Chapter 19: Chapter 19

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(Btw this chapter is a lil bit hot n heavy towards the end, read at your own risk ppl)

Also song is highly appropriate 😏

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I feel like utter shît.

I'm not exaggerating either. Usually, a common occurrence for myself is to drag the pain from a minor headache all the way onto the opposite end of a pain spectrum to that of being shot in the head.

I used to do it a lot when I was younger to get out of going to school or training, especially when my dad was attempting to raise my low fitness levels to that of the strongest pack warrior. He was relentless and his training was gruelling, so I would be 'ill' at least twice every fortnight just so my body could get a break.

But this is the worst pain I've ever felt, and that I assure you I'm not faking it.

It's not the kind of pain you feel when you break a bone, that dull throbbing ache that is around twenty-four seven, and whenever you move it wrong the pain flares again for a few seconds. This feels like my head is literally about to explode. It feels thick and stuffy like I have a head cold, except my cold is on fire and a bomb is actually ticking inside my head.

My joints are also stiffer than boards, and moving them is a painful struggle. My legs especially, it's sore just to twitch them, but I have a feeling the training regime Kaden has had me on these past few days is contributing to that.

Ever since we moved into the new house situated in the centre of the towns largest cul-de-sac two weeks ago, he's been helping me get my fitness levels back up using the gym that's in the basement. I think he's felt bad that we've spent so much time trying to make ourselves work as mates that we forgot about the important things, like Work and training.

We were doing legs and fighting techniques yesterday, and even my father didn't push me so hard. I did savour the little breaks we managed to sneak, the occasional kiss pressed up against one of the machines or the handsy grab he'd take at random moments.

Since what happened two weeks ago in the gym, we've barely been able to keep our hands off each other. Whether it's just him touching my thigh when we're in the car, or holding hands under the table at pack meeting. Evening have also been very enjoyable, if you catch my drift.

We haven't sealed the mate bond yet, but there are other things one can do for fun. So I completely blame him for my stiff body.

I can also blame my complete exhaustion on him overworking me. Every time I try open my eyes, fatigue has them fluttering shut. I keep coming in and out of consciousness, each time I awake, I feel more tired than the last time.

The only reason I kept working at such a high level was because he kept rewarding me with toe curling kisses with every correct punch, and extra long breaks where we made out every time I managed to take him out during sparring.

One thing I can't blame Kaden for is my headache, because no matter how many Tylenol or paracetamol I scarf down, it's never enough to relieve the jolting pain that shoots around my brain cells.

Sophia reckons it's the stress of everything that's happened recently. I heard Kaden speaking to her worriedly on the phone last night when it first kicked in, and again this morning. He's been quite worried about me, and it took a lot of convincing on my part before I sent him off to work, promising to call him if it gets worse.

He hasn't been keeping up with his pack duties as of recently, and I know the pack has been trying super hard to continue functioning, but there is only so much they can do without him.

They need him.

I kissed him a couple of times gently to get him to leave, and he mumbled that he'd be back at lunch to check on me against my lips.

And god do I miss him. Going from spending nearly every day of the last four months with him, to not being near him at all, it's strange. Neither myself nor Shiva like it, but there isn't anything we can do.

The pack is more important than my selfish needs.

I try to open my eyes to check the time, but pain is keeping them glued shut. The light that has snuck past the curtains is laying directly across my eyes, and I can't even roll over because my body feels like every nerve ending is equipped to shoot me or something and cause me more pain.

I hear the buzzing of my phone on my bedside table and I groan, unable to move to grab it. The ringtone is jarring my head, making it feel like I'm doing repetitive back flips in space, I have no idea which way is up or down.

I ignore the pain in my bones and grasp blindly for my phone until my fingers brush against the familiar plastic of my phone case. I open my eyes feebly, my body feeling weaker with every movement and press the green answer button on Sophia's call.

"Sophia, what?" I hiss, my voice raspy and cracked. My mouth is dry, and I can't even find it in myself to summon any spit.

