âAre you going to reply or should I show up and fuck up your peace?â Coleâs bored voice recites the text I was supposed to send to Teal two weeks ago but ended up sending in my fucker friendsâ group chat.
âI never thought I would say thisâ â Aiden clutches my shoulder â âbut Iâm proud of you.â
âAnswerâ¦please?â Cole reads on. Heâs sitting on the sofa, leaning on a hand and clutching his phone.
Aiden releases me with distaste. âI wonât get behind that, so no, not proud of you.â
âFuck you.â I motion at Cole. âAnd you.â Then I point behind me at Xan, whoâs going through his texts. âAnd you too.â
âWhat?â the latter protests. âI havenât said anything.â
âYou were about to, so thatâs a fuck you in advance.â
I throw my weight next to Cole. Weâre having a small gathering at the Meet Up after the game. The other players are either drinking or trying to convince girls to shag them.
Loud music thumps from the walls. It wouldâve been better in my house â just saying.
But, oh well. Not only would the mighty Earl Edric rip me a new one, Mum would be disappointed, and I would never do that.
Parties at the Meet Up can be fun, except you donât find places to shag and stuff. Not that Iâm interested in that â or maybe I am; depends on whether or not Teal shows up.
Iâve been watching the entrance like a fucking creep for the past hour or so. She was at the game with Elsa and Kim earlier. Kim has forgotten all about me now that Xander is back. She used to call my name, but now his repulsive number nineteen is all she cares about.
Teal was more interested in her phone than me â I know because every time I raised my head, she was engrossed in that fucking thing. Next time, that phone and I are having a word.
I canât believe Iâm jealous of a phone.
Wait. Jealous? No. I donât do jealousy. The feeling is beneath me and would never exist in my vocabulary â especially not for Teal.
My phone vibrates and I pull it out faster than a junkie in need of his next pill. The name of the sender on the screen makes me grip the phone harder.
Itâs definitely not the text Iâve been waiting for.
Eduard: Edric says heâll have a family gathering to announce something. Do you have any idea what it is?
I donât, and even if I did, that fucker wouldnât get anything from me.
Dear old Dad has been acting a bit weird lately. I thought the time he spends with Mum is because he has a control freak diploma from the eighteenth century, but Lars has been saying annoying shit lately.
âPay attention.â
âYoung lord, you are being blinded by that girl and losing focus.â
âDid I mention that you should pay attention?â
When I told him to be more specific or to fuck off, he chose the latter, huffing like a damsel in distress.
Fucking Lars. Iâm going to corner him one of these days or steal his little black book and have a look.
What does he want me to pay attention to? His lordship being a control freak or Mum calling him her love when heâs actually her tormentor?
And Lars is wrong â Iâm not blinded by Teal. I stare at my phone after making Eduardâs message disappear. Why the fuck isnât she texting me?
âGreen is on her way.â Xan grins like an idiot.
âElsa, too.â Aiden takes a drink of his soda. He never drinks, like ever. He and Cole say it diminishes their logic, and theyâre the type of fuckers who need all their neurons to plot chaos.
âTeal?â Cole asks.
âNo clue. Iâm not the clingy type.â I grin. âI do know Silver is somewhere upstairs though.â
Sheâs not. I havenât seen her tonight, but egging him on is my favourite pastime. People pay money for this type of entertainment.
Coleâs gaze slides from his book to me then back as if I donât exist, but if I managed to draw his attention from his book, it means this shit is working.
âNot the clingy type? I beg to differ.â Xander scrolls through his phone then flashes one of the texts they werenât supposed to see in a million years.
Ronan: Remember when I said you always have to answer my texts? Well, maybe I havenât said those exact words, but theyâre out there now so you might as well do it. Call me. I want to hear your voice.
I release a long sigh. âOkay, what do I have to do for you to erase those texts from your phones?â
âI canât be bought, Astor.â Aiden takes another sip of his drink.
âYou mean after the stunt of burning my book?â Cole appears to be contemplative. âHow aboutâ¦never?â
Vindictive fucker.
âAre you kidding?â Xan laughs. âIâm already making these into framed prints and keeping them for future reference.â
My best option, for now, is to steal their phones and flush them down the toilet. That is if they donât keep shit in the cloud. Whoever invented that â I hate you.
