Tonight is a fuck-ton more difficult than I expected it would be.
After spending time away from the office so I didnât have to interact with Samantha, I knew tonight might be uncomfortable.
But itâs not uncomfortable. Itâs brutal.
All I want to do is hold her. The fucking urge is driving me insane.
I link my fingers again and rest my hands on my lap while I tell her about my parents.
When Dad had the stroke, I had no choice but to take over as the leader of the Vitale family.
Christ, I didnât know whether I was coming or going. People looked to me to run the business even though I had no fucking idea what I was doing.
âWere you close with your dad?â Samantha asks.
âNot really. I was seventeen and at a stage in my life where I didnât agree with anything my father said or did. Looking back now, I wish I had listened to him.â
âDonât we all,â she chuckles. âI argued with my mom about everything when I was a teenager.â
Wanting to keep the conversation flowing, I ask, âWhat kind of tattoo do you want to get?â
I feel her arm brush against mine as she shifts a little. âI was thinking of bricks or blocks with some shading and a flower growing out of it.â
When I glance at her, itâs to find her looking at me.
She scrunches her nose and turns her gaze to her lap. âIt means something good can grow in harsh conditions.â
âI think it will suit you.â
âYeah?â Her gaze flits to mine again. âI also want to add the words âstronger than everâ so it looks like graffiti on the bricks.â
âThe words definitely describe you.â Knowing she might have a problem with the tattoo artist, I say, âThe guy who did my tattoos is a friend. If you want, I can be there so youâre not alone with him.â
Her teeth tug at her bottom lip before she asks, âThere isnât a woman who can do the tattoo?â
I shake my head. âI can ask around and see if I can find a different place for you?â
Letting out a sigh, she glances down again. âWill you be okay sitting with me?â
âOf course.â
She nods, and while she nervously tugs at the seam of her shirt, she whispers, âThank you. I really appreciate it.â
Samantha turns her head, and I watch as she stares at my hands. Slowly, I unlink my fingers and lay my hand palm up on my thigh.
âTake my hand,â I silently encourage her.
She keeps staring, and as the seconds pass, a weird tension fills my chest. Christ, Iâve never felt such a desperation to touch a woman.
She shifts her hand to her thigh, and another few seconds tick by before she reaches for me and places her palm on mine.
The simple touch sends one hell of an electric bolt up my arm.
The air around us feels charged as I slowly weave my fingers with hers.
For a moment, I forget who I am.
I forget Samanthaâs my assistant.
While we both stare at our joined hands, Iâm amazed by the emotions Samanthaâs touch stirs in my chest. Pride, protectiveness, empathy â but mostly the attraction I felt for her when she first started as my PA comes back in full force.
Sheâs not the brainless woman I took her for during the first two weeks we worked together.
No. This woman is anything but stupid.
Sheâs hardworking, intelligent, and so fucking brave it demands my admiration.
Clearing my throat, I ask, âHow are you doing?â
Her thumb brushes over mine, then a stunningly happy smile lights up her face. âSurprisingly good.â Her eyes fill with a mischievous expression. âIt seems my mystery man has the magic touch.â
Mystery man.
Right. She doesnât know who I am.
Taking a deep breath, I tighten my hold on her hand. Before silence can fall between us, I ask, âHow long have you lived in New York?â
I know the answer, but her mystery man doesnât.
âA year. I used to live in Texas.â
âIs that where your family is?â
She shakes her head. âNo, theyâre in Seattle. I try to visit them as often as I can. Iâll see them for the Fourth of July.â
So thatâs where sheâs going for the couple of daysâ vacation she requested.
âHave you always lived in New York?â she asks.
âYes.â
âAnd your mom?â
I shake my head. âShe passed away last year.â
âIâm sorry,â Samantha whispers.
âItâs okay. She was eighty-one when she passed, and she had a full life.â
Her eyebrows fly up, then she asks, âHow old are you?â
âThirty-five. I was a rainbow baby. Just as they gave up on having a child, I came along.â
âAwwâ¦they mustâve loved you so much.â Hearing the warmth in her tone makes a smile tug at the corner of my mouth.
âThey did.â I let out a chuckle. âI was lucky.â
âDo you have any other family in New York?â
Nodding, the Cosa Nostra flits through my mind. âYeah, I have a large family.â
Iâm surprised when Samantha leans her head against my shoulder. She lets out a contented sigh, then whispers, âThis feels good.â
I turn my face to her and wish I could rip the balaclava off so I can smell her vanilla scent.
