Chapter 495
Standing Before Love
Since Matthias couldnât be convinced, Nikolai didnât continue persuading him. The latter didnât want to meddle in his cousinâs way of solving the problem either. Matthiasâ stubborn personality was no secret to anyone who knew himâNikolai knew that all too well, but he was sure that Matthias would eventually come up with a perfect solution.
It was getting late and Matthias was still in his office; Nikolai wanted to keep his cousin company but his offer was rejected. The man was brainstorming for a way to resolve the issue, and he had to let Myra know about this as soon as possible. His forehead furrowed deeply as he came to a conclusion at lastâHeather was indeed the best candidate to help him out.
Considering how badly things had gotten between them, Matthias wasnât sure how he could face Heather. Moreover, deep inside, he hadnât forgiven her as well.
He rose from his seat and drew the curtains as he looked outside. Is she still spending time with that man right now?
Just then, a sarcastic smile crept up his face. At that moment, he felt like a worthless criminal; he despised himself even more than ever.
âHeather and Myra arenât the only women in this worldâthere are plenty more fish in the sea, so why am I still holding on to the past?â Matthias muttered to himself. At times, he really couldnât bring himself to think positively of his own worth. Why am I like this?
Eventually, he let go of the curtainsâthe flashing bright lights outside had nothing to do with him. He rarely enjoyed his life; instead, heâd spent most of his time in self-deprecation.
As he reminisced about his past, he recalled that he had never once stopped forcing himself to hone his skills so that he could become a successful person one day. In the end, what he earned from those years were simply dirty tricks and betrayals.
At the thought of that, Matthias clenched his fists. He must make a decision, for midnight was approaching soon. The air was cool and breezy tonight, signifying the start of the fall season. All of a sudden, a sense of loneliness filled Matthiasâ heart. Indeed, was there ever a place that he could call home?
He had never truly been a part of the Locke Family; at the same time, he never considered them his family either. Ever since his mother passed away, he lost his one true home.
It was precisely this lack of familial love that made Matthias so hungry for the affection a romantic relationship could offer. However, his hopes were all in vain.
At that moment, the harsh reality snapped him out of his thoughts. He hastily dialed a number on his phone and the call got through at once. A kind and gentle voice came from the other end of the line;
Nikolai was preparing to go to bed, but he immediately picked up his phone as soon as he saw that Matthias was calling him.
âFind someone to personally send Heather the photos.â Matthias couldnât bring himself to meet Heather in the end. More than that, he didnât want to witness Heather being together with another man.
After debating his choices, Matthias decided that this was the best solution. Nikolai responded to his request quicklyâhe was told to get it done as soon as possible, but where was he going to find a messenger at this hour? Nevertheless, Nikolai ended the call bitterly and immediately got to work.
In truth, Nikolai wanted to personally pass the photos to Heather. He wanted to see her face, for her every expression and gesture never failed to put a silly smile on his face.
Sadly, he couldnât carry out the job on his own since Matthias wasnât willing to expose his identity as the sender. Therefore, it must be done discreetly without a trace.
Right now, Nikolai was pressed for time. He had to settle the issue quickly and find a messenger as soon as possibleâpreferably a stranger on the streets. He decided on that idea and prepared to entrust the errand to a random passerby. As he gave it another thought, he found that this method was full of flaws.
These days, a personâs trust was as fickle as a candlelight, so Nikolai decided to find someone who was more reliable. Just then, he thought of someone and immediately contacted the person; after all, they could be asleep if he were a second later. If that happened, it wouldnât be easy to find another helper.
After briefly going through the instructions with that person, Nikolai let out a pent-up exclamation on his bedâfinally, he was halfway done with the job. It was then that he realized something extremely importantâthe photos were still with Matthias, not him.
Before he could reach for his phone again, Matthias was already calling him.
âIâm right outside your lobby; come downstairs.â Matthias was simple with his words. Meanwhile, Nikolai peered out his window and noticed that Matthiasâ car was parked outside.
As a result, he hurried downstairs immediately. Matthias was leaning against his car with his arms crossed over his chest as he waited for Nikolai, and he didnât seem like he was in a rush.
âThe photos,â he said as he passed Nikolai the photos.
âHave you found our messenger?â Due to his taller stature, Matthias emitted a condescending air as he looked down at Nikolai.
âDonât worry, heâll be here very soon.â Nikolai was relieved that he had found someone in advance; he was often caught off guard by Matthiasâ sudden requests.
The two of them had a brief conversation before Nikolai headed back inside without noticing that Matthias was walking with him as well. He was surprised to find Matthias right behind him as he turned around again, so he stared at the man with an odd look in his eyes and asked him why heâd followed.
âDo you have wine at home?â Matthias wanted someone to drink with; the last time he had drunk to his heartâs content was with Heather. In hindsight, Heather was a great drinking buddy.
With her, he could drink without any worries and they could talk about anything and everythingâ
Heather was knowledgeable about all sorts of things. One could tell that there wasnât a dull moment in her life just from hearing her speak, and Matthias wanted to share a conversation with her once more over some drinks.
If they were to overlook their disputes, the time they spent together was pretty intriguing. If only there wasnât that irreparable disparity between them, then perhapsâ¦
Matthias quickly shrugged away these ridiculous thoughts in his mind. For the past few days, he would inadvertently think about Heather, so much that he was confused by his own mind.
He remembered the time when heâd met Myra all those years ago; he used to think about her day and night, fantasizing about getting together with her. These days, Matthias came to enjoy spending time with Heather instead.