Elsa and Kim come in, both wearing jeans and tank tops. I stop breathing, holding it in for long seconds before I let it go.
I feel her before even seeing her. Sheâs in the middle, wearing a long black T-shirt-like dress that stops under her knees. The writing for today is âIf karma doesnât hit you, I fucking will.â
Sheâs bloody crazy, and her crazy is becoming my kink. I shouldnât care about kink â or think about it â but Teal is turning everything against me.
In a good way.
In the best way imaginable.
Her hair is loose as usual, making her face appear smaller and her frame tinier. Her white trainers stop at her ankles.
Her black eyes arenât smothered with that dark makeup she usually hides behind. Sheâs a bit demure today, appearing more compliant, and for some reason, that makes me apprehensive.
All disasters start with a change. Like that night.
I shake my head, pushing that idea away.
Her gaze roams around the room, and it takes her exactly three seconds to find me. The moment her eyes lock onto mine, itâs like the entire world has hushed into the background. There are no sounds, no colours, and no scents.
Thereâs only her, the girl with odd preferences and a fucking attitude.
But sheâs also the girl who deeply cares but doesnât know how to show it. The girl who keeps checking on Mum and asking me about her favourites because she wants her happy.
The girl who turns into a compliant submissive in bed but is a tigress outside of it.
Iâm about to go to her. I donât know what Iâll do, probably kidnap her to somewhere no one can find us or interrupt us.
Before I can move, some loser from the rugby team intercepts her. Elsa and Kim are already by Aiden and Xanâs sides, kissing like theyâre in a low-budget porn.
But Iâm not focused on them.
My entire focus is on the fucker who just cut off my eye contact with Teal.
Heâs taller than her, so I canât get a clear view of her expression.
A black halo swirls around my head, refusing to evaporate.
I stride in their direction and barge straight between them. He â David, I think his name is â steps back as if startled.
I grin. âMay I help you, David?â
âNo, I was just asking Teal about an assignment.â
âThis doesnât look like class, does it?â
Teal tries to elbow my side, but I keep out of her reach and then grab her hand in mine.
David appears flustered, but he holds his ground. The sorry fuck. Why are we even inviting rugby blokes to our parties?
âI was justââ
âLeaving,â I cut him off.
âNo. Thatâs notââ
âIn case you havenât noticed, Teal is taken.â I smile. âIn fact, sheâs someoneâs fiancée â mine. So stay away from her.â
Instead of shutting up and screwing off, he continues speaking. âI think thatâs up to her to decide.â
I tug Teal to me, place a hand on her cheek, and slam my lips to hers in one ruthless kiss that makes her gasp. I take the chance and claim her tongue, tasting her as Iâve never done before. I can feel the attention everyone at the party is giving us, and I let them watch the show; I let them know who she belongs to.
Jealous? Me? No, not at all.
I donât wait for David or anyone else to get into our bubble. The moment my lips leave hers, I drag her behind me and out of the Meet Up. The music and the voices fade more and more the further we stride away. Weâre in the car park when she yanks her hand from mine.
âI canât keep up,â she pants.
âWe have to do something about your short legs.â I face her.
She folds her arms over her generous tits. âMaybe we should do something about the caveman scenes. Have you been taking pointers from Aiden or something?â
I scoff. âCome on, belle. Iâm the type who gives lessons, not the other way around.â
âYeah, right.â She tucks her hair behind her ear, and even in the dim light coming from the cottage, I can make out the reddening of her cheeks.
âYou like it.â I grin. I step up to her and she stares at me with wide eyes, frozen in the moment. âYou like how I go caveman for you, how I staked a claim on you in public and marked you as mine.â
âI donât know what youâre talking about.â
âAnd yet, youâre not looking me in the eye.â
âI am.â Her gaze slides to mine then shifts after a fraction of a second.
