âWhat does it mean when a girl cockblocks you?â
Cole doesnât lift his head from the book; itâs one heâs been reading a lot lately, titled The Anatomy of Evil. He has phases where he spends a long time reading a certain book until he memorises the whole thing.
âYou mean something similar to how youâre now blocking me from reading?â
âItâs not the same, you canât fuck books.â He raises an eyebrow, and I hold out a hand. âDonât even voice that thought, Captain. Now, back to my question: why?â
âWhy are you asking me? Why not ask the others?â
âBecause Aiden is shagging Elsa â not that he shares wisdom â and Xander is at rehab, so youâre all Iâve got.â I pause, grinning. âBesides, youâre the smartest.â
âNice save.â
âWhat am I if not a good sport? Isnât that right, Captain?â
He flips a page, momentarily ignoring me. I tagged along with him and weâre now at his house, or rather his stepfatherâs house, Sebastian Queens. The future prime minister of the United Kingdom and one of Dadâs allies. He likes to keep everyone who matters near â like Tealâs foster father, Ethan Steel.
Coleâs room is impersonal with a bed and a desk and nearly nothing memorable. He does an impressive job of keeping it boring and filled with books.
Unlike me, Xander, or even Aiden, Cole doesnât like having people over.
Told you, heâs kind on the outside, but a dick on the inside.
âIf I answer your question,â he says, âare you going to leave?â
âDepends on whether or not youâll bluff me.â I need to get that out there because the fucker has a tendency of telling you what you want to hear just so youâll disappear, kind of like how I throw out smiles to maintain peace.
Still sitting on his bed, he leans on a fist but doesnât release the book. âGive me details.â
Fuck yes.
I drag his desk chair over, flip it around, and sit down so my arms are on the top. âSo hereâs the thing: my friend was about to get a blowjob, and this girl interrupts me â I mean him, not me. As you know, I have no problem getting sex. Heâs a loser.â
âWhat other friends do you have aside from us?â
âJust someone. Also, I have Lars.â
âLars is thirty years older than you. Are you sure you want to consider him a friend?â
âI do, and youâre so fucked, Captain. Iâm telling Lars, and heâs a snob who holds grudges and writes about them in his little black book, so no tea for you, and he wonât lend you novels from Fatherâs library.â
âThen maybe I shouldnât be helping with yourâ¦I mean, your friendâs problem.â
âIâm kidding, Captain. Just kidding.â I give him my best smile. âSo where were we? Right, my friend and the girl who cockblocked him.â
His expression doesnât change. âDid your loser friend let her cockblock him?â
âWhy are we calling him a loser?â
âYou did â Iâm just playing along.â His lips twitch in a smirk. âHeâs your friend, after all, right?â
Dick.
âYeah, he let her.â
âDid he at least use her mouth instead?â
âNo.â And not because I didnât want to; it was because she ran. Why the fuck did I let her run?
âWe should call your friend a pussy instead of a loser.â
I feign a grin. âIs that all the advice you have?â
âShe was probably jealous.â
âRight? I knew it.â
âOr sheâs playing a game.â
Damn. âHow do you know which is which?â
âThatâs the question all philosophers ask.â
âAnd the answer?â
âThereâs no answer, Ronan. You have to live with the fact that you wonât understand how womenâs brains work.â
âSo how should he react?â
He raises an eyebrow. âBy not being a pussy. If you get a chance, seize it. I mean, your loser friend should seize it.â
I grab a pen from the table behind me and throw it at him to wash away his smirk, but he catches it above his head. His smirk turns into a full-blown grin.
âMy information helped after all.â He twirls the pen between his index and middle finger. âDonât you think you owe me?â
Itâs my turn to smirk. âDonât you think you owe me more? Imagine if I didnât tell you about how she acted in front of your secret admirer.â
âNext time, when you tell me something, donât do it when Aiden is around.â
âWhy? You think heâll change his mind?â
âLike fuck he would.â
Thereâs a knock on the door before it opens and Silver peeks inside. Sheâs different out of our school uniform. At home, sheâs in a pink mini-dress that moulds to her curves and puts emphasis on her tits that Xan and I have been tricking her into showing us since we pre-pubescent.
Girls like Silver used to be my type: blonde, put together, hot as sin, and from my social standing.
Now, it seems no one is my type.
Correction â Ron Astor the Second thinks only one is his type, and thereâs nothing I can do to change his mind.
âDinner is ready.â She barely makes eye contact with Cole before focusing back on me. âHey, Ronan. Join us.â
Coleâs face remains the usual â bored, like heâll commit suicide because of how dull the world is â but he stops twirling the pen.
âRonan was just leaving,â he says.
âBlasphemy. I wouldnât miss your mumâs cooking for the world.â Sheâs a bestselling author and yet still finds time to cook the best meals. Silverâs mum is hotter, but Coleâs mum is homier, softer and Mumâs friend. If I were Silverâs father, I wouldâve had both. Just saying.
I jump up and wrap an arm around Silverâs shoulder. âIs it only me, or do you look so hot even in house clothes?â
She grins and flips her golden hair. âWhat can I say? Itâs my default.â
I steal a glance at Cole and he mouths, âLeave.â
I pretend I didnât see him as I walk with his stepsister down the hall.
He catches up to us and whispers so only I can hear. âLeave before I break that arm.â
âSilver, did you hear someone talking?â
âI donât think so.â She smirks, and I smirk back.
