That weekend, my family and I met at a cafe in Virginia.
We sat in a booth near the exit. It was the quietest corner of the restaurant, which bustled with the Sunday brunch rush.
My father wore his favorite blue polo shirt, my mother wore her signature pearls, and my sister wore lethal heels and a mildly annoyed expression, the way they always did during our monthly meals.
It was like our family dinner had transplanted itself into a green leather booth instead of my parentsâ prized mahogany dining table.
The only differences were the sunny windows and the awkward silence blanketing the table after we ran out of small talk.
âSo.â My mother cleared her throat. âHowâs Maura doing?â
I blinked at her choice of topic, but I answered readily. âSheâs doing well. She has her garden and puzzles at Greenfield, so sheâs happy.â
My mother nodded. âGood.â
Another silence fell.
Weâd been dodging the elephant in the room all afternoon. At this rate, weâd be here until closing time.
I closed my hands around my mug and took courage from the warmth seeping into my palms.
âAbout what happened at the dinnerâ¦â Everyone visibly stiffened. âIâm sorry if I hurt your feelings, Mom,â I said softly. âThat wasnât my intention. But you have to understand why Iâve been paying for Mauraâs care. Sheâs always been there when I needed her. Now sheâs the one who needs me, and I canât leave her to fend for herself. She has no one else.â
âI do understand.â My mother gave a small smile when I startled in surprise. âIâve had time to think about it over the past few months. The truth is, Iâve always been a little jealous of your relationship with Maura. Itâs my own fault, of course. I was too busy with my career to spend much time with you girls. By the time I realized how much Iâd missed, you were all grown up. You didnât want to spend time with us anymore. We practically have to force you to come to our family dinners.â
âItâs not that I donât want to spend time with you. Itâsâ¦â My cheeks warmed. âItâs the accomplishments game.â
It sounded stupid when I said it out loud, but every time I thought about that âfun game,â anxiety crawled beneath my skin and ate away at my nerves.
âIt makes everything into a competition,â I said. âYou, Dad, and Natalia all have these high-powered jobs, and Iâmâ¦well, you know. I love fashion, and Iâm not ashamed of it. But every time we play that game, I feel like Iâm the biggest disappointment at the table.â
âStella.â My mother sounded pained. âYouâre not a disappointment. I admit, we donât always understand your choices, and yes, we wished youâd chosen a more financially stable career than fashion. But you could never disappoint us. Youâre our daughter.â
âWe want whatâs best for you,â my father added gruffly. âWe werenât trying to keep you from doing what you loved, Stella. We just didnât want you waking up one day realizing youâve made a mistake when itâs too late.â
âI know.â I didnât doubt that my parents wanted what was best for me. It was the way they went about it that was the problem. âBut Iâm not a child anymore. You have to let me make my own decisions and mistakes. If my fashion line takes off, great. If it doesnât, Iâve learned some important lessons and Iâll do better next time. I just know thatâs what I want to do. I canât go back to working for someone else.â
My parents exchanged glances while Natalia shifted next to me.
âI have a decent amount of money from some big brand deals I signed, and Iâ¦â I hesitated before I finished. âI completed my first collection. A local boutique agreed to stock it, so Iâm hoping thatâll bring in more money as well.â
I also planned to do an official launch online, but I wanted to test the waters first.
My motherâs eyes widened. âReally? Oh, Stella, thatâs amazing!â
âThank you,â I said shyly. I traced the handle of my mug with my thumb. âSo, youâre not mad that Iâm not looking for an office job?â
Another exchange of glances.
âObviously, youâre doing well with your partnerships, and the fashion line is off to a good start.â My father coughed. âThereâs no reason why you should get an office job if thatâs not what you want.
,â he said when a smile blossomed on my face. âIf you ever run into trouble, you need to tell us. No hiding it like you did the debacle.â
âI wonât,â I promised.
âGood. Now, whereâs that smart-mouthed boyfriend of yours?â he grumbled. âIt was disrespectful, the way he spoke to me in my own home, but I suppose he wasnât entirely wrong.â
My smile dimmed. âWe, umâ¦â I swallowed past the sudden lump in my throat. âWe broke up.â
Three pairs of surprised eyes turned to me.
Considering the way Christian and I had defended each other at the dinner, theyâd probably thought we would last longer than a few months.
So had I.
âIâm sorry,â my mother said sympathetically. âHow are you doing?â
I forced a smile. âIâll be okay.â
âYouâll find someone better.â My fatherâs tone turned brisk. âNever liked him. If you knew some of the rumorsââhe broke off when my mother elbowed him sharply in the ribsââBut I guess they donât matter now,â he finished with another grumble.
I switched topics, and the conversation lightened until my father went outside to take a call and my mom went to use the restroom.