I grab her by the chin and run my finger down her swollen bottom lip. âAdmit it.â
âYouâre a bastard.â
âWeâve already established that.â
She throws her hands out to the sides. âNow what?â
âNow, weâre out of here.â
âButâ¦to where?â
âThe skyâs our limit, belle. Iâll start by fucking you, and then Iâll end the night by fucking you again. The in-between probably includes that, too, but Iâm open to suggestions.â
She smiles a little. âYou still have the stamina after todayâs game? You were running for ninety minutes straight, and the way you went back to defence when one of your back liners didnât do their job? Your manager shouldâve subbed him out, but no, they saw you were playing their position along with yours, so they were like, okay, we can keep him. Going back and forth mustâve exhausted you, and letâs not talk about the assists you made for Xanderâs favours. I get it, heâs coming back after long absence, but why do he and Aiden get all the limelight while your effort is chalked up to assists? Itâs not fair, and the way Cole thinks heâs a better midfielder than youâ¦â She trails off as my grin widens more with every word out of her mouth. âI was rambling, wasnât I?â
âNo, continue. Weâre at the part where Cole thinks heâs better than me, which is obviously blasphemy.â
âShut up.â If possible, her cheeks redden some more. My Teal doesnât usually blush, but when she does, itâs like the world has turned red. Sheâs real even when sheâs embarrassed.
âI thought you werenât watching me,â I say. âYou were all over your phone as if you were having some sort of an affair â not that I said anything to anyone, because my fucker friends would think Iâm clingy. Did I mention theyâre calling me a pussy because of you?â
âYeah, you kind of did.â
âYouâre making it up to me.â
I thread my fingers in hers and drag her towards my car. With the whole party scene, there are too many vehicles here. It takes precious minutes to find mine.
âWait.â Teal tugs on my hand.
âNo waiting. Ron Astor the Second needs his dose.â
She laughs, and the sound is so rare and feather-like I canât resist stopping and facing her.
âWhat?â I suppress my own smile. Seeing her face radiate is contagious.
âDonât tell me thatâs the name of your dick?â
âCould be. Why? You have a problem with it? Iâm open to suggestions, but he only answers to that name. In my defence, I named him when I was thirteen and straight out of a family history class.â
She bursts out laughing, hiding her mouth with the back of her hand.
âWhat is it, belle?â I feign offence. âSpeak now or forever hold your peace.â
A thump comes from our right, and both of us pause.
âThatâs what I asked you to wait for,â Teal whispers, her laughter vanishing. âThereâs a weird sound coming from that car.â
âBelle, this is posh London. We donât have serial killers amongst usâ¦â I trail off when the sound comes again, and this time, I recognise from which car it is coming.
A black Jeep.
Coleâs.
Oh, fucking fuck. What did he do now?
âWe should take a look,â Teal says.
âThatâs probably not a good idea.â
âWhat do you mean itâs not a good idea?â Tealâs cheeks redden, and this time itâs far different than embarrassment. Itâs anger â no, rage in its purest form.
âIt means we shouldnât get involved.â Coleâs shit is Coleâs shit. Besides, I might have an idea of whatâs going on in that car, and it has more to do with kink activity rather than sociopathic.
But he had to bring it here, seriously?
Thatâs a new level even for him.
âShouldnât get involved?â Tealâs voice rises. âSomeone might need help in there. Someone might be screaming at the top of their lungs, but no one is hearing them. They need a voice, but they get nothing. Itâs because of people like you that they get nothing, the people who say they shouldnât get involved, who say they shouldnât step up to help someone in need orââ
âHey.â I wrap both palms around her face, trying to cool her down.
Sheâs skipping over words and appears to be on the verge of a breakdown. Itâs one of the rare times Teal shows whatâs inside her, shows what she has hidden underneath the aloof persona and the âfuck the worldâ exterior.
âItâs going to be okay,â I murmur against her forehead. âYouâre going to be okay. Iâm here for you.â
A sob catches in her throat like when she was coming down from that nightmare. Her nails dig into my Elitesâ jacket as she draws in measured breaths, trying to compose herself and control her state.
âCan we take a look?â she murmurs against my chest.
âSure.â Fuck Cole. I would do anything for that pleading in her voice, especially with the way sheâs holding on to me.
Iâm about to head to the car when Cole strides out of the Meet Up. He watches us for a second, probably wondering why weâre near his car.
I glare at him from over Tealâs head. âThereâs a sound coming from over there, Captain.â
He must recognise the accusation in my tone.
âItâs my motherâs dog.â He smiles at us, appearing like a prim and proper gentleman. âI have to get it back to her.â
His motherâs dog? Come on, he couldâve come up with a better excuse.
