Sophia
The next afternoon, my sister entered Green Aesthetic hauling a tote full of books over her shoulder. She was wearing jeans and an oversized UCSF sweatshirt, and her wavy brown hair was unbound.
Eliseâs hair defied nature and always looked like sheâd just returned from a blowout. No one should have a good hair day every day. It was probably her most annoying quality, aside from the corn chip addiction that kept her slim and trim. Iâd grow a second inner tube on a diet like that.
She looked toward the rear of the shop where I was working, and I waved her over.
Hugging her giant bag to her chest like a baby, she edged her way back, maneuvering around the plants and fancy containers on display.
She sank into the chair across from my desk and huffed out a heavy sigh, her tote slipping dramatically to the floor with a loud thump.
âYour day going that good?â I said, heavy on the irony.
She sat forward and rubbed her shoulder. âI spent the last two hours creating the mathematical formulas for regression analysis. My brain hurts. But forget about that. Whatâs this about you moving?â Eliseâs critical look said she was totally on to me. âIt took you months to find that place. Why would you give it up?â
Iâd texted Elise last night that I was moving, but Iâd done it right before bed so I wouldnât have to justify my reasoning, at least not right away. But now my time was up.
She leaned closer, probably reading the uncertainty in my expression. âCan I take your apartment now that you donât want it? Say the word and Iâll move in tonight.â
She was testing me. We both knew Iâd confess the true reason I was moving, because I caved under heavy scrutiny.
I looked at the drawing in front of me and shaded in a tree, ignoring her for as long as possible. My designs were created with software, but I hand-drew mocks. âYou canât afford it,â I said, my lips pursed as I considered plant spacing and generally tried to not think about leaving Jackâs apartment and returning to my momâs place.
Now that Iâd had a night to sleep on it, I realized that no part of me wanted to move back home. Then I remembered how frequently I would be forced to see Landlord Devil and his first family friends if I stayed at Jackâs.
Nope. Couldnât do it. I couldnât handle that kind of condemnation on a regular basis.
I smiled at Elise, trying to distract her. âHowâs the rest of school going?â
She rolled her eyes. âBrutal. And Iâm referring to your comment about my finances, because that was harsh. True, but harsh. And school is painful right now. Not sure Iâll be able to do this nursing gig. Iâll never get through the math. Why does a nurse need statistics, anyway?â
I looked up and rattled off: âMortality rates, infection rates, disease rates by population densityââ
âHow do you even know these things? Youâre an artist.â
âThere was a lot of math in business school.â I twisted my mouth to the side. âThough I always seem to struggle with converting miles into kilometers, which is annoying as hell, since I have to do it every week.â
Elise snorted. âWeâre not European. Why would you need to use kilometers?â
âMost countries use kilometers, Elise, and I work with international clients.â
âWhen do you deal with foreigners?â
I shook my head in exasperation. âOnly on a weekly basis. Do you ever pay attention when I tell you about my job?â
My criticism rolled right off her. âI zone out from time to time. You can blame it on the five hours of sleep I get during exams, which seems to be every other week.â
I pulled out my bag and started packing up my work materials. I was going to be late if I didnât get a move on. âWell, the large events I plan are with people from all over the world, and it trips me up when they talk about kilometers and getting around the city.â I held up my drawing before tucking it in a folder. âWhat do you think?â
Elise leaned in because she was farsighted and wasnât wearing her glasses. âWhat kind of shop is that?â
âA high-end beauty salon. Theyâre going for a nature theme.â My sister usually praised everything I worked on, but she was taking forever to give me her opinion on this one. Which had me wondering if it was crap.
I was about to reassess when she finally nodded. âIf thatâs a design for a salon, itâs going to be the nicest one in town.â
âAre you sure?â I scanned my work one last time. I couldnât add additional plants, but I could reposition them and put in more height in certain areas.
âIâm certain. They giving you gift certificates for all your hard work? Because I could use a facial.â
I rolled my eyes. âItâll be nice when youâre no longer a starving student. No, my clients arenât giving me gift certificates. Theyâre doing this thing called payment for services rendered. Also known as capitalism.â
Her rose-hued lips pulled into a straight line as though she disapproved. âWhat about tips for good work?â
âNo tips. Quality is expected, or people hire someone else.â
She threw up her hands. âAnd this is why Iâm not studying business.â She pulled off the hair band that was perpetually on her wrist and swept her hair into a low ponytail.
Eliseâs hair was a couple shades darker than mine, though my skin tone more closely resembled our fatherâs Mediterranean heritage. So, essentially, my hair coloring was light brown next to tan skinânot much contrast there. Iâd take Eliseâs blowout goddess hair in a heartbeat, but my pale-green eyes werenât so bad.
I glanced at my phone and tucked away the design. âIâve got to go.â There was just enough time for me to swing by my clientâs shop before it closed for the day. âI want to get this approved before I start on the digital renderings.â I paused and watched Elise hoist her heavy tote onto her shoulder. âRegarding the apartment, my landlordâowner, whateverâis a dealbreaker. It wonât work.â Best to leave Elise with the short explanation and make a fast getaway.
