The Lycan Princess and the Temptation of Sin Chapter 137 My Beliefs A/N: This chapter may contain some distressing content, I will place a ***** before and after the content, I deem the most distressing part.
ALERIC.
I close my eyes, the fire witchâs anguish cries. filling my ears. Itâs not a melody⦠but a stabbing noise that is making me restless.
He was a casualty just like Quadeâ¦
The number of dead is rising and Iâm losing count.
But he was a necessity⦠the plan is in motion and the blame needs to be focused on Royce. 1 Who killed Chris and how?
Even though I donât know the answer to those questions, something makes me wonder if Apophis has got someone else working for himâ¦
I donât know who he has but if he has someone doing his bidding, then it is a cold reminder that if I fail, he can and will easily replace me. 7 He wonât need me and will cast me aside with ease.
What am I doing anyway?
What is the purpose of it all?
To be powerfulâ¦
I donât feel it. I feel as if Iâm destroying everything I worked for in life. 4 The agonising pain in my neck ever since she marked me has numbed my mind and senses. Itâs not healing, and I can feel my link to Apophis ebbing away. 7 His words the moment she marked me ring in my head.
âNo! It cannot be! Fool! Stop!â 6 Something about her marking me hit him and since then I am alone, with only his command, telling me what I need to carry out.
Foolishâ¦
I am indeed foolish⦠1 I scoff quietly, resting my head back as I stare at the ceiling of the room I am held in.
The commotion is ongoing, but my mind is a storm of thoughts.
Royceâs rage⦠the look in his eyes⦠the hatredâ¦
Iâve always been jealous of him, the way he doesnât care what others think of him, the way he is always better at things without trying. I would practice for hours to perfect something, whether that be a subject or something in training, but he wouldnât even try, and heâd nail it.
How do you compete with that?
I saw the way Dadâs interest shifted to him when he realised he was a born protégée, but it wasnât jealousy back then⦠it was fearâ¦
Fear that Dad will start to hurt him how he hurt me. I was still his big brother, even if he was stronger. It was my duty to protect him ⦠and so I used to tell him Iâm better, that I am the future Alpha, that he can relax and enjoy life. 13 Whilst at the same time Iâd try harder to be better, to keep Dadâs attention on me⦠it didnât fully workâ¦
but when he realised that Royce lacked the drive and passion for power and learning, he then started extracting his blood and began experimenting on me with it. 2 They hurt⦠It hurt⦠but I would lie and say it didnât, so he thought he was succeeding⦠because if he realised heâs failing⦠heâd hurt him again⦠3 1 **
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(FLASHBACK â TWELVE YEARS AGO)
âItâs not working!â Dad snarls, and I remain silent as I stand there with several wires connected to my body.
âIt will father, I feel stronger already,â I lie. How do I tell him that my body is rejecting Royceâs blood? 1 We are twins but clearly not compatibleâ¦
âDo you?â he hisses, as he spins around and grabs me by the jaw. âThen letâs try something. Last week I checked something on Royce⦠I want to see what you can tolerate in comparison. Perhaps he is the one I need to work onâ¦â 3 âLetâs try it,â I say quickly, hiding the fear that is beginning to eat at me inside.
He smiles. That glint in his eyes makes me wonder when he became a mad scientist.
âElectrocution,â he says, motioning for me to follow.
I almost come to a halt. My body wonât be able to take it, where I am able to tolerate heat. It is Royceâs expertise to handle electricityâ¦.
âAre you scared? I can simply go retrieve Royce. He might be a better fit.â
I smile. âNot at all, Father; as future Alpha, I should be the one dealing with this. After all you only want the future of this pack in the hands of a powerful Alpha.â
âExactly, son.â Dad nods in approval. 4 The next several minutes are a blur as he hooks me up to the machines and I stand there trying not to feel afraid. Preparing for the pain I know I will soon experience.
âNow, when it becomes too much, let me know,â he shakes his head as if disappointed in me. âIâll try Royce after.â
No. At least let one of us live.
I didnât like how he pitched us against one. another, weâre meant to be brothers.
Brothers support one another, be there for one another and protect one another⦠but Dad sees things differently⦠2 He wants us to constantly compete, as if only one of us can succeed.
I take a deep breath, focusing on my safe place.
Playing down by the lake with Mom, Royce, and Charlotteâ¦
Focus on Momâs voice⦠focus on Charlotteâs laughing.
I clench my jaw as the first voltage of electricity stabs into the back of my neck.
The pain rushes through my entire body as I stiffen, trying to steady my breathing, but I canât because another one hits me, and then another and-
Fuck!
I lose count as my entire body screams for reprieve, but I stay silent, refusing to let any sound escape me.
I donât want Royce going through this!
Do this for Royce.
Do this forâ¦
It hurtsâ¦
I want to rip myself apart to get rid of the pain Iâm feeling, but Iâm bound to the metal board behind me.
Is it worth it?
I want to die!
Blood.
I can taste blood in my mouth.
I want to scream stop!
But⦠I canât⦠because then Royce⦠2 Death is better than this⦠but if I die, then he will feel it.
Heâll have to suffer the way I doâ¦
I canât do that to him.
Maybe one day, someone will protect me too ⦠maybe⦠22 I think I blacked out because when I come to, Iâm in my bed. I can barely move. My heart is beating irregularly and the taste of blood in my mouth is strong.
âOi! Ric!â Royceâs whisper comes.