Still, I go with it and grin at Teal. âSee? I told you itâs nothing.â
âDonât trap dogs,â she tells Cole. âThey donât like it.â
âThis particular one does.â His lips move into a sadistic smirk. Itâs so brief I wouldnât have noticed it if I werenât throwing metaphorical daggers at his face.
I pull out my keys and throw them in Tealâs hand. âWait for me in the car, belle. I need a word with Captain.â
She disappears around a tree in the carâs direction. The thump comes again, but Cole pretends as if it didnât happen as he runs his fingers over his book.
âYou needed a word with me?â he asks, as if this is an everyday occurrence.
âYour motherâs dog is throwing a fit.â
âHe canâ¦wait.â
âFunny, I donât remember your mum owning a dog.â
âItâs new. My pet.â
âFuck, Captain. Youâre sick.â
âAre we going down that road, Ronan? Because I have a few witnesses who might say the same about you.â
I flip him off then turn to leave. Theyâre not kids, and itâs none of my fucking business.
âDoes Aiden know?â I ask over my shoulder. Cole is still standing where I left him, watching me closely.
Like a good kid with serial killer tendencies, he never does anything when others are around.
Never.
Itâs his techniques that allow him to get away with murder â figuratively. If thereâs literal shit, I donât want to be involved.
âWhy should he?â he shoots back.
âI donât know, Captain, maybe because your decisions have no impact on the grown-upsâ decisions. If Jonathan King and your dear stepdad decide things will go otherwise, they will.â
He remains calm, but his book tilts a little, which means heâs gripping it hard.
âDonât kill anyone.â I grin. âI mean it. I donât want to be interviewed as the killerâs best friend. They will ask if I saw the signs, and then Iâll have to say I burnt your book. Do you see the pattern there?â
âNo.â
âNeither do I.â I wave without turning around. âDonât kill. Save that shit for your thirties.â
After I disappear from his vicinity, any thought of him vanishes.
Time for my Teal.
I meant it earlier â thereâll be a lot of sessions for Ron Astor the Second. Okay, fine. Maybe I shouldnât have named him in front of her, but I kind of lose control of my tongue when Iâm with her â in different ways.
My phone vibrates. Eduard. Fucking again.
Eduard: If you know something and youâre not telling me, I might be inclined to think you donât respect our deal, dear little nephew. Itâs very unfortunate.
Fuck him and his fake posh behaviour and all of his existence, basically.
There was a moment in time where his existence was the reason I continued mine. Mum used to read me books about a witch who cast a spell on a prince and made him lose his memory, and with that, he forgot all about the princess he loved.
I told her I wished I could find the witch. She frowned, and I realised Iâd said the wrong thing. It was a curse; I wasnât supposed to wish to erase my memories, so I told her it was because I wanted to find her over and over again.
Mum was my princess. She was the reason I wanted that curse, because I thought if I forgot, I wouldnât have those nightmares that made her stay up all night beside me.
I turn my phone off and climb into the driverâs seat, trying to regulate my breathing.
âSurprise.â Tealâs tentative voice wrenches my attention towards her.
Sheâs sitting in the passenger seat and has taken off the T-shirt dress. Sheâs now wearing the bunny outfit I keep in my wardrobe because I was plotting to have Kimberly wear it a long time ago.
The one-piece outfit moulds to her body, bringing attention to her cleavage, which is pushing against the material. Her thighs are bare, the thin strip of fabric glued to her pussy.
I always told the others I had this fantasy, and I did watch it on porn â donât judge â but now that itâs real and Teal is wearing it, something in my chest fucking snaps.
Itâs not a good snap.
My mood darkens and my heart beats so loud itâs the only thing I can hear in my ears.
âOh, wait. I forgot.â She reaches into her bag, brings out bunny ears, and places them on her head. âNow itâs complete.â
Now itâs complete.
Now, itâs fucking complete.
Her face flashes back and forth as if itâs a ghost. Terror like Iâve only felt once in my life plays in my head over and over like a distorted film.
Manic laughter, drunk people, dark, so fucking dark and alone.
So alone.
Mother.
Father.
Help me.
âR-Ronan?â
âRemove it.â
âW-What?â
I grab her by the arm and rip the thing off her.
Her yelp and my groans fill the space, but all I can hear is that small childâs quiet sobs.
Help.
Help me.