âAlthough itâs been so long, at least Iâm giving you a response. Itâs better than turning a blind eye to all the things youâve done in the past.âXu Chengfengâs kiss slowly moved from the back of her neck to her cheek.
Zuo Yueâs face was burning hot, but her heart was in a mess. She did not know if she should push him away or what to do.
Just as she lowered her head and was deep in thought, before she could get used to this change, Xu Chengfengâs voice suddenly sounded in her ear again,ââDoes it still hurt?â
Zuo Yue paused for a moment, then suddenly bent her arm and slammed it fiercely against his chest.ââPain your head!â
Xu Chengfeng did not expect this girl to be so ruthless. He immediately took a step back. When she turned around, he clutched his chest in pain, as if he had suffered some internal injury.
No matter what kind of Xu Chengfeng Zuo Yue was facing, she felt awkward.
She had nowhere to vent her anger from before. She did not look at his expression and walked straight into the bedroom. She turned around and quickly closed the door.
Xu Chengfeng effortlessly raised his hand and placed it on the door, stopping her from closing it.
Zuo Yue glanced at him and said calmly,ââ Xu Chengfeng, donât think that you can distract me by deliberately attacking me in such a way. You should know very well that the problem between us is not just a matter of blood relations. In the past, I never cared about any ethics or blood relations. Although I can feel relieved now, it doesnât mean that I can forgive you and my mother for hiding things from me.â
She was about to close the door when Xu Chengfeng looked at her calmly.ââThat was only a temporary measure, Zuo Yue.â
âWhether it was a temporary measure or forced by my mother, it has nothing to do with me! In the past three years, Iâve almost erased the name of Xu Chengfeng from my heart. So what if youâre not my biological uncle? There are so many men in the world who are not related to me by blood, so I can love them just like that?â
Xu Chengfengâs brows instantly turned cold.âWhat are you trying to say?â
âYou know what I want to say, Xu Chengfeng. Hating and forgetting someone has become a habit. I have long forgotten how to love you. You are no different from the men who often appear around me. You used to be my uncle, but now you are not even an uncle. You are just a man who has nothing to do with me.âZuo Yueâs tone suddenly paused, and her eyes turned colder.ââNo, itâs a man who spent an afternoon with meâ¦â
Seeing the obvious ice in Xu Chengfengâs eyes, Zuo Yue chuckled.ââYouâre just an obsession of mine when I was young. Donât take yourself too seriously, Xu Chengfeng.â
As soon as she finished speaking, she closed the door with force, blocking their gazes.
Xu Chengfeng no longer placed his hand on the door to stop her. The bedroom was pitch black, and Zuo Yue leaned against the door.
Even though she had taken a shower, she felt as if her entire body was still occupied by that manâs warmth.
It was extremely quiet outside the door. Xu Chengfeng was still the man who would never be impulsive. She stood by the door for a while, then lifted her arms to hug herself gently. She walked to the bed and fell onto the bed as if she was exhausted.
The curtains in the room were closed. She sat on the bed and hugged herself with her arms around her chest. She slowly raised her gaze and looked in the direction of the door.
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After sitting quietly by the bed for a long time, she suddenly turned around and squatted beside the cabinet. She opened the bottom drawer of the cabinet and took out a small box.
Opening the box, the seven colorful little dolls in the crystal decorative box entered her eyes again.
In the past three years, she had thrown these colorful little dolls into the trash can countless times, and she had run back to the trash can to rummage through it countless times.
After that, it was simply sealed in the corner of the drawer at the bottom.
She thought that she had let it go long ago.
However, it was as if everything was just a doll that she had deliberately hidden in the corner. When she dug it out again, it was heart-wrenching and filled with an unknown bitterness.
She thought back to three years ago, half a month after Xu Chengfeng left.
At that time, Zuo Yue had already returned to Boston to study. She had entered a new school and was adapting to the new environment.
Xu Yuan found time to accompany her and even took her to the mall to buy things after school.
When Xu Yuan mentioned Xu Chengfengâs matter again, Zuo Yue said,ââMom, Iâm not a child. Donât always treat me like one. Iâm a human being, a living person. My relationship is not childâs play. No matter if this relationship is too abnormal in your eyes, it should at least have a beginning and an end. However, Xu Chengfeng and I have never really started, and the final ending is in such a cruel way. Itâs not that Iâm unwilling now. Itâs just that thereâs an empty piece in my heart. You donât have to worry about me. If I canât live without that person, I might not have been able to live long ago.â
â He has always held on to his rationality. When he wants to ignore me, he ignores my feelings. When he wants to ignore me, he can use reality to ruthlessly slap my face. When he wants to leave, he can use such a cruel method to leave. I will be heartbroken because of his departure, and because of his heartlessness, I will never forgive him.â
âHe thought that his tolerance and protection of me was the best way to treat me. He treated me in the way he thought was right, but Mom, I was the one who was always hurt. I have no complaints at the moment, but I also hope that he will never come back and never appear in front of me again.â
âI donât want to see him again, never.â
Those were the words she had once said. The remaining self-esteem she had was also the conviction she had buried deep in her heart to support herself through the past three years.
Even though she had tried to keep some of Xu Chengfengâs properties in Los Angeles, she had only wanted to keep them. She had never expected him to come back.
Those traces of him were constantly reminding her that the man had defeated her self-esteem with his rationality and indifference. He reminded her that she no longer needed to turn back or wait.
Zuo Yue gradually got used to the darkness in the bedroom. She looked at the colorful dolls and put them back into the box. She put them back into the deepest part of the drawer as if they had never been found before.
There was no movement outside the bedroom door. She did not know if Xu Chengfeng was still standing in front of the door. Zuo Yue turned over and lay on her side on the bed, not wanting to care about him.