"Jesus Lola." Sophia replies drily. "Don't you sound like shît."

I groan and flip back down onto the pillow, resting the phone on my ear and allowing my body to go slack. "If that's all you're calling to tell me, then please politely hang up."

She snorts through the phone, and just from knowing her my entire life can I tell that she's rolling her eyes. "Funnily enough, Lol, I've taken the time out of completing my alpha responsibilities to ask you how you are, because your mate has been ringing me non stop worrying about you."

My heart warms at the thought of him ringing my best friend to bug me. He's honouring his word and not constantly checking up on me himself, but got Sophia to do it for him.

I want him here, no I need him here. I need to hear his laugh, feel his fingers between mine. Kiss him. Sending him away to do pack work was one of my more sucky ideas.

"I'm fine Sophia." I croak, my tongue darting out between my lips in order to wet them. "I'm just a little tired."

"Is that on top of the severe headaches and being stiff?" She asks me, and I cringe, knowing that I can't lie to her and Kaden has probably already filled her in. "Lola don't lie to me Kaden has already told me."

There we go.

"I'm sure it's just everything catching up on me like you said." I sigh, cracking open my eyes again. I catch sight of the time on Kaden's bedside clock. The lights are flashing at 15:04, way past lunch. I must've been asleep when Kaden dropped by to come see me again. "I'm sure I'll pick up tomorrow."

"I've had Otis in the catacombs all morning, reading up on your condition." Sophia starts, and a lump begins to form in my throat. "We have a couple of ideas of what might be wrong with you, the first one being extreme exhaustion."

"I figured that was a given." I chuckle drily, before stopping because pain started to flare in my abdomen. "The second?"

"Heat." Sophia says bluntly.

Heat is a common procedure that occurs to a mated female once every two months. It's not a process that can be tracked or pinned down onto a specific date, the moon goddess chooses when your heat falls. You will continue to feel heat every two months until you're either pregnant, or too old to conceive.

Because the peak age for werewolves is thirty years old, female wolves stop being able to conceive around the age of thirty five from what I've read and what I saw with my parents. Werewolves are extremely complex, and carrying a pup is a dangerous feat, so the younger and stronger you are, the stronger your pup.

My mind slowly puts the pieces of information I know about heat together, only to build a picture that perfectly describes my situation, minus the extreme desire. But from what I know that only occurs when the moon ascends into the sky. "The major problem for you is that the moon will be full tonight."

I cringe at the thought of what has happened to Shiva the last few times there was a full moon, the last memory specifically is the night I met Kaden when I killed eight rogues with little to no remorse and she disappeared from my brain for over a month.

"How come this is the first time I've experienced heat?" I ask. "I've been with Kaden for what, four months now?"

"From what Otis has told me, heat only starts when you've found your mate, and feelings have fully formed for both members. You two hit a rough patch around the same time your heat should've kicked in last time."

"Well that makes sense." I grumble, wincing from the ever so slight movement I make of my head as I make myself more comfortable. "I guess the fun is only just beginning."

"Trust me when I say this," I can hear her smirk through the phone. "the way Kaden will be touching you tonight, you'll wish that the night never had to end."

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I wasn't wrong when I said my heat was going to get worse.

After ending the call with Sophia I managed to doze off again, my tired body eventually giving into its fatigue, and I slept for a good few hours blissfully. I didn't wake up, wincing through the effort of turning over or the fear of my skull splitting open with the intensity of my headache.

That's where the nice ended for me.

I jolted awake four hours later, pain exploding through my body similar to that of when I reconnected with Shiva, minus the bone splitting crunches and my joints rearranging themselves.

I can feel the thick layer of sweat that's on my skin, my head still thick and heavy and feels far too big for my head. My vision is blurry, and no matter how many times I blink it still seems like a film has been placed over my eyes. My body isn't stiff anymore, but my skin is too warm, fiery to the touch and painful against the usually soft silk of my sheets.