Her expression was pure disbelief. âAre you kidding me? That is the reason youâre moving? Because you think the hot landlord sucks?â
I stepped into a pair of heels Iâd tucked under my desk and rooted around for some cash in my purse. âDonât give me a hard time. Landlords can make a place a living hell.â
Her eyes narrowed. âIs he making it a living hell? Or are his hellish good looks distracting you?â
I squinted in disbelief. âWhat is wrong with you? Not everyone obsesses over looks.â I had exactly one minute to catch a ride to my clientâs store if I wanted to make it there by closing. So I opted for blunt, knowing Iâd pay for it later. âLandlord Devil doesnât trust me, and heâs made that very clear. Not to mention heâs rude and arrogant, and he gets on my nerves.â
Elise tipped her head back and groaned, and her tote slid down her arm like an anchor. âYou are so exhausting sometimes, you know that? Who cares what he thinks? I can understand why it wouldnât make sense for me to come over as often as weâd planned, but to move out? Have you lost your mind, Sophia?â
Possibly. All I knew was that the animosity I felt around Max was too much to bear. âHe lives above me. I can feel his negative energy seeping through the drywall and down into my bedroom.â I shivered. âAnd he has uptight friends and familyâexcept for my roommate, who is awesome. But the rest of them stress me out too.â I tried to shove cash into her hands, but she swatted me away. I let out a sigh and looked her in the eye. âThe pressure to please uptight people will kill me. Now, take this cash so you can get yourself a proper book bag.â
A touch of anger flared in her eyes. âI donât need a new book bag. And have you ever considered not trying to please everyone?â
I shook my head dramatically. âDoes not compute.â I was a sad case, but my sister knew this, and she still loved me. âIâm going to start looking for an apartment tonight.â
Elise slammed her hand on my desk, and I jumped.
I glanced around and said, âWhat the hell, Elise! Weâre at my work.â
âForget the landlord. Why do you do this, Sophia? Do you remember when Mom started collecting newspapers? You threw up for a month due to stress.â
âThat was a special situation,â I said. âMom had blocked the windows. I had vitamin D deficiency.â I tried to shove the cash into my sisterâs bag, but she darted athletically to the side.
âYou know thatâs not why you were ill,â she pointed out. âYou took it upon yourself to prevent wayward newspapers from reaching Momâs hands so she couldnât add to the piles. Good thing people stopped getting delivery around that time.â Her expression softened, and she touched my arm. âThe point is, Iâve had to deal with Momâs neuroses too, and you donât see me overcompensating.â
âBecause you have me to take care of everything.â I regretted the words as soon as they left my mouth.
I never wanted my sister to feel bad that Iâd taken on an adult role at a young age when it came to finances and other responsibilities around the house. It wasnât Eliseâs fault. And if our mother could have been different, she would have.
Elise blinked, then looked away. âI depended on you when I couldnât depend on Mom because I was young.â She looked me squarely in the eye. âBut Iâm a grown woman now.â
She was right. I knew this, and yet it was hard to let go without worrying everything would fall apart. âYouâre a young grown woman.â
âTwenty-three, to be exact. Four years younger than you, Sophia, and youâve been caring for me the last twelve years, so what does that say about you? You are young, and you should be taking it easy and not carrying all the responsibility. I donât have much money, but thereâs something called student loans. Not sure if youâve heard of them?â
I straightened my skirt and sighed, agitated at the direction this conversation was going. âSo you can live with debt for the rest of your life? No.â
âYou graduated with debt. And pay Momâs mortgage plus what you owe for school. You canât afford my expenses on top of your own, which is why youâre sharing an apartment with a guy you just met, and why Iâve taken out student loans.â
There went the knot tightening in my stomach. âI never wanted you to take out those loans to begin with. At the very least, donât take out any more. Iâm moving home, and you wonât need loans because I can use the rent money Iâll be saving for your tuition.â
Elise shook her head slowly and stared. âYouâre super annoying. You missed the entire point.â
I did see her point; I really did. But it went against everything inside me to not protect my sister.
I glanced at my phone. âLetâs talk later. I really do have to go.â
Elise roped the thirty-pound tote onto her shoulder. âI donât need your money, so donât move back home for me.â She leaned over and kissed me on the cheek. âOkay?â
I glared at the bag. âWhat about a backpack?â
âOh my God!â she said as she hurried out of the shop. âYouâre doing it again. Stop mothering me!â
I raced out behind Elise and punched in a request for a ride from the app. But it wasnât until later that I thought more about our conversation.
Elise was a grown woman, but I was used to taking care of her and didnât know how to stop.
Maybe I should learn.
Either way, moving home served two purposes: I could pay Eliseâs tuition, so sheâd stop threatening to take on a second job or more loans, and it would relieve me of the stress of being around Landlord Devil.
I hated the idea of moving home. But living beneath the devilâs roof was worse. My momâs house was a lot to handle, but at least she meant well, and she loved me.
A person could put up with a lot when there was love involved.
Finding Jackâs place had been a stroke of luck, but like most things that came easily, it had been too good to be true.