our good intentions, High Lord?â
Tamlin snarled at him. âCareful.â
I placed a hand flat on the table. âIâll be fine with Lucien and the sentries.â
Lucien seemed inclined to sink into his seat and disappear forever.
I surveyed Dagdan and Brannagh and smiled a bit. âI can defend myself, if it comes to that,â I said to Tamlin.
The daemati smiled back at me. I hadnât felt another touch on my mental barriers, or the ones Iâd been working to keep around as many people here as possible. The constant use of my power was wearing on me, howeverâbeing away from this place for four or five days would be a welcome relief.
Especially as Ianthe murmured to Tamlin, âPerhaps you should go, my friend.â I waitedâwaited for whatever nonsense was about to come out of that pouty mouthâ âYou never know when the Night Court will attempt to snatch her away.â
I had a blink to debate my reaction. To opt for leaning back in my chair, shoulders curling inward, hauling up those images of Clare, of Rhys with those ash arrows through his wingsâany sort of way to dredge my scent in fear. âHave you news?â I whispered.
Brannagh and Dagdan looked very interested at that.
The priestess opened her mouth, but Jurian cut her off, drawling, âThere is no news. Their borders are secure. Rhysand would be a fool to push his luck by coming here.â
I stared at my plate, the portrait of bowed terror.
âA fool, yes,â Ianthe countered, âbut one with a vendetta.â She faced Tamlin, the morning sun catching in the jewel atop her head. âPerhaps if you returned to him his familyâs wings, he might ⦠settle.â
For a heartbeat, silence rippled through me.
Followed by a wave of roaring that drowned out nearly every thought, every self-preserving instinct. I could barely hear over that bellowing in my blood, my bones.
But the words, the offer ⦠A cheap attempt at snaring me. I pretended not to hear, not to care. Even as I waited and waited for Tamlinâs reply.
When Tamlin answered, his voice was low. âI burned them a long time ago.â
I could have sworn there was something like remorseâremorse and shameâin his words.
Ianthe only tsked. âToo bad. He might have paid handsomely for them.â
My limbs ached with the effort of not leaping over the table to smash her head into the marble floor.
But I said to Tamlin, soothing and gentle, âIâll be fine out there.â I touched his hand, brushing my thumb over the back of his palm. Held his stare. âLetâs not start down this road again.â
As I pulled away, Tamlin merely fixed Lucien with a look, any trace of that guilt gone. His claws slid free, embedding in the scar-flecked wood of his chairâs arm. âBe careful.â
None of us pretended it was anything but a threat.
It was a two-day ride, but took us only a day to get there with winnowing-walking-winnowing. We could manage a few miles at a time, but Dagdan was slower than Iâd anticipated, given that he had to carry his sister and Jurian.
I didnât fault him for it. With each of us bearing another, the drain was considerable. Lucien and I both bore a sentry, minor lordsâ sons who had been trained to be polite and watchful. Supplies, as a result, were limited. Including tents.
By the time we made it to the cleft in the wall, darkness was falling.
The few supplies weâd hauled also had encumbered our winnowing through the world, and I let the sentries erect the tents for us, ever the lady keen to be waited on. Our dinner around the small fire was near-silent, none of us bothering to speak, save for Jurian, who questioned the sentries endlessly about their training. The twins retreated to their own tent after theyâd picked at the meat sandwiches weâd packed, frowning at them as if they were full of maggots instead, and Jurian wandered off into the woods soon after, claiming he wanted a walk before he retired.
I hauled myself into the canvas tent when the fire was dying out, the space barely big enough for Lucien and me to sleep shoulder to shoulder.
His red hair gleamed in the faint firelight a moment later as he shoved through the flaps and swore. âMaybe I should sleep out there.â
I rolled my eyes. âPlease.â
A wary, considering glance as he knelt and removed his boots. âYou know Tamlin can be ⦠sensitive about things.â
âHe can also be a pain in my ass,â I snapped, and slithered under the blankets. âIf you yield to him on every bit of paranoia and territorialism, youâll just make it worse.â
Lucien unbuttoned his jacket but remained mostly dressed as he slid onto his sleeping roll. âI think itâs made worse because you two havenât ⦠I mean, you havenât, right?â
I stiffened, tugging the blanket higher onto my shoulders. âNo. I donât want to be touched like thatânot for a while.â
His silence was heavyâsad. I hated the lie, hated it for how filthy it felt to wield it. âIâm sorry,â he said. And I wondered what else he was apologizing for as I faced him in the darkness of our tent.