But what's worse is the fire of arousal that's building up on my core. I'm so turned on, and I can't calm myself down.

I throw the covers off my body, the fabric soaked with my sweat so the quilt is basically ruined. The air is hot and acrid to my lungs, making it nearly impossible to breathe. My breath is coming in pants as I force myself in the direction of the bathroom, my legs giving way forcing me to struggle on all fours.

The knot in my stomach is tightening, thoughts of Kaden running through my head at a million miles an hour.

I crave him. I crave is hands on my skin, between my legs, on my body. I want his lips on my neck and body, anything to satiate the burning desire building up in my loins.

I turn on the light in the bathroom and catch a glimpse of myself in the mirror. My eyes are glowing amber, my lips and cheeks clearly reddened. Sweat is dripping from my skin, my hair damp and stringy, clinging to my skin.

I need to cool down, thinking of how cold showers work for guys, I twist the dial controlling temperature all the way to cold and sit underneath the torrent of water fully clothed, my legs to jelly-like to stand. I allow my hand to wander, hoping I can relieve myself of the painful build up of intimate desire and arousal, but to no use.

My skin and need is still on fire, my hands are not the hands my body craves. I need Kaden, or I fear I may lose all control.

After almost half an hour of sitting helplessly underneath the shower head, I hear the door slam shut downstairs, Kaden's deep, husky voice carrying around the whole house. "Lola, are you awake?"

My breathing is coming out in pants as I feel my body dehydrating under the intense heat. I can't find the strength to shout to him, my hands clinging weakly to the bath.

"Lola?" I hear him call again, much closer this time, worry leaking into his voice. I know the second he finds the bed empty he's going to freak, but I need to pray that his curiosity and need to find me will have him following the sound of the shower. I really have to hope that his respect for my privacy will be overrided by his want to make sure I'm okay.

"Kaden." I pant quietly, my chest rising and falling at an unsteady rate. My black vest has gone completely see through, revealing everything underneath as the cotton clings to every curve of my torso. "Kaden I'm in here."

I hear his inquisitive breathing, suggesting he's smelt my overpowering arousal, followed by quickened footsteps as he smashes through the bathroom door, a look of murder and betrayal in his eyes.

I will bet you a thousand dollars that he thought I was with somebody else.

His gaze lands on me in the bath and they then fill with lust and desire, his eyes blackening into pits.

Just the way he's looking at me ignites another flame of burning desire between my legs, the need for him reaching a new height. My eyes roll back inside my head as a wave of uncontrollable need crashes over my body like waves on a shoreline.

"Kaden." I gasp, my grip tightening. "I need you right now."

That's all it takes before he throws himself on top of me in the bath, his lips crashing against mine.

It's possessive and aggressive and desperate, his mouth hot and heavy against my already swollen lips. His large, callous hands start roaming, his fingers splaying out underneath my vest. The need for him inside me isn't going away, only increasing in intensity. I make my hands pull at his blazer, forcing it from his shoulders. I tear his dress shirt clean in half, buttons flying everywhere as I reveal his toned chest.

"Lola." He breaks away from the kiss to look me in the eyes, his once blue orbs all black in the bathroom lighting. He's breathing heavily, his body humming with lust and desire. "You wouldn't want this if you weren't in heat."

His whole body is soaked to the bone, every article of clothing he still has on clinging to his toned muscles like a second skin. His hair is stuck to his forehead and dripping with icy water that falls onto my face below him. His body is quivering from the urge to touch me, I can see the restraint on his face.

I have to make that go away.

"Heat only occurs if there's feelings on both sides." I hum, my body arching in his direction. It has to be close to his, skin on skin. There are too many items of clothing between us. "Kaden I want this, I need this."

I watch as he closes his eyes for a few seconds, before opening them again. His eyes are flashing from his endearing ice blue to black, like he's trying to control himself. He manages to offer a weak, lusty smirk. "You always wanted me to kiss you with blue eyes."

"So kiss me then." I say aggressively, looping my hands desperately around his neck and slamming my lips to his.

