Chapter 692
Standing Before Love
Matthias felt disappointed after hearing Heatherâs question. It turned out that to Heather, his love for her wasnât genuine. Since Heather thought of him as such, there was nothing else he would like to say either.
âHeather, it seems that Iâve overestimated myself,â Matthias said with a cold smile. He had overestimated Heatherâs feelings toward him.
Should he have known that Heatherâs feelings toward him were merely mediocre, he wouldnât have kept having wishful thoughts. Staring at Heather, Matthias felt like he barely knew her.
Heather remained silent as she could perceive the disappointment in Matthiasâ gaze. In fact, she was extremely disappointed in herself too. She felt as if she had been messing up her own life since a long time ago.
âIf you insist that Leon will be able to bring you happiness, I wish you all the best in the future.â Matthias solemnly gave up. Since Heather had already driven him into a corner, there was no point for him to continue persisting anymore.
There was a slight change in Heatherâs expression, but it quickly faded. Rendered speechless, she, too, thought it was sarcastic after hearing Matthiasâ words. Seeing Matthias leave, Heather felt like she was never going to see him again. The door was closed with a bang before Matthias disappeared from her sight.
While walking along the corridor, Matthias bumped into Leon and gave him a cold stare. He knew Leon had nothing to do with this matter, and he had no right to blame him for this.
On the other hand, Leon forgot to greet him as he was taken aback by Matthiasâ cold eye contact. As they brushed past each other, Leon felt uneasy being stared at by Matthias. When he turned around to look at Matthias, the latter was walking in the opposite direction in wide strides, and it was daunting to look at his upright figure.
This mustâve got to do with Heather. Leon opened the ward door carefully to find that Heather had already gotten out of the bed, so he quickly walked up to her as he was worried that she was throwing a tantrum again.
âWhy did you get up, Heather?â Leon felt as if Heather didnât acknowledge herself as a patient, so no wonder Matthias had to âeducateâ her earlier on.
âIâm feeling much better. So why canât I get up?â Heather refuted. She was in a bad mood currently, so she naturally wouldnât speak kindly.
âA patient should stay in the bed and have more rest, Heather,â Leon said in dissatisfaction. At this moment, he wished Matthias was around because he was the only one who could control Heather.
âWho says a patient should always stay in bed. Patients need to do adequate exercises too. You can get even sicker by lying in bed the whole day,â Heather continued to rebuke Leon, having known some basic medical knowledge.
âFine, fine. Whatever you say.â Leon didnât intend to continue arguing with her.
Sure enough, Heather had a dominant personality but not Leon, so he would rather let Heather do as she pleased. From this perspective, Leon had always been doing a better job than Matthias because the latter would only insist on whatever he thought was right and would never compromise.
âWhat were you doing outside? What took you so long to come back?â Heather directed the topic toward Leon. She had been waiting for him to come back in and resolve the awkward situation, but he had been running away all the time.
âNothing.â Leon smiled guiltily. Truth was, he was too bored in the corridor earlier, so he accosted one of the good-looking nurses. Leon liked pretty girls and he would never deliberately shy away from them.
That was who he was, but this didnât hinder him from having a secret crush on Heather.
âI want to be discharged as soon as possible. Please help me rush the doctor.â If it wasnât that Heather was feeling weak, she would have gone to talk to the doctor on her own.
âHeather, the doctor has said that you can only be discharged after the examination reports are released.â This time, Leon didnât go along with Heather. He couldnât possibly allow her to be this willful.
âI donât want to go for examinations anymore. The basic ones we did yesterday are enough. The examinations arranged by the doctor for today are unnecessary.â Heather didnât want to waste more time in the hospital as she still had a lot of matters to attend to.
âYou have to listen to the doctor, Heather,â Leon insisted. It was better to have Matthias around under the current situation because Leon was so used to submitting to Heather he couldnât bring himself to go against her at all.
âYou guys are annoying,â Heather said subconsciously as she was reminded of Matthias. She felt her heart squeezed. She thought Matthias would insist on staying just now, but little did she expect that he would just simply turn away and leave. The more Heather thought Matthias had not loved her as much as she had imagined, the more agonized she was.
Despite already making up her mind to marry Leon, deep down, she was actually hoping for something else. No matter what it was, she was yearning for Matthias to fight for her. Just then, she recalled the day when Matthias was at Myraâs wedding, she could tell a lot of emotions were hidden in his eyes.
That day, Heather thought that Matthias would do somethingââin the end, he didnât. At this thought, she realized Matthias wasnât that courageous either when it came to relationships. He turned into a coward at the most crucial point of time. Heather thought Matthias would change this time, but it seemed like she had overestimated Matthias and his feelings toward her.
âHeather, did you chase Matthias away?â Leon asked in curiosity while taking the opportunity to change the topic.
However, Heather became even more agitated when she heard that. âHe left on his own,â she enunciated each word slowly. Truth was, she was still disappointed at Matthiasâ reaction just now.