âYou know what would be funny,â she murmurs.
âWhat?â
âIf we became friends.â
âWhy would that be funny?â
She tilts her head back to meet my eyes. âMen and women canât be friends.â
âWhy?â
She shrugs before settling her temple against my shoulder again. âSomeone always ruins the friendship by falling in love, then the other party feels obligated to try, and everything just ends up going to hell.â
âIt sounds like youâre talking from personal experience.â
âYeah,â she whispers. âI am.â
Samantha is quiet for a moment before she continues to talk. âI used to work at a hospital in Houston. I met a neurosurgeon thereâ¦â
She pauses for a moment, and her hand begins to tremble in mine. Realizing this is hard for her to talk about, I brush my thumb over her soft skin.
âWe quickly became friends. He fell in love with me, and because I thought the world of him, I gave a relationship between us a chance.â
Iâm so caught up in what Samanthaâs saying, I canât stop myself from asking, âWhat happened?â
âI realized it wasnât going to work, and when I tried to put some distance between usâ¦â
The air tenses around us, and she pulls her hand free from mine so she can wrap her arms around her waist.
âHe became more and more controlling. Things got bad, and I left Houston to make a fresh start here.â
Things got bad.
Anger fills my chest, and my jaw clenches as the muscles in my body tighten.
So the fucker who hurt her is a neurosurgeon in Houston. Iâm sure I can find the hospitalâs name in Samanthaâs file at work. She mustâve had a work reference from her previous place of employment.
Knowing I need to say something, I focus on keeping my tone gentle as I say, âIâm sorry that happened.â
She just shrugs and continues to stare at her lap.
Suddenly my phone starts vibrating in my pocket, and I pull the device out. Seeing Renzoâs name flashing on the screen, I say, âI have to take this call. Give me a moment.â
âSure.â
Getting up, I walk to the door and step out of the room before answering, âWhatâs up?â
âThereâs a problem. One of the trucks was ambushed.â
âFuck,â I hiss. I quickly pull the door shut behind me so Samantha wonât hear me, then ask, âWhich truck?â
âThe one Steve was driving. Whoever stole my shipment sent us a message.â
âWhat kind of message?â
âThey fucking nailed Steve to the side of the trailer.â
Christ.
âTell me youâre not by the truck.â
âIâm not. I sent Carlo to take care of things.â
âTell him to be careful.â
âAre you coming over so we can decide how to handle this?â
I glance at the shut door. âYes. Just give me a few minutes to wrap things up at the club.â
Ending the call, I head back into the room.
Samantha gets up and walks to the bed, where she grabs her handbag. âI didnât realize it was so late. Iâm going to be dead at work tomorrow.â
I check the time on my phone and see itâs almost midnight. âI shouldâve kept track of time. Sorry.â
She takes a step closer to me, and gives me a grateful smile. âThank you for tonight.â
When she heads to the door, I ask, âHow are you getting home?â
âThe subway.â
I shake my head. âIâll arrange for one of the women to take you home.â Before I can stop myself, I add, âOr I can take you. Iâm also leaving, so it wonât be out of my way.â
She stares at me for a moment, then nods. âOkay. That would be great.â
âA woman or me?â I ask to make sure.
The corner of her mouth lifts. âYou.â
Thereâs an intense sensation in my chest, and it feels like I beat one of her demons.
Shit, Iâm pretty sure Samantha knows I drive a G-Wagon. Iâll have to take Brianâs car and tell Milo and Lorenzo to follow us at a safe distance.
âIâm just grabbing my car keys, then we can leave,â I say as we step out into the hallway.
âShould I wait here?â she asks.
âYes. I wonât be long.â
Hurrying toward the security room, my thoughts are torn between Samantha and the ambush on one of my trucks.
When Iâm out of earshot of Samantha, I quickly call Milo.
âYes, boss?â
âIâm using Brianâs car to take Miss Blakely home. Follow behind us and make sure she doesnât see you.â
âGot it.â
âBe careful, Milo. One of the trucks was ambushed tonight.â
âFuck,â my guard mutters. âIâll notify the rest of the men.â
âAfter dropping off Samantha, weâre heading to Renzoâs place,â I inform him before ending the call.