Whenever he was alone with Heather, he would stare at her from time to timeâthe fondness he had for her was similar to his feelings for Myra back then. Their relationship which originated from an intense rivalry had somehow become something else; for some reason, his hate for her had gradually turned into admiration and even attachment.
âMatthias,â Nikolai called out to him as a reminder. He wasnât sure what made him so lost in thought that he wasnât walking out of the elevator.
âHuh?â Matthias looked up and stared at Nikolai.
He finally realized that the elevator doors were openâNikolai was holding onto the button, yet Matthias remained standing inside, seemingly unaware of it.
As a result, Matthias hurried outside as a sense of awkwardness filled his face. Nikolai glanced at him brieflyâhe rarely saw his cousin act this way. He speculated that Matthias was still concerned about Myra. Either that, he was thinking about Heather.
Other than women, Nikolai couldnât think of any other reason for Matthiasâ disorientated state of mind.
Matthias wasnât fond of bringing business affairs out of the office; he usually wouldnât get off work if he had unfinished tasks, so there was no way he could be thinking about work.
After unlocking the front door, Nikolai headed straight into his house. Their relationship was much more casual in private, for they were no longer superior and subordinate after office hours.
They were cousins at the end of the day, and their relationship was no different than a pair of brothersâ
in private. After returning home, Nikolai plopped onto the sofaâthe firmness of the fabric cushion was just right for him.
Meanwhile, Matthias swiftly pulled over a stool and sat down in front of Nikolai. It seemed that he was planning to have a long drink tonight.
âYou might not like what I have here,â Nikolai said a little stiffly. Matthias was awfully picky with his alcohol; Nikolaiâs collection consisted of gifts heâd received from others, so he wasnât even sure of how they tasted.
âWhat do you have?â Matthias didnât feel like being alone tonight, and he didnât want to go home to his villa either. He just needed someone to keep him company.
Nikolai stared at Matthias helplessly before his gaze shifted to a bookcase nearby; several bottles of wine were displayed there.
Matthias followed his cousinâs gaze before he got up and walked over to the bookcase. As he looked through the bottles, he found that there indeed wasnât anything that suited his taste.
Nevertheless, he wasnât too fussy about it tonight since he was already in the mood to drink. Thus, he casually picked up a bottle of dry red. Nikolaiâs alcohol tolerance wasnât the bestâMatthias knew that, so he chose this variety of red wine which had a relatively lower alcohol content.
Nikolai got up from the sofa. He preferred to use the dining table if they really ought to drink; after all, he wasnât fond of drinking on the sofa.
Meanwhile, Matthias carried the bottle of wine to the table as wellâthey seemed to be on the same page. At the table, Nikolai said with a smile, âItâs no fun drinking wine on its own, Matthias. Hold on, Iâll get us some snacks.â
Matthias narrowed his eyes slightly; he wondered how Nikolai was going to bring them drinking snacks out of nowhere. Unexpectedly, his cousin came out of the kitchen with a bowl of roasted peanuts in no time.
Matthias raised a brow at him; sure enough, nothing was lacking in Nikolaiâs home. The latter stared back at Matthias with a triumphant look on his face.
âWhy do you have freshly roasted peanuts in your kitchen?â Matthias asked in confusion.
Nikolai let out a mysterious chuckle and said, âMy kitchen has everythingâI have other snacks as well.
Just tell me if you want anything else.â
Matthias waved a dismissive hand at him. He only wanted to have a quiet drinking session, and he wasnât interested in eating snacks. The two of them sat facing each other at the table as Nikolai propped his head up with his hands. He had been feeling sleepy since earlier, but he couldnât go to bed with Matthiasâ prolonged disruption.
âYou really need to work on your alcohol tolerance,â said Matthias as he popped open the bottle of dry red.
Nikolai wasnât really interested in alcohol, and he hadnât thought about increasing his tolerance for it.
He had always been following behind Matthias during meetings and such, so there wasnât an instance where he needed to attend a gathering alone. With Matthias around, Nikolai only needed to engage in some light drinking.
âYou know I donât like to drink.â Nikolai stared at the red liquid in the half-filled wine glassâit looked like a glass of fresh blood. The color itself was so disturbing that Nikolai became quite uncomfortable at the sight of it.
âHow can you survive the corporate world without a certain tolerance for alcohol?â Matthias argued. To a businessman, it wasnât a matter of likeness or not when it came to drinking alcohol.
âI donât need to drink much with you around, Matthiasâjust some light drinking will do.â Nikolai had always been very dependent on Matthias, so it gradually became a habit that he couldnât shake off.
âWhat if Iâm not around anymore?â Matthias swirled the wine in his glass as he observed the smooth movements of the liquid against the glassy surface; for some reason, he felt a sense of satisfaction from watching such things.
Nikolaiâs expression darkened at his words. âWhat are you talking about? Didnât we make a promise?
Iâve told you that Iâll always follow you around.â He recited those words with such determination and righteousness that Matthias couldnât help but laugh.
âYouâll have to face the world on your own someday; no one wants to be a follower all their life.â Then, he took a sip of wine as his eyes remained fixed upon Nikolai. The latter became uneasy under his cousinâs piercing gaze.
âLetâs talk about something else.â Nikolai didnât want to linger on the subject any longer. Matthias was acting a little strange todayâthe things he said were oddly intimidating, and Nikolai had a bad feeling about it.
âThenâ¦â Before Matthias could finish, a knock sounded on the door. Nikolai jolted in response upon hearing that, so he jumped to his feet and went to open the door.
Matthias stared thoughtfully at Nikolaiâs back as he rushed over to receive his visitor. His cousin was probably the only one who treated him with such sincerity; perhaps all those years of looking after Nikolai were not in vain.