âIsnât there some way to get out of this deal with Hybern?â My words were barely louder than the murmuring embers outside. âIâm back, Iâm safe. We could find some way around itââ
âNo. The King of Hybern crafted his bargain with Tamlin too cleverly, too clearly. Magic bound themâmagic will strike him if he does not allow Hybern into these lands.â
âIn what way? Kill him?â
Lucienâs sigh ruffled my hair. âIt will claim his own powers, maybe kill him. Magic is all about balance. Itâs why he couldnât interfere with your bargain with Rhysand. Even the person who tries to sever the bargain faces consequences. If heâd kept you here, the magic that bound you to Rhys might have come to claim his life as payment for yours. Or the life of someone else he cared about. Itâs old magicâold and strange. Itâs why we avoid bargains unless itâs necessary: even the scholars at the Day Court donât know how it works. Believe me, Iâve asked.â
âFor meâyou asked them for me.â
âYes. I went last winter to inquire about breaking your bargain with Rhys.â
âWhy didnât you tell me?â
âIâwe didnât want to give you false hope. And we didnât dare let Rhysand get wind of what we were doing, in case he found a way to interfere. To stop it.â
âSo Ianthe pushed Tamlin to Hybern instead.â
âHe was frantic. The scholars at the Day Court worked too slowly. I begged him for more time, but youâd already been gone for months. He wanted to act, not waitâdespite that letter you sent. Because of that letter you sent. I finally told him to go ahead with it afterâafter that day in the forest.â
I turned onto my back, staring at the sloped ceiling of the tent.
âHow bad was it?â I asked quietly.
âYou saw your room. He trashed it, the study, his bedroom. Heâhe killed the sentries whoâd been on guard. After he got the last bit of information from them. He executed them in front of everyone in the manor.â
My blood chilled. âYou didnât stop him.â
âI tried. I begged him for mercy. He didnât listen. He couldnât listen.â
âThe sentries didnât try to stop him, either?â
âThey didnât dare. Feyre, heâs a High Lord. Heâs a different breed.â
I wondered if heâd say the same thing if he knew what I was.
âWe were backed into a corner with no options. None. It was either go to war with the Night Court and Hybern, or ally with Hybern, let them try to stir up trouble, and then use that alliance to our own advantage further down the road.â
âWhat do you mean,â I breathed.
But Lucien realized what heâd said, and hedged, âWe have enemies in every court. Having Hybernâs alliance will make them think twice.â
Liar. Trained, clever liar.
I loosed a heaving, sleepy breath. âEven if theyâre now our allies,â I mumbled, âI still hate them.â
A snort. âMe too.â
âGet up.â
Blinding sunlight cut into the tent, and I hissed.
The order was drowned out by Lucienâs snarl as he sat up. âOut,â he ordered Jurian, who looked us over once, sneered, and stalked away.
Iâd rolled onto Lucienâs bedroll at some point, any schemes indeed second to my most pressing demandâwarmth. But I had no doubt Jurian would tuck away the information to throw in Tamlinâs face when we returned: weâd shared a tent, and had been very cozy upon awakening.
I washed in the nearby stream, my body stiff and aching from a night on the ground, with or without the help of a bedroll.
Brannagh was prowling for the stream by the time Iâd finished. The princess gave me a cold, thin smile. âIâd pick Beronâs son, too.â
I stared at the princess beneath lowered brows.
She shrugged, her smile growing. âAutumn Court males have fire in their bloodâand they fuck like it, too.â
âI suppose you know from experience?â
A chuckle. âWhy do you think I had so much fun in the War?â
I didnât bother to hide my disgust.
Lucien caught me cringing at him when her words replayed for the tenth time an hour later, while we hiked the half mile toward the crack in the wall. âWhat?â he demanded.
I shook my head, trying not to imagine Elain subject to that ⦠fire.
âNothing,â I said, just as Jurian swore ahead.
We were both moving at his barked curseâand then broke into a run at the sound of a sword whining free of its sheath. Leaves and branches whipped at me, but then we were at the wall, that invisible, horrible marker humming and throbbing in my head.
And staring right at us through the hole were three Children of the Blessed.