So Long For Now, Summer
Chapter 17
Sorrow Flew Away Like Dust
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âDonât you know what resting means? Lying still in bed.â (J)
âI always did this whenever I am homeâ (S)
âHow long⦠Half a day?â (J)
âYes. Anyway, now that Iâve had enough rest, you donât have to pretend to worry now. Iâm really fine.â (S)
He is a man who comes back to work like nothing happens even if his wife has a miscarriage. A man whoâd even come back late at night only after he has done all the things he should do.
How much thought did he care to spend on their divorce?
I donât care about his sincerity at all.
Woo Jin-ha didnât say anything, even after she passed by him.
It felt cold. Seems like she might have a sudden fever.
She was afraid that she wonât be able to carry her luggage tomorrow. Perhaps she should go to the hospital early in the morning for an IV drip.
âI called professor Han.â (J)
She was going to say she didnât need it reflexively, but she nodded when she thought about tomorrowâs work. She slowly sat on bed feeling dizzy.
She was silent once again. She couldnât get any closer to the foot of the bed, and she couldnât lie down because he was too close.
The air had an uncomfortable balance. Thus soon, she ran out of patience.
ââ¦â¦It wonât take long.â (S)
âPardon me..â (J)
âDivorce consultation is really simple. Itâs more if you donât have children.â (S)
ââ¦â¦.â (J)
âI donât have much time to prepare for things like documents⦠Iâll talk to Mr. Kim tomorrow. Jin-ha, youâre busy. I wonât bother you.â (S)
ââ¦â¦.â (J)
âI can do it right away from tomorrowâ¦â (S)
âShim Hee-joo. â (J)
âYes.â (S)
âI didnât answer you.â (J)
ââ¦â¦.â (S)
âI havenât said anything, not yet.â (J)
âWasnât that a silent affirmation?â (S)
So even that was something he couldnât bother to remember. Feeling in vain as soon as she spoke, she turned her head away.
âBe careful. Youâre smarter than this.â (J)
âIâm being careful now.â (S)
âDonât do anything youâll regret in an instant.â (J)
âI wonât regret it.â (S)
ââ¦â¦.â (J)
âSince I met Jin-ha, Iâve regretted all kinds of things by myself, but for certain I wonât regret this at all.â (S)
âThereâs nothing you would get right now.â (J)
She looked at him in disbelief when she heard a slight sneer at his words, signs of little sarcasm.
He looked more incredibly angry. All because of the word âregretâ?
She looked straight into his fierce shining eyes and answered sharply.
âI know. I read it with my own eyes and signed it with my own hands.â (S)
We have a prenuptial contract. About what her situation would be on that piece of paper â of course, it totally depends on whether she will be having a baby or not.
From the beginning, she was the woman who married because of a child, chaining Woo Jin-haâs ankle.
âAs for the death of the child before birth, all also have been explained by lawyer Kim in detail before marriage.â (S)
ââ¦â¦.â (J)
âFrom miscarriage to stillbirth. In that case, as a result, I canât get anything because Iâve contributed nothing to this marriage.â (S)
ââ¦â¦.â (J)
âThatâs right. I agreed.â (S)
ââ¦..Mr. Kim told you such a thing?â (J)
âHe gave me a detailed example on how prenuptial agreements could have a wide range of implications.â (S)
âDid you sit back and listen to it and agree?â (J)
Woo Jin-ha smiles with a sharp face. She then asked while looking at him because she couldnât understand.
âHow did you think I was able to get married to you?â (S)
âAre you crazy?â (J)
âWhatâs different about what Jin-ha is trying to say to me now?â (S)
He looked at me as if he had been hit hard at the moment. She laughed secretly.
âSince there is nothing to take, and I know what the result would be, thus isnât it better to throw it away? Jin-ha, do you even need me? Bullshit.â (S)
ââ¦â¦.â (J)
âGo out and meet any woman. Thatâs all you used to do after we got married, and because you could actually do it even while we were getting married that was why I signed so that you can meet another woman as much as you want.â (S)
âDonât talk like that.â (J)
âOr are you offended because I didnât tell you before? I thought you would thank me for alleviating any hardship.â (S)
âShim Hee-joo. â (J)
âDid I sit still and agree? Yes, I did. Of course, I didnât feel like I was going to fly away with joy. When a baby is born, no pregnant woman agrees to have a paternity test two months before birth and still feels happy.â (S)
ââ¦â¦.â (J)
âWhy⦠Is it the first time Jin-ha has heard about it?â (S)
â I had just heard about this for the first time. â (J)
âDidnât you even bother to look at the premarital contract?â (S)
âBecause itâs a common practice.â (J)
To her, Woo Jin-ha, who seemed the most mature in the world, looked like a child instead, for a while.
I didnât know this would happen, I didnât know how this could happen⦠with those anxious eyes, staring at her as if he were saying that.
If she were to see such eyes of Woo Jin-ha a few days ago, perhaps she wouldnât be able to stand by not hugging him.
How is it possible that Woo Jin-ha didnât even have the slightest idea about the terms of our divorce? That would simply be disgusting bullshit.
â⦠Then you simply never care enough even to insult me.â (S)
(P/R: like saying that Jin-ha is in fact never bothered to even know/care for her (existence) at all, not even wanting to bother sparing an effort/thought to insult her. Completely treating her like she doesnât exist in her life at all. THIS CRAZY SON OF A BITCH)
She felt stupid and sad when she thought it was all Woo Jin-haâs decisions.
Should she be happy now that he said he didnât want it?
But now that I tell you the truth, I wonât laugh while crying at the same time.
Woo Jin-ha was simply never interested in her at all. Thatâs why she didnât even worry about eating away his great assets by using the child as an excuse. She didnât have to.
Sorrow flew away like dust.
âI received the report. There was no such thing in the report.â (J)
âHe (Lawyer Kim) wouldnât have to report it to Jin-ha. Of course.â (S)
âYou agreed with the bullshit. If I knew the content in advanceâ.â (J)
ââEven if you know⦠What will change.â (S)
ââ¦.At least I wonât let you hear that kind of shit.â (J)
ââ¦â¦.â (S)