*Josh's POV*
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"I'm sorry, but, there's nothing more we could do." The nurse says and Riley sobs in my arms.
"No. No!" I say and Riley settles down on a chair. Jefferey tries to calm me down but I can't. "Because of me, Ava and Jack are dead. Because of me, we went to that party! I killed them!" I scream and Riley gets up.
"You told us that we shouldn't have gone, but we would've gone anyways! Don't beat yourself up for this!" Riley says, tears streaming down her face.
"How were we supposed to know they were drug dealers? How were we supposed to know those people were gonna start shooting?" Jay says from a distance. "Can we atleast see them?" I ask the nurse, who was surprisingly still there. She nods and we all follow her down to the room.
I push open the door and walk in. Ava and Jack are on different tables. But I got straight to Ava. Her long, brown hair is curled tonight and she used my favorite light, pink lipgloss. She wore a red dress, the one that drives me fucking crazy.
Her mascara was running, because when she was shot, she was in pain. But even before that, before she knew what I'd done, with her best friend, with that bitch, Riley, she had been crying. She was now dead. The only thing I really cared about, gone. And she died with a broken heart. Because of me. We could've had an actual chance if I hadn't gone and fucked it up.
If I hadn't gone and fucked her best friend, Ava might still be here and we coukd possibly be together.
I tried turning to my side and a sharp pain hit my entire body like a truck. I wake up and take in my surroundings. My arm and leg were in a cast and Avery was currled up on the couch.
Everything suddenly came flooding back to me and I sighed. I can't belive I got hit by an actual truck. I could've died. Emma could've died.
I reach over for my phone and call my house. "Josh? Josh, is it you?" James answers and I practically cry "Yeah, it's me, lil bro." I say, my voice craking.
"Are you okay? I got here and you're car wasn't here. Instead, there was another car. I grabbed the key from under the mat, and no one was inside. Where are you?" James says and he sobs into the phone and the tears that were threatning to spill, have finally fallen out of my eyes.
"I'm in the hospital, and I got into a car crash." I say, wiping the tears from my eyes.
James sobs and I hear him looking for something and then something crashed and breaks.
"What hospital are you at?" James asks me and I shake my head, even though he can't see me. "I don't want you worrying." I tell him and then he screams "Too late for that! You should've thought about it before getting into an accident! What hospital!"
I sigh and say "Durham Regional. Look, I don't want you doing anything stupid, okay? I have -"
"Too late. And as for doing anything stupid, you should start taking your own advice." He says and hangs up.
Well damn.
I stare at my phone for what feels like forever. "Josh?" I hear and I look up and Avery's rubbing her eyes.
"Hey. Did you sleep well?" I ask her and she chuckles "I'm supposed to be asking you that." She says.
"Well, I slept like shit. And, even worse, my little brother is most likely going to show up here and try to beat the living shit out of me." I tell her and she chuckles.
"Hey, are you hungry? I can go and get us some food. It'll also give me a chance to stop by and check up on Emma. Since, I didn't get a chance yesterday." Avery says and I nod.
"Yeah, any way I can persuade you into getting me a biscuit?" I ask Avery and I smile with my teeth showing and she smiles back "Yeah, okay." Avery says and I smile. "Thank you!" I tell her as she closes the door behind her.
I pick up my phone and log into instagram and already, I have people already wishing so I can get better. I quickly thank everyone and turn off my phone and stare at the blank wall in front of me.
Today, October 19, officially 3 months ago, Ava and Jack died. Because of me.
My phone rings and I answer it without even checking the called ID.
"Hello?" I answer and a voice says "C'mon Josh. You can't just answer without atleast pretending to sound pleased. It wasn't so long ago we were hooking up." Someone says and I frezze. I answered the phone to Riley Anderson. The same girl that I fucked and then Ava died.
"Riley. What a non-pleasant surprise. To what do I owe this great uncomfort?" I mummble.
She giggles and says "Well, my fuck buddy has gone missing. I'm going crazy horny trying to look for him. But I think I just found him." She says suductivly.
"Well, poor guy. Hope he drops dead." I say cooly.
"Ah, well. He almost did. And none of us would've known if I hadn't check your instagram! We've been friends for years, Josh! And after, Ava and Jack, I ..." Riley says and then sobs.
"Dude, what the hell! You pulled the great dissapearing act! But we don't want to be the last ones to know 'bout your accident!" A new voice booms through the phone and for some people it would be hard to recognize, but for me, it's easy. My best friend is speaking to me. Jefferey.
"Look, Jeff, I'm sorry for that. But it wasn't my - " I say but get cut off by another new voice.
"Look, Josh, just come home. It's been 3 months since we've heard from you. We go by your house everyday and your maid answers, saying your not home. Same excuse for the same 3 fucking months! Where are you?!" Jay says and I sigh.
"I'm... Out of the state. And what the fuck is this? An intervention?! Is the entire squad there or something?" I say, changing the subject.
"No, we all just happened to be at Riley's, and then she screamed and told us and we called you. Look man, just, whenever you get back, call us. And I hope you didn't do this because of Ava. We all know it's the 3 month anniversery of her and Jack's death." Jeff says and I scream into the phone "DON'T EVER SAY HER NAME!"
I hung up and almost threw my phone at the fucking wall.
There was a knock on the door and then James came in. I wiped my eyes and he shook his head. "My God, Josh. What were you thinking?" He says and comes to my side. "How'd you even get here?" I tell him and I pat my bed so he could sit.
"Well, while we were talking, I broke my piggy bank, took the cash and called a cab after we hung up. And then, I payed with my money and ran up the floor. The nurse said she couldn't let me in but I begged her. So she finally gave in. And well, here I am." James says and I shake my head.
"You took a cab here? What the hell were you thinking?!" I demand and he says in the exact tone "I was thinking, that I don't know when the last time I see my brother will be. And I need to go. Now." He says and I wipe away a tear.
"Hey, I brought-" Avery says and then see's my little brother sitting on my bed.
"Hmm, I think we're gonna need more food." Avery says and I laugh.
After 5 hours, Avery convinces her mom to take James home and they both leave. "Emma's fine. She left the hospital already and the doctors say that it'll be 6 weeks before she can be on a walking cast. They also said that you can leave tomorrow. She doesn't hate you. And she isn't mad either." Avery says and I sigh in relief.
"Also, your mom's here." Avery says quietly. I snapped up and it sent a shocking pain to my rib. "What's she doing here?" I say as calmly as I can.
"She's your mom, Josh. The hospital called her." Avery says, quietly and sadly.
"You're right. Anyways, you should get home. I'll call you tomorrow when I'm on my way home." I tell her and she begins to protest, but I cut her off.
"I'll be home tomorrow. I'll call you, okay?" I say, a little more with force this time.
"Fine." She says and kisses me on the forehead. She leaves the room and a smile forms on my lips.
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Hi! It's the 29th! As promised, I updated! I was looking at wattpad online and well, I have the best possible news ever.
This story is #162 on Teen Fiction!!!!
Omfg! I know! Im dieing of happiness and pride. I wanted to thank yall for every time you click on my story and every comment and vote. I feel like crying right now. I love yall.
Update: January 3rd, 2015! Or December 31st, 2014. I don't know. I'll try for the 31st, but if I can't, I'll do it the 3rd. Love yall!