His hands go back to discovering every inch of skin on my body, one hand gripping my thigh possessively and pulling my closer, whilst the second is ripping my vest from my body.

The icy water is a shock on my skin as I'm made shirtless, but I have no time to be embarrassed before his body is glued to mine, the bare skin of my chest pressing against his.

Every bit of him is pressed tightly to my body, his large frame slotting perfectly between my open legs. I hook them around his waist, finding it much easier to pull him closer.

My numb fingers remove his ripped shirt from his shoulders before exploring his chest, admiring the way his abdominals ripple and shudder under my heavy touch.

His lips move from my own to my jaw, peppering wet kisses down my jaw to my neck before resting where he will eventually mark me. My back arches painfully as a jolt of arousal courses through my body when he sucks and nips at the sensitive skin where my neck joins with my shoulder.

I feel his fangs elongate before he pulls back again, looking me dead in the eye. "We shouldn't do this now."

"Kaden." I almost shout at him angrily. "I need you to do something to get me to scream in pleasure. I want to know how you're feeling, I want to be linked to you , or so help me god I will find somebody who wi..."

I gasp at the pain of his fangs puncturing the flesh on my neck, his bite going deep. It makes my eyes roll back violently, my back lifting off the bottom of the bath as the pleasure finally kicks in and the knot sitting deep in my stomach slowly untangles.

It's like a shock of electricity has gone off inside my brain, as every thought, every emotion Kaden is feeling comes rushing into mine. It's like an invisible wire has been connected between our heads, linking the two together.

"Kaden." I moan breathlessly when he finally let's go of my neck, his tongue darting out to lick my skin at an agonisingly slow rate.

"You're breathtaking." Kaden mumbles against my neck, his hands roaming freely across every inch of my body. "You don't even know the extent of what you do to me, what you are to me."

I let my hooded eyes roam to his suit pants that look a little bit too tight. I let a smirk fall onto my swollen lips, a mock innocence in my eyes. "I think I'm following slightly."

I can slowly feel the pain between my legs subsiding as my needs are being satiated. His touch is removing the fire from my skin, like it's absorbing the heat directly.

The water is finally having an affect, goosebumps erupting across my arms at its icy temperature. I also begin to notice how awkward being in the bath is. Kaden is struggling to actually fit, and every time we try to find our footing we just slip around, making it very difficult to stay in the same place.

He growls playfully at me, taking my bottom lip between his teeth and pulling at it gently. I let my fingertips skim across the leather of his belt, stopping impishly at the buckle.

I hear him suck in a harsh breath, and I catch his gaze looking at me darkly. I lean up and kiss him softly, my hands slowly undoing his belt and the button of his pants. "Kaden, I want this."

He looks at me and smiles gently, a smile I barely get to see, as I feel his large hands cup under my back and heave me up as he stands, his eyes in line with mine. He leans in and kisses me slowly, his tongue exploring my mouth and battling with mine. His skin is icy to the touch but I don't care, because I just need him. All of him.

"If you're completely sure and you don't say anything, then I won't stop." He says seriously as he heads towards the bedroom, leaving the shower running.

"I don't want you to."

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HOLY SHIT ON A STICK I STILL CANT BELIEVE I MANAGED TO WRITE THAT.

I'm not going to lie, I cringed the entire time I wrote that, purely because I'm not a massive fan of writing erotica hahah.

But, despite some of you think it was fast, it's heat, and heat makes both sides of the mate bond do things they may not have done.

But they're mates, and look at Sophia and Mark, they completed their entire mate bond within three days, it's taken KODA almost 4 months.

I really like this chapter because it shows just how raw and heightened their feelings are for each other, and they both wanted everything that happened.

Was reading a werewolf book today and within three chapters they'd gone from hating each other to having sex and completing their bond within four chapters, so I reckon I did okay.

Anyways let me know what you think, hope you enjoyed this chapter, and I'll see you all next week.

Much love,

Lauryn xoxo