Iâm starting to feel how Aiden did all those years. This sense of power over Cole is euphoric.
My phone vibrates. Itâs a text from home.
Lars: We have a situation.
After kissing Coleâs mother on the cheek and pissing her son off one last time, I leave their mansion.
I arrive at home in record time. I called Lars on the way here, but he didnât pick up, which means heâs busy doing what-the-fuck-ever and doesnât have time for a phone conversation.
This better not be what I think it is.
The moment I step into the house, I feel it â the change in the air, the shift in the atmosphere. Even the usual jasmine scent Mum loves so much seems to dim, swallowed by a different type of smell.
Something potent and yet unnoticeable.
Lars appears at the entrance and nods in the direction of Dadâs office. I donât have to be told twice, and I take two steps at a time, only stopping myself from running because staff members shouldnât see an earlâs son running.
Pretty sure they also shouldnât help him throw parties or hide his weed stash, but semantics.
Iâm near the office when it opens, and two men emerge. One is my father, and the other is his younger brother, Uncle Eduard.
Unlike my father, Eduard is an energetic man in his late thirties. He works in the imports and exports branch of my fatherâs business. Heâs basically Fatherâs right-hand man, aside from being his most beloved brother.
He dresses in eccentric colourful suits â his way to attract attention. Today, itâs dark purple with some mosaic-coloured cloth at the breast. While Father is tall and broad, Eduard is lean and has scrawny shoulders. His looks are average at best: round nose and slightly bulging green eyes, as if theyâre not able to fit in their sockets. The genetic difference between him and my father is noticeable. One looks every bit the aristocrat he is, while the other appears like a charity case â which he was at some point, being a stepson of the Astor family.
The moment he sees me, Eduard abandons Fatherâs side and clasps me in a hug. I freeze for a moment, meeting Dadâs eyes, and then I wrap my arms around my uncle, patting him in that âpeople with titles donât hugâ awkward way. Even my father shakes his head at that.
He never managed to get Eduard to quit this habit. He never will.
âLook at you, nephew.â Eduard pulls back to look me up and down. âYouâve grown.â
I grin. âYouâre still the same.â
He laughs, the sound like a song gone wrong before ending on a smashing note. âThat I am, nephew.â
âItâs a surprise to see you here.â I stare between him and Dad, hoping one of them will explain his sudden return from the other side of the world. I thought he was responsible for the Australian branch and wouldnât return anymore.
âEdric called me back.â Eduard squeezes my shoulder. âIsnât it wonderful?â
âIndeed.â I keep my attention on my father.
âIâm busy, so your uncle will take care of the London branch from now on.â
âBusy with what?â I ask before I can stop myself. âYour touristic trips or dragging Mother all around the globe?â
âI will not be questioned by you.â He levels me with a glare.
When I was younger, Earl Astorâs glare meant I needed to shut the fuck up and do as heâd told me.
I always did.
Until one of his glares changed my life for fucking good.
âEduard, letâs have some tea.â Father smiles at his brother, motioning downstairs. âLars has your favourite ready.â
âLars. How lovely. I forgot you always have him around.â Eduard squeezes my shoulder one last time. âWe have so much catching up to do, nephew. Iâm looking forward to it.â
âNot sure youâll have any time for me, Uncle. My father doesnât mess around with business.â I stare at said parent. âIâm going to Mother since youâre busy as usual.â
He opens his mouth to say something, but Iâm already striding down the hall to my parentsâ bedroom.
Eduardâs voice echoes behind me as he soothes my father, telling him Iâm at that age and he should be patient with me.
Fuck them both.
Fuck their names and titles and business.
I stop in front of my parentsâ bedroom and take a deep breath. Mum canât see me at my worst, or sheâll sense it.
She always does. Since I was a boy, sheâll stop and stare at me and say, âDit moi tous, mon chou.â
I donât know when I stopped doing that, telling her everything thatâs on my mind, I mean, or being son chou. No, thatâs a lie â I know the exact moment; I just never wanted to associate it with my mum.
Sheâs light. That moment is darkness.
I suck in a deep breath and knock on the door. Thereâs no response. I knock again, and when thereâs nothing, my heart races.
She canât possibly have fainted like the other timeâ¦right?
âMother?â
No response.
âIâm coming in.â
I push on the door and go inside, but thereâs no sign of her in her room. I check the bathroom, but sheâs not there either.
Fuck. Where did she go?
Mum rarely leaves her room, if ever, and whenever she does, itâs for the adjoining office she uses to answer emails and such.
She doesnât have friends to speak of either. Dad and I are her entire world, as she once said.
Iâm about to check the office when I pass by the closed door of the balcony. Sure enough, Mum is standing in the sun, her blonde curls falling to her shoulders as she laughs. I havenât seen her laugh like that inâ¦years.
And the reason behind the laugh is none other than the tiny girl whoâs crazier and prettier than I ever thought.
Teal fixes a ribbon on Mumâs dress and says something that makes her laugh again. The rare English sun shines down on both of them, making Mumâs hair and eyes shine and giving a glint to Tealâs black gaze.
Sheâs smiling. Itâs demure and discreet, but itâs there. A smile â a fucking genuine one at that.
Could be because of the meeting with Dad and Eduard, or it could be everything that happened over the days since that tiny thing barged into my life.
I know one thing for certain: she wonât be able to leave this time.
Cole was right â itâs time to seize the chance.