I look around the dark room until I spot the silhouette outside of the window.
âWhat?â I ask, but my voice comes out hoarse.
âCome on letâs go play, Dad said you were tired after training but come on, letâs sneak out. I want to go to the movies,â he whispers.
âNo⦠you go. I donât want to.â I lie.
He sighs, obviously disappointed. âWe need to live Aleric⦠despite everything, donât be such a loser, letâs-â
My anger flares as I cut him off. âYeah, go live Royce! You only care for yourself anyway! I have better things to focus on like training to be the alpha of this pack! Go!â 2 I donât have the freedom you doâ¦
âFine. Youâre such a bloody buzzkill,â his moody reply comes.
I hear him jump down and I look at my burned skin.
âI guess I survivedâ¦â I murmur. âOf course, he tried this when Mother wasnât aroundâ¦â
I lay there unmoving, my body in too much agony to do anything.
Itâll get easierâ¦
Somedayâ¦
(END OF FLASHBACK)
The pain and torture soon made me bitter⦠and the love I had for Royce morphed into resentment and jealousy. 2 I wonât deny that.
I wanted the life he had, but⦠I told myself that once I am alpha, itâll be worth it⦠only to realise that my brother is the Solaris King 2 In the end, he still won⦠1 He didnât need protectingâ¦
I was a fool to put someone else before myself, and that is why I planned to change that. 1 Dad wanted in with the Lycan King. I would make his daughter fall for me! But then what happened?
Royce beat me to itâ¦
And what makes it a thousand times worse is the fact that he even took my mate⦠2 But I doubt Iâll be around for long⦠she doesnât want me.
The hatred in her eyes⦠itâs obvious she resents me⦠and that only angers meâ¦
I know Iâm failing Apophis⦠and his wrath is hanging over me like a dark, gloomy cloud.
I may be a fool, but I also know I may have bitten off more than can chew⦠3 I open my eyes and stare at the witches that are watching me.
I canât break out, not when the likes of Magdalene, Janaina, and Raihana have powered the barrier. I mean, unless I portal out and right now I donât need them to learn of or witness my ties to Apophisâ¦
Leo Rossi, or should I say, Schurke Wolf, paid me a visit, but I ignored him. He is no angel either. 1 Royce⦠Alejandro Rossi⦠they all think I killed that man, but I didnât. Even if I told them that, they wouldnât believe me, and so, I stay quiet, infuriating them by remaining silentâ¦
That is rather enjoyable.
They left after a few hours, and I can feel the unease and tension from beyond the barrier.
Oh, how sadâ¦
Iâve had my eyes closed for a while and I hear one of the witchesâ murmur that I am asleepâ¦
How easy to fool they areâ¦
âCan you hear me?â Apophis sudden hiss fills my mind, and it takes my all not to react to âYes.â I respond, relieved that heâs here.
âSomething is stopping me from reaching you and I assure you itâs not these useless spells.â He spits venomously.
I resist frowning.
âOh, then what is it?â
âItâs the girl, your mate⦠Sheâs been favoured by none other than Bastet!â
The rage and anger in his voice is immense, and I can feel it in my bones. My heart squeezes as his rage grows and I can hear the witches become restless.
Bastet⦠Apophisâ sworn enemy and the one to defeat him in the pastâ¦
âHer mark contains the symbol of Bastet!â
Is that why my mark isnât healing?
Was this the plan of the goddess? To mate me with someone who will possibly bring my doom?
We are both favoured by gods⦠whilst Royce ⦠has the hand of a god upon him. It angers me, but once Apophis gives me more, I am certain I can become stronger, just like Royce.
âAre you not giving us away by coming here?
âI ask quietly.
âI AM NOT THERE! THAT MARK HAS BLOCKED ME! WE HAVE BEEN TRICKED!â
He thunders, his voice making my head split with agony.
âUnderstood⦠what do you want to me to do?â I ask. His wrath in itself is violently tearing through me, and I can taste blood in my mouth at the sheer mental force.
âKill her! No matter what it takes, I want her dead! I have caused a distraction to divert the attention away from you and it has cost me⦠do not let it go to waste!â
Kill Sky? Sheâd make a good mate⦠once sheâs broken into obedience anywayâ¦
âHigh Witch!â someone shouts.
Apophis suddenly vanishes and Iâm alone once more, but the witches are scanning the area. I look around pretending to be unsure whatâs happening, but Iâm certain they picked up on Apophisâs energy.
âWe sensed a dark energy,â Sephora says as she points towards the barrier.
Use it to my benefit.
âHeâs probably here to get rid of me, too,â I say quietly, just as Magdalene enters.
âThis is enough foolishness! I am not going to be responsible for another werewolfâs death on my grounds.â Magdalene says. We will strengthen the spells and I will talk to the Lycan king about having him moved!â
She spins around and leaves in a flurry of dark robes.
I almost smile as I watch her.
Ah, she really is too old for this position. Once upon a time, she may have been a powerful witch but now⦠now her age is making her make mistakes that perhaps she wouldnât have made many years agoâ¦
Her senile brain will be the end of her.
Another day has goneâ¦
Soon, the three days will be over, and I will be free to kill or have them all killed.
Royce.
Alejandro.
And last but not least, Skyla⦠perhaps killing her before Royce would be the final payback for everything I have done for him, and not once did he appreciate it⦠7 Ah, I wouldnât have minded keeping her, but she is a small price to pay for the victory that is almost within my grasp⦠11