Natalia had been noticeably quiet all afternoon, but she turned to me when they were out of earshot.
I stiffened, bracing myself for another critical or snarky comment.
Instead, she looked almost sheepish as she glanced at me. âI didnât want to bring it up again in front of Mom and Dad,â she said. âBut Iâm sorry for the way I outed you about I didnât mean to be malicious.â
âDidnât you?â
Her eyes widened before a flush stole over her cheeks. âMaybe a little,â she said quietly. âYou were right when you said everything feels like a competition.â
âIt doesnât have to be.â
âNo.â Natalia examined me with a curious expression. âYouâve changed. Youâreâ¦â
âBolder?â I said with a small smile.
Her smile matched mine. âYes.â
That was one of Christianâs greatest gifts to me. Not expensive jewelry or fancy trips, but the courage to speak up for myself.
My sister and I lapsed into silence again when our parents returned.
I felt strangely tired all of a sudden, but maybe that was the emotion draining me.
âWe have to leave for an event, but family dinner soon?â my mom asked hopefully. âThough perhaps we should skip the achievements portion and simply enjoy the meal.â
I let out a choked laugh. âThatâs probably a good idea.â
I breathed in her familiar perfume when she hugged me.
My family hugged all the time in public, but that was mostly for show. We had to play our part as the perfect family.
This time, it felt real.
Brock waited until my family left before he ventured over.
Heâd given up trying to melt into the shadows since my breakup with Christian. I wasnât sure whether it was on his bossâs orders or if he was more worried now that I was no longer living in Christianâs house.
Either way, I appreciated and resented it.
Appreciated it because I liked the sense of security.
Resented it because he reminded me of Christian, and every reminder was a knife through the heart.
âAre you ready to leave, or do you want to stay longer?â Brock asked. Maybe it was the lighting, but he looked several shades paler than when heâd entered. âWe canâ¦â
He swayed on his feet.
A sharp stab of concern pulled my brows together. âDo you need to sit down? You donât look so good.â
Actually, I didnât feel great either. My earlier lethargy intensified and tugged at my limbs and eyelids. Brockâs face swam before me until I blinked the blurriness away.
âYes, Iââhe gripped the edge of the table. âIââ his face turned ghostly white before flushing crimson. âStay here. Iâll be right back.â
He bolted toward the bathroom. The door slammed shut. A second later, I heard the faint but unmistakable sound of vomiting.
My own stomach twisted at the noise.
I hoped we hadnât gotten food poisoning, but something was clearly wrong.
My vision blurred again. This time, blinking didnât help.
I stood, hoping the change in altitude would clear my head, but an instant wave of dizziness forced me back into my seat.
Iâd only had tea and a pastry. Could you even food poisoning from tea and pastries?
Black dots danced in front of my eyes, and panic tightened my lungs.
I stumbled out of the booth toward the entrance.
Brock had said to stay and wait for him, but the noise around me had coalesced into a concrete weight in my chest. No matter how many deep breaths I took, I couldnât push it off.
I made it halfway to the door when something hit me. What if someone had drugged me and Brock and was for me to leave? It seemed far-fetched, but stranger things had happened.
I paused at the exit and tried to sort through my increasingly muddled thoughts.
If I stayed, I might suffocate. If I left, I could be playing right into a hypothetical attackerâs hands.
Was I being paranoid? It wouldnât hurt to sneak a quick breath of fresh air, right? I could stay right by theâ
Someone came up behind me close enough to touch, and I realized I was blocking the door.
âIâm sorry,â I mumbled. The words came out slurred. âIâll move out of your way.â
âDonât be sorry,â the figure said. âYou just made things a easier for me.â
Something cold and hard pressed against my back.
I was so out of it, my brain took several moments to register what it was.
My panic exploded into a trapped scream that never made it out of my throat.
I was so stunned about being right that I couldnât process what was happening. I felt like Iâd been dropped into the middle of an action thriller with no warning.
âDonât scream.â The gun pressed harder. âOr this will be very messy for everyone involved.â
How was he able to do this in public? Did no one notice what was happening?
But it was the lunch rush, and my body was shielding his, andâ¦
My thoughts jumbled further.
I didnât have the energy to sort through what was happening, nor did I have a choice.
I followed the figure outside and wouldâve tripped and fell had he not held me up.
The world was a kaleidoscopic haze of concrete and distant car horns.
Eventually, the sounds faded, and there was only the crunch of gravel beneath our feet.
âApologies in advance.â Now that we were somewhere quiet, the voice sounded clearer. More familiar. Iâd heard it before.
? âThis is going to hurt.â
I didnât get a chance to process his words before something hard hit me over the head and full darkness engulfed me.