âHeather, Matthias is actually a nice person. Itâs unfair to him for you to hurt him repeatedly like this,â
Leon said in all fairness. Although he would occasionally deem Matthias as a love rival, he had a good impression of him most of the time.
âIs this why you refuse to marry me?â Now that there were only ones in the room, Heather brought up the topic from yesterday again.
Leon looked at Heather in resignation. âTake a seat first, Heather. Letâs sit down and talk.â He felt rather weird to keep standing.
With that, Heather sat on the bed while Leon sat on the seat which Matthias previously sat on. Facing each other, both of them were able to observe each otherâs expressions clearly.
âHeather, to marry you in this lifetime is my greatest wish of all. However, I do not wish to see you compromise. Everyone could tell that youâre in love with Matthias. You should only marry someone whom you love.â It was very rare for Leon to be this serious. Unlike his usual cheeky manner, he said these words sincerely.
What he said was a principle that everyone understood. Heather had always taken marriage seriously but she had no choice this time around.
âLoving someone doesnât mean that you must marry them,â Heather said nonchalantly. âThereâs a saying that women should marry the one who loves her more.â Of course Heather couldnât tell Leon the true reason. Nonetheless, she couldnât possibly tell him that he was the one whom she actually loved either because such a lie was too obvious.
âHeather, that saying existed because women were regarded as a vulnerable group. Do you think youâre an incapable and vulnerable woman?â Leon refuted Heather reasonably this time. He wouldnât buy those nonsense sayings. Just because everyone believed so didnât mean that it was right.
âI am, and I yearn to obtain happiness. Marriage and love are different. I canât possibly chase after love all the time because only marriage is the ultimate attribution for a woman.â Heather attempted to use the old cliché to persuade herself.
âI donât believe this is something you would say, Heather.â Looking at Heather, Leon felt like she was a stranger.
âPerhaps you just donât understand me.â Heather smiled faintly, thinking that maintaining formalities while living a life with Leon in the future didnât seem that bad after all.
âHeather, Iâm not sure why exactly you said these to me, but I can tell you firmly that I love you, so I hope you can go love who you love too. Besides, I wonât be able to provide you the happiness youâre seeking for. Youâll only be truly happy being together with someone you love.â Leon rejected her resolutely. Last night, he was still tossing and turning in the bed as he couldnât make up his mind, but today, his decision was a firm no.
Heather stared at Leon in disbelief as this outcome was out of her expectation and plans. It turned out that loving someone didnât mean that one wouldnât draw the line. In fact, Heather had witnessed Leonâs bottom line today.
âEven you are rejecting me.â Heather was disheartened. It seemed like she didnât understand Leon enough.
âHeather, your proposal is indeed tempting, but youâve mistaken one thingâwhen we enter into a marriage, I wonât be the one giving you happiness but in contrast, youâll be the one giving me happiness. You have to know that if the happiness that I offer you is not something that you want, it can end up being a burden to you.â Leon understood love clearly. If two people were forcing themselves to settle for each other, the party who didnât love his or her partner would suffer more.
Leon was rather certain that Heather wouldnât fall for him in this lifetime, so he knew he wouldnât be able to provide her happiness in their marriage. As such, he wouldnât agree to marry her because he didnât wish to become the one that brought agony to her in the future.
Heather was stirred up after hearing Leonâs words. It turned out that she indeed didnât understand the essence of love. What Matthias said before this was true. She was too stupid, and her decision would only cause agony to all three of them.
âPerhaps youâre right.â Heather was persuaded by Leon. She shouldnât display her filial piety toward Robert in such a way. She could have done it in many other different ways.
This time, Heather wanted to take the shortcut, which looked tempting at first, but it came with a big priceââcosting her future. There was no shortcut to success, as one should reap what he or she sowed.
âIâm glad that youâve thought it through, Heather. Please stop bringing up the proposal. Iâm afraid I wonât be able to resist the temptation.â Leon smiled brightly. He was nearly persuaded by Heather.
He had just pushed his happiness away that was presented right in front of him. As long as he agreed to marry Heather, he would be the happiest man in the world from then. However, he couldnât be this selfish to build his happiness at the cost of her suffering. Sometimes, he reckoned Heather would have these ridiculous thoughts because she hadnât stumbled and learned a lesson before.
Nevertheless, Leon couldnât bear to let Heather experience it. Heâd rather her not experience the sufferings, so he had been staying by her side and carefully protecting her, hoping that she would be happier.
âWill you get engaged with me then?â Heather wore a cunning smile. Since Leon had already made himself clear, an engagement didnât sound like a bad idea.
âNot again, Heather.â Leon was speechless at her relentlessness.
âDonât reject me so readily yet. Hear me out.â Heather was much more relieved at this moment. Since she still had some doubts toward Matthias, she would take it as giving a trial to him this time.