Eloraâs POV 1 month later I hadnât seen him in a month, I barely left the room. I couldnât stand the thought of crossing his path.
Couldnât bare to look at him. Abigail offered to try and fix my wings, constantly offering, knowing it caused me pain. But as I watched her belly grow more and more each day, I couldnât ask that of her, she was tired enough just like me. Exhaustion beyond anything I could imagine, the nights growing longer with every day that passed as I tossed and turned trying to get comfortable, trying to forget everything that was Silas.
The bond truly was a curse and if I could make it end, I would have in my weakest moments but then thinking of Matitus and Dragus knowing how much it would hurt them if I did, I couldnât bring myself to do it, couldnât bring myself to give up my magic and save myself from the destruction that he is.
We held funerals for the dead, I even asked Dragus to retrieve his father, I never went. The only one I went to was Marianâs. I still couldnât believe she was dead, I was just glad she got to see the kingdom coming together before she died. Thankful to have been granted the memories of knowing her.
Matitus barely leaves my side and if he does Dragus is here, memories of everything he has ever done haunting me. I knew he felt guilty, yet I couldnât bring myself to forgive him not this time, how do you forgive someone that threatened to take your child away and throw you away like you meant nothing to them. Sitting up when the door opens, I look nervously to it, fearful he was going to come in. Letting out the breath I was holding when I see Matitus walk in, he was only gone for a few minutes but it was long enough for my mind to scare me into thinking her was going to come and rip my baby from my womb.
That fear keeps Dragus awake of a night, I canât sleep knowing he could walk in at anytime, Dragus canât sleep because he can feel my anxiety of it, though he assures me Silas wouldnât after everything, I wouldnât put it past him.
âI brought you some teaâ Matitus says placing the cup down on the bedside table before helping me sit up better, I only had a few weeks to go, the baby inside me rapidly growing more each day sucking the energy I do muster right out me.
Matitus hands me the cup before laying beside me on the cramped bed. Silas told them we could have the bedroom upstairs, but I refused, I didnât expect them to stay with me, but they still did. I know they were as uncomfortable as I am in this room. But knowing Silas would be walking in out randomly made me refuse the offer.
âWe should go for a walkâ Matitus says staring at the ceiling. I shake my head sitting against the headboard.
âPlease Love, I canât keep sitting in this room doing nothingâ He says rolling on his side and rubbing my huge belly.
âI wonât let him touch you, he wonât even see you, he is doing stuff in the city, just one lap around the castle groundsâ he says.
I sip my tea, outside would be good, would help my magic heal me but the idea of going out there in the cold also didnât seem to be all that appealing either, this baby sitting on my bladder constantly giving me the urge to pee, was bad enough without the cold making that urge worse.
âWhere is Dragus?â I ask changing the topic. He sighs rolling back on his back while playing with a piece of my hair that fell on him, twirling it around his finger.
âHe is with Pluto in the stablesâ He answers.
âWhat is he doing in there?â I ask.
âBuilding a crib, well making one anywayâ He answers looking up at me. Building a crib for the baby I donât get to keep, the baby he will take when Its born.
âDonât think like that Elora, I donât think he will go through with itâ Matitus says.
âWell then you donât know him, do you?â I retort. They think I am blinded to the hate I feel through the bond, he hates me, though I can tell he loves me, his hate is what he hangs onto, his hate is what will make him do it.
âWe can go look at it, Dragus said it was nearly doneâ He says looking up at me, hopeful.
âYouâre sure he isnât on the castle grounds?â
âPositive Dakari is with himâ
âOne lap then we come backâ I tell him. He nods getting off the bed and pulling me up, getting off the bed was hardest, I looked like an old lady swinging my legs trying to get up a enough momentum to push my weight up.
âYou should put something warm on, itâs cold out todayâ He hands me my jump I tug it on over my head and it wont go past my boobs, I huff while Matitus looks amused as I try pulling it off only to get stuck.
He chuckles before pulling it off.
âWait here I will go get one of mineâ He says darting out of the room and closing the door. I waddle over to my slippers, sliding my feet in them just as Matitus returns with one of his jumpers. I chuck it on before following him out the door. My heart racing in my chest as I walk down the corridor.
