I ended up with nothing, losing everything, yet I still canât give you up!
Despite everything, I still find myself in love with you!
Dongfang Yu, you have no idea how much I hated myself back then, or how much I wanted to dieââ
âStop talking!â Dongfang Yu held her tightly, as if his heart was being torn apart!
âHai Xiaotang, please donât speak anymore, Iâm sorry, itâs all my fault, Iâm sorry!â
Dongfang Yu kept apologizing, but Hai Xiaotang still felt incredibly upset.
She cried sadly into his chest, and soon, her tears wet his shirt.
Even Dongfang Yuâs eyes were moist.
Seeing her so heartbroken, his heart was equally aching.
It felt like millions of needles were stabbing into him, painfully beyond words, his nerves shaking uncontrollablyâ¦.
But at this moment, he could do nothing but hold her tightly, kiss her, and lend her silent comfort.
However, Hai Xiaotang was not as devastated as she seemed, it was just that her grievances had been pent up for too long. All at once, they poured out, and it was a bit too much to bear.
After a little while of crying, she started feeling better, not as upset anymore.
Dongfang Yu could feel her gradually calming down. He gently kissed her forehead, cheeks, nose, and lips, whispering in a hoarse voice:
âMy dear, if youâre devastated, just hit me or yell at me. Donât be sad anymore, seeing you like this hurts me even more. So stop crying, or else, I wouldnât be able to bear it!â
Hai Xiaotang took a glance at him, whimpering: âIâm fine now, I am not that upset anymore, itâs just that I couldnât help it just nowâ¦.â
Dongfang Yu nodded in understanding: âI know, I didnât dare to tell you this for fear of reopening your wounds and making you upset. Plus, I was scared that you would blame me⦠Hai Xiaotang, do you still hold a grudge against me?â
Dongfang Yu watched her uneasily.
He was genuinely afraid that she hadnât completely forgiven him yet, that she was still holding a grudge against himâ¦
He was also afraid that by confessing everything, it might impact their relationship.
Hai Xiaotang paused for a moment, âAre you afraid that I would blame you, thatâs why you didnât say anything?â
âYes.â Dongfang Yu slightly nodded.
For some reason, Hai Xiaotang found it amusing. She laughed and shook her head, âI stopped blaming you a long time ago. If I still did, why would I be with you?â
âBut thatâs because I wasnât aware of anything. You think that my past self and my current self are two different people. Maybe youâre still holding a grudge against my past self?â
âSo, you thought that once I know everything, I would think of you as your past self?â
Dongfang Yu nodded, indeed that was his assumption.
Hai Xiaotang wrapped her arms around his neck and shook her head, âDongfang Yu, whether itâs your past self or you now, Iâm not blaming you, really! Iâm quite surprised to know that you dreamt of the past life as well, but I donât blame you, Iâm actually very happy.â
âHappy?â Dongfang Yu was slightly taken aback, looking confused.
âYes, very happy,â Hai Xiaotang nodded, âbecause you made me realize that my sacrifices in the past life werenât foolish! I feel happy knowing that you would also fall in love with me.â
Dongfang Yu swallowed, and whispered: âIt wasnât foolish of you, it was me! It was me who failed to recognize your importance sooner. The foolish person was me! But luckily, God gave me another chance.â
Hai Xiaotang nodded in agreement: âYes, Iâm also thankful for the second chance given by God.â
âNo, the chance was given to me,â Dongfang Yu suddenly said.
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