âCalm down, he isnât here Loveâ He says pulling on my hand gently toward the front door. We stop at the doors and I sit on the bench seat. Matitus placing some socks on my feet from the basket on the shelf above my head. I then stuff my feet in my boots trying to reach the laces before Matitus does them up. Getting up he opens the door, the light making me squint as I wait for my eyes to adjust to the brightness. Not much light comes in the room, in the room I feel like I am in my own little bubble, nestled away with just the fireplace and my books to keep me sane.
The air instantly making me shiver as I walk down the few steps in front of it.
âAh I need to pee, see exactly why this was a bad ideaâ I tell him about to turn back around.
âHold it, I know as soon as you go back in you will refuse to come back outâ He says tugging my hand. I could see the city through the gates, the street directly in front the castle was the worst hit in the attack, but looking at it now, you would never have though just a month ago it was destroyed, looking better than it ever has now with its fresh rooftops on the building and fresh paint, the signs on the business been replaced with new ones.
âDakari has been busy with Pluto and Dragusâ I state looking through the gates.
âMostly Silas and Dakari, every morning Silas hauls him out to do stuff, Abigail has been getting quite angry about it because he can never spend time with herâ Matitus tells me. I wondered why Abbie didnât tell me herself.
âShe didnât want you to worryâ Matitus says answering my thoughts.
âCome you should see the stables, Pluto cleaned them right up, he also caught and broke in three moreâ He says excitedly tugging me toward them.
Matitus opens the huge doors letting me squeeze inside. The smell of hay and dirt hitting my nose along with the smell of lacquered wood.
Matitus was right, there were more horses, all in there nice clean stalls, I walk past a black one and find Pluto brushing it. He looks up a smile gracing his face that now didnât look so gaunt, his eyes no longer sunken into his face as he had gained weight and looked healthier than he had when I last saw him.
âMy Queenâ He says bowing his head.
âyou donât need to call me thatâ I tell him. He shakes his head.
âYou will always be my Queen, I will only take a knee for youâ He says.
Matitus hand touches the back of my neck making me look up and he nods toward the back. I follow him to find Dragus completely covered in saw dust, the ground coated in it as well, it was sticking in his hair which had turned the same colour.
He looks up as we enter before doing a double take.
âYou got her out of the roomâ He says smiling at Matitus putting done some tool he had in his hand and hopping up from his chair.
He goes to hug me but then stop realising he is coated in dust instead pecking my head softly before stepping back and I look at the table he was working at, finding little wooden figurines. I pick one up it was a fairy.
âWhat this?â I ask wondering why he was making Fairy ornaments when I notice another three ornaments, but they were 2 dragons and a werewolf instead, they were incredibly detailed they even had eyes and facial features, the werewolf even had fur detail it in it.
âDid you make all these?â I ask looking up at him, he nods.
âI was making a mobile to hang above the cradle, wanna see it?â He asks and I could feel his excitement of showing me. I nod following him over to the far wall, he removes a sheet and I see a Cradle, the top of the cradle had blossoms carved into the wood the sides instead of straight wood were twisted and carved like vines just like my Fae marking that covered my side.
âYou did all this by yourself?â I ask shocked at the craftmanship.
âYou like it?â He asks and I could tell now he was worried I didnât. I smile.
âLove it, I just canât believe you made itâ I tell him, running my fingers over the wood which was smooth.
âIt should be finished in a few more daysâ He says covering it back over.
âI would hug you but your covered in dustâ I tell him, the particles in the air making me want to sneeze.
The doors open at the front of the stables making me look down toward the front, Silas walks in with Dakari carrying tools, they were talking before he looks up seeing me.
âYou said he wouldnât be hereâ I tell Matitus looking up at him when Silas starts walking down toward us, the feeling through the bond of his had made me nervous when I realise it wasnât my nerves but his.
He stops staring down at me, his eyes trailing over my body stopping on my belly. He steps forward and I step back away from him and he drops his hand. His jaw clenching before his eyes dart to mine.
âYou look goodâ He says but I look away moving over to Dragus and away from him.
âEloraâ he says making me look at him.
âSave it Silas I donât want to hear it, just leave pleaseâ I tell him. His eyes flicker before he looks to Matitus who nods toward the door. Silas looks back at me before turning on his heel and walking out.
Matitus walks over draping his arm over my shoulder before kissing my head.
âHe meant you no harm Loraâ
âI donât care I hate himâ I tell him, saying the words stung, hearing them out loud. But I did. I hated him for everything he has done.
âI want to go backâ I tell them before walking toward the doors heading back to the castle.
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